Chapter 6
When you entered his room, you wanted to say goodbye, tell him that you love him again, and maybe he would stop you, maybe he would confess too and tell you what went wrong. Nothing could have prepared you for what you saw when you entered the room. You had no idea what this was, you didn't know how to react to this, you were shocked to say the least, but he was still your lo, you could hear the softness in his voice as he called you princess, and when you looked into his red glowing eyes, and saw the years worth of pain and hurt in there, your eyes teared up. You hated that look on his face, you always hated it from the very first day you met him.
"It's okay princess, run away, run as far as you can from me, I won't hold it against you I promise" and then when you heard him so broken, your heart clenched at the sight of him. This was your lo, your sweet baby lo. And he was hurting and you did what you always did whenever he would get in that negative space.
So you ran, but not far away from him like he said, you ran towards him. And you hugged him from behind as tightly as you could. He froze when you did, he wasn't ready for that, he was ready for you to be gone when he turned around, he wasn't ready for you to hold him so tightly as you sobbed "lo, baby, talk to me please" you wanted to talk? Why won't you run, he was a monster, he was hideous so why would you hold him so affectionately, he turned around quickly and lifted your chin up with his fingers "am I still your baby? Really y/n? look at me, am I still someone you would cuddle at night and pamper? Am I still someone you would call pretty?" He towered over you, he was already taller then you even in his asgardian form but now the top of your head was just below his chest . Were you confused ? Yes. Very much so. Were you scared of him? Not at all, he was still your lo, he still had the same face, just blue and with marks, he still had the same nose you loved kissing,still had the same eyes, just red, he still was the man you were in love with, your pure souled lo, he just looked a little different, why would he think otherwise? Why would he think you would run?
"You'll always be mine lo, you're my baby, always will be, and I'll always cuddle you ,and call you pretty and make you feel good, as long as you would let me, so can you please just talk to me..please" you whispered as tears rolled down from your eyes and that snapped him out of the self pity for a bit. He cupped your cheeks with his hands, your face almost disappeared between them "you want to stay? You want me? Want this? " He asks softly, he was hurting and you just wanted him to feel better. "I always wanted to stay lo, I always wanted you and us, you didn't, you left me" you sobbed and he picked you up by your waist and your legs wrapped around him instinctively. You wrapped your arms around his neck and you could feel the ridges on his skin. He wasn't wearing any shirt, just a pant that was obviously too tight on his big frame.
He couldn't believe this, you didn't run the other way, you ran to him, you hugged him, you weren't scared of him, you wanted him to touch you still, you wanted to stay, you weren't disgusted of his true nature. When he picked you up you embraced him like you always did, And when he felt your lips on his neck, kissing and rubbing against one of the lines on his skin, he knew he was safe, that he was home, that he was blessed. "Y/n you're not scared?" he sobbed as he held you tightly and your heart clenched at the sound of his voice. All these insecurities he had, you had no idea about any of them, he was hurting all this time and you couldn't do anything "Why would I be scared lo, you are still you baby, would never hurt me, my baby would never hurt me, I'm just so confused so just help me lo, make me understand what this means, I'm here and I'm listening okay? I won't go anywhere little love" you mumbled and ran your fingers over his skull His skin was hard and rough there and it made you wonder if he even felt your touch but then he purred and you knew he did.
He turned around and trapped you between the wall and him, his big palm behind your head so you wouldn't feel discomfort, his lips went straight to yours and after several torturous months that you spent without him , there he was , the love of your life right where he belongs. You return the kiss with same urgency, you needed him as much as he did. "Oh y/n my sweet princess, my goddess, so blessed.. don't deserve you, never did" he mumbled between the kisses, you were not disgusted by his touch, you wanted him. You were allowing him to touch you when he looked like this, you wanted to touch him, As much as he wanted to go further, and god you would let him, always so willing, maybe just maybe you would have him when he looked like this but you deserved to know everything about him"Will tell you everything princess, everything, just let me hold you like this for a minute, been so long, need to soak you with love"he he mumbles as he kissed you all over softly and slowly.
And he told you everything from the beginning, how he was born in jotunheim, how he was abandoned because he was smaller then other giants, how Odin stole him and made him aesir, how he learnt sorcery from his mother, how he became the god of mischief, how he killed his birth father to impress Odin, he told you everything, and you listened patiently, without judgement, caressing him and kissing him whenever he would feel too hurt to continue. Your heart did hurt for him, he have been through so much and he deserved none of it, as long as he could remember he just wanted to be accepted, to be prioritised, to be picked, to feel special for once but he never got it until you, it finally made sense to you, why he was so cold sometimes, why he froze against Carla that day, he was afraid of you finding it out from her instead of him. And when you asked him why didn't he tell you this before, he got quiet, too quiet. Then he told you everything that happened with Carla, how she reacted when she saw him like this, how she made him suffer for days after that, how he begged and apologized for being a monster, how she used it as an excuse to cheat on him. In that moment you could have murdered her, she was the reason he was so broken, she broke him when he was making a little progress, when he was so close to accepting his heritage, when he was so close to accepting his beautiful natural self.
"Lo" you call him softly, "mmmmm love you princess..my sweet princess" he mumbled, his head hidden between the crook of your neck as he sucked and nipped on your skin softly as if you were made if glass, as if you would break if he was any harsher "I love you sweet baby, you're beautiful in every way, I know you have been made to believe otherwise, made to believe that you're a monster, but if you'll give me a chance I'll spend my whole life proving you otherwise, because you're anything but a monster. You did your best lo, you made mistakes but everyone does, you are a good son to your mother frigga, and shes proud of you, thor is proud of you loki, your brother thor? He won't say it but he loves you so much, and Clint and Tony and steve, they are your friends and they love you, you have saved so many lives since you came, so many people are alive because of you, and even though you don't think that will happen, but someday your father Odin will be proud of you too. Maybe he already is. You're kind and soft and you still believe in love, even after getting hurt inexplicably you believed in me and I would never hurt you or let you go through anything like that again, you will be safe here in my arms, I'll always take care of you. I'm so proud of you, you beautiful perfect precious baby of mine and I need you to understand that you're loved by many and you're loved by me, most of all"
You said everything you wanted to, hoping atleast some of it would make him feel better, make him not hurt, make him feel loved and it did, all of it did. He was accepted and loved just how he wanted. Just how he needed. He puts you down and he went down on his knees, his arms wrapped around waist , even on his knees his head rested right over your chest, this wasn't the time to think about the size difference between you two when he felt like this but you couldn't help. "Need to earn your forgiveness my princess, don't think I'll ever be able to forgive myself for how much I hurt you that day when you needed me the most" he mumbled "well I'm kind of generous when it comes to you so why don't you try and see," you giggle through your tears and he looks up at you, how can you be so kind and patient with him, even after he hurt you so badly, he knows you would forgive him in a second, hell you're not even upset with him, you know something happened that drove him to this, you just needed the truth. "Just tell me what happened that day lo, I know you never stopped loving me so what made you do that" you asked him as you caressed his head with your fingers.
And he told you what Carla asked him to do, and what condition she put for him in order to withdraw the case, there would have been a case if he didn't and he couldn't have let that happen, he couldn't have ruined your life like that, that's it, you won't let her live in peace anymore, you would have revenge, she took everything from you, she made you both miserable for months and you just knew loki wouldn't ever hurt you like that if he didn't have to. The bitch would pay but you'd think about that later, right now he needed you and you were going to give him whatever he asked "lo baby, what do you need my love" you ask him and he puts his head up, looking at you innocently with his red beautiful eyes, he was adorable like that just how you remembered him. He stood up and changed into what you now know as his aesir form. And then he kissed you lovingly and so deeply. Untill you were gasping for breath. He picked you up again, and walked untill he hit the leg of the couch and he sat down with you on top of him "lo baby ..wait..stop" you moaned as you said that, you needed him desperately but you needed him in his natural self. "Something wrong princess?" He asks, worried that he did something "nothing is wrong baby, it never is with you, just need to love you as your true self, will you let me do that? Will you let your princess have you like that? Do you trust me with that?" You ask him and he is taken aback, it's one thing to accept him with his true side, but to make love to him while he looked like that, did you really want that ? Did you really want your beautiful gorgeous soft body rubbing and shaking against his rough cold one? How could you be this way, so selfless, so loving to him, and you're asking him to trust you? He would trust you with his life. He didn't say anything, he just shifted in his natural frost giant form and suddenly the couch was too small. And you were too small in his arms.
You wrapped your arms around his neck as you kissed him, he moaned into your mouth, his sweet princesses making love to him like that, giving herself like this to him made him hard so hard and you felt it. His body wasn't the only thing big about him in this form and you shook as you humped against his hardened cock from over his pants. And then you heard the sweetest string of moans and curses as you did. He threw his head back on the couch, his mouth slightly open, his chest rising up n down slowly, his breathing shallow, his glowing red eyes burning like a star against his beautiful blue skin, he was beautiful "Look at you baby, so beautiful, so pretty for me, you have no idea how good you look right now do you? Don't even have a clue" You mumble and bite your lips as you buck your hips against his huge cock "oh princess, uhhh please please please, please don't stop my love" he begged so sweetly, wanting you to continue whatever you were doing, whatever you were saying.
You wanted to see him all bare, wanted to see if those intricate lines and ridges ran through all the way towards his cock, so you unzip him slowly and took him out, and god you were ruined, you were ruined forever'. "God lo, you're so big, you'd rip me in half if I even tried to take you in" you whisper and he moans as he heard you, as he feels your soft little hands struggling to wrap around his cock, as you stroke him as best as you can. "Oh princess you're so small, so petite, so gentle, so mine, all mine, never letting you go again my princess, keep me at your feet if you have to, keep me right where I belong, I will worship you all my life" he whispers in your ear and it makes you gush with need, you feel his hand under your dress as he rubs his big long fingers over your drenched soaked panties wondering how would they feel inside you.
He pulled the straps of your dress down and you feel his mouth nipping and biting your shoulder blades, he needed to be in you desperately but he couldn't right now, he would hurt you, you're not prepared, not ready. Not yet. So he did what he could instead, you feel his middle finger, pumping in and out of your pussy and you are a goner, he curled his long thick finger inside you, touching all the spots you didn't know existed. "Oh lo ..oh god" you moaned wildly as your hand continued to stroke him fast, your mouth on his neck, sucking and biting, you wanted him to cum, wanted him to cum all over your hands "mmm princess, gonna open you up slowly, stretch you more n more everyday, until your tight little cunt is moulded perfectly for my cock when I'm like this, that's what you want hmm? That's what you're thinking about, right my precious sweet girl?" He whispers in your ears and you'll never be able to get over how you feel in this moment, you belonged to him, mind body n soul "yes please lo, please I need to be stretched and fucked by your big cock, I can't wait for the day you'll finally take me to fulfill your needs like that, do you feel how wet I am? It's all you baby" he moans as hears you, so precious and so filthy at the same time, only his princess could and you're soaking his finger with your juices, dripping all over his palm, one flick of his finger inside you, have you writhing and shaking all over him, just the sight of your little body thrashing on top of him made him cum and blow all over your hands, he came so much, he covered your hand in it, and he was so cold. And delicious like salted creme caramel when you tasted him. You were blessed.
Once you both came down from the high,he took you in his shower, changed into his aesir form and then fucked you right there with his cock. He needed to be inside you, to be able to feel all of you, to be able to cum inside you. So he did, he came and he made you cum again n again, while you told him how good he was, how blessed you were to have him and he heard you, he heard it all, and his mind finally believed. After you both felt satiated he took you out and dried you and put his shirt on you, it smelled like him. You have missed all this so terribly, then he laid you down on his bed, as he caressed your hair and cuddled you. "Lo?" You call out his name, it came out all muddled as you were smushed into his chest "let me cuddle the ice baby" you whisper and he chuckles "is that a new pet name for me?" He smiles and oh how happy it made you to see him smile like that again "it's a tie between ice baby and sweet frosty" you giggle and he changes back into his frost giant form. You're not just accepting him like this, you're adoring him,loving him and taking care of him like this, not to forget how excited you were to take him in you. As he changes you feel too small for him..and he just picks you up and laid you on top of him. He was cold but comforting, you also realised he can manage his temperature however he want. He was magical and you couldn't grasp the idea of someone so physically powerful like him being so hurt n broken, emotionally and mentally, by a very horrible woman like Carla and the thought of her reminds you that you have a bone to pick with her. Does she really think you'll just let this whole thing pass by you like nothing happened? Oh shes wrong, so wrong.
"Rightful King of jotunheim, prince of Asgard, magical god of mischief, an avenger, you see where I'm going with this? You're so powerful lo, never ever doubt your capability ever again okay? Never let anyone make you feel like less or not enough or like a monster okay? Not even me" You whisper as you run your fingers over his ridges wondering if it would be possible for you to count them all "okay sweet princess, thank you..you could never be mean to me my love, I love you more than anything" he says softly and it makes you smile "I love you my sweet frosty"
When you woke up next morning wrapped in his arms, you felt happy, and this was the best sleep you have had since he left, at some point during the night he changed back into his human form saying something about how he's not supposed to be a frost giant for too long on earth, the Earth's climate and temperature would hurt him. And then you rode him first thing in the morning as you couldn't resist how beautiful he looked, how he held onto your hips as you moved back n forth on his cock and when you got tired, how he helped you to fuck yourself on his cock by lifting you up n down, and how prettily he moaned in his croaky sleepy voice as you made him whine and whimper under you. Might as well make him the god of sex as well while they are at it. Then he bathed with you and put on that perfume you love so much, made from some asgardian flower, his mother gifted him that, took you to have breakfast and as you walked hand in hand to the dining area, wanda grinned, thor had a huge smile and Clint was emotional? Then Tony reminded him of Carla and the condition she made before she withdrew the case and that worried him but she already took the case back, she can't file one again as far as the law goes, but she's vindictive and jealous and he just knew she would try to harm you once she finds out and he had to protect his princess anyhow. This time he won't let her walk all over him, he would stand up to her and be strong just like you want him to.
He walks over to you and hold you in his arms as he kisses your forehead, you were in his clothes since you didn't bring any with you and the trousers were too baggy on you but you have never looked prettier, never looked more beautiful ,so adorable to him "princess" he mumbles between the kisses "mmm" you smile , he was so damn cute, you have missed him so much in the last few months, everyday you spent without him, your heart bled and you craved him more than anything "I have missed your tea, nobody makes it like you do, can I have some please? Make me some please?" He requested you so politely and you absolutely melt at the request. "Ofcourse I can, but before I go, Pick me up so I can kiss you too" you giggle and he picks you by your waist and you smother him with forehead kisses, not too much though, there were people around.
Wanda hugs you as you go to the kitchen to make his tea "oh my god it happened, I manifested this" she jumps up n down excitedly and it made you tear up. You were lucky too, you made friends too and you felt loved too not just by loki but Wanda as well and Clint and thor cared about you. "Wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for you" you say to her and she smiles. And then you thought about Carla and all of a sudden you felt furious. You would have forgiven her for putting you in jail, but you'll never forgive her for what she put loki through, all that pain and self doubt, calling his beautiful self a monster, making him feel like one, abusing him emotionally and mentally everyday while he all he expected from her was love and affection, using his love for her against him, she needs to pay for what she has done with him.
Loki walks into the kitchen and wanda smiles at him, she excuses herself and winks at you on her way out "they're like little kids" you giggle and he hugs you from behind and kisses softly on your cheek, he wants to stay as close as he can, he lost you and he never want to go through that pain again. As you wait for the tea to simmer you turn around and hug him "Lo I have to go back to my place, have work tomorrow" you mumble "okay princess, I'll take you once we eat, need you fed" he replies and you look at him , your eyes getting teary "what's wrong princess" he asks you as he gets concerned "nothing, I have just missed you lo, missed all this" you mumble and he hugs you tightly "I'm so sorry princess, I'm so sorry for leaving you all alone, I can't take it back, as much as I want to but I just need you to know that no matter what happens in the future, I won't let go ever again" he promised you and that comforts you.
After you both have breakfast, he takes you to your place, on the way he held your hand whenever he could, kissed you at every stop light, he have missed you too, more than anything and now when everything is out in the open and you have accepted him just the way he is, he won't ever let you slip again, won't ever hurt you like that. When you reach your apartment, he instantly feels at home, you call it a crappy little thing but for him it's the place where he made all his best memories with you. "I'm sorry it's such a mess" he looks around and it is a mess but he doesn't mind. He's home, he's with you. You are his again and he couldn't be any better.
During your times away from each other, loki has been receiving calls and texts from Carla, wanting to meet him, she even apologized for how she treated him and said she wants him back, but you don't know any of that, he didn't tell you, not yet but he knows that he have to soon.
"what do you mean he's back with her, that can't be" Carla said to the man on the phone, one of her friend was at the wedding party and he saw you n loki together, talking and giving loving looks to each other.
"That bitch, he's mine ,he was my puppet when I had him, I miss how he did everything I said, I miss him alot, and I'm going to have him again, I wouldn't let some third class low level girl take him away from me" she laughs. How dare you take away her possession. She won't let that happen and she knows exactly what to do.