January 23 1972
At this point I’m actually upset with Sirius, I wrote to him once more since my last entry and he has yet to respond. I just can’t believe that he would so blatantly ignore me after he never explained why he didn’t come home for the winter holidays. I know that he is able to contact me via Narcissa so he is just bluntly ignoring me which is just mean.
I thought that he would at least make an effort to keep in touch with me. I know that he has all of his little friends that he must be busy with. I know that it was a lie when he had said that he would write to me every day that he was gone, but I thought that he would at least send me a letter once every other week or so. I mean I haven’t heard from him in over a month and I am just upset. I know that he has no reason to not contact me and he can so why hasn’t he. Has he so quickly forgotten about his younger brother?
Mother is still fuming about the whole not coming home for winter holidays thing and I’m worried about what will happen when Sirius comes back home for the summer holidays. I mean at this point she is just stewing in his sorting as well as his most recent display of disrespect and humiliating the family.
I wish that I was able to think about anything else. I don’t really have any other friends, well aside from Kreacher, and I just wish that Sirius would come back to me. I wish that I was able to make everything go back to how it used to be, I want it to be Sirius and I against mother again, rather than me sitting around trying to be non existence while he lives it up at hogwarts only to eventually come home and likely get cursed until he can barely move for his behavior over the past year.
-RAB