Chapter 20
He walks over to you, you were in the kitchen making breakfast for everyone as a thank you plus an apology. You didn't want them to think you were ungrateful last night, you really are not but the only reason they even involved you in their lives is because of loki, and loki still deserves to have his friends by his side, he don't deserve to feel alienated by them after everything he have been through. He didn't break their hearts. You made eggs and bacons and pancakes too, wanda helped you "So I see the shiny necklace with someone's initial on it" she says to you and smirks "We are not back together...yet...it's a gift and I like it" you tell her, you didn't want to divulge what you n loki talked about last night.
Bucky watched you and loki giving flirty glances to each other and he felt a twinge in his heart. Why would he feel that way "Looks like these two fools are back to their senses again" Clint says to him and bucky sighs "Oh no, don't tell me you have eyes on his girl" He asks curiously and Bucky glares at him. "His girl? The girl he left broken and hurt?" Clint gives him a look and then sighs "Look you don't know their story, you don't know what they have been through. You didn't see them, the first time loki dragged me 20 miles to that store, I was so pissed, he broke up with that psycho chick like a week ago and I was worried about this new thing developing so quickly, but then I saw them together that day and it just felt right, they belong together, she truly gets him, he worships her, and no matter what happened between them, none of them stopped loving each other so I would advise you to get a grip on your emotions" Bucky looks at you from the distance, he has never felt that way about anyone, never really had the time or got the chance. Why did it have to be you?
Once everyone is done with their breakfasts you notice the time, and you need to leave now if you want to make it work on time "Drop me to work?" You ask loki and he looks at you. Is this what having butterflies feels like? "Absolutely, my pleasure" you say your goodbyes and he walks you out towards his car. Oh how you have missed that cozy car of his, so many memories.
"Loki pull over somewhere where nobody can see us it's an emergency" you said to him with urgency in your voice, and he gets worried "what's wrong princess are you feeling okay?" He asks you, his pupils blown out as he looks at you but he's trying to focus on the road as well. God you love him so much "just pull over on a deserted road loki it's an emergency" you say hurriedly and he finds a turn and stops, he takes his seat belt off and turns to you, he needs to make sure you're okay but you're smirking, why are you smirking? You both were on your way to work but when you want him, you want him. You take your seat belt off and move to the back seat "Princess what are you..oh norns" you started to unbutton the black shirt you wore and his eyes widened at the sight of your bra clad cleavage "come here baby boy" you laid down on the seat and gave him a look, the look that arouses him instantly. He shifts and tries to get back to you and you pull him in towards you by holding his collar, and he gets on top of you "princess you're so naughty" you lift your head up and pull him in for a kiss, soft and rough at the same time.
You feel his tongue in your mouth and you suck on it and he moans deliciously "you know I could use a spell to hide us right? Want me to? What if someone sees us" he asks you in between the kisses and you smirk again "oh sweet love what's the fun in that, maybe let them see, they'll know who you belong to " he bucked his hips at your response, you're so indecent sometimes, his sweet princess, how did he get so lucky? He was too tall for the back seat but he loved how intimate this felt, how close he felt to you, so engulfed in you, he felt ecstatic as if he was high on something, His mouth trailed over your clothed breasts and he sucked on it, you moaned his name loudly and he needed you so bad, he wanted to ruin you in the backseat of his hair, now everytime he'll look behind he'll see you being so desperate like this. You unbuttoned his pants and took his cock out, hard and leaking already.
"I didn't even do much and look at you babyboy" you stroke him with your fist and he whined at the sensation. He unbuttoned your jeans and pulled it down to your knees. "I'm not the only one feeling that way am I? You're soaking wet, and not to forget it was you being so wanton that you made me stop the car, you're going to be late for work but you don't care do you? You just want to get fucked like the whore you are hmm?" He rubs your lips with his fingers and you moan, you love it when you're trying to make him submit but he turns the tide "I'm yours lo, your whore" you whine as you feel him pinching your clit "ofcourse you're princess, and you're going to be mine only, my precious little whore, I would kill any other man or woman for even thinking about you" he never thought he would address you in such a demeaning way, you're his princess, his goddess but when he called you his whore the first time and felt you clenching around him he knew how much you wanted to be his in every filthy way, and you're his, you belong to him in every way, he stops torturing you with his skilled fingers and runs his cock over your wet entrance, you gasp loudly as he enters you suddenly "oh fuck.. sweet princess, always so tight for me" he curses and moans at the feeling of your tight walls wrapped around him, he feels so snugged, so safe. He grabs your arms with his and locked them over your head as he thrusts into you.
"You're dripping all over the seat , so filthy, so unabashed, have no care in the world when I'm inside you do you? Gonna walk around all day with my cum in you hmm?" he whispers in your ears as he thrusts in and out of you, he would love to drag this out but he can't let you get into any trouble at work, he wouldn't tolerate someone lashing out on you or making you upset "Mmmhhhm god lo please baby" you whine and he fucked you like that, slow and fast and slow again untill you exploded all over his cock and felt his cum cooling your insides.
You snap out of your thoughts as you feel him strapping your seatbelt "Where are you lost Princess?" He smiles at you and starts driving "that necklace, you make it look so beautiful, you have no idea how happy you have made me by giving me this chance at redemption again" he says in one go and you lift your hands to scratch his scalp like you used to always. He breathes heavily as he felt your fingers on his scalp, you could see his adam's apple moving as he gulps nervously. You're going to torture him but in the ways he won't feel hurt emotionally, you can't hurt your precious baby anymore, he's trying to win you, he's doing his best, you can't be cruel to him. You run your fingers on the side of his neck and then squeeze his shoulders, he looks at you with his puppy eyes that makes you want to ravish him "you still have to prove to me that you won't run again" you say firmly and he nods like a kid. "Keep driving lo I'm gonna change in the backseat" you say to him and unbuckle the seat belt "I beg your pardon, you're going to what?" You're torturing him, he knows you're making him pay but he'll take this anyday over your ignorance. "Can't work in a dress now can I?" You giggle and take out a shirt and your jeans from your bag, you could have changed in the tower before leaving but then you'd not get him squirming in his seat.
He looks at you from the mirror view as you lie down on the seat, your dress riding up and he gets a glimpse of your thighs and your curves, he felt a sudden shift in his pants at the sight. You pull the jeans up and he breathed a sigh of relief, he's trying so hard to not crash, but you're not in the mood to show him mercy are you, he watches you unzip the dress and you slid it off your body, his eyes met yours and he looked away, he feels like a perv, you're not his yet, he should respect that. But norns you're a little minx. He felt relieved again when you put the shirt on. Once you're done you slip back into the passenger seat again "How do I look?" You ask him, you love torturing him like this, you know he wants you and God you want him so bad, how could you not when he looks at you like he wants to eat you. "Always beautiful princess" he says nervously.
When you reach the store you look at him and he's just so beautiful, you always love him when he's dressed so casually in midgar...earthly garments "You be safe for me please, can I come in I need to buy few things?" He asks you and you do something he didn't expect at all, you climb on top of him and put his seat down just a little bit. You're so frisky today, not that he's complaining, you put your hands behind his neck, caressing the back of it with your nails "Princess I..you.. what are...you" before he can stutter more you cut him off "Didn't sleep last night did you? I can see the dark circles starting to settle in" you ask softly and he looks at you, god hes so beautiful, smells so good, it's taking everything for you to not mount him right now "Mmmhmm thought ..ab..about you all night" he said softly and you kiss his forehead. He can't read you, you look like you're mad at him but you're being so close, so gentle "get some sleep tonight okay?" You say firmly "yes princess" you smile and caress his cheeks "good boy" .
Then you opened the door from his side and climbed out very quickly, you're he'll bent on punishing him like this but he'll take it, he'll take everything you'll give him, atleast you're not ignoring his existence when that's exactly what you should do. When he got out he walks with you inside the store, sometimes he wonders if this is what you would want to do all your life, you must have had dreams like other mortals. When things get better between you two he'll help you find your true passion "so what do you wanna buy?" You ask him and he giggles "just trying to impress this girl I love so much" he says to you and you blush, smooth fucker. "Well if you need help you know who to call" you wink at him.
Loki didn't really want to get anything, he just wanted to be close to you, you were taken from the store last time, and even though Thanos is gone, there are other dangers lurking everywhere. He can't help but be worried about them. Now since he's here, he have decided to pamper you, so he got all your favourite things, and he was going to try and make this midgardian cuisine called pasta that you both enjoy greatly. He have never cooked for you or cooked in his life, you always fed him, but he was going to feed you tonight, hopefully without burning down your kitchen. When he got everything he went to the checkout counter, it had a big line and he could have picked the other one but this one had you, they put you on checkout duty today.
You watched him with his trolley, and smiled, he looks so domestic, and when he tilted his head to look at you, gah uhhdorable. Sometimes you wonder how did you even survive without him all these months again, but there's one thing you know is that you won't be able to take that pain again, and that's what he needs to realise that he can't just leave whenever he wants. There was Only one guy ahead of him and he seemed pissed for some reason "I need to return this, it's useless" he throws a store gift card over at you, and loki glares at him "Sir I'm so sorry but we don't take the gift cards back, also can you please take this to the returns section?" You ask him politely and he gets mad "I'm not going anywhere miss, I need refund" oh no this is a bad day to have a rude customer , loki comes forward as he sees the customer behaving rudely with you "Sir, kindly follow what the lady said and move forward" he asks politely, such a polite baby.
The way his neck veins are popping out you could tell he was controlling his anger "loki it's alright, sir please move forward to the return section there's a line you're blocking" you request him again and he laughs "I'm not going anywhere you stupid bitch" before you could say anything or react you see loki grabbing the man by his neck, and drag him to the side, you call the security before the situation could escalate "I'm trying to be decent, because my princess works here but if I ever catch you being mean to her again, or anyone for that matter who works a truly thankless job like this, you'd wish you were never born" his voice was low and dark. The only reason, this man is not in different pieces is because he doesn't want to cause you any trouble. Once the guards shoved the man out of the store he came back to you "you okay my love?" He asks softly and you nod.
"I'm used to it don't worry" you smile as you start to run the things he purchased through the scanner, all the things you like to munch on. Sweet baby. You shouldn't be used to this, the thought of you being disrespected like this makes him enraged, once you're done with his stuff, he pays and you give him the bag "have a good day sir" you smile at him and it brightens his mood instantly. He leaves the store soon after, he wanted to surprise you, you missed him as soon as he left, you're feeling such peace after a long time. He just makes everything better, even your mundane job. When your shift ended he was outside the store to pick you up but so was Bucky. Shoot
"What are you doing here barnes?" Loki asks him and he shrugs, "Doing what you haven't been doing these past three months" you watch them interacting from afar and you have a feeling it's nothing good, you need to have a chat with Bucky soon if you have lead him on in anyways you need to apologise and sort it out. He's a good friend and you wouldn't want to lose him. "I made a grave mistake barnes, something I'll always regret making, and I'm trying to fix it, never thought you'd be chasing her affection as soon as I get out of the picture, were you looking for the opportunity? Very well then, I don't blame you, she's precious like that" Loki smiles and Bucky is pissed off "I took care of her, she cried on my shoulder atleast once a week because you broke her completely and I have heard how you have done this before as well, so what are the odds that it may happen again?" he snaps back and it was his turn to frown. He have, both times he thought he was protecting you, but he failed you instead. Never again, maybe he just needs to protect you from himself only, from him hurting you like that. When you reach them you say hi awkwardly to both of them "Bucky I didn't think you'd come today, loki dropped me off today and.." you get interrupted very quickly by him "well good luck with that, I don't have to waste my time anymore" he turns around as he glares at loki and leaves.
Waste of time? You thought it was friendship, was he looking for more? Why would he think that, he knew how much you adore loki. You're walking around with his name on your neck for god sake. "Princess? I'm sorry about that" Loki tells you and you sigh "you don't have to apologise for him Lo, are we gonna drive two blocks?" You giggle, you will deal with bucky later. When you reach your apartment you say goodbye to him, and well, that ruins his plans, he cleaned your whole place, made the dinner and he wanted to spend time with you. You smile as you see the look on his face when you closed the door, when you got inside you saw candles everywhere and you could smell the pasta he made, you saw the small table that was decorated with your favourite flowers, you went back to the door and you saw him outside fidgeting "lo do you want to come in ?" You smile sheepishly and he nods, you grab his arms and pull him in "Silly baby" you whisper and he breathes in sharply. "I'll shower and come out soon okay? Make yourself comfortable" you tell him and he sat down on the couch waiting for you.
He heard the shower running as it's a small studio apartment, and he thought about your naked body soaked under the water, thought about him so close to you as he took you from behind very intimately, norns he needs to stop having such filthy thoughts. He snaps out of his thoughts as he heard you calling him. You wore a tank top that hardly left anything to the imagination and a very short shorts. You said you'd not go easy on him and you wouldn't. He made you sit on the table as he served you dinner, a god was serving you dinner. Let that sink in, When you took the first bite you moaned loudly "Jesus Christ are you sure you made this, it's delicious" you spoke with a mouth full and he giggled "that's a relief darling, I was extremely worried, I followed this recipe by some ramsey fellow" he says to you and he fed you a bite from his plate, he also got your favourite dessert and you relished every bite of it. He watched every little thing you did with a smile, he have missed being so homely with you, he have missed you more than you can imagine.
After eating you asked him if he wanted his special tea and he have never denied that. The ambiance in your apartment was so different because of all the candles, you saw how the candles didn't even melt , must be some magic. He was sitting on your couch, as you took his cup and yours and sat next to him. You ran your fingers over his scalp again and he moaned "oh princess..you're killing me and I know you're doing it on purpose" he mumbled and you get on top of him, should he hold you ? Touch you? Grab you? Kiss you? He can't.. He didn't want to cross a line "What purpose?" You ask him as you kiss the tip of his nose and he shuddered "you're punishing me" his voice came out all breathy and you wanted to have him right there "I'm not doing no such thing lo" you peck him on the lips and he almost lost control, he opened his mouth, he wanted more but you were not going to give it to him even though it killed you to resist.
"You want to stay?" You ask him and he nods "yes please" he's so adorable it's frustrating you, he thinks he's the only one getting tormented by this? "Am I sleeping on the couch?" He asks you, you're still upset with him, you won't let him sleep with you, that's how couples do it after they fight right, that's what Carla and him did but that wasn't even a relationship "You think I'll make you stay and then leave you all alone on the couch? To run your pretty little head? Nopes" you kiss his forehead again and he purrs like a kitten as felt your fingers behind his ears "Let's go sleep little kitten" he follows you as you get up and you lie down on your bed, he always sleeps on the right side so you made the space for him, he was keeping his distance, always a gentleman. You snuggled to him, almost getting yourself on top of him and he sighed, he wanted to feel you desperately "you can hold me lo" you mumble and he wrapped his arms around you tightly "Good night lo" you speak softly and he kissed your forehead "Princess? Do you still love me as much as you used to?" He had to ask, he can't help but feel like whatever he did have made you drift so far away from him, he can't lose your love, not even a fraction of it
You lift your head up to look at him and pecked his lips again "I never stopped, and i never will" you put your head down and he smiled, completely content with your answer. When you fell asleep he put you down next to him, you were still in his arms but this way he could see your beautiful face, your eyes fluttering in between, your heart beating, he wanted to soak in the warmth you provided him with, the comfort, the safety.
He kissed your forehead and he almost fell asleep himself when he felt you shaking and shivering "princess hey" he called you softly, you must be having a nightmare, in the midst of everything he almost forgot what you went through that day, how did he leave you when you needed him the most, "nooo noo noo please stop pleasee" you mumbled and he had to wake you up "hey hey princess come on wake up sweetheart I'm right here" you started to hyperventilate and he jerked you a little, that made you sit up, you were sweating and shaking and gasping for breath. He held you instantly and you were trying to get away still not completely out of the nightmare "it's me love, I have got you okay look at me" he said softly and you look at him, your tear stained face and hiccups sank his heart. You were sniffing and shaking terribly "I have got you princess, I won't let you get hurt again, never again I promise" he mumbled as he kissed your forehead and you looked at him. His heart broke at the thought of you waking up alone, when you felt like this, what you must have done, must have bundled up and cried after that, he will never forgive himself for leaving you that day "it hurts.. lo..scary" you sniffed and he engulfed you in his arms so tightly, he needed you to feel safe, he couldn't stop his tears at the sight of your broken state "I know sweet love but I'm here okay? Nothing can touch you anymore I promise" he says to you as he caresses your head with his fingers. You stayed like that for a while and then you fell asleep again feeling safe after a long time.
Next morning before you woke up he made it his mission to make your day better, so he went out to get breakfast, when you woke up alone and didn't see him, it felt like a nightmare again, is he gone again? Did he leave again? Your vision got blurry as you felt tears falling down on your cheeks. When he came back with food, you ran towards him and hugged him so tightly. You need to start trusting him slowly "I won't go anywhere, please I know it's hard for you to trust me right now, but I just need you to know that no matter what happens I'll never let go again, I'll stay darling I promise" once you calmed down he fed you the breakfast with his hand and cherished your giggles and smiles he got "Do you get them often? The nightmares?" He asks you and you nod, he will take you to his healer here on midgard, the one that helped him clear his head. He can't see you like that. He knows the burden of it.
Unfortunately he had to leave because of some avengers stuff and you had to work anyways so he dropped you off before he went to the tower, he hugged you so tight before he left and it made you feel all warm n fuzzy. When your shift ended you got a text from him that he was running five minutes late, but will be there as soon as possible. When you went out you saw Bucky and sighed, you need to talk with him, you texted loki that Bucky was there and he would drop you and he could just meet you at your apartment.
Loki felt extremely jealous with barnes already but now he was starting to get pissed, for some reason he saw barnes as harmless when he asked him to protect you and drop you to work that day, it would have been Clint but he wasn't there that day. Now he totally regrets doing so and on the top of it he left you all alone to get close to him. It's clearly all his fault someone else even have your attention, you used to be all his, solely his. He parked outside of your apartment and saw his bike, did you invite him in? When he reached your floor he was feeling very scared and triggered for some reason, he have felt this before and then his worst nightmare turned into a reality.
You kissed him.