Chapter 17
We first headed back at my dorm, so that I can change into something more comfortable and breathable.
When I unlocked the door, I saw Yelena sitting on her bed engulfed by the music from her phone and busied herself on her sketchbook.
Wanda sat on my bed admiring all the books I had on the shelves. I knocked on my desk trying to get her attention which at some point she did look up.
"эй нат." (hey nat) She said still focusing her attention on her drawings.
She glanced up to see Wanda and switched back to english.
"Hey Wanda." She said going straight back on her drawing.
"Hey Yel." Wanda waved to see that Yelena was not focusing on anyone at the moment.
"Я останусь в общежитии Ванды до ужина." (I'll stay at Wanda's dorm until dinner.) I said.
"Ты останешься там до завтра?" (Will you be staying there until tomorrow?) She said not looking up.
"нет, я вернусь после ужина." (Nope, I'll be back after we have dinner.)
"О, хорошо, я просто захожу в общежитие позже, чтобы мы могли пойти туда вместе." (Oh ok, I'll just drop by the dorm later so we can go there together.)
"понятно." (Got it.) I said changing on to more comfortable and breathable clothes.
"Я могу сказать, Ванде нравится, когда ты говоришь по-русски."(I can tell Wanda likes it when you speak Russian.) She said glancing at Wanda who was clearly engulfed by the redheads naturality in speaking such language.
"и почему ты так думаешь?."(And why do you think that?) I asked.
"Она смотрит на тебя на протяжении всего твоего разговора."(She's staring at you throughout our whole conversation.) Yelena chuckled.
I caught Wanda staring at me which made me laugh out loud causing her to snap out of it and look at me confused.
"Она даже не сказала ни слова."(She didn't even speak one word.) Yelena chuckled.
"Да ладно, не обижайся на нее, когда она даже не понимает, что ты говоришь."(Oh come on, don't be mean to her when she can't even understand what you're saying.)
"Я не злюсь!"(I'm not being mean!) She huffed, now looking at Wanda switching back to english.
"Hey Wanda am I being mean?" She asked.
"No, Why do you think that?" Wanda said confused at the topic.
"Well Natalia here thinks I do."
Shit.
"Natalia?" Wanda looked at me puzzled.
"дерьмо, извини, я забыл."(Shit, sorry Nat I forgot.) Yelena said looking scared.
"No. It's fine, I'll tell her later anyways." I sighed.
"Tell me what?" Wanda said with a bewildered look on her face.
"I'll tell you later malysh, just wait."
"Do you know what that means?" Yelena quipped.
"I tried to ask her but she kept excusing that she'll tell me on saturday." Wanda frustratedly said.
"Well it means b-" And that's where I cut her off.
"We'll be going now, see you later Yel." I said grabbing her hand and went out the door.
"Aw she was about to tell me what it meant." Wanda pouted.
"Patience malysh, patience." I chuckled.
"Кстати!" (By the way!) Yelena called out.
"Yeah?" I said peaking my head through the unclosed door.
"Ты лучше мне все расскажи позже." (You better tell me everything later.) She added.
"Не волнуйтесь, я сделаю это."(Don't worry, I will.) I promised, I swear she's sometimes such a gossip girl.
"You better." She said going back to finish her drawing as I was closing the door.
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The walk to Wanda's dorm was fairly silent but she still let's me hold her hand, so I don't think she's upset about the name slip up.
We went inside to see that no one was in here. Eventually, Wanda spoke up and said that Pepper was just out with her boyfriend, previously mentioned by Yelena.
She took off her shoes letting her legs stretch and plopped herself on the bed.
"Aren't you gonna change?"
"Too tired." She yawned.
"Come on let's get you changed, or else you'll stink."
"Let me tell you I smell fine." She sat up and protested.
"Nope, either you change or I'll sit on the floor." I chuckled.
"Fine...Can you turn around though?"
"Sure, whatever makes you feel comfortable darling." I said as I turned to face the door.
"You can turn now."
"So, do you want to sleep or continue the game?" I asked.
"Let's continue. You start." She replied dryly.
"Are you mad?" I started.
"I wouldn't say mad is the right word for that but no, I have no right to be mad at you." She stated.
"What's your actual name?" She questioned.
"Well it's quite a mouthful but it's Natalia Alianovna Romanova." I said pursing my lips.
"It's a beautiful name, why didn't you tell me?" She asked.
"Ah, It's my turn to ask darling." I laughed at her desperation on knowing the answer.
"Do you have a full name? You always pause when after you finish saying your first name." I asked.
"Yeah, it's actually Wanda Marya Maximoff." She said embarrassed of her middle name.
"Marya kinda suits you." I teased.
"Please don't call me Marya, it feels weird." She quickly added.
"I won't but I would like to call you mine." I smiled smugly.
"Take me out on a date first." She remarked.
"Oh I will." I said surely.
"Now back to your question, I don't like my real name because of it's history." I sighed.
"Can we pause this game for a minute? I wanna know why." She said.
"My parents used to call me that everytime they can and when people call me that, it just reminds me that they're not here to call me that anymore." I paused gathering all of my thoughts.
"It just brings back all the memories I had with them as a child and now... Now they don't get to see me for who I am now." I said as I felt the tears forming.
"It was my 8th birthday,They were going to pick me up from practice and after that they promised that we'll celebrate my birthday together." I said as tears start falling.
"Please don't cry milacik." She said wiping my eyes.
"They said they were going to pick up something for me, I waited. I waited for them to come back but all I got was an officer leading me to a foster unit. I had to mourn them alone." I cried.
"You're eyes are too gentle to cry, beautiful even yet they hide so much meaning, so much pain." She said caressing my cheek.
"I'll die alone." I sighed.
"You're not alone." She grabbed my hand and kissed it.
I just sat there in awe from what she said, our eyes never leaving eachother. Moments of silence have passed she looked away, she tried to open her mouth to speak but nothing came out.
"Can- Can I be the one to make new memories using your name?" She hesitated.
I didn't know what to say I just stared at her, making me adore her even more, how did I become so lucky. My mind was just blank, all this time this was the most at peace I have been.
"You can." I tearily smiled.
Tears falling down my face as the joy that this girl infront of me did, made me fall even harder.
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We just sat there with our foreheads touching cherishing the comforting silence between us, I glanced at her clock to see that it was almost 5.
It has been two hours since class ended, now we'll only have an hour before Pepper or Yelena come to get us.
"Wands?" I whispered breaking our silence.
"Yes Talia?" She whispered.
I blink once, blink twice. There it is she said it. She said the name I once hated, now turning it into something I want to love.
"I have never heard you talking about your mother before." I said under my breath.
"That's because there's nothing to talk about her." She spat.
"Why?" I asked concered to why she acted up all of a sudden.
She sighed in frustration.
"She just got up and left us, she left me and Peitro to that monster and never came back." She said spitting venom on every word.
"She hated us, she never even said goodbye. We grew up without a mother and now have to face the fact that the man we once called father is still out there, and... and...." She breathe in heavily.
She looked at me and I saw the panic creeping in her eyes, from a once calm and paced her breathing turned fast and shallow.
"Breathe with me darling." I said stroking her cheek.
"Focus on your breathing maylsh." I said trying to get her to focus.
"Come on breathe in, breathe out, in, out. That's it." I said looking directly at her eyes.
She finally managed to calm down and maintain her breathing, she raised her hand to hold mine against her cheek. She looked at me with her eyes filled with sadness and pain.
"i'm sorry." she mumbled breaking the eye contact and letting go of my hand.
Her apologizinc for a panic attack just broke my heart.
"Hey, why are you apologizing?" I said softly.
"because you had to witness that." She whispered.
"You don't need to be sorry, it's normal." I said.
"still." She muttered.
"how did you manage to calm me that quickly?" She questioned.
"I used to have them back at the foster care unit and they usually did that to me when it happens." I said chewing my bottom lip.
"Oh. I didn't know." She looked down playing with her hands.
"It's fine that was years ago, but you don't have to apologize for having a panic attack." I said taking her hands onto mine but she's still not looking at me.
"Do you wanna lay down and let me hold you?" I asked.
She gave me a small nod and laid down facing the wall on the edge of the bed. I laid beside her opening up my arms and shifted her closer to me. I held her then and there, humming small songs and lullabies gently stroking her back.
"I remember how we felt, sitting by the water
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing, that's ever been mine"
She looked at me with a small smile and at that moment, I knew that to me she was more than a friend.
"Did you just quote a Taylor Swift song?" She softly chuckled.
"And what would you do if I did?" I remarked.
"You're a dork." She smiled.
"Maybe I am but what I said is true, and I can't wait to call you mine." I smiled.
"I can't wait." She shifted even closer to me and just closed her eyes.
It had been just three days after meeting her and yet I could see myself spending the rest of my life with her.
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"FBI OPEN UP!" A voice yelled out side the door paired with loud, hard knocks.
Wanda and I jolt up from the noise, I rubbed my eyes as I got up and opened the door. As it opened I saw Yelena laughing her ass off from the prank she pulled.
"Come on guys its already 6, Peppers waiting at our table." Yelena laughed.
"Yeah Yeah, let us get our shoes first." I yawned.
"Hey Yelena." Wanda groggily waved.
"Hurry up, or else they'll run out of sprite." Yelena said in desperation.
"You and your sprite." I laughed as I put my shoes on.
"How's your kidneys by the way." Wanda joked as she put on hers.
"Ha Ha very funny guys. Now let's go."Yelena said rolling her eyes.
Wanda locked her dorm and continued our way down to the cafeteria. Pepper and Darcy were there along with theor trays while we ordered our usual meal and went on with our conversations about our day.
After we finished our meals and went our seperate ways to our respected dorms. Once Yelena and I got there, I told her what happened at the dorm leaving the part where Wanda had a panic attack.
We went on about many things, including all Yelena's designs and portraits. After that we just went to bed and wait for what the next day will bring.