Chapter 21
When you drove home with bucky it was awkward to say the least, he's your friend but the way he has been behaving since yesterday isn't very friend like behaviour. He have been there for you when loki was gone, but you have never seen him in any other light than a friend. You know how infatuated people can get sometimes, and he's infatuated with you. You have had men being interested in you before and losing that interest pretty quickly as well, it happens. Loki has been the only one who has seen beyond your flaws and accepted you just the way you are without judgement or conditions, nobody can make you feel the way he does. You belong to him.
You invited him in for a coffee as you reached your apartment. You need to talk to him today. "Bucky look I don't what's going on here and I don't want to assume but.." he cuts you off before you can speak further "He drops you home one day and you start following him like a lovesick puppy again?" He says to you and you're upset now, really upset "Excuse me Bucky, do not talk to me like that first of all, what's going on between me and him is private and .."
"Private huh? So it's all private now, what happened back then when you were crying on my shoulders because of him?" He interrupts you again "What happened then? I thought you were my friend buck, you protected me that day and.."
"So what you were repaying me for saving your life?" You're getting so pissed off with the way he keeps cutting you. "Stop cutting me off for god's sake, I wasn't paying you back, I genuinely like you as my friend buck but there's nothing more to it" you say to him and you see the pain that filled his eyes, he have been through alot but you can't be with him the way he wants you to, you can only offer him your friendship. You thought he would say something but he walks over to you suddenly and he kisses you, took you a second to realise what was happening and you pushed him away, your eyes met loki when you did, the hurt, the anger you saw in them broke your heart. Why can't you and him just live in peace. What if he runs again because of this?
You kissed him or he kissed you, loki had no idea what was the truth, his mind felt foggy as he saw his princess so close to someone else. Barnes, he's going to kill him. He's going to commit a homicide finally. "Lo" when he heard your voice, a tear fell upon his cheek instantly. His princess, is he going to lose you again? You ran towards him and you hugged him tightly, he was frozen and very stiff for few seconds but then he felt your warmth and he melted slowly "Hug me back please lo" you whispered to him, you can't lose him again. And he did, he wrapped his arms around you and hugged you so tight, but his eyes were fixed on Bucky standing in your living room as if he owned it. He pulled away from you and walked towards Bucky, oh god no "Any last wish barnes?" Before you could say or do anything, punches were thrown from both sides, all you could hear was the sound of things being broken in your apartment, a god and a super soldier, you kept yelling to stop but it was of no use ,you were afraid to get in between them but you had to. Loki pinned Bucky down and he wasn't showing any mercy, as he punched him again n again "lo..stop..you have to stop lo, you're going to kill him" you yell and grab his fist, you have never seen him so furious, his normally soft puppy eyes were filled with rage and he was fuming.
"Get up right nowwww" you yell again, and loki got up, he quickly went the other way and ran his hands through his hair, you saw Bucky sitting up as he held his broken mouth and nose. You were thankful he did heal faster than normal humans otherwise he would be in hospital right now or worse dead, You got the first aid kit and tried to nurse him as well as you could, loki was hurt too, bucky's vibranium arm did alot of damage to his pretty face, but you'll deal with him once Bucky leaves "Go home Bucky" you say firmly "I'm sorry y/n"
"Just go home please I can't talk right now" he got up soon after and glared at loki before he slammed your door shut on his way out.
"Lo ..calm down.. please baby" you walk towards him and he's huffing and puffing, he looked at you when you called his name, his anger subsided and he started to feel the pain again, he can't stop replaying him kissing you in his head. When you finally get close to him, you cup his cheeks, he had a slit on his nose, his right cheek was bruised badly and his nose was bleeding "Princess..I told you I would never run again so here i am.. fighting for you like I should have last time, but I need to know if you feel something for him I need to know, I need to know if I still... If I still have your whole heart" he mumbled, he sobbed between his words and it hurt you so bad "I feel nothing for him Lo, nothing more than a friendship, I am wearing this for a reason" you point towards the necklace as you speak "It happened so suddenly, I stopped him as soon as I could, you'll always have my whole heart lo, I love you so much" this is the first time you have said those words to him since that night and he can't help but feel so relieved, he can't share even a fraction of your affection.
"I love you , I'll never love anyone the way I love you my sweet girl" he pulls you in for a hug, his head between the crook of your neck, not holding back anymore "Never ever leave again lo, I won't be able to take it, I'm not that strong" you sob and he lifts you up by holding your waist and walk towards the nearest wall, he needs you and he's going to have you if you'll allow him "the only reason that will ever keep me away from you again is my demise princess and I promise you I won't die, I'll stay here forever until you're sick of me loving you every second of our lives" you moaned as you felt his mouth on your neck "tell me to stop princess, I haven't earned it yet" he whispers, you feel his mouth on yours but he's not kissing you yet, he's just rubbing your lips with his softly "please ask me to stop" he mumbles again hoping otherwise, how can you tell him to stop when he's being like this, you need him as much as he needs you.
"Love me lo, I need you" that's all he needed to hear, you felt his lips on yours instantly, kissing you so tenderly, it's been weeks since he had you last and he's thirsty for you. "hold on to me princess" you keep your arms around his neck and he frees his hands from your back, he made sure you're stuck to the wall, he ripped your shirt off in one go and your bra went next "oh fuckk lo that was ..oh god" his mouth trailed over your soft smooth skin right above your breasts and then he flicked his tongue over your nipples one by one. His eyes were fixed on your face, reeling in on your every reaction. He waved his fingers again and you were naked as the day you were born except for that necklace, you were wearing just that and all of a sudden you felt too exposed and too vulnerable, you looked at him and he was so beaten up, so bruised it hurt you.
"Lo baby you're hurt, can I tend to you first" you ask him and he lifted you up easily with his arms, you felt yourself sliding up on the wall and he wrapped your legs around his neck in a manner that would have been impossible if he was a mere mortal "you're going to tend to me princess" he looked at you before diving his head between your legs "so drenched already, missed me?" His voice made you feel all tingly everywhere "every second lo" he disappeared between your thighs again as he licked and sucked on your clit, everything about this situation heightened up the sensation you were feeling, you closed your eyes and threw your head back as you felt your orgasm building slowly "oh lo..pleaseeee I'll cum if you. .oh if you keep going like that" you mumble and he lifts his head up to look at you "that's exactly what I am going for" he slipped his tongue inside you and sucked on your clit at the same time "oh goddd" he heard you so lost in pleasure and he can't believe he ever allowed himself to let you slip away from him so easily. "The only god you'd be calling out from today is me, cum in my mouth my goddess" and you did, you came so hard he had to hold you so tight to stop you from shaking or hurting yourself.
Once you come down from the bliss he lowers you to his level again and kissed you hard, you could taste yourself and him both at the same time "you better take me to the couch now babyboy" You command him as you pushed the matted hair away from his forehead "yess miss" he walked towards the couch and sat down with you on top of him, you want to drown him with affection, god he knows he needs it badly but you want to ruin him first. You kissed him roughly but carefully, avoiding all the open wounds he had. He was healing really quickly though, the bruise on his cheeks almost faded to nothing.
You slid down from top of him and went down on the floor, on your knees. His eyes widened at the sight of your naked gorgeous body, that necklace shined on your beautiful skin and he felt like he owned you completely, the thought itself made him painfully hard "Clothes off kitten" fuck the new petname you have started to use for him makes him feel so fuzzy inside, he waved his fingers and there he was, all naked and hard for you. You didn't waste a second as you took his cock and stroked it gently and emitted that delicious moan that you love hearing so much. "Come closer to the edge, I need your pretty ass right on the edge of the couch" he breathed sharply at your commanding voice and shifted towards the edge, you spread his legs further, god hes bendy. You sat between his legs, your face merely inches away from his cock. His cock stood proudly, he needed you, needed something from you, You fisted him again and he moaned at the contact "princess..pleasse..need you please" he whined, he was so close to sobbing you could tell. You kept his cock flat against his pelvis and licked the underside from bottom to the top.
He felt as if he died already and went straight to Valhalla, his mind didn't even function anymore and then he felt you kissing his balls and he started to float in his happy space, he didn't need anything, just needed you, your mouth, your cunt, everything you'd ever give him or take from him. He kept himself completely bare down there, you could feel his thigh muscles flexing, his palm gripped the edge of the couch, almost ripping it. He is the most beautiful man there ever could be, everything is perfect about him and you're truly blessed. You see his eyes tearing up but it turns you on even further, you want him ruined and you're going to do it "What do you need sweet baby, tell me please" if there was any sense of control still left in him it was gone now "neeeeed..need your mouth pleaseee I'll do anything please suckk me in..need to feel it princess" you smile as you hear him.
"Anything sweet baby?" You ask him teasingly and he whines as he's still not in your mouth "anythinggg I promise" you suck the tip of his cock and he groaned at the sensation, you slowly took him in inch by inch, he was too long and thick for you even in his aesir form. Your hands massaged his balls gently, he was so stiff, you knew he would cum so hard and you were excited to take all of him. So addicted to him. His moans fills your ears as you suck him in and out slowly, and then you stopp suddenly "look so pretty all spread out for me, don't cum unless I say so okay babyboy?" you say firmly and he whined , he was so lost in the feeling, his mind became dysfunctional "can't even answer me? So pretty but so dumb my kitten" you squeeze his cock a bit harder, he could have cum right then , you saw the tear slipping down on his cheek, at first you thought you crossed a line and hurt him with your words but then you felt him bucking his hips and felt relieved "you like being called dumb sweet baby? Oh I love you so much" you took him in your mouth and moved your head back n forth "feel soo mindless.. you make me feel so...soo good, oh norns..my love you make me feel so dense and you love me, I can be like this all my life, keep me like this and use me whenever you desire my goddess, I'll be so good I promise..I'll be good I promise" you kept your eyes on him as he kept whispering in his breathy voice, degrading himself like that for you when he's the smartest man you have ever met or ever will, you have discovered a brand new kink, though there's a line you'd never cross, you would never make him feel used.
"Oh you're already so good my love, always, want to be inside me sweet baby?" You ask him softly and he nods desperately. You climb on top of him quickly, he have held on too long and you want to make him cum so good. You start riding him as soon as you take him in, and he makes the sweetest whimpers and moans you have ever heard, "cum pretty love of mine, you're so good for me lo, you're all mine and I love you, fill me" he couldn't resist anymore, he cums on your command and you feel him filling you up, his cock twitching inside you as he rode through his high, he leaned down on the couch breathing heavily. He's beautiful, always so beautiful. You kiss him softly once he calms down a little and then you shower him with loads of affection. "I love you princess" he mumbles as he kisses you everywhere "I don't know where I would be today if you didn't exist but I know that I wouldn't be as happy as I am" you smile as you hear him.
You both stay snuggled up like that for a while before he took you to get showered, in the shower he washed your hair, you squealed in delight as he massaged your scalp gently and then you did the same "Mmmm i love this aroma princess" he mumbled as he looked for the main ingredient on the shampoo bottle, he looks so cute with his hair all foamed up with bubbles "strawberry hmm..I like strawberry as from.. toooday" he giggles and for some reason it makes you tear up, he's so adorable like this, the thought of him feeling unworthy and hurt or feeling like he's a screw up hurts you to the core. You hate it whenever he's in his negative space, you always want to keep him like this, happy and adorable. You felt thankful you were in the shower so he couldn't see your tears.
Once you both get done, you pass him a shirt and a sweatpant you kept of him "You kept my clothes" he said softly and you smile "I'm so tired baby, you worn me out, can we go out and eat?" You ask him as you wrap your arms around his neck and he lifts you up so you're face to face with him "Anything for you my princess" he kissed your forehead, then your nose and finally your lips "are we going to talk about your kinkiness today?" You tease him and he giggles "Nooooooo" As you worked on your face, he hugged you from behind and watched everything you did "Such an artist, little princess" he prefers you bare faced, but he doesn't mind this either, he loves you in everyway you feel comfortable "Well maybe someday I can do your makeup" you giggle and he thought about it seriously "I would like that princess" he kisses your cheek, he's so cute you can't handle it sometimes.
So you did, next day you brought his foundation shade from the store since yours didn't match him , but first you needed to pluck his eyebrows to make more space for the shadow, he couldn't stay still, he winced everytime you plucked "princess owww you are ruthless" he gave you his puppy face and you kissed his brows everytime you plucked after that, he would wince and then giggle at the kisses..sweetest baby, he asked about everything you put on him, and you dolled him up as prettily as you could, You also tied his hair up in a messy bun and he looked so damn gorgeous you couldn't stop yourself from snapping so many cute pictures of him, such a poser, and then you ruined him till he was all messed up.
You didn't see Bucky or anyone after that day, you were so lost in loki that you forgot about everyone else, he would drop you to work, take you home, feed you ,fuck you sometimes, would make love sometimes and you'd both feel happy satisfied and safe as you slept cuddling with each other. He even visited you at work during your break,and he would take you somewhere secluded and love you "Such a good girl you are my princess, letting me take you like this at work, so unashamed, how many times you'd take my cock in a day I wonder, maybe I should test that theory someday" he would whisper filthy things while he would make you cum so good and then you'd be smiling for the remaining hours of your shift. And like he promised himself, he took you to his therapist, you felt really awkward about getting therapy with his money, but then he gave you an half n hour lecture how you were his and he'll let you do whatever you want but he's so going to provide for you as much as he can, then he made his signature sad face and you were convinced. As apprehensive as you were, only three sessions in, and you felt alot better than before.
"Lo baby you haven't been to the tower recently, has world become a safer place all of a sudden? No missions?" You ask him, he sat in front of the mini table you had on the other side of your kitchen, peeling the potatoes you requested him to while you prepared the chicken, he shrugs at your question, you know he's trying to avoid Bucky or avoiding bumping into him, he's still raged about that day "I can go if you want me to princess" he seemed so sad when he said it "loooo babyyyy you need spankings?" You use your mom voice and he looks at you as he scrunched his forehead "noooo" you walk up to him and caress his head as you sat down on his lap "I know you're avoiding him but you can't do that forever" you tell him softly and he sighs "Can't I just, you know? push him off a cliff or throw him in front of a bilgesnipe, just saying" he gives you a tight lipped smile and you bite your lips from smiling yourself, do not smile, he's talking about murdering your friend "Okay hell no to the first one and what the hell is a bilgesnipe?" You ask curiously
"Huge,scaly, big antlers, they don't exist here I suppose, I'll show you one on Asgard" he said and you actually have no desire to see this bilgesnipe at all. Everytime you feel a sense of peace in your relationship with him, something bad happens. "Can I ask you something princess?" You hear him and nod "what happened to the case?" He asks curiously, did his lawyer not update him? "Well since you left and you were not present on the day of the trial, it got pushed forward, you should talk to your lawyer, you want to go through with it?" You ask him, as much as you want justice for him, you have this feeling that something bad will happen again as soon as that bitch gets in the picture "should I? I'll do whatever you say princess" you can't let your fear and judgement stop him from getting justice, and carla still haven't paid for hurting him though, Thanos definitely did a number on her, just like he did with you so that was bit of a relief "you should do it baby" you smile and kiss his forehead.
Pep and Tony are getting married soon, and they had a gathering of sorts at the tower, you figured this would be perfect timing for you two to show your faces again, it's been like two weeks, you hoped no one is mad or upset with him. Loki kept admiring you as you got ready, he kept commenting over how beautiful you looked in the dress he got for you, the dress , the heels, he's really spoiling you with things ever since you got back together, not that he didn't use to before but it used to be occasional "you look so handsome too lo, always do" you walk over to the bed where he was sprawled out in his full glory, he wore a dark green tucked in shirt with a black pant, he should wear green more often, that colour is made for him. Your mind drifted to how he looked when he came back, all princely. "Thank you princess come here please?" He raised one of his hands towards you so you can take it "lo I'll wrinkle your clothes and ruin my makeup if I decide to get on top of you, it's just going to happen I know" you chuckle and he gave the god forsaking puppy eyes of his "just come here please I'll fix it I promise" he argued
"So you're planning to ruin it?"
"One thing could always lead to another, chain of events, just come here"
"What chain of events?"
"For norns sake"
He got up and pulled you in on top of him which made you squeal and then flipped you over. That special perfume that he uses for special events or parties, frigga made that for him. It's like an aphrodisiac, he's an aphrodisiac himself "this is what I was afraid of" you giggle as you felt his hands trailing between your thighs "want me to stop princess?" He looks at you and you smile "no sir"
"Just need to have you, so everyone at the party would know you're mine and mine only" you know he's talking about a certain someone but you don't mention it.
"They can't tell we had sex before, we are not animals lo" you giggle
"Oh trust me we are about to be"
"Oh boy" and he indeed ruined your makeup and wrinkled his clothes in the process, but as promised he fixed it as well, gotta love magic sometimes hmm.
When you both reached the party it was on full swing, wanda didn't talk to you for quite a while and you had to pamper her with compliments and drinks before she gave in. Bucky was nowhere to be seen and you were worried about him. This party didn't have much outsiders, only their family members and friends, and you didn't know most of them but you know some of them so you felt comfortable, you did get few weird looks though.
"Guys meet Joysha, she's my darling niece, well pep's actually, but she's mine now too so keep your hands off her" tony introduced her niece with everyone "Tony come on, just call me joy, I know I have a weird name" she chuckled "I'm actually so proud of her, she just got back from a village in Africa, works with unicef, she taught kids there, kiddo you did amazing" Tony praised her again and she blushed, she looked around your age but she was much more accomplished. Once Tony was done embarassing her, she joined the party and met everyone.
"Hi, don't think we have met yet" she walks over to you n lo and you greeted her "hello joy how are you" you ask her politely "as good as it can get" she chuckled and looked at loki "wow you're much more handsome in person than your pictures" she compliments him and he did that nervous laugh thing he does with his mouth when he's taken aback by something, Wait did she just? Did she? You don't want to assume but the way she looked at him from top to bottom. Go flirt with Captain Rogers, Joysha.
"Well you're very beautiful Miss Joy , and kind, Tony already told us all about it" he said to her. Don't be jealous, don't be jealous, don't be jealous. Oh fuck it you're jealous.
"Oh he just likes embarassing me, reason why I have never visited but now I'm thinking why the hell did I make that mistake" she sipped on her drink after that. Definitely trying to flirt, not your lo, no more trouble please.
"It's all about destiny, you meet people when you're supposed to meet them" loki said to her, is he really that clueless when someone is flirting with him? Ofcourse he is you two were friends for three fucking months when you actually dropped signs everyday "You wanna dance lo?" You ask him and you see her giving you a sly smile. He didn't say anything, he just grabbed your arms, smiled, kissed you softly and took you to the dance floor
Once Tony Stark's niece was out of your mind, you wondered where Bucky is. As you danced with lo, he made sure you felt comfortable, he showered you with affection as much as he could, you saw wanda making gagging signs when she saw you both but you knew she was happy to see you happy "need a drink my love?" Loki asks you and you nod. He went to the bar and ordered your favourite drink, and then heard the voice he hated the most in the world.
"Loki laufeyson, we meet again"