Rescue me

T.K P.O.V 

He's awake. After 4 long weeks he's finally awake again and he's doing better. The doctors just checked on him and everything looks fine. He's feeling his right arm and right leg. He's not able to move it without help but with a lot of physiotherapy he will be able to use it normally again one day. They want to do surgery in a few days to put the Fixer out of his pelvis. One more week on the ICU and then he's allowed to get a room on the orthopedic station. In 3 weeks he will go to a rehabilitation center for at least 12 weeks. Probably longer but we will see. I'm just so happy that he's awake. Sadly Eddie and I have to leave now...Carlos needs to rest and his parents want to visit him as well. We will come back on Sunday. Tomorrow his parents want to spend time with him. 

Eddie and I grab some food on the way back and have a movie night. 

On Saturday Eddie has a football game and I go with him. They won, so we decide to go out tonight. We go to a bar and have a few drinks. Nothing much. We sleep at my house tonight.

We get up late, eat breakfast and start our way to the hospital. 

T.K: knock knock can we come in? *smiles* 

Carlos: Hey *smiles softly* sure come in. 

Eddie: how are you feeling? 

Carlos: High *laughs softly* I still get a high pain medication, hopefully after the surgery on Tuesday they are able to put it down a little bit. They tried it yesterday but the pain is...

Eddie: don't worry about that. It's getting better. 

Carlos: yeah. So I asked my parents about what happened, they didn't want to answer me. Just like you two before I fell into a coma. Now tell me what happened. 

T.K: I don't think it's our task to tell you that. *sighs* 

Carlos: why not? I mean my parents told me that you helped me. I just know that I had a car accident. Was it my fault? Did I cause the accident? 

Eddie: no you did not. Someone else caused it *sighs* 

Carlos: is the other person okay? What happened? Guys please tell me. 

T.K: the other person is alive. 

Carlos: okay...one more question 

Eddie: okay but can we change topic after that? 

Carlos: sure. My question is, where's Buck? Did you guys find him? Is he alive? 

T.K: *looks at Eddie* he is alive. It's *sighs and looks at the door because someone knocked* 

Taylor: *slowly comes inside* hey *smiles* do you have time for another visitor? 

Carlos: sure who is it? 

Taylor: *slowly pushes a wheelchair into the room* he wants to talk with you 

Buck: *slowly looks at him* hey *quietly* 

Buck is here. I smile. Finally he's able to visit Carlos. He's handcuffed to the wheelchair and his therapist is standing behind him. 

Buck P.O.V 

Yesterday I got my Fixers out and I'm out of the ICU finally. I'm finally able to move again. Not much but a little bit. Physiotherapy starts now. It was so painful. I have therapy now. Taylor is still here. Normally she needs to leave when I have therapy. Today is different. 

Dr.Turner: okay Evan, I don't know if you Heard but your friend woke up from his coma two days ago. You're able to leave your bed again so I think it's a Good idea now to talk with him. I spoke with his doctors and parents. He still doesn't know what happened. It's your task to tell him. On this way you can tell your story. From your perspective and no one is judging you. Are you ready for that? *looks at him* 

Buck: I think so...

Taylor: I'll bring you to his room and after that you are able to talk with Carlos alone. 

Dr.Turner: I'll stay by your side the whole time. You don't have to worry about anything. 

Buck: okay let's go...

It takes us a few minutes to get me into the wheelchair. It was painful. 

Dr.Turner: I'm sorry Evan but we need to put these on again *slowly handcuffs him to the wheelchair* 

Buck: it's okay *sighs* I got used to this...

We go to the ICU. I'm nervous. Taylor opens the door and asks Carlos if we can come in. I can't look at him...I slowly take a look. 

Taylor: T.K, Eddie, come on. Lets give them some time 

T.K: see you later *kisses his forehead softly* 

Eddie: *puts a hand on Bucks shoulder and kneels down in front of him* you can do it. *takes his hand* we all are there for you. 

Buck: thanks *whispers* 

After everyone left the room I look at Carlos. Tears are in my eyes. 

Carlos: what happened to you? Are you okay? *looks at him worried* 

Buck: Carlos this is my therapist Dr.Turner *sobs* I need to tell you something and I want you to listen to me. 

Carlos: sure. Tell me. What is it? What happened to you? 

Buck: first of all I want to apologize for that day at school...I freaked out because I was high...I'm so sorry about that...I was going through a phase. After I got suspended I talked with Taylor. I wanted to have another chance. She noticed that I was high and pushed me away. I drove to the lake where we spend our camping week. I stayed there until that Friday. I drank a lot of beer, smoked, took pills...my phone was off the whole time. I decided to go... *sighs* I made a huge mistake...I got into the car...High...I was driving the road we always take to go to the lake...I was speeding...I wanted to end my life...I wanted to hit a tree or something else but... I don't remember everything from that day...I remember that I saw lights coming towards me...very fast *tears roll over his cheeks* I saw a car...I hit the breaks as hard as possible but it was too late... *sobs* I hit your car...we had a head-on collision...I thought you were dead so I searched for my phone and luckily I just needed to pick up a call from Eddie...they came to the accident as fast as possible...T.K called Owen and he came with his whole crew and rescued us...I am so sorry Carlos. *cries* if I could turn back time I would. I feel so guilty...I can't sleep because all I think about is my mistake...I'm clean for 30 days now *sobs* I'm going through all of this without painkillers...I deserve this...I deserve to feel this pain...I almost killed my best friend...just because I was so stupid *cries* I understand if you are not able to forgive me...I ruined your life...because of me you were in a coma for 4 weeks...I wanted to kill myself and risked other lives...I was cutting for a long time...I felt unloved...useless...I just...I didn't told anyone about it but a week before I ran away I got into a fight with my parents...it was a bad fight...I just feel like no one wants me *sobs* I...they told me things...mean things...I freaked out...I'm in therapy now *sobs and looks at Carlos* I have therapy twice a day, as soon as I'm out of rehabilitation I'll go to a psychiatric hospital. *sobs* because of my injuries I'm not allowed to go there yet. That's why I'm handcuffed to the wheelchair or the bed...they are scared that I will hurt myself or anyone else. It's just for safety. I wasn't able to visit you until today because I had Fixers in my legs and pelvis. They got it out yesterday. I will repeat the senior year or I will not finish school. I don't know yet. We will see. It depends on how I feel...I don't know if I'm ready to go back to school. *takes a deep breath* okay now you know everything...I know it's much...I understand if you can't forgive me...

Carlos: *softly pushes his right hand with his left hand into Bucks direction* come on help me out a little bit *laughs softly* I can't move my right arm by myself

Buck: *softly grabs Carlos right hand as good as possible* 

Carlos: I'm glad that you told me. I'm not mad at you. I'm proud of you. Proud of you that you are getting help now. That you are clean for 30 days now. I'm proud because you had the strength to tell me by yourself. You didn't want to hurt me. You didn't do this on purpose. Why should I be mad at you? We all didn't realize how bad you were doing. *sighs* we should have notice that you were cutting. I'm sorry if we weren't there for you...I forgive you. Can you forgive me? 

Buck: there's nothing I have to forgive you *sobs* you did nothing wrong 

Carlos: yes i did. I will be there for you as good as possible. You will finish school. I'll help you. I need to repeat the last year as well. Obviously *laughs softly* we will do this together okay? If you feel ready for it. If you don't then it's fine. 

Buck: okay *smiles softly* 

Carlos: there's the smile I wanted to see. I hope that you will visit me more often now 

Buck: sure. If I'm able to get out of bed *smiles softly* 

Carlos: or I could ask if we can get into one room. 

Buck: okay. 

Carlos softly squeezes my hand and smiles at me. I am feeling way better now. I did it. I did it. We go back to my room and I climb into my bed again. I close my eyes and fall asleep.