Chapter 10
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Work that day was a haze and I messed up quite a few orders.
Lung cancer.
I have another being inside of me.
I have no bloody idea what's happening to me or my life but if one more thing happens I'm going to lose it.
(Perhaps he already has?)
(He has a different face to others now anyway)
I got home and noticed that the being never gave me a name.
"Hey, bud, you got your ears on?" I asked out loud while warming up an order I messed up and took home.
Silence.
"Well, I was wondering if you'd wanted me to call you a specific name, I know you don't like being called parisite... hey, did you have a name back at your home?"
Silence, he didn't speak for more than thirty minutes.
But once he did he came back with some important information.
I HAVE SPENT THE PAST FEW HOURS EXAMINING YOUR BODY AND -
"Wild,"
HUSH, THERE IS A RAPID CELL GROWTH AROUND YOUR NECK.
I felt sick, not because I was sick but the idea that I was sick.
Hopefully.
"Yeah, found out this morning I had cancer. Can't afford treatment, mother left no inheritance money, father remarried, evil sexist bastard, I don't have any other family I can go to so.... guess our partnership is gonna end in a few years."
Humans are fragile, the end was in sight and each second drew me closer. I wanted to do something special before I die at least, yet I can't help but feel unprepared. Smiling, one of my favorite things, just felt bitter, no matter how hard I tried the bright side was just so painfully out of grasp.
I didn't need a mirror to know that the emotions must have been written across my face.
My friend was silent.
EDDIE.
I can't remember if he'd said my name before but the way he said it was almost calming like it wasn't meant to be said by anyone else.
The echo of it felt like it was meant to be heard again out of necessity.
YOU'RE AN IDIOT
And there goes the moment.
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