Civil War
Tony was so busy, he couldn’t visit Bucky for nearly a month, he had awards show to be at, schools to attend to, even projects he had to approved. It was driving him crazy, how the clothes he has of Bucky, no longer smells like him, he felt like crying right now, but he had to show he was a strong independent man, he was a Stark after all. He did call Bucky a few times at the diner, saying how much he misses Bucky, “God! I miss you right now. Work Is hell. I can’t even escape for a day!” Tony complains over the phone, while he was signing approvals for school projects. “I miss you too Doll! I miss your scents; your clothes start to smell of me instead. “Bucky whine back, Bucky was busy doing the inventory for the diner, ever since Tony bought the diner, he took over all the paperwork, just to ensure the diner is up to Tony’s standard. Then Steve came into Tony’s office, “Tony, I heard you were finding for me?” Steve asked, not noticing Tony was on the phone, “Rogers! Didn’t expect you to be here fast, I’ve upgraded your stealth suit and your shield, it’s in the lab, are you going on any mission that I have not heard off?” Tony ask, as he clears his throat. “Thanks Tony, no secret mission at the moment. SHIELD did ask me to do my paperwork. You seem busy, I shall pick up my things in the lab then. Take care Tony. Please don’t overwork alright!” Steve said, as he looked at Tony fondly, before going off. “Tell him not to do anything stupid!” Bucky suddenly said over the phone. “Alright see you Rogers, and don’t do anything stupid until I get there alright!” Tony said as he watched Steve leave, Steve froze and took a while before he walks out of the office, that line, that was Bucky line to him when they were in the 40’s, how could Tony know about it. Suddenly Tony’s office was filled with Sirens, indicating a mission, “Another mission to go Doll?” Bucky asked he couldn’t hide the disappointment in his voice, Tony was always risking his life, he nearly lost his life a couple times, and its broke Bucky’s heart, Bucky didn’t want to sound clingy, plus they haven’t officially dated or anything. “I have to leave soon you know, I will take care of myself. It mustn’t be that serious, I’ll call you back alright, I promise you that!” Tony replies, he knew how worried Bucky would get, Bucky had the looks that could kill but deep down he’s a cuddly bear for Tony, “Sir, it seems New York is in trouble, Captain Rogers and the rest is already in the quinjet, Mr Barton will send you and Mr Rhodes their coordinates. “FRIDAY commanded, Tony just got up and walked over to his cupboard, he kept his newest suit there, “I know you will take care of yourself, love, but please don’t put yourself first.” Bucky replied. As Tony connects his phone to his suit, so he could suit up perfectly.” I know boo, Steve already took all the stupid with him, I’ll be okay” Tony replied, as he walks to the helipad. As he took off, “Sorry to sound so clingy, it seems like I love you too much Anthony.” Bucky sighs into the phone, Tony hearts starts to swell with love, Bucky always jokes about loving him, but he can sense that Bucky was really true to his feelings. “Fly safely alright, I got to go. Rush hour is killing me! Goodbye, take care love” Bucky said before he hangs up, “I LOVE YOU BABE!” Tony said, just before he heard the dial tone, “CALL DISCONNECTED, CAPTAIN ROGERS REQUEST TO CONNECT YOUR INTERCOMS SIR!” FRIDAY commanded, “CONNECT US NOW!” Tony commanded, his heart was cracking, he desperately wants to fly to Romania to be with his Bucky, “Tony! It seems like HYDRA is taking over right now, you up for it?” Steve asked, the moments he heard Tony was connected to his intercom, “WHATEVER FLOATS YOUR BOATS CAP!” Tony reply, with a sigh. He wasn’t in the mood at all, he wants to be with Bucky right now. As Tony reached the destination, he started fighting those stupid HYDRA agents, he was pissed at this moment, this assholes has hurt the men that he loved, and they didn’t deserve to lived, Tony has been there when Bucky had his nightmares, to see such a big man cowered at the corner of his room, begging for his life, it really broke Tony’s heart .Tony’s heart was broken, so were the agents bones, he either blasted them or kick them in the face, Tony needed blood for blood. After the mission ended, Tony didn’t bother to go for debriefing, saying he had to finish up his reports for the school he was visiting next week.
“Tony, are you okay?” Steve asked as he walked into Tony’s office, seeing Tony tired eyes looking up at him, “I’m fine Cap! I just need to finish up my work soon, before I need to do some presentation” Tony replied tiredly. His table was messy, there stood a photo of him and Bucky, by his computer, only he could see it, whenever someone tries to see it, he would snatch it or hide it somewhere when he wasn’t in the office. He wasn’t ready to face the dramas form his team mates. “Also, Rhodes told me to tell you, he approves of the flight? He says you can fly off tonight with the quinjet, he’s waiting at the helipad actually, he gives you 30 mins to get your stuff ready.” Steve said as he looks at Tony worriedly, Tony head just snaps up, he smiles tiredly, he got up from his chair, grabbing the photo and sliding It in his back pocket, before going to his cupboard to grab his spare travel bag, “Thank you Cap, would you mind taking care of the team, over the weekend. Please don’t do anything stupid, also get any approval form Nick or Rhodes alright. I’ll be gone for the weekend.” Tony replies, as he pats Steve’s shoulder. He walks tiredly to the quinjet, I’m coming James, he told himself. Steve just stood there, staring at Tony’s back, he wonders where Tony was going, this late at night and for the weekend. Tony smiles tiredly to Rhodey, who stood at the entrance of the quinjet, “Hey there buddy.” Tony said as he hugs Rhodey, “You look like shit Tones, I didn’t know you could look this shitty when you don’t have your boyfriend with you!” Rhodey jokes, Rhodey was worried for Tony, but he couldn’t say it to him, they were best friends after all, “Alright buddy, I’ve already set for you auto pilot, please key in your coordinates, then you’re good to go. I want you to be happy when you’re back, don’t worry about the team, I’ll handle it alright. Enjoy your weekend lover boy.” Rhodey said as pushes Tony forward into the quinjet. Tony found his seat in the quinjet, and he sets his coordinates, he closes the quinjet door, and off he goes.
Tony must have fallen asleep in the jet, he woke up to FRIDAY voice, “You have reached your destination, Sir. “Friday said, it took him about 2 hrs to get there, thank you to his own product. It was only 10 pm where he was, he grabs his bag, and walks out of the quinjet, soon the jet fly back home, as Tony climbs down the stairs, he stood outside Bucky’s apartment, he finds his keys in his bag and unlock the door, perfect, Bucky wasn’t home yet, must be closing shifts again, he locks the door, and walked to Bucky bedroom, dropping his bag on the floor, proceeding to Bucky’s wardrobe, grabbing a sweatshirt and sweatpants, the night was cold, he changed to Bucky’s clothes, and just lay down on the mattress, he could fall asleep anytime soon. As he eyes was about to close, he heard the rattles of keys, yup his Bucky was home. He could hear the combat boots, approaching the bedroom, “hey there love!” Tony said, as soon as Bucky steps through the door, Bucky face just lit up, he smiles so wide, that it was blinding, he just threw himself into Tony’s arms, nuzzling in Tony’s neck, breathing deeply of Tony scent. “I MISSED YOU SO MUCH, I COULD DIE RIGHT NOW!” Bucky said as he lays his head in the crook of Tony’s neck, hugging Tony closely, he really did miss his Tony, Tony just smile at him fondly, Tony missed him too, but he was too tired, he breathes in Bucky scent, slowly sleep pulling him away. Bucky couldn’t blame Tony for being tired, he knew Tony had trouble sleeping, even if he slept, he had nightmares. Bucky experienced that before. Bucky just hugged Tony closer, and he too fall asleep. Bucky woke up the next day with an empty bed, he groans in frustration, not again. Before he could vent his anger, Tony came into the room, with a tray of food and coffee, “Good morning my love.” Tony said as he lays the tray on the mattress. He then presses a soft kiss on Bucky’s forehead, ruffling up Bucky’s bed hair. Bucky just smiles so fondly at Tony and sips his coffee. They just ate silently, both enjoying the quiet moment between them. Bucky decided to call in sick, so he could spend his day cuddling with Tony. Tony showed him all the new things he was building, all the new projects he was making, Bucky was proud of him. As Tony was enjoying his happiness at Romania, Captain and the team were fighting Brock Rumlow in Lagos.
Tony had to leave on Sunday night, his quinjet was waiting for him, he gathers his stuff, more like Bucky’s clothes to last him till the next visit, as Bucky stood with him by the quinjet, Bucky was in awe, the quinjet was beautiful but not as beautiful as the man standing in front of him. Tony held him tight, not wanting to let go, Rhodey walked out of the quinjet “Let’s go Tones! Take care alright Bucky!” Rhodey said, “Take care of my man okay Commander!” Bucky replied as he lets Tony go, saluting to Rhodey, “Take care of yourself alright Love, do visit soon, I’ll miss you. Also eat proper meals, you’re getting lighter.” Bucky said as he kisses Tony’s forehead, “Are you calling me fat? “Tony replied as he looks at Bucky, he was gonna miss him so much, Bucky just chuckled and kiss his lips softly, “Here you go love, something to keep with you. “Tony replies, as he held the photo of him and Bucky, Bucky took it and smile at it fondly, “I’ll miss you love,” Bucky said as he kisses Tony’s cheeks, and push Tony towards the quinjet, as much as he wants Tony to stay, Tony had work to do. Bucky stood there as he watched the quinjet took off, Tony settles in his seat, and smile to Bucky, he will miss his James. “Someone seems like he’s in love. How was time with your boyfriend huh Tones?” Rhodey said, as he presses the coordinates to home, when home is being in Bucky’s arms. “It was great to finally see him again, and what Boyfriend? We haven’t like talk about it you know. “Tony replied with a chuckle, he never thought of making it official with Bucky but he’s not even sure of their status, were they friends? Friends with benefits? Fuck buddy? “You can deny shit Bro, but I can see the love in your eyes hunny.” Rhodey replied, as he took a seat next to Tony. “Enough of me, what was the avengers up to anyways?” Tony decided to change the topic. “The usual bullshit, except The Witch accidently killed some Wakandian while there were on some unofficial mission, I never approve that shit you know, must be Nick.” Rhodey replied, god so much drama in a weekend. Tony was already dreading work, why can’t he just stay with Bucky. The whole flight was about the stupid mission, once Tony got back home, he dumps his bags, and just hide in his bedsheet, grabbing Bucky’s hoodie to sleep with.
The next few days was a dread to Tony, the accord sets in, the whole trying to find the Winter Soldier, his heart broke when he heard they were finding his man, he prayed no one got a hold on him. God wasn’t on his side, Tony was Satan’s best friend after all. When the whole UN bombing happened and news was out that Bucky was the cause of it, and they finally caught Bucky, his world seems to fall apart. As he stood in the investigation room, watching Bucky on the monitor, his heart broke to see his man being handled that way, he just wants to hug that man. Then the whole place shuts down, Bucky wasn’t Bucky anymore, he was the Winter Soldier, Tony knows how hard it was to revert him back, when Tony had to fight him, he could see Bucky’s eyes were begging, but he couldn’t control him at all. “Come on love, look at me.” Tony said, as he looks deep in Bucky’s eyes, as he fought Bucky, his broken heart, breaks even more. Then Bucky got away, and Tony felt helpless, Rhodey was there to comfort him, holding him when Tony cried, his world was falling apart. Tony let his anger took control of him, he was angry with Steve, if he didn’t go ahead and find that stupid Brock, this wouldn’t happened. His Bucky won’t become a Winter Soldier. Drastic measure calls for drastic needs, he recruited Peter Parker, your friendly neighbourhood Spider Man. They were In Germany airport to fight, at its broke Tony’s heart even more, to see his Bucky, fighting with him. Bucky chose Steve side, instead of Tony’s. Tony was mad, he was furious. This man fucked him so good but end up on the other side. Tony couldn’t hide his disappointment in his eyes, “Come on love, Steve is right about the accords!” Bucky said to Tony, “If you gonna be on his side, please, don’t call me love.” Tony said, everyone could hear the crack in his voice. Bucky face just broke, Bucky didn’t want to choose a side, but he had to, so he chose his best friend, not being able to tell Tony the truth, it hurts him so much but what can he do, as they fought in the airport, both hearts were broken, whatever Bucky wanted to do or say, wasn’t registered in Tony’s mind. The moment Steve and Bucky got into the jet, and fly off, and Tony chased after them, and when Rhodey was shot down, that’s it, Tony was filled with anger, he already lost the love of his life. How could he lose his best friend? As Tony stood by Rhodey side, holding him close, he was angry, he was mad, he was broken, he wanted to kill, blood for blood. As the rouges were imprisoned, Tony visited Sam in his cell, he got the news that Bucky was wrongly framed, and it broke him, his man was wrongly framed, and he fought with his man on the field. And he nearly lost his best friend. With all the information gathered, he flew to Siberia, wanting to find Steve and Bucky. “Captain! I came as your friend. I understand Bucky means the world to you, he too means the world to me, I’m sorry for what I did but please come back and sign the accords and get this done with. Hell, I won’t let SHIELD touch my man, but I have to, he needs to get the Winter Soldier out of him.” Tony said, his eyes were sad, they were tired, he has been crying for a few days at it was exhausting on him. Bucky just stood there, his heart continues to break for the man he loved. As they proceed to the centre of the room, seeing of all the dead Soldiers in their tank, its broke Bucky’s heart, they were his friends before. Suddenly the tv in the centre of the room lights up, showing a video, DECEMBER 1991. The year Tony’s parents died in a “Car crash”, Tony watched as his father’s car hit something, he could see how hard the impact was, then a motorbike was seen coming into view, that metal arm, it was Bucky’s but also it was the Winter’s Soldier, his dad was dragged out the car, punched multiple times in the face, he could hear his mother calling for his father’s name, he could hear his father’s skull cracked when The Winter Soldier punched him one last time, he continues to watch when The Winter Soldier walks over to his mother side, strangling her, he could hear her neck cracks. Lastly the Winter Soldier walks to the CCTV and shots it straight. As the videos end, there were too many feelings running around Tony’s head. “Did you know about this Steve?” Tony asked as he looks at Steve, his voice cracks. Steve just nods, he didn’t even look remorseful. “And you never bother to tell me?” Tony ask, “It wasn’t him Tones, he was under HYDRA!” Steve raised his voice. Tony just looked at Bucky. Hatred was brewing deep in him. “IT DOESN’T MATTER ANYWAYS, HE KILLED MY MOTHER!” Tony shouted as he aims his blaster to Bucky, “To think I let this guy fucks me over, to think I loved him so dearly, that I wanted to protect him, this mother fucker killed my mother!” Tony said as he flung himself to Bucky. Only to be pulled away by Steve, “TONY STOP! IT’S NOT HIS FAULT, IT WAS THE WINTER SOLDIER!” Steve shouted at Tony as he pulled Tony away. Tony was filled with rage.
As Tony got a hold of Bucky, “Did you remember?” Tony asked, as he tried to keep his cool, Bucky could only nod, “I never forget Tones, I’m sorry.” Bucky replied him, as he had tears in his eyes. “All this while James? I LET YOU INTO MY LIFE, I LET YOU FUCK ME, I LOVED YOU JAMES, TO THINK I WANTED A FUTURE FOR US, BUT YOU NEVER BOTHER TO TELL ME, YOU WERE THE ONE THAT KILLED MY MOTHER. ALL THIS WHILE I ALWAYS THOUGHT THEY WERE IN A FREAKY ACCIDENT. I TRUSTED YOU JAMES BUCHANAN BARNES! I FUCKING DID!” Tony shouted as he looks into Bucky face. Tony was broken, he was beyond being able to be fixed. Tony world came crushing down, next thing he knew, he threw punches and kicks to Bucky, Bucky didn’t want to fight Tony, he loved Tony, but Steve interfere, and next thing he knew, laser blaster was around him, Bucky’s arm got cut off, and Steve was punching and hitting Tony with his shield, Bucky was begging for it to stop, he couldn’t handle it, to see his best friend beating the shit out of his boyfriend. Soon he fainted out of exhaustion, when he woke up, he was in the jet, going back to Wakanda, with their prince.
As Bucky sat on the hospital bed, watching as his left arm empty, it was HYDRA’S first but then it was Stark’s too, he felt his shoulders, it aches, but he missed his arm, the arm where Tony would sit for hours just to upgrade or fixed, sometimes Tony would sleep on his left side cos it’s a lot warmer. His heart broke, Steve came inside his room, “hey there buck.” Steve said as he looks at Bucky, “How you are feeling today?” Steve continued as he eyes the empty left side, “I wish I was dead honestly, I broke the man that I ever want to love, I broke his trust, he only meant to loved me, but I broke that shit up. I don’t deserve to live honestly, he must be lonely right now, knowing the fact the guy he’s in love with, actually killed his parents when he was younger.” Bucky said as he shook his head, he was disappointed in himself, honestly. “It’s not your fault Bucks, you were in The Winter Soldier mode after all.” Steve said as he pats Bucky’s shoulder. “It’s not that Steve! I was James, his James for the past year, I had tons of opportunity to tell him what I did, but no I didn’t bother to tell him, I fucked him senseless, knowing well that I killed his parents, how he talked about his parents most of the time but yet I never told him. I don’t deserve him at all. He’s an innocent soul that would put himself first when it comes to war, he rather thinks about his teammates then himself, he pushes himself to his limits. He rarely sleeps wells after the Chitahuri invaded New York. Even after Afghanistan, when he had his Arc Reactor, he had nightmares constantly, when then Mandarin attacks him, where the fuck were all of you! He was only meant to love, every time we talked, he never talked shit about any of you, always kind things, he would laugh at Clint’s clumsiness, even talked about Natasha stealth shit, he even talked about The Witch, wanting to enrol her in schools, he has a kind heart that not even you have, and to think he speaks highly of the Captain, but the Captain is the one hiding shits too. Well welcome to his life, his best friend fuck things up for him, his boyfriend too. Standing ovation please!” Bucky replied sarcastically, Bucky was pissed. He just demanded T’Challa to put him in his cryotube, he didn’t want to face Steve for now, he wanted to be away, away with his memories of Tony Stark.