Chapter 5
A week later…
Sirius couldn’t sleep and yet it was also like he wasn’t even tired which was weird, with how he had almost never slept since ‘the prank’. His friends were still ignoring him, even lily who had tried to talk to him in the beginning had stopped like he wanted but maybe she just gave up when he didn’t want to talk to anyone.
He knew he had to eat something soon if he didn’t want to faint in the middle of class like he had almost done ones a couple days ago. He knew he had to eat but the thought of eating anything was making him want to vomit but, in the end, he went to the kitchen and even there he was ignored except for one elf that kept staring at him. That’s when he started to think about what he would be looking like when he hadn’t showered or tried brushing his hair.
He decided to take something small so that the elf’s wouldn’t hate him for not asking first but with how none of them even spared him a glance he didn’t think it would be one of his problems. He ended up trying to take some bread, but his hands wouldn’t work or was it the bread? He didn’t know but he thought the elf that had looked at him maybe did because it came up to him with something that looked like what he tried to take but the elf looked at him with something like pity, no not pity but something like it knows something he should but doesn’t.
He doesn’t think to much about it but he takes the bread and walkes wherever his legs take him to and he’s too tired to think about what could happen if his legs decide to take him to his ‘friends’ because what could he do other than to apologise and get hurt more.
Maybe he would rather have them curse him deadly like his mother because his mother may hurt him, but she always forgives him after, as long as he doesn’t do it again, she’s only fair, he just couldn’t stop making the mistakes.
In the end he walks past his friends without even one of them sparing a glans in his direction or no that’s not right someone sees him, someone that he can’t even remember having a conversation with and yet it’s like pandora sees a fucking ghost when she lay her eyes on him. He can’t say he’s surprised that even she knows what happened because James and regulus was together, but he did se how they had become distant with each other so maybe something happened, but he didn’t know, and he was to much of a coward to ask. A fucking Gryffindor and yet he couldn’t even talk to his brother by blood and even less his chosen brother. How pathetic can he get.