Bisexuel crises
James entered the ice ring on the tip of his toes. Careful to not slam the door behind him,
Remus had one of his epileptic seizures today and James completely forgot about his tutor.
But to put it simply James is sure that Regulus would have understood the gravity of the situation but Remus didn’t give his consent to include Regulus in the confidence of his condition. So Regulus will get a weaker excuse from James. “a friend needed me”
if it wasn’t enough he heard by Sirius that Regulus and him had a fight.
Because when Sirius is scared, for Remus in that case, he always adds to the fire and takes it out on something else… his Brother for example.
The mood promises to be more than heavy. During supper James received a message from Regulus telling him to find him at the Ice ring when he is done eating. Not extra emoji or sign to evaluate the temperature.
James jumps when an electronic voice speak up out of nowhere and everywhere :
Bluetooth connected
“it’s just the speaker, take it easy. oh my.. does it mean that Regulus is planning to do his practice with music ?”
James really wants to see that. He sits in the bleacher at a spot where he knows he is less likely to be seen by his friend.
Regulus is on the side of the ring looking down on his phone.
He coughed before putting his phone down screen facing the floor.
Skate away from it
“no music after all ?”
Regulus seems to keep track of inaudible beats. When James wasn’t expecting it the speaker diffused a vibration “it's the introduction !”
it starts almost nonexistent but slowly long notes are in the air like a cold morning frog. Low and unstoppable. Regulus is focused on his timing. When he slowly unzips his white sweat-shirt to take it off. James realizes how much Regulus's control, is total.
He tosses it aside revealing an outfit completely black, and the outline of his body. James had no idea taking off a piece of clothing could be so charming.
Regulus is now in the middle, ready, study
Regulus looks up, in his gaze James falls. At this exact instant he understands, this is how Regulus takes out his anger. He isn’t the screaming type. But anger there is, it’s mol into drive and…
A voice whisperer “let’s…play” This vocal intervention take James by surprise, the intro abruptly cut, a second, two second, tree
then a whistle, and after that the song starts for real, stronger than ever. Regulus is moving fast like an arrow. The air must have dropped from 10 degrees below zero at least. The bases are otherworldly cold. It’s not a song, the tempo bits in every fiber of James's body.
“how it must be for Regulus down on the ice”
Regulus is aligned with every strong beat. His moves and this audio make his steps look ten times stronger. An illusion… hard to play, but regulus does. Like he is in every era of his life, he is the textbook definition of discipline.
James was already mesmerized, but here come his first jump, his first spin
James jaw is on the flore mid performance. Regulus is dancing with the air
forward, and backward both as fast and smoothly. As if the wind was here himself to hold him when he bent backward, almost touching the ice with his finger.
James stood up,Regulus find him the the bleacher :
- it is the first time…
“the first time what James ? How are you going to find your way out of this one”
- James ? You were here all along ?
- ...the first time that I see you skate… It was beautiful Regulus
Regulus regained his composure like he wasn't sweating :
- You missed our session today.
“i did hurt him”
- Yes, Something came up. I'm sorry for that, are you mad ? We can work now if you want
- no, i didn’t ask you to come here for that.
- oh it’s about your fight with Sirius ?
- No, what happened between my brother and me is my problem entirely.
Regulus leaves the ice, not sure if he is supposed to follow, James just stays where Regulus left him.
When Regulus came back from the restroom. He is barefoot, his shoes in one hand and a tiny package in the other. He is walking toward James, and James sees him really. Not anyone Brother's.
Their height has always been here. It is a matter of fact but how endearing it is ? that’s new.
Regulus hands him the package without furtherdo :
It is a red and green paper held together with some tape.
- open it, Regulus kneels to tie his shoe.
- it’s for me ?
- yes sherlock holm.
- What is it ? James wonders as he presides to undo the tape.
- Last time… I judged you it was..rude.
James find inside a glasses's box, with no glasses in it. but with a piny perfume fiol.
- I must admit I'm clueless.
- Of course you are.
Regulus stand up and take the little fiol form the box
- it’s for your ADHD. You spread some of it on your glasses when you need to focus, and it’s supposed to help you. I hope it works.
- you made it yourself Regulus?
- it’s nothing. I have a brain that never stops thinking so if I put it to good use i don’t waste my time.
- Keep the box, try in class and give me your feedback.
- How can I thank you ?
- if it works, before any result, this is just intention. But I'm pretty confident in my ability so you're welcome.
°°°
Regulus didn’t start his day as good as it ended.
First James stood him up. Leading him to question how much effort James was ready to put in. Then Sirius ran into him, clearly asking for trouble.
Serving the same old argument : “why do you do Ice skating ? Are you punishing me for the death of Creature ? Did you forget when you almost died ? Are you mental ? You are so selfish ?
Regulus didn’t stay silent to thoses self-centered assumptions.
"No the world doesn't revolve around you Sirius ! I don’t have you in my mind as much as you have me on yours it seems ! You can’t face what you did, it's not my business ! Creature was my dog and it will forever be on you. And i’m the selfish one ?
How self-center must one be to be that blind, Regulus can choose the sport he wants.
Can’t he just love something and make it his ?
That night Regulus overthink his fight. It’s on replay, the only pause he got was when he was on the ice.
“You never saw me skating Sirius. You don’t know how good i am. Because you don’t care”
…. At the same time in the Gryffindor dorms.
Remus is awake by the fire reading a book. Exactly where James needed him.
- Moony, aren't you tired ?
- No, I usually can’t sleep during a full moon
- how strange.
- How about you ? Are you a werewolf or something ?
- Ha, no if I was an animal ? I would be a stag !
- where is the link with the moon ?
- here isn’t one
Remus close his book :
- so ? what up pads ?
- James sat on the floor and rested this back on the sofa.
- I have a question
- I knew it.
…
James looks at the flames.
- Do you need a chocolate ?
- How did you know you were gay ? James looks up at Remus. A lobsided smile on his face. Yes he did ask that bluntly but man, what can he do.
Remus looks down at James, looking for a sign of a possible prank ? But find none.
Friends do have that sort of conversation, but why not in group. Sirius is also able to answer that. Remus answer is much simpler than Sirius’s :
- Hm..I… I met Sirius i suppose
- That's it ! James' answer is a bit too dramatic, but it eases the mood.
- Sorry i’m not helping. Ask Sirius if you want storytimes.
- No not Sirius
- "no" not your best friend ?
- he was upset today
“Yeah i have a feeling, he wouldn’t like to know who triggered my little crises”
- I’m telling you but it’s between us ? okay ?
- Okay
- okay today I saw..someone do something
- you gonna have to be more precise than that James. How do you want me to follow anything
- okay okay “someone” wait wait wait okay A boy did what he is good at. Really good at it and my body had a reaction. But was I just impressed by the skill or by him ?
- When a girl for example when Marlene is on top of the game are you turned on ?
- WHAT ?? it’s Marlene, she is my friend. She’s like my hockey sister
- it’s a girl i’m trying to draw a comparaison here, James.
- No, i don’t
- You know other girls
- I know Lili..
- Ho man that's my best friend, she is like my sister
- oh and therefore I can’t question myself ? Lili is not even your blood sister
- yeah imagine if you were turn on by Sirius little brother haah
- hahaha
- I would be in trouble ?
- Daaa
- You would be a dead man
- i would haaaaaaa
end note :
Please Remus listening to James...And being close to ask the right question. LMAO
this is it for me.
By the way I realized that my fic bearly has Remus in it...IT IS A CRIME.
Unless I find a way to inclued wolfstar in the plot don't look for it.