The Gaunt Legacy - Prequel

POV Ominis

I searched for Sebastian for hours. I was worried about him after the way he stormed off. This lesson was hard on everyone, but I knew it would be especially hard on him. I looked into the village as best as I could but there was no sign of him. So I decided to head back to the dorms and wait for him there. As soon as I entered the living room, I crashed on the couch not even wondering if anyone was in the room, yet alone if anyone was on the sofa. All these emotions exausted me. I put down my wand for a moment trying to disconnect from the rest of the world as I closed my eyes. I let out a sigh and I just sat there slumped on the sofa until I heard a noise.
I quickly grabbed my wand, holding it up as I tried to identify the person’s sent. Ginger.
- « Oh, it’s you » I said.
- « Sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you » said Valerian.
- « No, that’s alright. I was just … » I paused.
- « Trying to recover from today’s lesson ? Yeah. That was … intense. » she said drained.
- « Have you seen, … I mean, … sensed Sebastian by any chance ? » I asked.
- « I’m afraid not» she replied quietly. « Is he ok ? He seemed quite upset, I mean we all were, but I thought I heard him cry before he left. » she added.
- « Well, let’s just say that today was a reminder of painful memories for him » I told her.
- «  Oh, I’m sorry to hear it » she confessed. « Is there anything I can do to help ? »
- «  Unless you can bring back the dead, cure a curse, or even go back in time, then I don’t think so » I said with a sad smile.
- « Seems rather gloomy. Would you like to talk about it ? » she asked.
- « ... » I hesitated. I enjoyed talking to her. But it was not my past and not my secret to tell. « Thanks, but it’s not up to me to tell you about Sebastian’s life. You should ask him. Talking to you could actualy help him. »
Why did I just say that ? I might aswell just throw her into Sebastian’s arms !
No girl can resist Sebastian’s emotional side.
- « Talking to me ? I was under the impression that you’re the one he’s trying to speak to. Not me. » she replied surprised.
- « What makes you say that ? »
- « Well, everytime he’s talking to you, it’s like he’s trying to win you over. Like he’s not worthy of you somehow. I can hear it in his voice. It’s like he’s holding back.» she explained.
Merlin’s beard she’s so smart.
- « Has anyone ever told you how clever you are ? I mean … You seem to understand him better than I do. » I smirked.
- « Well thank you. If I may be so blunt, you seem to also be holding back. Did something happen between you two ? I thought you were best friends. »
I said nothing for a short while.
- « ... » « Something did happened about 2 years ago, when we were at Hogwarts. Something terrible. And then he left. I had a few letters at first, then he stopped writing to me completely. I continued sending him letters, but the owl kept coming back with my letters. I understand why he had to leave, but he cast me aside. I can’t help but think that I shouldn’t have just given up on him, I should have gone searching for him. And I feel responsible for what happened to him, for not stopping him from …. »   I said painfuly and I stopped before I said too much.
There was a short silence.
- « Sounds to me like you are a good friend Ominis. You kept writing to him, that’s not giving up. And you understood that he needed some space regardless of your own feelings. And today you are both here. The « Sebminis »  team ! » she amused.
I laughed.
- « Besides, it’s not too late, he’s there, isn’t he ? And he’s clearly trying to make amends. I remember the way he described you the other day. It was a delightful description. He looks up to you. » she said graciously.
I took a short moment to think. She was right of course. Her words went straight to my heart. Maybe it wasn’t too late after all.
She was so understanding, gentle, compassionate.
- «  Thank you for your kind words … You’re very … I mean … You’re so … You’re just ... » I was so nervous and shy around her that my mind was all over the place. Everytime I was near her, I sounded like an idiot.
- « I’m so what ? » she teased. I knew she had noticed how shy I was around her.
I was panicking. How was I going to finish my sentence ?!!
- « Super ».
With all the words that could be used, I had to go for super. How pitiful.
She laughed.
- « Super hey ? No one’s ever told me that before ! » she said as she smiled.
I am such a lost cause with girls. Now she thinks I’m an idiot. Great.
- « That’s not what I meant … » I tried to cover up my stupidity.
- « That’s ok, I think you’re very sweet. You’re different. I like different. »
Now there was no way I could hold it together. She thought I was sweet ? Different ? She likes different ? My heart was beating so fast, and I could feel my cheeks burning, and that sensation in my stomach was coming back. Thank god she was blind or she would see me blush. I started panting heavily.
- « Are you alright ? » she asked innocently.
She clearly had no idea the effect she had on me. I had to clear my throat before I spoke.
- «  Yes … Absolutely … Everything’s fine ! » I gulped.
I had to calm myself, quick, I had to think about something else.
- «  So, how was your day ? » I said as it was the first thing that crossed my mind. And again, the reward for the best idiot goes to me. Why would I even ask that when I know what an awful day it was !
- « Oh, well, as well as yours I guess. I took me a while to calm my nerves. » she said troubled.
I could hear in her voice that the day has also been a nightmare for her.
And just like that I calmed down because I wanted to be there for her like she just was for me.
- «  I remember you saying your blindness was caused by dark magic. Would you like to talk about it ? » I asked as I felt my nerves ease.
- « Well, I don’t want to bore you with my stories when you have a lot on your mind ». She replied.
- « You could never bore me. And if you’d be willing to tell me, I’d like to hear your story. » I said trying to be understanding and comforting.
There was a moment of silence.
- «  It happened in my village. I was heading to the library to borrow a new book to read. I loved reading back then. I remember it was dawn. I heard footsteps behind me. So I turned around to see who it might be. But I was hit by a spell. I can’t recall which one. I remember hearing 2 men’s voice. They were laughing. I was trying to stand up, but they said I should remain on the floor because that’s where mudblood belonged. I was trying to grab my wand but one on the men crushed his foot on my hand and took it. Then they thought it would be funny to see how long I would scream for if they inflicted the crusiato curse. And so they did. It felt so painful and as if it had lasted for hours. I remember their voices so vividly. One was formal, authoritative, with a deep voice, the other was frank and adenoidal. »
She paused for a moment. Her voice was broken. I could feel anger rising through me. It sounded a lot like something my family would do. Especially my brother. Then she continued.
«  When they stopped for a moment, I told them to go to hell. One of them whispered in my ear saying that I was already in hell, that he’d make sure of it. The other man thought I was rude, so he thought I should be punished. He was about to cast the cruciato curse again. But the other man said I should be put to good use before killing me. They used the impero curse on me, asked me to steal a ring from a woman’s house they seemed to know. And of course I had to. So I entered quietly. I went up to the bedroom to where they said it was. I opened the box. It was a strange looking box. I remember there was an inscription in latin. I think it was a warning. But I had no choice regardless and I took the ring. But when I held the ring, I could feel a sharp pain take over my body. It felt dark, painful. At that moment I remember seeing my veins turning black. I felt my blood pulsing painfuly, and it quiclky got to my head and I had to lay down for a moment, waiting for the pain to go away. When I had recovered enough to walk, I gave it to him. He said I was a good pet. The other man wanted to kill me, but the formal guy said that I was cursed and that it would be much more fun to let me suffer rather than kill me. So they left me there. »
I was fuming. So typical of pure bloods ! But something didn’t add up.
- « You were cursed you said. What were the concequences of this curse ? » I asked her still feeling pissed.
- « The curse that made me lose my eye sight. Gradualy, after a few months, my vision was diminushing. At first, I needed glasses, then later I needed thicker glasses, then the thickest of glasses couldn’t help me anymore, that’s when I knew what the concequence of the curse was. And I knew I was going to be blind by that point. Then not long after, everything went dark. It’s only later that I realised that it was the ring that cursed me. Not them. There was a very powerful magic protecting it. I remembered the words in latin from the box, and I had it translated.
If the ring you desire, then a sacrifice I require. 3 is what I desire and death shall be no more .
These men offered me as their sacrifice to the ring. »
I could hear in her voice that she was upset. And I heard her sniffing. And at that moment, all that rage I had felt inside of me was blown away. And instead I felt my heart shatter to her weaping. I didn’t know what to say, I was only scared I would srew up again, and get all confused in my words. So I decided to put down my wand, raise my arms and reach for her, I quickly touched her shoulder. And I gently moved up my right hand behind her neck enjoying every inches of her soft skin, and my left hand behind her back between her shoulders, and I gently pulled her towards my chest. And when we were finally touching, she put her arms around me. As soon as she did, I felt a jolt down my spine, and my entire body quivered. I could finaly touch her. I could feel her beautiful long hair caressing my arm. Her head was resting right under my chin and I could smell her delighful ginger sent. I realised it was her hair that smelt that way. I gently rested my cheek above it as I tightened my grip around her.
I held her so tightly, almost burying her inside of me, never wanting to let her go. I closed my eyes to devour her sent, her touch, and everything that she made me feel. And the thought of her being so close to me made me feel dizzy, as my heart picked up the pace. I felt I was losing my mind and suddenly I could feel that burning desire rousing in my pants. And that’s when I realised how dangerous it was to be so close to her. Because at that moment, if I didn’t pull away now, Merlin knows what could happen. I wanted to just plonge my lips onto hers and devore her never stopping. And that thought just exited me even more and I could feel my arousal growing impatiently.
Tears were no longer running down her cheeks. She loosened her grip around me, but not letting me go entierly. I could feel her head moving so she could free herself from my cheek resting on her head, she then turned her head upwards. She was now looking at me. I could feel it. And I moved my head downwards to try and aline my head with hers and to do so I had to move up my hand that was resting behind her neck so that my thumb could touch her jaws caressing them along the way which allowed me to make sure that we were aligned. And we were now looking at eachother, which when you think about it was ridiculous because we couldn’t even see eachother. But I could just imagine her blue eyes looking at me, her gorgeous long blond hair behind her shoulders, my thumbs so close to caressing her freckled cheeks. As I lowered myself to get closer to her, I was now only inches from her as I could feel her gentle breath on my skin.
Deep down I knew the right thing to do was stop myself from moving any closer, but it couldn't be helped, like bigger forced were at work. I had no control over my body. Then suddenly we heard voices. They were Edmund’s and Cassandra’s. We immediantly released our touch on one another and sat back leaving space between us. Everything happened so fast. I could feel my cheeks blushing in embarassement, hoping that no one saw us. Edmund and Cassandra sat with us on the opposite sofa.
- « So guys, what are you up to ? » asked Cassandra.
At these words, I panicked. Because I didn’t want them to know that Valerian and I were about to… be so close !
- « Oh … euh …, well ... » I said bashfully.
- « We were disscussing today’s lesson, and how … frightful it was » she added quickly.
Thank Merlin for that.
- « Yeah, it was intense. But the professor’s right. If we can’t watch someone suffer or die, then how can we be aurors ? Because it will happen ». she explained.
- « Well, I won’t let it happen to you » exclaimed Edmund to Cassandra.
- « We’ll have eachother’s backs, always » she grinned.
There was an akward silence, but I could hear something. A very discrete sound. Like the sound of smacking caused by an intake of air through lips. Oh ! they were kissing.
- « I didn’t realise you two were so well … aquainted » I said with a smile.
- « How did you know ? » asked Edmund.
- « Well I’m blind, not deaf. I have a very sharp hearing » I said.
- « Good to know » replied Edmund laughing.
- «  What’s going on ? » asked Valerian.
I have been blind my entire life, but for Valerian, she’s been blind for only a few years, I guess her hearing isn’t as sharp as mine.
- « Oh, not much, just Cassandra and Edmund making out right in front of us thinking they could get away with it. » I said amused.
- « What ? Really ? I didn’t realise you two were so close ! » Valerian exclaimed.
- « We went to school together for years. And after him beggin and beggin to court me, I finally let him » Cassandra said cheerfuly, teasing Edmund.
- « Funny, that’s not how I remember it ! I remember a lovely stubborn girl that wouldn’t let me even give her flowers ! » Edmund chuckled.
- «  Well, I couldn’t make it too easy for you » Cassandra remarked.
I could hear Valerian laugh. It was so feminine, exquisit. At that moment I envied Cassandra and Edmund. The way he could just kiss her whenever he wanted to. He could tell her anyday how much he loved her.
It was hard for me to just sit there and listen to my classmates as my member was still throbbing from being so close to Valerian earlier. And it was demanding for attention. And the more I was trying to ignore it, the more urging it became. I couldn’t just stay there, not in that condition. So I excused myself, telling them I was tired. I went up to my room. And I sat down on my bed. I needed to calm down. So I tried to think of anything really, anything but her. But the more I tried, the more I was thinking about Valerian. I could still feel her sent on my clothes, and it was intoxicating. My groin was in agony now. I wasn’t quite sure what to do at that moment. Because most boys my age or younger were accustomed to this feeling , to masurbate. I know they looked at magazine’s of women in their underwear and would relieve themselves that way. They were always bragging about it in the slytherin common rooms. But I was blind. Things were different for me. The only way to pleasure myself would be through my other senses. And I had never experienced that craving before. I had never desired anyone before. I always thought I wasn’t good enough for any girl, why would they want a blind boyfriend who can’t tell them how beautiful they look ? They believe they had to accomodate their way of life for me even if I was in truth independant. There awould be a few ajustments to be made of course, such as leaving every item in the right place. So it puts off most women. But with Valerien, things could be different, she was also blind. And for the first time ever, I don’t feel less than someone else. I don’t feel like I’m a burden. I wondered if she felt the same way ? Did she feel like she was a burden to her entourage ? I knew that she would never be a burden to me. I would always cherrish her, tell her every single day how stunning she is, how exquisite her soft skin is, how I adore her ginger sent. And the thought of her beauty made me gasp. I could feel my body tense, begging me to act. So I lowered my hands to unfasten my belt and to unbutton my trousers, lowering them to my knees uneasy. I could feel under the fabric of my pants how much I wanted this, how much I was longing for this. I felt embarassed at that point, thinking that I shouldn’t be doing this, it was not the gentleman way. But it was yearning for her and I felt powerless, subject to my desires. So I brought my pants down, letting my intimate member free. It was so hard and was almost pointing to the ceiling. I could feel myself panting in anticipation. As I was feeling my manhood, in order to picture it in my mind , I wondered how it would feel to be inside Valerian. I was imagining her laid on my bed, stripped of her clothing and her garnements. I would tell her how alluring she was, how much I wanted her, how much I needed her. And I would ask for her permission to have her completely, and she would nod in aproval. I would place myself between her legs, lowering my body against hers gently. I would position myself and I could just imagin entering her slowly, enjoying it every inch of the way as she would cry out my name until I was fully inside her. And at that thought I let out a powerful moan. I felt the need to put both my hands on my member at that same moment. I grabbed it tightly as my torment only increased, needing for more. Then I was imagining touching her beautiful soft skin, kissing her down her neck, one hand holding the back of her nape remembering the feeling of it, the other hand holding the headbord of the bed. And I would start thrusting into her gently and I could hear her moans which only exited me more. At that same moment, I started moving my hand up and down againt my shaft, and it was pure bliss. I moved my hand slowly, imagining repeating these same movements inside Valerian. But I needed more, it still wasn’t enough. I wanted her to feel me deep inside of her. So I would begin thrusting into her desperately, as our skin would rub against eachother, my chest pressing against her breasts. Both of us would be sweating like nothing before. Meanwhile I increased the pace of my hand movements causing my head to lean back in ecstacy. I could hear my heavy breathing, and that need, that ferocious hunger for more. It still wasn’t enough. I needed … I needed that release. And I imagined her crying out my name, beggin me to never stop as her eyes were closed embracing all of me inside her. But I couldn’t hold it for much longer. So I would tighten the grip around Valerian’s delighful neck to hold her better so she would feel me more intensivly and my other hand still on the headbord, allowing me to pull myself even deeper inside her and more roughly. I would be merciless, and the little self control I had left was gone as I accelerated. I would feel Valerian’s climax approching, and when it did, I would feel her whole body tense and shaking as she would pull me even deeper towards her with her arms around me. And that was enough to push me over the edge. Imagining her deep moans, calling my name. It was all too much. And I could feel something warm making it’s way through my shaft, desperately trying to come out. That feeling was thrilling. And then I could feel my entire body quiver as I would burst inside of her, reaching my climax as I cried her name. And I could feel something warm running through my fingers.
As I slowed my movements, I felt my hands soaked with my own seeds. I let myself drop onto my bed, still beathing heavily and feeling dazzed. I understood now why boys masturbated a lot. It was so … succulent.
It took me a while to calm myself. I then cleaned myself up before going down for diner. Hopefully I’ll see Sebastian there.