pansy sorts out her problems
“Eliminate Osamu Dazai.” the order rang through Rei’s head like an arrow through an apple. Obviously she couldn’t do it. She’s known Dazai since he was 4, he’s like her little brother at this point and she could not do anything to hurt him. Ever.
She knew she was going to disobey and hopefully protect Dazai but her concern was how. If she failed to return from her “mission” they would assume she’s dead and just send another mafioso to try and kill Dazai.
Yes, she could figure out everything as it came but she knew she was going to get into Hogwarts, work as the potions assistant, and… figure out how to protect Dazai from there.
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Draco was trying to find Blaise, he had disappeared into the crowd after their first class and had never come back. It was five minutes till their next class and he was nowhere to be seen.
“I bet that demon is influencing Blaise, making him skip class” Pansy blurted out, reminding Draco of her existence. He swerved in her direction, a blank expression on his face.
“Why do you do that? You know what Dazai is really like, why continue to fan the fire, why make people hate him when you know he’s innocent. I don’t know what else you would be talking about but if you’re talking about the Quirrell incident, you’re being stupid. I know you’ve never liked Dazai that much and I don't know nor understand your reason for that but whatever. If Dazai didn’t kill Quirrell, both him and Blaise would have died right then and there.” Draco snapped, clearly annoyed.
Pansy took a step back before responding in a quiet voice. “ I know that. Of course I know that. I don’t hate Dazai because he killed Quirell, I hate him because he stole you and Blaise from me. He showed up and suddenly everything was about him. I just want things back to the way they were…”
Draco stood there for a bit, stunned. Pansy had never been this vulnerable. “ We’re not trying to replace you, I promise. The reason Blaise drifted away was because of this behavior” Draco said referring to Pansy’s previous mean-spiritedness. “ I am sorry if you began to feel like we were abandoning you but it’s just not true. If you begin to feel like this again, please tell Blaise or I, my only request is that you start treating him like an actual human being, and maybe apologize.”
“Thank you. I knew that, but I needed to hear you say it. Thank you.” Pansy muttered out. A small smile formed on her lips “I guess I’ll consider apologizing…” She laughed out, obviously sarcastic. “Alright, that’s too much vulnerability for one day. Let’s go find Blaise, And Dazai, I definitely owe him an apology, no matter how much it hurts my ego, I still hate him though.”
“Can't ask you for anymore.” Draco laughed out
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Blaise turned and ran. He needed to find Dazai, He needed to make sure Dazai was ok. If something happened to Dazai, Blaise would never forgive himself, he knew that much. If Dazai didn't clean all this but wasn’t still sitting here, he was probably at the infirmary, yes the infirmary, that was Blaise’s best bet. He ran, he had no time to waste, if Dazai didn't get help immediately after the… incident, Blaise needed to find him as soon as possible.
When Blaise arrived at the infirmary he slammed the door open and ran to Madam Pomfrey, skidding to a stop right in front of her
“Is Dazai here!? I went to find him, and all I found was blood, and I need to make sure he’s ok, please ma’am, please.” Blaise shouted, out of breath.
Madam Pomfrey chuckled, “Do not worry, Mr. Dazai is completely fine. He did… injure himself, but he went straight to professor Snape and we were able to make sure all of his wounds were properly cleaned and wrapped. If you would like to see him, he is in the second bed-” she was cut off by Blaise running past her and throwing open the curtains to Dazai’s bed. She sighed lovingly and shook her head, “Young love at its finest.”
Blaise looked at the bed where Dazai lay, just waking up from the ruckus. Dazai looked up at him, his face twisting in regret before turning away.
“I- I'm sorry. I know you ordered me to stay safe. I tried, I really did, but I couldn't even follow such a simple order. I apologize for my uselessness.” Dazai said monotonously, refusing to make eye contact with Blaise the entire time.
“...Dazai, is it ok if I touch you right now?” Blaise asked, waiting for Dazai’s answering nod, before wrapping him in a hug, “I know where you came from, I can't say I understand fully but I know. You are not there now. I'm not mad, if anything I'm concerned. Just because you couldn’t follow one ‘order’, which wasn’t meant to be an order in the first place, more of a suggestion, does not make you useless. It makes you human. I will never think you're useless for struggling. I will never think you're useless, ever…Dazai I love you. I will never leave you.” Dazai squirmed out of Blaise’s arms.
“You…WHAT? No no no no no no no no no no no no no no no, you can’t love me. Please. No. Everything and everyone that loves me back ends up broken. I can't have that happen to you, please Blaise, let me do this for you. Go, leave and never think about me again. It doesn’t matter, please, go.” Dazai said, panicked.
“No, even if you don’t love me back I still would like to stick around, I genuinely like being around you. I promised I would never leave you and I plan to stay loyal to that promise.” At this, Dazai laid his arms down on his lap from their position in front of his chest, his face relaxed into a small smile.
“Well, if that’s how you feel about it, then I love you too, would you like to be my boyfriend, Blaise Zabini?”