I can’t
Pov. Sirius
Sirius woke up again. But this time it was actually morning.
Remus wasn’t lying next to him anymore which meant that he must have slept in, but that was fine it was Saturday.
Sirius sat up and blinked a few times to clear his vision. Peter and Remus weren’t even in their dorm. They probably went to get breakfast.
But James was there.
Finally.
He was sleeping deeply so Sirius guessed that he came back very late last night. He shook his head. The whole thing was just so weird. James always told him everything. It had to be something really bad that James wasn’t telling him.
He was clearly going out with somebody. But who could be that bad?
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Sirius was already halfway done with his breakfast as James finally showed up too.
He looked tired. And kind of sad.
It hurt Sirius to see him like this. He just wanted to hug him.
But he didn’t. He ignored James for the whole time. He just didn’t know what to say. But Sirius felt horrible for giving him the silent treatment.
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James had obviously tried to act normal the whole day but Sirius just knew him much too well. He could tell when something was up when nobody could.
But it was actually obvious this time. James didn’t act like well James. Sirius wasn’t able to describe how James had to act to act normal but that wasn’t it.
Everything they would cross the hallway James looked around like he was looking for someone. But Sirius couldn’t figure out who he was looking at.
At lunch he had looked to the slytherin table very often. That was concerning. When James‘ weird acting had to do something with the slytherins Sirius had to be really worried. He also saw his little brother looking over to them. Sirius though that he and James looked at each other but that was just hilarious when he thought about it.
Sirius really fought with himself to not just ask James and annoy him till he told him everything. But Remus had said that James should come to them if he needed help.
So Sirius didn’t say anything. He just watched James suffer in silence.
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So Sirius really didn’t want to say anything but he just couldn’t stop himself.
It was 2am and James had just gotten back to their dorm and he woke Sirius up.
Sirius slowly sat up in bed and looked around in the darkness. He could barely see James, just his shadow.
James noticed that Sirius was awake. Of course he did, he always did.
“Sirius? Did I wake you up? I’m so sorry,” he whispered trying not to wake the others.
“Yes James, you woke me,” Sirius hissed. His voice sounded meaner than he had wanted it to be but he still continued. “. You woke me every time you came home at midnight the last few days. James what’s going on? Who are you seeing that you can only see at night?”
“Merlin, I’m sorry. But I’m not seeing anyone. I’m just taking walks and then I forgot the time.”
“James,” Sirius sighed,”You don’t go on walks at 2am, no one does that. You’re not ready to make your relationship official I get it, but I’m your best friend. “
“I know and I’m sorry but I just can’t. “
“You will eventually have to you know. If you don’t want to tell me right now then that’s fine but I want an explanation in the next few upcoming days, okay?” Sirius told him.
“I’ll talk to them. Good night, Sirius.”
“Good night.”
Sirius was very pleased with himself after this conversation. James had to tell him now. And Sirius was sure that he would.