Chapter 2
There he was looking handsomer then ever. A simple black jacket, t-shirt underneath and black jeans. He made the most basic midgardian clothing look so hot good on him. He was looking around as if searching for someone. Was he looking for you? That can't be right, he wouldn't remember some random worker he met during one of the worst days of his life. He had someone with him, it was Hawkeye, one of the Avengers. As soon the people in the store recognised him, they wanted a picture with him, a selfie or something to sign. So there was a group of bunch of teens and nerds around them. Well Hawkeye basically, even though loki has saved a thousand lives since he joined Avengers, general public still stayed away from him. Some girl asked loki for a picture and you could see how happy it made him in the moment. He was truly adorable.
"I'm going to kill you loki, did you really drive me 20 miles to do unscheduled meet n greet in target of all places?" Clint glares at loki and it makes him chuckle "bask in the love my friend, you're the fortunate one" he looked around again, looking for the girl who helped him that day. And then his eyes met yours and he smiled. "There she is" you were on the other side, so he skipped his steps a little as he walked towards you. You felt nervous as he did, why did he come? Not that you didn't want him to but you were confused. "Hello y/n, remember me, I came last week, you made that beautiful basket for me and unfortunately I had to return it" how can you not remember him, you thought about him every day, Google searched him for pictures, is he here to take it back? Did he get back together with his cheating ex ? Maybe you should say something y/n, it's been 10 seconds you need to talk now. Don't beat Ross's record of the longest pause someone has ever taken.
"Ofcourse I remember you loki, how are you?" You ask him hoping he didn't hear the shakiness in your voice. "I'm doing well, I was..uhh mmm passing by from here and thought I would see how you were doing, so how are you sweet y/n?" Was he nervous too? why would he be nervous, you were just some random mortal. "I'm okay, well as good as I can be at work" you chuckle and it makes him relax a bit "umm would you like to sit down somewhere and talk ?"he asks you and you nod your head. You point towards the cafe, and he asks you to lead the way. "Your friend doesn't seem like he's having a great time" you look at Hawkeye and he looks like he's in literal hell, surrounded with bunch of kids n teens asking him to do different things.
"Don't worry about him, he should probably get used to this" loki smiles and it's the most infectious thing there ever could be, you can't just not smile when he looks at you like that. You both reach the cafe, and he pulls the chair out for you and you raise your eyebrows "ohh... You want me to" wow chivalry isn't dead huh. Why he is so cute? Instead of going to the other side, he picks his chair and places it right next to you. Too close, close enough that you can smell his cologne. And he smelled divine, well divine probably was an understatement. "So how are you doing loki, like how are you actually doing?" You ask him softly and he looks at you, did you care about him? It would be naive of him to think that. "I actually have an embarassing story to share, that night, after I left I went to Thor's birthday celebration. My brother thor?"
"Oh you don't need to introduce him" you giggle
"Figured, Ahehe, he brought this famous asgardian wine from his last trip to Asgard and I drank alot, like alot"
"And you did something you shouldn't have?" You interrupt him and he scrunched his nose in agreement. So adorable.
"Yeah, in my defense I was left unsupervised. So I drove back to Carla's apartment and created a humongous scene" he looked down and he looked sad, why would someone even want to hurt a guy like him. "Begged her to take me back and her new beau tried to throw me out and I shoved him into the wall, then she called the law enforcement and I spent the night in the midgardian cell ..so wow I am hearing myself and I sound like a lunatic" no he wasn't, it was bad enough that he was cheated on by someone he loved and on the top of it he had to spend his night away from his friends with no support. He was hurting and he was all alone. Your heart clenched at the sight of him. "You did what anyone else would have done in your place loki, it wasn't fair or nice of her to call cops, she could have called your friends, you know the Avengers? You didn't deserve to spend your night in the jail after you got your heart broken" You tell him and his eyes softens, you were so nice to him, so kind. But then so was Carla, when she met him, not exactly as nice as you were but he can't get carried away again.
"Thank you y/n, I just wanted to thank you again for that day for helping me and telling me that I'll be fine, I do feel okay for now" no that's not why he came today, he came because he wanted to see you, because he wanted to get to know you more, maybe be your friend? Would you want to be his friend? He had no idea, but he just wanted to see you again. "You don't have to thank me for anything, I did nothing" you squeezed his hand with yours and he smiled again, that damn smile. Maybe you shouldn't have touched his hand though, what were you thinking? "I wish I could take away the whole begging thing, it has been bothering me since" he chuckles a little but deep down he was embarassed.
"It's okay, forgive yourself for falling for someone who didn't deserve your love. I used to be with this guy I really loved like 3 years ago and then I caught him having sex with my best friend of 10 years, you know what I did after that?" You look at him and he nods his head in no, he had that typical quizzical look on his face. Damn adorable. Okay y/n, get a grip will you?
Loki couldn't grasp the notion of someone betraying you that too with your best companion. If you were his, he would die before..no stop that thought right there. "I had a full blown nervous breakdown, he broke up with me because he fell in love with her. And I was so dependant on him that I went on my knees and begged him to love me again, told him that I'll be better and more like her, we all make mistakes loki , now when I look back I cringe internally but hey I learned something and I'm stronger now" you smile at him but he didn't. The image of you on your knees begging and crying in front of some fool to love you saddened him, he didn't know you that well but he knew you never deserved someone who made you feel that awful. "I'm so sorry y/n" his eyes tears up a little bit and you're taken aback by his reaction. He was soft, maybe too soft for this world, this man in front of you, you could just tell he was still hurting and he was definitely love starved, maybe touch starved too.
"Umm sorry to interrupt but y/n you have been on this lunch break for 30 minutes now" you hear your supervisor interrupting your conversation and get up instantly "I'm so sorry I didn't realise..I'll get back now" you tell her and loki interrupts you "it's not her fault, please don't blame her. I'll let her get back to work" he stands up too and she smiles at him and gives me the eyes as she leaves "I'm so sorry y/n, I hope it wouldn't cause you much trouble, umm can I give you my information?"
"Don't be sorry please, I am glad you could share with me. And I'm sorry information?"
"The digits you have to share for this ? Cellular device? Mobile?" He takes out his phone and you chuckle. He was so from the other planet. Carla always scolded him when he embarassed her liked that, told him that he should have learned to atleast use basic midgardian tech by now but he didn't see the point of any of it. They have sorcery in Asgard, and they had people and birds who would pass around messages. All this was a little overwhelming for him.
"You're too cute" you smile and take his phone to save your number in it. Did you really just call him cute out loud, what a way to show him that you're totally not thirsting for him.
Did she just call him cute? Did you found him cute? he didn't say anything but his heart skipped a beat when you used the term for him and he blushed. As he takes his phone back he dials your number and you hear your phone ring. "I gotta go now okay? And by the way you should keep your phone locked, you know for security purposes" You tell him and he looks at you confused "umm lock as in lock it with a key?" Why was he so damn adorable, it made you want to wrap him in a blanket and snuggle him, you have used that word for him like a million times in your head now, "no loki, you have to use a code, tell you what, I get off work in like an hour so maybe I'll teach you how to do that?" You just wanted him to stay and you had the perfect excuse "yes please, I'll let you get back to work, I'll see you soon and I would definitely like to learn" he smiles, you wanted him to stay right? You wanted to help him with this stuff, you didn't make fun of him and you didn't even get mad at him for it. He couldn't have been happier.
That day you did teach loki more about his phone. You didn't judge him when he asked several questions about several things. Just admired how adorable he looked while he did. That day loki did drop you home and realised you didn't really live in a safe neighborhood, you couldn't afford it so he came to the store at the end of your shift everyday after that, when someday he couldn't because of Avengers duties, he would send someone, no matter how many times you insisted that you would be fine. That day Clint had to call a cab and flee because loki wouldn't just leave the store for hours. None of us like to talk about that to be honest. That day loki realised that he was going to fall in love with you and theres nothing he could do to stop it. That day you two became friends.
On your day offs from work, you both didn't meet. He would just miss you terribly and so did you. But you were just friends, nothing more so it's not like he could just show up at your apartment all the time. You two continued to talk on phone when he couldn't come see you and he told you about how he met Carla and fell in love, the more he revealed the more you got convinced that at some level she was emotionally manipulative and abusive to him, she used his need for affection and turned it into some silly little game. You didn't tell him that though, he really thought Carla cared for him atleast in the beginning of their relationship. But she would scold him and humiliate him for petty things, she didn't return his affections, no wonder he was so touch starved. How did she even resist though, you would be all over him all the time if he was yours, Clint told you how she would often punish him and cut him off for days if she was upset with him about something, he would be wrecked then he would go apologise untill she forgave him. Then she would tell him how much she loved him and they would have sex. Yeah definitely abusive.
"Do you have plans for tomorrow?" Loki asks you, you were doing the laundry while he was on call "actually I kind of have a date with this new guy from work" you tell him and he sits up on his bed. A date like a romantic date, you were going on a date with some mortal man. He felt his heart aching when he heard that. When you didn't hear him say anything you speak again "did you hear me lo?" Oh he heard you loud and clear. "Yeah I'm sorry, I got distracted with something" was he jealous? You couldn't tell, if he was interested in you he would have said something, you two have been talking and been friends for 3 months now. As much as you wanted more you were not sure about his feelings for you.
"Oh so yeah that's it, no other plans, what about you ? " You ask him and you hear shuffling in the background "y/n I have to go, I'll talk to you soon okay?" He says as nicely as he could and hangs up before you could say anything. You finish doing laundry and go back to your apartment and thought about this date and how much you didn't want to go, ever since your break up you have not been able to trust anyone, you trusted loki though. You knew he would never hurt you like that. You heard your door bell ring and it made your heart stop. Who could it be? You never have any visitors, you have to have friends for that, You looked through the peep hole and it was loki. Oh god it was loki, you ran towards the mirror just to fix your hair and see how you looked, not that it made a difference. You didn't even put make up on today so you looked your worst. You went to open the door and he looked sad? He had the same look he had when he came back to the store after he found about Carla.
"Don't go on this date, don't date him y/n" you look at him wondering what's going on in his head, you invite him in and he closes the door "loki what are you talking about?" He steps forward and he holds your cheeks with his hands "I don't want you to date him y/n" he repeats the same thing again as he looks right into your eyes "who do you want me to date then loki?" You ask softly, he looked so vulnerable, so pure, so hurt, all you wanted to do was make it stop. All the hurt, the self doubt he had, the insecurities, You wanted him to stop hurting, you were so done with him being hurt, it was so hard to watch that look on his face. "who do you want me to date loki?" You whisper as you grab a hold of his jacket with both of your hands and you pull him in closer to you until your nose his rubbing against the crook of his neck, you wanted to devour him right there "I uhh just want you to..I " he whispers but stops, you're too close, too close to him right now. Do you feel the same as him ? You must right? You treat him so nice, you have been so kind, so loving, but what if it's just friendship for you. He didn't want to lose you too "you what lo? Tell me what you need, what do you want from me? How do you want me lo? " You clutch onto him more tightly. Is he still doubting how you feel for him? Do you have to jump his bones before he'll realise you're crazy about him?
"I want you to be mine in every way, my sweet y/n, more than friends. Want us together, me n you, just me and you" he whispers like an afraid child and your heart soared at the confession, this sweet beautiful gorgeous man wanted to be yours and he wanted you as much as you wanted him "Then have me" you say to him and as soon as the words left your mouth, he turned his face and you felt his lips on yours as he kissed you for the very first time, slow and soft at first but then you feel his tongue asking for permission and it was in that moment you realised how far gone you were for him. There's no coming back from this feeling, this euphoria you felt as his tongue danced with yours, you were ruined. There's no way anything would ever feel as good as this, this was the purest form of love you have ever felt in your life. And you couldn't wait to have more of him, all of him, every little inch of him in every way. He pulls away after a minute or so and looks at you with pure adoration.
"I'm sorry darling, I should have asked first" God this boy will be the death of you someday. You push him against the door and then you kiss him with the same intensity as he did. And he finally stopped doubting and he knew he would never be able to stop this ever again, he would be needy and clingy for you, he would want to be all around you, all over you,all inside you and he would give you everything he had in him, and everything he had with him, whatever you desired, all the love, all the sex, every penny in the world, all the affection, yes definitely that, so much of that, anything you needed, he would make all your dreams come true, for however long you chose to be with him, even if it was just for a moment.
Or a lifetime.
Or till you find out who he really was. A monster.