The Nightmare

You woke up with flowers, cards, and balloons that said ‘Get well soon!’ surrounding you. You heard heavy footsteps pacing.

“B- Bucky?” The footsteps suddenly stopped and ran over. Sure enough it was Bucky.

“I’m so sorry I should have warned you about the palm reader on my guns.” He was gently holding your hand.

You managed out, “I- it’s okay babe. I don’t blame you and you shouldn’t either.”

He nodded and you saw that he looked like he was going to cry. You pulled him into a kiss and he calmed down instantly to kiss you back. Steve and Nat walked in.

“Buck she’s awake! Aaaand you’re kissing.” Nat rolled her eyes when she said this.

“How long has she been up Buck? And why didn’t you tell us?” Steve pressured Bucky to spill.

“Only a minute.” Bucky said inbetween kisses. Seeing you two weren't going to stop soon, they sat on the couch and watched and giggled at you two.

Bucky slowly pulled away and studied your face, after studying it he kissed every scratch and bruise on your face and neck. When Bucky finally managed to stop kissing your cuts and bruises a few doctors walked in to perform x-rays and cat scans to see if there is anything out of place or strange in your body. They asked Bucky, Steve, and Nat to leave the room for a short while. After what felt like ages a doctor came up to who was rather cheerful.

“Ma’am it seems as though you have a mass in your stomach. That mass is a baby.”

“I- I’m pregnant?!” You couldn’t stop smiling.

“It also appears you have a couple of broken ribs, but it appears the baby is fine.”

After a few more minutes the doctors concluded that you were due in about 5 months.

You decided you were not going to tell anyone yet so you asked the doctors to keep quiet when your friends entered the room again. Bucky was of course the first one through the door when the doctors permitted everyone to re enter. He seemed panicked. “Is she alright? Please, is anything wrong?”

“Sir, she is doing quite well. We should keep her here for one more day to tend to a few minor injuries. But she can be checked out tomorrow. I highly advise minimal activity for a while.”

“Oh thank god,” Bucky said relieved. He was immediately back by your side kissing all your cuts and bruises again.

Time flew by like Clint when he sees and dog or someone offers him coffee. Before you knew it visiting hours were over so everyone had to leave. Including Bucky, after one last final long kiss to the lips he left. You had trouble getting to sleep that night for some reason.

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Ever since you and Bucky had gotten home you felt sick in the mornings. This morning was worse than normal. You shot up, yelling with bead of sweat on your forehead. You had a nightmare. If that wasn’t enough crap for you you felt like your were about to throw up. You ran for the toilet to throw up. In the process you woke Bucky up and he followed you. “Are you alright baby? Do you need anything?”

“I’m fine babe, it’s nothing.” Truth is it's was anything but nothing. Your were pregnant with Bucky’s child. You decided to wait to tell Bucky.

You decided to go to a normal doctor a week or so you were released from the hospital for a check up. You went in and signed and all of that. They called your name and you followed them into a room where they would do an ultrasound. You laid down on the table and pulled your shirt up just enough for them to put a weird jelly substance on your stomach. They put pressure on it with a weird looking wand thing. They showed you a small blob on a screen. It was your soon to be son.

You were due someday in March. Once again you decided to wait to tell Bucky and everyone else.

Nat took you shopping two days after the last time you went to the doctor, you ended up wandering off to the baby section. Nat followed you closely. You were looking at cribs, pacifiers, baby bottles and bibs. She caught on quickly and was almost as excited as you were. “Y/n why are you looking at baby stuff? Are you pregnant?! When are you do? When did you find out?” she went on like this for ages.

You laughed as you replied “Yes Nat I am pregnant. I’m do in March. I found out in the hospital from the mission we had during my honeymoon.”

“Does Bucky know?” she seemed extremely interested

“No he doesn’t know, you’re not even supposed know. And I swear to god if you tell anyone I will snipe you in the next mission.” you pointed at her and she held her hands up.

“You’re not going to go on any missions for awhile, I’m at least telling Fury.”

A few days past and it was time to to tell Bucky you were pregnant. You and Bucky were cuddling on Tony’s giant couch. No one else was around so you took the opportunity to tell him. “So babe we may need a bigger room soon there won’t be enough for all of us.”

He looked at you, “Doll what are you talking about there's only two of us.”

You simply held up three fingers and he sat up and looked at your stomach “Are you?” he almost yelled “I’m going to be a dad!!” he picked up and held you in the air.

You laughed and held on to his shoulders “Shhhh only you and Nat know. She found out when we went shopping. I didn’t know how to tell you before now. He’s a little stow away from the island.”

“Wait, did I hear you right? It’s a boy?” he set you down and rubbed your stomach and bent down just enough and whispered, “Hi in there, I’m your daddy and right now your in your mom. I can’t wait till you get out of her belly and get to hold, cuddle, hug, and love on you.”

Steve walked in just in time to see Bucky stand back up. A grin from to ear crept across his face. Steve knowing Bucky, Bucky wasn’t ready for a kid so he dismissed the idea.

Fury refused to let you go on missions lately. You were showing more so you stayed in your room more. Tony grew curious. One day when Bucky came back from baby shopping with Nat, Tony decided to help. He accidently dropped one and saw the contents. “If you want Buck I could build a nursery somewhere in the tower and give you guys a bigger room.”

“Thanks man” Bucky said as he picked everything up

“Is this why y/n hadn't been in any missions lately? “

“Yup, she's about to tell, well really show everyone. She has five more months until my lil baby boy is born.”

“Ah so it's a boy, congrats Buck.” Tony took the bags from Nat and helped Bucky carry them up to your room. You carefully stood up holding your fairly noticeable stomach. Nat came in and hugged you. “You are still going to name him somewhat after me right.”

Bucky quickly added “In your dreams. Are ready you doll?”

You smiled, “Yes let's go. And Tony, please don't tell anyone I’m going to tell everyone tomorrow.”

“Sure thing y/n. And when are you due so I know my deadline?” Tony seemed happy with himself

“Sometime in March and deadline for what” you questioned.

After Bucky helped you with your shoes he said, “Starks going to add in a nursery just for my baby boy” he bent down and kissed your stomach.

“Oh thank you Tony.” You smiled and hugged Tony.

Bucky helped you walk into the elevator and to the car. You insisted you didn’t need help walking but Bucky ignored that and did anyways. He even drove you to your doctor and met your doctor for the first time. When your doctor came back with your results she was hesitant to tell you and Bucky the news. “Ma’am, Sir I’m sorry to say but, it looks like your baby is dead. I’m sorry.” she left to give you and Bucky a moment.

“He- he’s dead Bucky.” Tears started flowing from your eyes

“I know baby I know.” He hugged you tightly and cried too. “It's going to be ok babe. We can just try for another. Who knows maybe the next one will be a girl, and she will be beautiful and perfect like her mother.” he picked your chin up and wiped away your tears and kissed your forehead.

The car ride home was long and quiet. “How are we going to tell everyone?” You asked sadly. “I don’t think I can talk about it without crying.”

“I tell Steve and have him tell everyone else. I’ll make sure they go easy on you for a while.” Bucky assured you.

“Oh thank you babe. That’ll be wonderful.” You replied.

“When we get home you go up to our room. I’ll tell Steve and then come up with you.”

“I don’t want to do anything at all for a while.”

“That’s ok. I’ll have someone bring us food to our room so we don’t have to leave our room for a few days and we can be left alone.” Bucky laid his hand on your chest and said in a mischievous voice, “We can do nothing but cuddle all day and night for a few days if you’d like.”

This made you smile. “Babe that would be lovely.” you said.

You guys said nothing else until you got back to Stark Tower. You ran fast up the stairs until you found the elevator. Bucky ran off to meet up with Steve and tell him about what just happened. On your way you ran into Nat.

“Y/N, how was the doctor visit?”

You tried to stay calm but you burst out crying. Nat wrapped her arms around you and kept asking what happened. “He’s dead Nat! He didn’t make it!”

Nat hugged you and told you over and over again that it was ok. She walked you over to the elevator and led you inside and hit you and Bucky’s floor number. “Y/N I’m so sorry. Sweetie it’s gonna be ok.” Nat led you to your room to make sure you would be alright. “Where’s Bucky?”

“Talking to Steve.” You said in between sobs. “He’s telling him so he can tell everyone else. To make it easier for us.

“Oh, ok. Well I’m sure he’ll be back soon. You take it easy now.”

Nat left and you went into your room, changed into pajamas, and crawled into bed and waited for Bucky. When all of a sudden the door busted open and Tony and Steve barged in and hugged you then left suddenly once Bucky appeared at the door.