dreamer

It had been days since the horrid fight with her family, afterwords every person involved came out feeling bad about the way things went down. Amelia felt terrible for putting her parents through everything she had, they didn't deserve it but as much as the guilt weighed down on her heart she couldn't bring herself to refuse another invitation to a party for that night. Her father was upset that things were taken to an extreme level, he'd never been one for conflict. Lastly her mother was feeling like the worst mom in the world, she had no idea how to help her daughter so she resulted to anger instead. She never wanted to make Amelia feel the way she did but on the other hand she desperately needed her to know that her actions were dangerous and pills were not something to mess with. Both of the women wanted to apologize however neither knew exactly how, as both were coming from a place of believing they were doing what's best for themselves. Amelia had always let things slide in the past, she rarely stood up for herself but now things were different. She didn't need to take shit from anybody, she was trying to figure out how she fit into the world and nobody could judge the way she handled it. She liked partying, it allowed her to take her mind off of her own life and let loose for a bit.

The girls had dragged her to another party and she had walked in feeling like the baddest bitch in the room, this was something she'd never experienced before but she loved it. The girls instantly made their ways to the kitchen where they made themselves drinks, trying to ignore the obvious stares from the boys. The night went by in a flash as Amelia found herself wasted and dancing with her girls in the blink of an eye. She wasn't sure how much time had passed when Jackie asked if they wanted to go downstairs and smoke, they all agreed and followed their friend. Amelia had never smoked before so she was a bit nervous as they handed her the dab pen, she took a few hits trying her best to inhale the smoke before coughing it out widely. They all break into laughing fits as she continues to cough her lungs out, the girl flips off her friends before handing it off. She had only taken a few hits and was feeling it majorly, she paid no mind to the fact that she had just fucked herself for the next morning, all she wanted to do was laugh and eat. Time slipped away from her as her head emptied of all coherent thoughts, she had no idea how she'd gotten into her friends car. The change of scenery allowed her to sober up a bit and looks around confused

"what the hell?" she asks

"babe you passed out, don't worry we're on the way home now"

"ok"

"hang in there we're almost there"

"I might throw up" she comments leaning her head on Jackies shoulder

"just tell me and I'll pull over ok?"

"ok" she replies before closing her eyes and allowing her head to fall back against the seat.

"Amelia wake up!" a voice whisper screams in her ear, the girl groans and opens her eyes to find Kaden looking at her. He was currently holding her up on their front porch as her friends watch trying to make sure she got in ok, she smiles and blows them a kiss and watches as they get back in the car and drive away.

"what the hell were you thinking?"

"what do you mean?" she asks as her eyes roll back, he sighs angrily and helps her into the house trying to be as quiet as possible. He helps her up the steps and into the bathroom where he sets her down in front of the toilet

"you know what I mean! you're so lucky mom and dad are asleep otherwise you'd be literally murdered"

"yeahhh"

"Amelia this behavior is unacceptable, I can't keep doing this for you"

"what this is the first time you've helped me"

"yeah this week, last week I had to help you in the house twice" he comments leaning back against the wall, she looks at him feeling herself getting sober and nods understandably. She didn't realize that her actions were not only affecting her, but her brother as well. She opens her mouth to apologize when her stomach curls and she instantly leans over emptying the contents into the toilet. Kaden watches sadly as she finishes and leans her head against the toilet

"you can't keep doing this" he comments before hauling her back to her feet, he brings her into her room and sets her down on the bed, tucking her in tightly. She watches as he grabs a chair and pulls it over to her bed taking a seat

"what are you doing?"

"I have to make sure you don't choke on your own puke" he says leaning back in the chair and getting comfortable.

"I'm sorry Kaden, you shouldn't have to do this"

"Its ok, just get some rest we can talk tomorrow" he says, she smiles softly at his words and closes her eyes allowing sleep to take over.

-

The next morning wasn't the best she'd experienced, the girl woke up with a pounding headache and the urge to throw up once again. Kaden had gotten her some 'hangover cures' which were able to get her out of bed and into the shower, once she washed off the previous night she felt much better. The guilt still weighed down on her, she had no idea Kaden was the reason she was getting inside safely, but it didn't surprise her as he'd always taken care of her. She knew that she needed to speak with her brother to repair any damage she'd caused with her behavior, so after she got ready for the day the girl knocks on his door. A few moments later he opens it with a blank face and gestures for her to come in, she takes a seat on the chair and runs her hands through her hair trying to think through what she wanted to say

"I see you're feeling better"

"yeah I am thanks to whatever you gave me this morning"

"its an old college trick I picked up"

"Kaden I wanted to come In here and apologize for my behavior"

"Amelia you were just trying to experience things I can't blame you for that"

"but I wasn't being smart, I was stupid and could have hurt myself" she replies as tears feel her eyes, he doesn't respond but rather nods

"I'm sorry for forcing you to continue to take care of me even after all this time"

"hey you don't need to apologize, I like taking care of people"

"I know but what I've been doing sucks and I promise not to do that as much anymore"

"thank you"

"no thank you" she says smiling softly before exiting the room, as she makes her way downstairs to make some food her phone buzzes she opens the notification to see Jackie texting the group chat 'party at Miles tonight?'.

'what if we did something other than get fucked up?' Amelia sends

'like what?'

'what about the docs? today is supposed to be hot we could hang out and swim'

'that actually sounds so fun lets do it!'

-

"ladies if you ask me this is much better than partying" Jackie comments as they lay out on their towels trying to get vitamin D. The girls all hum agreeing with her words, Amelia smiles and rolls onto her stomach squinting as she spots a boat headed their way.

"do you guys think there's any cute guys on that boat?" she asks, the girls all turn their attention to the boat

"thats an old rich man boat"

"whats wrong with old guys?"

"they're wrinkly"

"yeah but clearly he has money" Jackie comments, the girls all turn to face her with shock written all over their faces. They all burst out laughing at her comment as the large expensive looking boat pulls into the dock, their giggles quiet down as they watch an older man work to die the boat up. They share a look knowing that they were right it was an older man driving the nice boat

"Jackie there's your man go get him" Amelia whispers, the girls laugh loudly as she receives the middle finger for her comment. Their laughter quiets down as a young man walks out from underneath the ship, his back was facing them but for some reason they could just tell he was gorgeous. They watch as he works with the older man they assumed was his father to dock the boat, after a few minutes he walks back up to the front of the boat directly across from them, they all practically drool as his shirt was unbuttoned enough for them to see his abs. His face was covered by sunglasses but Amelia couldn't help but recognize him, something was so familiar however she couldn't put her finger on it. The guy sends a wave over to them and she instantly blushes, she hadn't realized that she'd been staring the entire time he probably thought she was a freak. He turns and walks over to the dock and jumps down onto it going over to his father, she was unable to rip her eyes off of him.

"Amelia you're drooling"

"what?" she asks horridly wiping her mouth, the girls laugh and she rolls her eyes

"thats a beautiful man right there"

"I agree"

"did you see those Abs?"

"look he took off his sunglasses, damn that boy is fine!" Jackie states, Amelia turns back around to see that he had in face removed his sunglasses, she gasps when she takes In his face. He looked exactly like Ashton, but by the time she had registered it the man had already turned around and begun walking away. She watches as they get into a Range Rover and drive away with wide eyes, that had to be Ashton right? Theres no way someone could look exactly like him and be a complete different person. This whole time she figured that he was just a figment of her dreams but now she began to wonder if maybe her dreams weren't so fake, was she being shown her life?