dreamer

Time seemed to flow by easily as Amelia now had something to look forward to. Every night she would spend a bit of time with her family before sneaking up to her bedroom and going to sleep, usually around eight she would fall asleep and enter her fairy tail dream land. It was odd, she still could not figure out how in the hell this was happening but she couldn't complain. However lately the more she slept the harder it was to get back to her dream, sometimes she would fall asleep and she would have normal dreams, similar to the ones she had before her attempt. Now she figured out that she needed to be in a deep sleep in order to get back there and it had been getting increasingly hard to pull off. So she began taking her fathers sleeping pills, just a half of one was enough for her to spend the entire night in her dream and it was perfect. After she had awoken from a cute date that Ashton took her on the girl stretches the muscles in her body before getting up and taking a seat at her desk, she wrote about the entire nights events and smiles as she remembered something he had mentioned to her, he had gotten extremely heated about the Seattle Seahawks football team and informed her that he would rather die than watch a game of theres. The thought was funny, he lived in Seattle yet hated their team, however she didn't care she was falling for him. After a few minutes of drawing she looks at the newest drawing of Ashton, he had cut his hair shorter so it wasn't as fluffy as it used to be, she gave him a bit go grief about it but overall loved the change, nothing would look bad on him.

"Lia you up?" Kadens voice asks

"yeah"

"breakfast is ready"

"alright I'll be down" she says placing her journal back in her desk underneath her books, she slides a pair of sweats on before walking downstairs and taking a seat listening as they all spoke about the game the night before. She fights to keep a smile off of her face

"Amelia what is so funny?" her mother asks

"nothing I was just thinking"

"well we need to talk to you about something anyway" her dad says

"whats up?"

"so I've noticed that quite a few of my sleeping pills have been taken from the bottle and everybody else Denys involvement"

"oh yeah I took them sorry I forgot to tell you"

"is there something you wanna talk about? anything bothering you at school?" her dad asks softly, she looks up at him feeling her heart break, she hadn't considered how bad that would look. They were worried she would try to OD on pills again

"I'm not trying to kill myself I just have had trouble sleeping"

"ok, thats fine just make sure you let one of us know before you do something like that again ok?"

"I will, I'm sorry for scaring you" she says feeling guilty

"its alright sweetie don't worry about it"

-

After Amelia had her classes she decided to swing by Starbucks to grab a coffee, she had finals coming up and she needed to stay up and study. After she orders her drink she walks over tot he other side and waits for her order when a few familiar girls enter and order their own drinks. She stares over at them trying to place their faces when one of the girls with curly dark hair walks over to her and smiles "hey Amelia right?

"yeah"

"we have Soc together, I'm Jackie"

"oh yeah of course, nice to meet you Jackie"

"are you ready for the final?"

"I think I'll be ok but I'm still gonna study, what about you?" she asks

"same the concepts aren't too hard, but studying is awful I hate it"

"me too, theres nothing fun about it"

"we could study together if you want" Jackie asks, the girl smiles as she feels taken aback, she never had a friend before. Most people just made fun of her

"I would love to"

"great, do you mind if my friends come? they are just gonna chill while we study"

"thats totally fine"

"cool lets go"

-

After a few hours of hanging out with Jackie and her girls it was safe to say that Amelia had just made her very own friends. As awful as it sounds the girl had never really gotten close with anybody before, she always preferred to be alone after enduring years or ridicule during her middle school years. She didn't trust anyone enough to let them in, until Ashton. Once she had met the man of her dreams he seemed to brighten her up, she was much more willing to be an actual human once he showed her that happiness was something she could have. She owed him everything, if she had never met him then she never would have said yes to a study date with the girls and she never would have been able to experience anything fun. Once she got home the girl rushes into her brothers room with a smile on her face

"whoah whats up with you?" he asks, confused by her excitement

"I made friends today"

"really? thats awesome Lia!"

"yeah" she replies smiling widely, she turns and makes her way over to the door

"Amelia"

"yeah?" she asks turning back to face him

"hold onto whatever it is that's been making you so happy these past few weeks"

"I will" she nods before exiting the room and making her way into her own. It was nearly nine when she got home and the girl was tired, turns out social interaction was exhausting. Amelia proceeds to complete her night routine by showering, brushing her teeth, writing about the days events, and then opening her drawer and pulling out the bottle of pills. She pulls out one of the small white ones that was already cut in half and swallows it before placing them back in the drawer and hopping into bed.

She waits for two hours for the meds to kick in and force her to sleep, however nothing happens. Her body was exhausted but her brain was not allowing her to sleep tonight, she frowns and rolls over onto her side staring at her desk drawer. After a few minutes on contemplating the girl remembers what her brother told her earlier 'hold onto whatever it is that's been making you so happy', if she couldn't sleep then she would not be able to see Ashton. She sighs and gets up from her bed and walks over to the drawer carefully pulling out the bottle once again, this was something she had to do in order to maintain the happiness in her life. As of now he was all she had, and he is more than worth it. A pill and a half wouldn't effect her too much, she figured that if things got too bad then she'd quit and find other ways to sleep peacefully. Amelia pops a full pill into her mouth and swallows it before getting back into bed, she waits a while before her mind slowly starts to drift off into peaceful sleep.