When Pain Is The Only Comfort Left

Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
M/M
G
When Pain Is The Only Comfort Left
Characters
Harry Potter, Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter, Draco Malfoy, Harry Potter/Original Male Character(s)
Tags
Porn with Feelings Angst Suicidal Thoughts Porn With Plot Rough Sex Anal Sex Implied/Referenced Child Abuse Bad BDSM Etiquette Unhealthy Relationships Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms Dead Dove: Do Not Eat Rape/Non-con Elements Internalized Homophobia Homophobia Medical Inaccuracies Implied/Referenced Homophobia Abusive Dursley Family (Harry Potter) Orgasm Denial Underage Drinking Toxic Relationship Rough Oral Sex Plot Orgasm Control Graphic Description Endgame Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter Victim Blaming lots and lots of angst Retraumitization The system fails Harry Legal Inaccuracies Enemies to toxic fuck buddies to lovers No character bashing this is more about how the system fails trauma survivors than it is about character bashing Harry is just forced to deal with the consequences of a flawed system tbf Draco and harry dk what they’re doing and dk there is an etiquette
Summary
Harry is so consumed by the shame of how his body responded during his sexual assault that he can no longer bare the thought of his own pleasure and instead engages in unhealthy sex in which his only rule is that he’s not allowed to get off.Only, he never thought that fucking Draco Malfoy could lead to something more than just hate sex.
Note
I actually got this idea for a Netflix series, but I felt it was so good and that no one talks enough about how re-traumitizing it is when the system fails you after something traumatic like this, so I wanted to create a story that went into that a bit.I will say, that this will have explicit details of the rape as well as unhealthy sex as a chopping mechanism and so it can potentially be very triggering for some people. It’s definitely going to be a good mix of porn + plot so it’s something to consider before reading.

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