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“are you alright” his voice fraught with worry as he holds you you. You don't answer him but you allow him to wrap himself around you. You try to hold back the tears that come streaming down your face but it’s no use. He holds your trembling form and tries to calm you down with his words but you can't hear them through the sounds of your whimpering.
“I’m sorry” you stare up into his eyes and he watches a tear fall down your cheeks before pressing his forehead to yours.
“You’ve done nothing wrong Y/N it was just a dream. Nothing can hurt you here” his words soothe your crying and you start to feel better. You look over to the clock and you see that you and Peter have slept in and it’s now just past 12pm. He helps you out of bed and hold your arms as you stare into each other’s eyes. “what happened” his soft eyes offering you comfort as he speaks.
“it was just a bad dream I guess” you give him a weak smile which he returns making you feel a lot better. You both walk out of his room hand in hand before quickly releasing each other when you hear footsteps coming from around the corner. Tony comes around looking both of you up and down.
“Perfect, you two are just who I wanted to see” he smiled at both of you but you were too on edge that he would work out you secret to reciprocate it. Luckily Peter was full of positive energy it just radiated out of him, it’s one of the things you love most about him.
“What did you need Mr Stark?” His question breaking the silence that had begun to envelop you.
“oh nothing much I was just wondering what you two were up to, didn’t see either of you at the kitchens for breakfast” before you could even think to panic about Tony’s line of questioning Peter offers a response.
“we just slept in I guess, I hope no one has finished all the milk” His answer satisfies Tony and he lets you leave in peace.
You spend the day with Peter helping him through all the tasks Tony had given him, you loved working with him and you were thankful for the distraction. You promised yourself you wouldn't see Loki again and you tried to push his ‘plan’ from your mind. How could he think that you would release him that was absolutely out of the question. As the afternoon came you felt better and you went to the kitchens to prepare dinner for yourself and Peter. Before too long most of the avengers were in the kitchen making dinner. Bucky enters the room and sits himself in front of you. “What’s for dinner shorty”
“that's chef shorty to you, and I’m making pasta, none for you though” he always tried to get you to make him food for you and normally you would but you only had just enough pasta for you and Peter.
“hey! How come.”
“because if I was making some for you I would have to quadruple the recipe” Somehow the super serum must have also increased his appetite tenfold because that man could eat enough to fed 5 armies.
“fair” he retreated from the bench and found some leftover pizza. You finish making the pasta and you bring two bowls over to the table where Peter is sitting. He wolfs down the pasta muttering praises as he eats it. When you both have finished he accompanies you to wash the bowls and cutlery. When you head to your rooms you part ways, you had both decided a while ago that it was too risky to sleep overnight with each other although you desperately wanted Peter to sleep with you tonight.
As you make your way under the covers you can't help but remember what Loki wants from you. A part of you wanted to go down to him and tell him you wouldn't even dream of letting him out, but you thought better of it. As you drift to sleep you feel something pulling you towards it, you fight the feeling and tell yourself it’s nothing and you close your eyes.
“Come on Y/N, it’s time”
You open your eyes and you have to stop yourself from screaming out because you find yourself halfway down the hallway. You’ve never been one to sleep walk, you try to turn around but you find your feet continuing down the corridor. NO. STOP. You think to yourself fighting your own body. You have no idea what’s happening but there’s only one explanation. Loki. You feel like screaming or crying but nothing happens, you just keep walking. Before too long you have made it to the room holding Loki’s cell. Every fibre of you being begging your body to turn around or for you to wake up and have this all be just a dream.
“I told you you couldn't leave me” his voice terrifies you as you lock eyes with him. you find yourself making your way to the control centre from the cell. “that's it, now just get me out of here”. Fighting his mind control you manage to speak.
“please, no” he seems shocked that you were able to talk but that doesn't hold his attention for long as before you know it you’ve typed in the code and the force field holding Loki in lifts and he steps out of the cell. Now that he is unrestrained he is even more terrifying to you. He steps forward, his body inches from you own.
“Good girl, thank you for releasing me, now for the fun part” desperately you try to escape his control over you, you a feel tear streaming down you face and he delicately raises a finger to your cheek and dries it off. “don't worry doll, I’m not going to hurt you” a few distant sounds from across the compound seem to spook him as he prepares the next move. “it’s time for us to leave” he grasps you hand and breaks off into a sprint. You try to resist but your feet are already sprinting with him. As you make you way to the exit. Blocking your way you see the shape of a person, as you get closer you can clearly make it out as Peter. A wave of relief rushes over you which quickly turns sour as you he turns to see you running with Loki.
“what are you doing Y/N” fear clouding his words. you try to yell back to him telling him that Loki is somehow controlling your movements, you want to tell him to call for Tony but you can’t. Tears fall down your face as Loki grabs you tighter and Peter stands tall ready to fight. Suddenly Loki’s voice cuts through the crushing silence.
“fight him”
You can't fight Peter, you won’t. Yet you feel your body walk towards him as he looks at you with nothing but confusion and betrayal you tell yourself that he has to know that you are not doing this on purpose, that Loki is making you do this. You’re standing right in front of him now and your body moves to punch him. “Y/N” his voice is more of a soft plea begging you to stop as he blocks you attack. You grab his shoulders and throw him against the wall trying desperately to tell him you’re sorry but it’s no use. He backs away from you but whatever Loki has done to you forces you to follow him. “what are you doing” his eyes are tearing up as he reaches for your arms to hold you down. You pull them from his grasp and push kick him in the stomach sending him stumbling backwards barely able to stand. Tears are now streaming down your face as you move towards him. “Y/N stop this… please” he begs as you punch him across the jaw. There’s blood on your hands now and you try desperately to fight against Loki’s mind control but it’s no use. You are completely at his mercy. Peter is so shaken from your last blow that he is powerless to stop your next strike. He falls to the ground bent over but Loki isn’t done with him you feel yourself walk over to him terrified about what Loki will make you do, when suddenly Tony and the rest of the avengers appear. You can see the look on their faces as they watch you stand over Peters limp body. Tony rushes forward and sees Loki standing with you.
“Y/N. what have you done”
you fight against Loki’s control but he is too powerful you manage to choke out a muffled “I’m sorry” but you can't tell if they heard you they must think you did this on purpose what else would they think. Loki grabs your hand again running off out of the compound. Tony and the other avengers rush to Peters side before a few of them try to go after you and Loki.
“Let her go” Tony says holding Peter in his arms taking him to the infirmary.
“but what abou-” Thor interjects before Tony cuts him off
“I said let her go!”