Breakdown
You had been sitting in the chair by Bucky’s side for roughly 72 hours now. He hasn’t awakened or barely stirred at all. The doctor said he will live and awaken for sure but there was no telling when. You remembered back to when you had been hospitalized and put in a coma and realised Bucky must have felt this way as well. You couldn’t sleep, hardly ate anything, and refused to leave the room no matter how many Avengers told you and how many times each. You continued to sit there and lay your head on his chest while your husband slept.
It had been a week since he arrived at the hospital. You hadn’t been feeling very good lately but you stayed by your husband's side and continued the same routine as normal. Your head was resting on his chest as you felt something in your hair. He was running his fingers through your hair. You quickly looked up. “You’re awake!” You couldn't help but smile and kiss all over his face. He carefully sat up and hugged you. “I haven't slept since you got here and I’ve barely eaten I didn’t even leave this room. Oh and I beat the shit out of Crossbones and pretty sure Iscare Tony and Steve now.”
“Wait what?! Steve and Tony are scared of you, well of course they are my wife is soo badass it’s scary.” he smiled and kissed you again.
A doctor walked in. “Good to see you awake Mr. Barnes you will be free to leave tomorrow morning. When you do go home no heavy lifting and no sudden movements.”
“Yes sir Doc.” you sat down after Bucky said this and held his hand.
“That lady there didn’t leave your side for the entire time you were here. Keep her she really cares about you.”
“I plan too.” he looked at you and held your hand tightly. You blushed and smiled. “I plan to start a family with her too. “
“I wouldn’t begin or continue just yet you still need to finish healing and such. I want you to go to the doctor's office in two weeks for a checkup. If he clears you you can continue trying for a small one.”
“You got it Doc.” As expected the night was spent kissing, cuddling and admiring each other.
When morning came you were asleep with your head resting on the bed while he held. your hand asleep as well. Steve and Tony walked in with cups of coffee. Upon realizing the two of you were still asleep they took pictures of the two of you and were probably about to post them. In a few minutes the two of you were awake. Steve and Tony handed you guys two cups of coffee and you noticed they were acting very nervously.
“Well pal looks like you’re feeling quite better and you got your wife to keep you company so we’ll head off now.” Steve said quickly. He and Tony left the room pretty quickly. You guys decided to dismiss it and assume it was just Steve and Tony up to something stupid again.
Bucky was released later that day and you two spent the next week doing hardly anything but cuddling in bed or on a couch and watching tv while the others gladly brought food for you two.
At the end of the week Fury and Coulson arrived and were dressed for a mission.
“Mommy! Daddy! You didn’t leave us for adoption after all!” Tony cheered when they walked in the door. He and Clint went in to hug the two. Clint grabbed Coulson who didn’t seem to mind, but when Tony hugged Fury, his showed his death glare. “Think Dad’s claustrophobic.” Tony said quietly. Fury heard anyway.
“Let go of me Tony or else…” Fury said calmly. Tony let go and made a pouty face.
“What the hell is wrong with all these grown ass men?” Bucky said as he held you.
“A lot I think they got hit in the head too many times babe.” You got up to help Tony get a camera on the outside of his suit so you and Bucky could stay at the tower while they went on missions while Bucky was unable to train or anything like that.
“Well now we won't be bored.” Bucky said.
“Yeah watch us kick ass so you can learn to not get yours kicked.” Tony said full of himself.
“Uh Tony do you not remember how badly she got Crossbones? “ Steve asked as you looked at Tony and popped your knuckles.
“Yeah Tony do you not remember? “ you went to go sit back down.
“Oh yeah but that was probably just luck.” he said as he went to get into the quinjet. you flipped both of them off.
The tv in the big living room turned on and you could see Tony was adjusting the camera. “You already messed that up didn’t you?” You heard Rhodes say.
“No, it's fine. I can fix it.”
The camera in Tony’s arc reactor was adjusted so you could see the quinjet hangar with everyone sitting down. Steve had taken your seat and had his feet up in Bucky’s seat. “I’m gonna talk to him about that one.” Bucky mumbled. Everyone else was in their own assigned places.
“Alright everyone say hi to the camera!” Tony said. Nat and Clint and Steve said hi and waved. Sam, Rhodey, and T'Chella just stared at the camera and nodded. Thor gave a bright smile and energetic wave.
In an instant Scott’s entire head popped up and he said loudly “Hello in there!” He must have scared Tony because the view jerked backwards and Tony fell onto his back. When he got up Scott enlarged to normal size and held out his arms to silently say really?
“Oh this is very entertaining.” Bucky said sarcastically.
“Hey babe what do you want for dinner? I can run to the store for some stuff for chicken or cobbler.”
“Anything is fine as long as it’s fast because I want to cuddle my wife and watch our friends get the shit beat out of them.”
Tony cleared his throat, “we can hear you, there are mics in there.”
“So we shouldn’t make out and have sex?”
“Yeah don't do that especially since a doctor said not to.” You could hear the sternness in Tony’s voice.
“Fine.” Bucky tried to fake sounding annoyed. He relaxed and you decided to prepare a meal for the two of you. After bidding a quick goodbye to Bucky and making him promise not to move while you were gone, you left Stark tower to grab the ingredients for ricotta lasagna. After a short trip to the store not too far from the tower you were back home quickly to heat the oven and see what you missed from the crew.
“Tony and Scott nearly crashed the quinjet again.” Bucky explained.
“So Hydra doesn’t have to do anything, they could just wait it out with those guys.”
“And also they think it was either a setup or an ambush. They got to the location of the anomaly but there’s nothing there so far.”
“Be careful you guys.” You said so the others could hear.
“We are in the freaking Sahara desert. There’s nothing here.” Clint complained.
“Start digging in the sand.” Bucky suggested actually seriously.
You decided to start putting layers of cheese on top of each other and put the lasagna in the oven in the kitchen and heard just silence and small talk from the other room. After some time you brought your plates into the living room and cuddled with Bucky again.
“Doll this looks delicious.” He said after a kiss.
“Aw man I want some.” Rhodes said from the screen. Immediately after the quinjets lights started flashing and the alarm started to blare loudly. “Dude I think Hydra is here."
“Oh no shit Rhodey!” Tony said looking at the monitors and radar, which seemed to be clear.
The hanger door opened and the camera turned around from the controls to show Steve jumping out of the quinjet.
“Oh look, no parachute again.” Bucky commented through a mouthful of food.
Clint and Nat followed with parachutes. Sam took off with his falcon wings and Scott shrunk down and jumped on Antony and took off. Vision, Wanda, and Thor flew out by themselves. Bruce jumped out as a human but you were sure he turned to the Hulk during his fall.
“Tony just land this thing everyone else is gone!” Rhodes shouted.
“Yeah I see that!” The quinjet was landed harshly and Tony and Rhodey suited up and jumped onto the sand of the desert. Sure enough, the jet and the others were surrounded by Hydra.
“Oh no.” Bucky was looking in the corner of the camera.
“What?!” You were shocked. Crossbones was there and well alive. “Of course he is!” Before either of you knew it Crossbones took nearly everyone out with a single push of a button.
He found the camera looked right at it “We are coming for both of you.”
“Babe,” he knew what you were about to do. “Babe please don’t Fury and Coulson can handle it please don’t do it. “
“I have to baby our friends are in trouble and right now I’m their only hope.” you kissed the top of his head and headed to get your gear. Coulson was waiting for you.
“We made you a new suit, it’s bulletproof and flexible.” you suited it up, it was sleek like Natasha’s suit combined with your husbands. It zipped all the way up to the base of your chin. It had all sorts of different straps, belts, and pockets for guns and ammo. They had made a specially designed mask that covered the bottom part of your face. You looked like your husband only without the metal arm. You went back to Bucky.
“Babe, Coulson will help you with anything you need.”
“Y/N, that suit isn’t you. It may help you but it’s not my wife, it’s a woman seeking revenge and blood. Please don’t go overboard. “ he kissed your hand and watched you walk away to the quinjet where someone flew you to the rest of the Avengers. They dropped you about a mile away from where Hydra was keeping the other Avengers. You hiked the mile and found a way into the base without setting or tripping any alarms. Tony had put trackers in everyone's suits, you remembered this and used the tracking devices to find the others. When you reached the room where your friends where you felt a hand on the back of your neck and you knew who it belonged too. Crossbone. He threw you across the room into a wall. You got up and began running towards him. You reached him and went for one of your knives as you knocked him down and held him there.
“You won’t be alive for much longer.” You couldn’t help but smile an evil smile. You held your razor sharp knife to his neck. “Any last words?”
He took off his mask and spitted at you. “Do your worst.” With that you plunged your knife into his throat and ripped it back out. You stood up and grabbed one of your smaller guns and began shooting his chest until you ran out of ammo.
“Nice to see you again Y/n” a strange voice said behind you. You recognized the voice immediately. It was the only person who was nice to you when the army was using you as a weapon when you served. He started running for you and landed a punch to your ribs.
“I saw you die in front of me protecting me. How are you here let alone working for what we were trying to destroy.” you held your robs and began to fight back by kicking his stomach.
“They showed me what was really happening, they are curing the world from people like you.” He grabbed your leg and pulled so you would fall. You tried to get back up but he had you by your hair and was dragging you to a wall. He began to bang your head against the wall and kicking your stomach. You managed to trip him and escape his grip long enough to put him in a arm lock. You pulled back and broke his arm. You then put him in a headlock and began to tighten your grip. “I- I’ll let them out.”
“No thanks.” with that you made him fall on his back and you took ahold of his head and twisted it. You had just broken the neck of the only person who showed you compassion and was nice to you in the army. You took the keys off his body and let the other Avengers out while you slid down the wall to sit down. You were covered in blood a combination of your own blood and Crossbones. You held your head as Tony walked over and sat down next to you. “I killed the only person who was nice to me when I was in the army.”
“You did the right thing Y/N, it must have been tough. I’m sorry.” Tony seemed like he meant it. When you looked at him you saw the camera was still there and on.
“I went too far.” you closed your eyes and began to cry.
“Let’s get you home and to your husband.” He got up and carefully picked you up and carried you back to the jet. He laid you down on the floor and went to the pilot's seat and took off. Steve came over and sat next to you.
“I know how that feels, seeing your friend die and then finding out they’re still alive.”
“You didn’t have to kill yours.” you took your mask off and threw it against the wall. “Bucky was right, I wanted revenge and blood. I went overboard because of it.” you closed your eyes and stayed like that the rest of the way to the tower.
When all of you finally arrived at the tower you dismissed your self and went into the bathroom and began to take a shower. You sat down and let the water hit your back and wash away all the blood. You had been sitting there for at least an hour before Bucky became concerned and came in. “Y/N? It’s time for bed are you coming?”
“I don’t want to move.”
He walked over, “Have you washed your hair?” You shook your head. He reached for the shampoo and put some in his hand and rubbed his hands together before putting them in your hair. He washed the shampoo of and repeated with conditioner. Once he was finished he turned off the water and grabbed a towel then wrapped it around you and carefully picked you up. “Let’s get you dressed and to sleep.” he carried you to his room and helped you get dressed and laid down next to you. “I saw what you did to Crossbones and that guy. I want you to know that you did what you had to do.”
You clung to his chest. He held onto you just as tight as you were. “Please never let me go that far again Buck. Promise me if I start acting like that again you will stop me.” A few tears ran down your cheeks.
“I promise.”