Body Electric
Steve was circling his finger around his mark. His bond with Bucky has gone through decades worth of trauma but now, they're relatively comfortable. Enough to maybe, just maybe..
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Steve whined as his heat woke up from his post-coital rest. He had been so caught up with his thought of wanting a pup that he didn't even realize it was time again. He looked around but couldn't find his Alpha. He needed Bucky.
"Buck..." Steve whined louder.
His heat seemed stronger than normal. Was it because he didn't realize it was coming? Was it because Bucky wasn't in their bed? or maybe it was because he's been thinking of pups lately? Steve was aggressively groping his crotch as he thought of it. Bucky fucking him hard and rough during his whole heat, knotting him over and over. Steve finding out he's pregnant with their pup once the heat is over. Bucky running his hands down Steve's swollen belly, kissing and talking to their unborn child. Watching Bucky's eyes brighten with joy and happiness as he holds their child for the first time.
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Bucky was rinsing his face off. He had another nightmare but didn't want to wake Steve again. His nightmares have been appearing more often. He thought he was over this. He got better. He spent the whole night just punching bags left and right in the gym. He needed to let some stress out. He didn't fall victim to the trigger words anymore. He had his memories back. He worked on his self-loathing. He wasn't completely okay but he was better. He hated this. He put Steve through so much grief. The worst of it was when Bucky reappeared and not only didn't know who "Bucky" was but didn't recognize his own omega. But all of that was in the past.
The thing that bothered Bucky was that this nightmare was new. It wasn't about Hydra or what he did over those seventy years or even all the broken pieces of when Steve chased after him. It was about a baby. Bucky grind his teeth. He remembers. They tried once. A long time ago. But like most things in Bucky's and Steve's life, it didn't work out. Steve got sicker when he got pregnant but he was so sick back then. He didn't stay pregnant long and it destroyed him. Bucky was there but he had to be strong for Steve but he was just as broken on the inside. This new nightmare was a thing of the past long gone. It would start out nice. Steve and him happy with their baby. A little girl with brunette hair and beautiful blue eyes. Then he blinks and sees a crib with a baby that is forever silent and his metal hand around his omega's throat, gasping for air.
Bucky stops. The thoughts need to go way. He suddenly has the urge to cuddle with his beloved omega. He wants to feel safe. Secure. He finally leaves the gym and head back to their home. He's been away too long and Steve must be awake by now.
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Bucky walks in their home and he nearly falls back from the aroma. He slams the door shut and practically runs to Steve. His heat came. Bucky thought there was more time but his nightmares have been preoccupying his mind lately. He bursts into their bedroom and sees Steve whining and gasping for his alpha.
"Alpha.." Steve cries out. "Please, Alpha!"
"I'm here, Stevie." Bucky soothes him with a gentle kiss.
"Make love to me."
"I'm here, babydoll."
Steve is already beautifully naked and rolling his hips. Bucky practically rips his clothes off and kisses all of Steve. He grabs some lube and wets his fingers to prepare his lovely omega. Steve begs for Bucky to get inside of him. Steve always wants Bucky but his heats make him so much more needy. Bucky is so hard. He wants to be inside of Steve too but he never wants to hurt Steve. Never again.
"Alpha." Steve groans as he thrusts against Bucky's fingers.
"So ready for me." Bucky sighs into Steve's neck.
Bucky pulls his fingers away and lines his cock at Steve's hole.
"Say it." Bucky teases.
"Please Alpha." Steve pants.
"Anything for you, Omega."
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Steve's heat finally settled down after three days of non-stop love making. He wakes up in a sleeping Bucky's arms. His heat is over but he still feels his desires. He still wants it. Thankfully, the pair are still naked. Steve is still stretched out and Bucky is half hard. He slowly climbs over his sleeping mate and gently sinks himself onto his cock. Steve gasps as he slowly started to bounce on his mate's cock, making it harder. Bucky always used condoms when they made love but this time, Steve made sure Bucky didn't have one. It's been a long time since they did it raw. Ever since...
"Oh god!" Bucky gasped as he suddenly grabbed Steve's hips. Hard.
"You're so big..Alpha." Steve threw his head back as he bounced harder.
"You feel so good."
"You always fuck me just right."
Bucky began thrusting into Steve, going deeper. Steve grabbed the headboard so hard his knuckles turned white. Steve could feel it. Bucky was close. Just a little longer and then..
"Steve." Bucky groaned. "Are we going..raw?"
"Yeah. I hope you don't mind. I love feeling all of you." Steve slammed himself on Bucky's cock. "You're so good."
"Stevie.."
"Give me a baby, Buck. I want your pups."
Bucky started to sob. No, he thought, God no.
"COLD." Bucky shrieked at the top of his lungs.
Steve was in such a euphoric state that he didn't react and Bucky had to push him off. "Buck?"
Bucky jumped off their bed and locked himself in their bathroom.
"Bucky!" Steve shouted, trying to follow him. "Bucky, talk to me."
"I- Just give me a moment." Bucky shakily say, holding himself in the bathroom. "I'm okay, Stevie. I'm okay."
Steve sat on the edge of their bed and waited. He knew Bucky wasn't alright.