Should i stay or should i go?

Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
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Should i stay or should i go?
Summary
James always thought that he was supposed to be with Lily Evans the girl he had found amazing since the beginning. Or maybe he was just stupid and had let his parents Relationship interfere,but how could he not, it was all he ever knew until Remus came out to him in 5th year while it was just the two of them. James didn’t really understand to begin with, and he kept asking what it meant. Remus was a wreck apparently it was a big deal to like guys. James hadn’t really felt love or attractiveness for anyone yet. So naturally he didn’t really know how to grasp it. They grew a closer bond after this, with Remus trying to educate James on what love was and how to identify and James trying his best to understand it.
Note
This Fic was formerly named This side of paradise.The song from the title is Should I start or should I go by The ClashAll the Poems Are written by me unless stated otherwise.Please be aware that this is a very graphic Fanfic.Please read or reread the tags and make sure you want to read I am Serous (no pun intended).Please leave kudos if you like y work It’ll be very appreciated :)I might quote Dead poets Society so be aware of potential spoilers. James, Remus, Sirius, Peter, Benji are 6th years, Caradoc 7th year and Regulus, Evan and Barty are 5th years. James is Quidditch captain for Gryffindor.“Carpe Diem” – Dead Poets SocietyFanfic Playlist:- Should I stay or should I go- This side of paradise – Coyote theory- Snow – Ricky Montgomery- Partners in crime - FINNEAS- This is gospel – Panic! At the disco- Only a lifetime – FINNEAS- Vampire – Olivia Rodrigo- She moves in her own way – The Kooks- The middle – Jimmy eat world.- Everybody wants to rule the world – tears for fears.- Stairway to heaven – led zeppelin.- Teenage Kicks - The undertones- Lola – The KinksThanks for clicking on my fic. I write all my stuff while mostly traveling or late at night so it may not be all that well written it should also be mentioned that English is not my native language but rather one, I’ve learned, but public school can only do so much, so if my grammar is shit that’s probably why.Hugs Carly_08_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
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I PROMISE I ONLY WATCHED A LITTLE!

 

Chapter 1: I PROMISE I ONLY WATCHED A LITTLE!

 

 

“My mind is weird, it changes like the tides, like the moons fazes and the smell in Sicilian Mountain villages in the summer. It Expands like an elastic, like a song and like the universe. It changes and expands all the time.”

 

And That’s when It happened. James was walking from the quidditch changing rooms When he heard the moan. Just as soon as it had escaped the persons mouth was James pants tightening. “Fuck” A different voice from the changing room said, “you keep going, now” A third voice said. James body stopped working, what was going on he wasn’t one to spy on other people shagging, but he couldn’t help himself but to silently open the door to the changing room a little, just enough to realize the mistake he made. On the other side of the door was Barty Crouch jr sitting on one bench while watching Evan Rosier get a blowjob by no other than Regulus “Fucking” Black. His best friend’s younger brother.

 

James’s stomach dropped, he wanted to get down on his knees in front of Barty while Regulus kept blowing Evan. He also wanted to just sit down besides Barty and enjoy the view of two incredibly handsome boys in front of him, but he did neither. He watches them a little longer from behind the door and quickly leaves as soon as Evan had come down Regulus throat, while moaning.

 

James’s mind was racing, how could he be thinking such things as these? Should he tell Sirius? He should probably tell Remus. But did he really want to do that? No, he did not but he had to, he had got to get Remus help at figuring this out. Or maybe he should continue sneaking in and watch them with his invisibility coat. Just for a while at least no real harm done.

 

James kept on thinking as the evening came and at about 6pm he walked with peter down to the great hall for dinner. On the way there he kept thinking what if he gets caught one day will they be mad at him? Hex him even? Or ask him to join them? He wouldn’t mind the latter, not one bit.

 

 

Sirius and Remus were already sitting at the Gryffindor table talking to Benji and Caradoc probably talking about weed or some new plant they were going to try smoking later behind the greenhouse. Remus had picked up smoking after the summer holiday in their 4th year some party he had gone to with his muggle friends, Remus quickly got talking with the 5th. Year, at the time, Caradoc who was in an official relationship with one of the Ravenclaw chasers Benji Fenwick. James didn’t know Caradoc very well only as a supplier for their parties. And Benji from quidditch.

 

 Just as James were sitting down at the table came the three boys, he had been spying on earlier, the ones who was plaguing his mind, and sat down at the Slytherin table, but not long after they had sat down was Barty pointing at James, then leaning down to regulus and whispered something in his ear. For the rest of dinner, they kept starring and pointing and whispering while making sure James could see them. It was driving him insane, He felt tense with the three pairs of eyes on him constantly, they knew he was there earlier, but how none of them had batted him an eye, why now?

After dinner he told peter that he had to go to the quidditch changing rooms to study some techniques and would prefer to be alone, he conveniently said he was going to be at the changing rooms by himself when Evan was walking by. He saw a small smile creeping onto Evans face.

 

James was sitting on one of the benches with papers scattered all over the floor different maneuvers and ideas on all of them. James could hear the door creep open behind him and three breaths, that was probably how they knew he was there but how could they know it was him?

 

“Oi Potter what are you doing here all by yourself?” Barty said calling James back to reality. ‘He turned around faster than you could say Fuck. James kept starring at him thinking of something to say, “Waiting for you?” It came out more like a question than an answer. Regulus and Evan came through the door just as it had escaped his mouth.

 

“Well, well, well, are you here all by yourself” Evan snickered Jumping over one of the benches separating them. Barty was still standing by the door leaning against the wall besides it. “What do you want?” James asked while trying to calm himself after Evans sexy dark voice. Barty continued enjoying James squirms “we wanted to know what you were doing earlier today, specifically right after quidditch practice was over.” Regulus hadn’t said much but had closed the distance between them standing right behind James “and don’t you dare lie to us, we wouldn’t want to punish you more than necessary right.” James shuddered, thinking about what he means punish, was it sexual or more like they would set his ass on fire. James decided to tell the truth but not the one they were fishing for, “well I showered and then walked up to my dorm where I played some chess with peter” James was happy with himself but could tell that Barty and Evan wasn’t and feel that regulus was not happy with that answer as Regulus took him by the collar and shoved him so he was standing up looking Regulus in the eyes

 

“Wow he’s a different species!” Barty deadpanned. Regulus shoved him against the wall “Auch,” James muttered his stomach was pressed against the cold tile wall as regulus pinned him with his body against it. “One more chance, don’t fuck up this time” Regulus threatened “FINE, fine, I may have heard a moan and wanted to investigate just a little, and then I saw you guys, but I promise I only watched a little it wasn’t as if I was full on watching you even.” James admitted all though he was lying he had watched all of it seen how Evan held Regulus head while Regulus was choking on his dick, and seen Barty walk over and start fucking Reg from behind while Regulus still was sucking on Evan’s dick after he had drunk up all the cum from him how Barty and Evan held him in place whiled the continued to fuck him. How Barty had told regulus he couldn’t cum even though James could see how much It had hurt Regulus physically to do that.

 

“Uhuh, so you didn’t really get to enjoy it too much huh? Regulus kept pressing into James body while saying this. Barty walked over and started to dry hump Regulus while having each hand on either side of James head. “We better give you the full show then, right?” Evan said while walking out of the room. Regulus and Barty kept humping each other and him until Evan came back with a bunch of ropes.

 

Barty let go of him and regulus shoved him over to a bench with a clear view of the showers and a pole behind it. Barty sat down on his lap and took James’s shirt off of him while James did little to nothing to stop him. Evan started tying his hands behind his back jus far enough that he wouldn’t be able to touch himself. Barty fell down on his knees in front of him and started unbuckling his belt and sliding his trousers down.

 

Barty smiled at the already hard dick and the wet spot on James light blue boxers, he caressed his stomach and chest praising him for being fit before sliding his hands down the rims of James boxers and pulled them off of him Evan started tying his legs to the bench, soon James wasn’t able to neither touch himself or move Regulus started undressing and soon Evan joined him starting to make out with him roughly Barty sat besides James once in a while touching near James dick but never giving him the pleasure of a hand job.

 

Regulus and Evan slowly moved into the showers and started undressing until they were both just as naked as James. Barty had undressed too besides James who had tears starting to form in the corners of his eyes from the stimulation. “Hey, your safe word is Amber Jack, okay?” Barty was whispering all James could do was nod “No Babe you got to tell me the safe word I need to know you can say it.” Barty was looking a bit concerned and James did his absolute best at saying it as clear as possible “Ah Amber Jah Jack” Barty relaxed a little Before asking James all sorts of questions about what he could do to him. And James answering as best as he could while still looking at Reg and Evan snog.

 

Regulus then got down on all four and Evan moved up behind him first preparing Regulus for his cock and then pushing in. With each thrust a moan could be heard. Regulus was then shoved up by the hair by Evan and over a little island dividing the showers from the rest of the room. Regulus gasped and moaned as Evan kept his hand in Regulus’ hair while fucking him hard and James suspected Regulus was pushing back against Evan cause how could anyone fuck someone that hard. Evan kept thrusting in and out of Regulus and each time a loud moan was heard coming out of his mouth.

 

James then felt the ropes being loosened Barty then commanded James to bend over the bench and as soon as James had obliged was Barty tying him down again this time, he was able to hump against the bench though but that was not needed, cause not 3 second later had Barty begun preparing James. First one finger then two, then he curled and uncurled his fingers expanding James’s hole.

 

 

 

5 minutes and a whole lot of love bites later was Barty entering James with his dick.  James had never felt anything like it, he loved it. And when Barty bit his neck and thrusted into him at the same time while he felt someone massaging his legs and someone else touch his dick, he wasn’t sure hecould handle it. but it was stopped as soon as he had cummed Barty pulled all the way-out Evan stopped massaging him and Regulus stopped touching his dick.

 

“Who gave you permission to cum, babe?” Barty asked with a stern voice his face was all cold and James hated it. “no one” James admitted“ oh come on you hadn’t told him wasn’t allowed” Regulus said, Evan then said: “no but he damn well saw you couldn’t earlier without permission.” James wanted them to stop fighting and to be mad at him, he knew he was not allowed, and he knew what Barty and Evan was going to do to him now and probably also to regulus for defending him.

 

Barty untied the ropes and told James to get dressed. Evan and Regulus dried off before changing into the clothes they came in Barty had Changed and told James to follow him. And of course  he did.

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