Chapter 21
T.K P.O.V
So it's been four weeks now...four very long weeks with a lot of sleepless nights. Eddie is helping me to keep up with the school stuff...he helps me with learning. Buck is seeing a therapist twice a day now. He's clean for almost 4 weeks now but he's still in a lot of pain. Taylor is by his side as often as possible. Buck wants to see Carlos but he can't...because of two reasons...he's not allowed to get up, I mean he isn't able to get up because of the Fixers in his legs. The other reason is...Carlos is in a coma...for almost 4 weeks now...it was horrible...I was sitting next to his bed, we were talking a little bit and suddenly he closed his eyes and all the monitors started to make noises and...and...another internal bleeding in his brain...they stopped it but since then he's in a coma...I'm visiting him every day.
My knee is getting better. I'm allowed to put pressure on it more and more. Soon I'm able to walk without crutches but it's still a long way with a lot of physiotherapy. I'm clean since 4 weeks now...what happened to Buck really scared me...it's...I did it for Carlos...I want to help him when he needs it and when I'm high I can't...I want him back.
At school everyone keeps asking us about Carlos and Buck. The only question we get is if Buck really tried to kill himself and hurt Carlos while that. I can't hear it anymore. It's official now that Buck and Carlos need to repeat the senior year because they probably won't come back before the end of summer break.
I sit in the cafeteria and wait for Eddie. I get a message from Maddie „Bucks bones are healing very well. They want to put the Fixers out of his legs and pelvis tomorrow. When they are out they will stabilize the bones with plates and screws. I thought you want to know that🙃". I softly smile and text her back. That's good. These Fixers looked so scary...Buck wasn't able and allowed to move. Not even a little bit. He's still handcuffed to his bed with one hand because they can't transfer him to the psychiatric station yet but after this surgery he's able to get out of the ICU. Hopefully.
Eddie: hey little boy *smiles* how are ya feeling?
T.K: tired *laughs* you?
Eddie: yeah me too.
T.K: Maddie texted that Buck gets his Fixers out tomorrow. After the surgery he's able to get out of the ICU.
Eddie: sounds great. *smiles* T.K there's something I want to tell you...
T.K: let me guess *grins* you are allowed to join the army?
Eddie: how did you know?
T.K: instincts *grins* I'm happy for you and worried as well.
Eddie: we will see what happens. *smiles softly* so what are we doing tonight?
T.K: i don't know. I wanted to visit Carlos and after that *sighs* I don't know
Eddie: movies? You want to stay at my place tonight? We could order pizza or something else and watch some movies
T.K: sounds good. *smiles softly* hopefully he wakes up soon...I...I'm getting really worried...
Eddie: me too but at least his body is healing. His brain pressure is going down and his bones are healing. I mean you saw it. His face looks way better than a few weeks ago. Maybe they can put out his Fixer soon as well. We will see. He will wake up. *smiles softly* he's a fighter
T.K: yeah I know that *sighs* it's just Hard...
Eddie: not just for you. It feels weird sitting in class without all of you guys...I mean it was weird without you and now I'm the only one of our group.
T.K: I know this sounds mean but at least I don't have to finish school alone *laughs softly* you still have Taylor in your class
Eddie: yeah and
T.K: and what? Is there something you want to tell me as well *grins* are you dating someone?
Eddie: maybe *grins* her name is Ana.
T.K: wait wait wait *grins* the quiet Ana from your class? This hot girl?
Eddie: maybe *grins* she's a 10. She's nice, friendly, open, beautiful, lovely and the sex is good *laughs*
T.K: more information than I wanted *laughs* I'm glad you're happy *smiles*
Eddie: so I have one question *laughs* before you two fought and the accident happened, did you two?
T.K: no not yet. I was, I wasn't ready for it yet...
Eddie: why are you looking down? There's nothing wrong about that. *smiles* I will tell you something now. The first time is something special. You won't get it back. Do It when you're ready. Some people are ready very early and some people need more time. It's fine.
T.K: it's just, I'm scared. Scared about it...I don't want to do something wrong...I mean...I never did this before. Carlos isn't a virgin anymore so *sighs*
Eddie: then trust me he will help you. *smiles* if something doesn't work on the first try than he won't be mad at you.
T.K: sure but it will take a lot of time until we are able to have intimacy again.
Eddie: who said that?
T.K: it's pretty obvious. I mean
Eddie: sure right now he's in a coma but after that? He's still a man with his needs *laughs*
T.K: oh my gosh *laughs* but thanks. *smiles and looks at his phone* hey my last two periods are cancelled.
Eddie: mine as well *grins* come on let's drive to the hospital
We put away our food and go to his car. I'm glad that I was able to talk with Eddie about it. It was bothering me a long time. We drive to the hospital and visit Buck first. After a few minutes we have to go because he has therapy. So we Walk over to Carlos room. I sit down next to him and take his hand. Like every day. I tell him about my day and that I'm clean for 28 days now. Eddie tells him that he's joining the army. Eddie starts talking about Ana.
T.K: so she's 17, wants to study after school and wants to become a teacher? *smiles* sounds good *grins* I'm still thinking about what I can do after school.
Eddie: yeah. You still have one and a half year left T.K. No need to hurry. What about firefighter? Like your dad
T.K: maybe *sighs* I don't know. I want to help people for sure
Eddie: you did a great job at the car accident. You would be a great paramedic or firefighter. *smiles*
T.K: thank you *feels a small pressure on his hand* Carlos?
Eddie: what's wrong? Everything okay?
T.K: he squeezed my hand! With his right hand *smiles* this means he's able to feel it. He's able to feel it. Carlos hey, can you hear us? If so then squeeze my hand again.
He does it again and I can't believe it. He's only squeezing it with small pressure but he's squeezing my hand oh my gosh. I look at him. Slowly his eyes open a little bit and he looks into my eyes.
T.K: Hey sleeping beauty, welcome back *smiles*