Did you miss me, sweetheart?
Regulus had eventually fallen asleep in Pandora’s arms. She was still there when he woke up.
“Good morning, Reggie.”
“Morning,” regulus mumbled back. The memories of last night came into his head. He immediately felt horrible. Why had he told Pandora? How could he be this stupid? She was going to hate him.
But did she really? She was still there, still with him. She had been here all night just for him. She also looked like she had been crying. It made him feel even worse .
“Reg. Are you okay?” She whispered.
Regulus didn’t know what she was expecting him to say. Of course he wasn’t. Maybe she wanted to give him a chance to explain the whole situation himself. Pandora wasn’t a person that forced you to talk about something. Regulus appreciated that. It was one of the many reasons he liked her. She could calm him down. She was never judging him and he knew that but he was still expecting her too. He deserved to be judged.
Every person that hated him had a good reason and he deserved all that hate.
But he still couldn’t bring himself to tell Pandora all that so he just said: “Don’t worry about me. I’m fine.”
Pandora sight. “Just remember that we can talk about anything. I’m here for you.”
Regulus swallowed. He didn’t answer her. He didn’t deserve her. He would never deserve her. Pandora was his friend but he felt bad about it. She should be friends with kind people. Not him!
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Regulus had no idea how he survived that school day. It had been horrific.
He hadn’t even tried to pay attention. He had been thinking about meeting James. He wasn’t even sure if they were going to meet tonight but he hoped so. He really did but he was so scared at the same time.
He didn’t want to break up with James. Maybe he didn’t have to. Not till the point where James would find out. That was fucking selfish but that’s just the way he was right?
Regulus just wanted a little bit more time.
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Regulus tock a deep breath before he stepped out into the cool air. James was already waiting for him. They were on top of the astronomy tower.
That was the place where they had meet up as often as possible at night.
Regulus swallowed as James smilies at him. Normally he would be happy to see him too but it was different this time. It was so so different
Regulus forced a little smile on his face. Then he walked over to James.
As soon as he reached him James pulled regulus into a big hug. Regulus practically melted into his arms.
Merlin, he had missed James so much.
Regulus buried his face into James’ neck and took a deep breath. James smelled so good.
It smelled so familiar. His arms felt like the only place he was save in.
“You really have missed me, haven’t you sweetheart!” James said. Regulus could practically feel the grin on his face.
“No I haven’t, potter. And don’t call me that ever again.”
Regulus didn’t mean it. He secretly loved it when James called him those names.
James laughed at this and it was the most beautiful sound that regulus knew. James couldn’t know that either. He would never shut up about it.
“How are you, Reggie?” James said softly while he ran his fingers through Regulus‘ hair.
“I’m fine,” regulus said. He hated lying to James but what else could he do? “How are you?”
“Aw, you care about me.”
“Shut it, potter. I have actual manners other than you. I’m just asking because you asked.”
“I don’t believe you. But for you to not worry: I feel absolutely awesome!”
That did help regulus’ worries but James didn’t need to know that.
The both of them ended up sitting next to each other on the edge of the astronomy tower. They didn’t talk much. They just sat there and regulus allowed James to hold him in his arms.
That was enough for them