December 18 1971
Sirius is coming home tomorrow. I am super excited, it’s been months since I’ve seen him and I can’t wait until we get time to talk again. Especially because we have had to be relatively low contact because neither one of us knew how long Narcissa would allow us to communicate through her and also when we are never quite sure if she would tell her mother later on if she decides that she has had enough of us talking through her and mostly just using her.
It’s odd being so completely isolated for so long. The vast majority of the people that I have been allowed to socialize with are either striving to become my friend due to my family's high status or plotting to somehow get married into my family. I don’t really have any actual friends, Sirius and I have always been quite close, but I fear that he has become quite close with those new friends he has made and we won’t have the same sort of relationship that we have always had.
I suppose it was always inevitable that we were to grow apart. I don’t know that anyone has ever stayed that close with their siblings, but I had always hoped that we would never get to that point. I suppose at some point I will have to make my own friends, but I always felt as though that wouldn’t have to happen for a while. That was only really a thought that was plausible because I assumed that we would both end up in Slytherin and therefore be unable to make proper friends within our years because of the whole thing with people wanting to be close to our family due to our high status within the magical world.
Anyways I’m excited about Sirius coming home and being able to talk to him properly. I want to hear all about everything that has been happening to him at school. And although it may seem as though I am jealous of all of his friends, I’m not and I’m quite excited to hear all about what a person gets up to with real friends.
-RAB