Chapter 6
Sirius didn’t know how he was still standing with how little he had eaten in the last days (it was basically nothing) and yet nobody said anything, nobody looked at him, only the kitchen elf and pandora and it was like they both had this look of understanding about something he should know about but still didn’t.
He thought about trying to talk with Pandora, but she got this glazed look when he walked towards her and then everybody else in the room started to make sure she was okay but went by him without a word and after that he decided to stay away from her since he was obviously doing something to her without him knowing and he didn’t want to hurt her. Even if he didn’t know if it even hurt her but anyway.
He didn’t know that when he decided to let everyone be without him and just left them alone would end up with him just sitting in the astronomytower dangling his feet over the edge and mumbling a lullaby that he used to sing for regulus when they where kids, god he wished they could just go back to being kids again but they never would and that’s something he will have to live with.
While Sirius was lost in his head, he didn’t hear the light steps that had come up the tower, and he didn’t see the girt that started to talk to him. Why is she talking to me. Why does she sound so familiar.
He didn’t think anyone would want to talk to him but here she was and yet what she said made no sense for him.
‘You have to wake up soon Sirius you can’t stay in your dream any longer’
He wasn’t in a dream, was he. Was that why he didn’t feel right. Had everything been a dream. What was real and what did he make up. Did the prank even happen. Did moony still love him or did he really hatehim forever.
Everything was starting to feel like to much, so what if he was dreaming, it still felt very real for him and maybe that’s everything he needed to know to not want to wake up. Maybe if he could just stay then he would never have to find out he would never have to know about the hurt he may or may not have caused.
Then he wouldn’t have to look at his friend trying to figure out if what he thought he did really happen and what if they couldn’t even look at him.
In the end he didn’t have a choice as he could feel himself waking up now that he knew he was sleeping, and he couldn’t stay even if that was his biggest dream.