Promises that break you right back: I don't want to be too much for you, harry potter - j. k. rowling fanfic

3_dys_forMJ

Characters

Regulus Black/James Potter, Regulus Black, Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, Sirius Black, James Potter, Marlene McKinnon/Dorcas Meadowes, Lily Evans Potter/Severus Snape, Barty Crouch Jr./Evan Rosier, Original Black Family Characters (Harry Potter), Peter Pettigrew & Original Female Character(s)

Tags

Suicidal Thoughts Sibling Bonding Implied/Referenced Child Abuse Dissociative Identity Disorder Marauders Era (Harry Potter) Regulus Black-centric Bipolar Disorder Trans Regulus Black Chaotic Barty Crouch Jr. Asexual Character Therapy Pets Twins Parent-Child Relationship Peter Pettigrew is a Marauder Regulus Black Has an Eating Disorder Tattoos Singer Sirius Black POV Sirius Black Sirius Black Tries to Be a Good Sibling Pandora Lovegood and Evan Rosier are Siblings Ice Hockey Player James Potter Sirius Black Has BPD | Borderline Personality Disorder Title from a Mitski Song Autistic Regulus Black Figure Skater Regulus Black Remus Lupin is Not a Werewolf Vegetarians & Vegans James Potter is a Taylor Swift Fan

Summary

my pinterest fic visuels = https://pin.it/2C21LriRegulus didn't know who he was ? It wasn't a question before "Sirius littel brother". But when Sirius left to love freely. That question was answered for Regulus.On his forehead was stamped : the heir of the Noble House of Black.The one of them that will never love freely.Because one out of two, one can fail, let's one be gay, one out of two "it can happened"But not two out of two. "that can't happend"This is the unspoken rule Regulus live by... one of them must stay. That is the only solution it seems, but what if one more was added to the equation ? a girl. Sirius and Regulus little sisterRegina Black.Just as messed up as the black brother.two turn into three. And the story begins again.

Note

jegulus setting :It starts in 4 years ! Mister James has dyslexia and his grades dropped to a point where his parents are concerned. To fix his academic situation he must remain in 4 years, without Sirius, Remus and Peter.As if it wasn’t enough ! Professor Mcgongal assigned him a tutor. A slytherin tutor. none other than Regulus Arcturus Black. James has no idea why Sirius’s little brother, the same boy that hated him from day one, would possibly accept to tutor his best friend's brother.Regulus refused to be James Potter's tutor ! But no argument could stand a chance when Professor Mcgonagal, head of Gryffondor put on the table Regulus Black little secret :Mister Black ? I believe the sorting hat…sorted you in the hybrid house of Slytherin-d'or, not Slytherin. But I see no red on your tie, Why is that ?”I can’t be in Griffon d’or. “Sirius must never know”Ho I see, pregudices goes both ways, it's sad to hear. Listen, here is what is going to happen : you will tutor James Potter. And I will keep your secret just between us. And after some time maybe you're view on Griffon d’or may evolve in a more positive light ” regulus is translot’s of mental health talk, queer utopia too.POVS : regina, regulus, sirius & maybe more not sure yet.every opening of chapters in therapy session with Pandora and Evans mom as the thrapist.PS : the only trauma free character in Pandora Rosier. Setting :at Hogwarts but no magic, it's a boarding school with hybrid houses.No quidditch, it's Ice Hockey, james is a player, regulus is a figure skater.James potter with HDHD and meds to take. It's a struggle !The maraudeurs and the skittles are rival bands ( lead singer : Sirius vs Barty)everyone needs therapy.Remus lupin isn’t a werewolf but i wanted to stay true to his burden,so instead it’s epileptic seizures approximately every months.the Potter job is to welcome lost & broken souls, let make it official(Monty and Effie are both qualified to do it) the foster family trop is my favorite.There is a second foster house at hogsmeade. I was like if we are blessed with wonderful parents why not put them… close to the kids, why not. I just know James would be happy about it.The black brother dynamic is so majestic but I saw a potential to add a feminine side to my boys with mommy issues. That’s why I gave them a sister (Regulus's twin) with her fair share of trauma obviously, you're welcome.

I don't want to be too much for you

April 20, 2025 at 09:16 AM

“I am ready for today, I won't lose it like I did last time.”

Regulus walks the hallway toward the library, with his priority in order.
No small talk, no laughing at any of James's jokes. Him and I aren’t friends, and it’s not the end goal.

One can learn just fine without extra anything from the teacher.
He learned French the classic way.
Oh wait, maybe not that way, physical punishment aren’t Regulus favorite memories.

- James for god seck ! focus
…
Silence

that playfulness thrown back and forght between them, just dropped on the floor. No comeback on James's side. Regulus ruined the mood, and not one of James’s creative jokes can pick it up. James is frozen on the spot.

It’s strange to Regulus, he did what he came in for. But James didn’t laugh it off. James should know it would be this way ? So what’s on his face

James isn’t here, he is outside of himself far from Regulus.
Exactly like Regina when something catches her off gard and make her spiral into one of manys obscure memories.

Knowing Regulus is the one who stated it for James, is as surprising as the realization that James Potter does have his own spiral.

The Golden retriever of the Griffond'or can be pushed in his dark corner. And somehow Regulus doesn't want to do it again.

- James ?
- I’m sorry
- do you hear me ? James
- hm
- James snapped back in his body, suddenly looking exhausted.
- what’s going on ? Regulus asks like he would ask Regina.

- it's gonna sound stupid, leave it
- tell me ?
- This is me, I'm like that. People grow tired of me. It’s okay
- What is “you” ?
- I have ADHD. Do you know what it is ?
- I do
- I realized how painful it’s going to be to teach someone like me.
- This isn’t pain.

- at least now you're warned.
- I’m…”warned” I will do something about it now that i know
- there isn’t anything to do.
- Give me a week.

.....

“Regulus i can assure you, here isn’t anything you can do, except grown to disliking me more and more each weeks”
I just wanted to make a good impression on you. Pove that Sirius is in a safe place with me.

When that look of genuine frustration appeared on regulus,
James remembers it like it was yesterday :

This first day at Hogwarts before the safety net of his friends, before the group decided he was cool. He was so excited to be here. James didn’t realize he drained the spirit out of the other around him. He looked at them to find that they judged him to be too much, too much to have around.

After that he got diagnosed with ADHD, asked for pills to regulate that part that was too much. Tooked the pills and felt a bit numb but it worked. He was a little bit less. until Sirius, Sirius was the end of the tunnel, just like James Sirius was also too much for his family at least. James was more than happy to take in all of what was too much for them. Because for him it was perfect.

Sirius and him shared, talked and laugh too much and to loud, together
That was just enough. Sirius took the pills away from James and moved on.
Since he met Remus and Peter, two boys less explosive than Sirius and him but nonetheless loving.

Until James was introduced to Regulus and Regina. For the first time since his early days at Hogwarts James felt that need to be liked by them. Purely because he loves Sirius so much. There is something not quite right here. Not wrong either, in the past tree years he got time to dig in. He did come to the conclusion that he isn’t looking for an extension of Sirius. But as much as they are different Regulus is as special as Sirius and their broken boned is truly regrettable.