Chapter 1
He was dressed up in a fancy midgardian, black suit with white shirt underneath as he came to pick up his girlfriend at her apartment for Thor's birthday , he have a girlfriend now. He smiles as he reminiscent about his time with Carla, his angel. It's been a year since they both met and little over 6 months since they were in a relationship and even though it hasn't been that long as per midgardian standards, he was happy about having someone in his life. They didn't live together, he asked her countless times to live with himself at the tower but she would always refuse saying how it was too soon or not the right time. He understood and he wanted to be patient with her. He rang the bell as his mind drifted towards how they met.
She worked in legal and she was one of those people who helped him clear his name from the infamous attack on the new york . In the beginning, loki was vilanized and he was the devil that walked upon the earth, not that he felt otherwise. But slowly when the truth about Thanos and tesseract came out, people started to realise that he was the victim of the circumstances. Not that it changed anything, he had to go through alot of legal proceedings and oppositions over it. Sometimes he wondered if he should have just spent rest of his life in asgard's cell. But then he met Carla and she changed his life. Clint always said how loki fell for the first human woman who showed him a little bit of kindness. But he didn't care about anything, he enjoyed her company and she didn't think he was a monster.
"Loki? Loki hello?" He snaps out of his thoughts as he heard Carla's voice "hey I apologise for being lost, if its any consolation I was thinking about you only" he laughs a little and steps forward to kiss her "what are you doing here loki?" She seems annoyed? Why would she be annoyed ? Did she not want to see him ? "I told you about Thor's birthday right? He asks her as panic flash through his face , did he forget to text her, was the text not sent? He is still figuring out the ins and outs of midgardian communication device.
"Oh right damn, I can't go loki ,I'm on my periods, 1st day, you know how bad it gets for me so I don't think I would be able to go" she said and groaned. She was in pain "oh okay, what do you need angel , I'll stay and we can do whatever you like" he smiles as he rubs his hands over her tummy "does it hurt bad? What can I do?" He asks softly.
"Yes it hurts loki, what do you think?" She says, irritation visible on her face. This period thing was really bad for midgardian women, Carla never complained about it before so it must be really bad for her to be reacting this way, he wished he could take away her pain right now. "Just let me relax and I'll be fine okay? You should go to the party , it's your brother's birthday" he hears her and objects "I can stay angel, don't worry about the party" he says softly as he proceeds to step inside "just let me stay in quiet and peace loki, please? I'm cranky and I don't want to hurt you or anything, so I'll see you tomorrow I promise?" Loki was hurt by her behaviour but her hormones must be driving her crazy right now. He wanted her to make her feel better
"Okay fine I'll go, but if you need me just call me okay? On the cellular device" he says softly, and kisses her forehead then her nose and then her lips. "Yeah ofcourse and stop saying cellular device for god's sake" she tells him and almost rushes him out of the door "well let me know how the party goes or if something interesting happens okay? See you" she slams the door before he could say anything. Loki was used to being dismissed alot, sometimes she was like this but then she would apologise and everything got better. She was extra cranky today, must be her womanly issue bothering her. As much as loki wanted to go to the party he wanted to make her feel better. So he researched about what he can do to make her happy and relaxed and that brought him to the nearest store by her house. He went inside and started looking for chocolates and ice creams but there were so many varieties, so many flavours. How would he choose, he was so confused. He looked like a headless chicken. A dapper headless chicken.
"Do you need help sir?" You ask him as you approach him staring mindlessly at everything in the confectionery aisle "uhh yes please, thank you kind lady, I was losing my head here for a bit" he chuckles and gives her a soft smile. He sounded British? "No worries, I can see why you would be, it's kind of terrifying" you laugh a little. You looked at him as he turned his head towards you. He was strikingly good looking, and had the prettiest eyes you have ever seen. He also looked very familiar. "Can I ask you to do a favor for me miss?" He asks politely and smiles. This midgardian woman was nice to him, not that everyone treated him horribly but there were still people who didn't care about the fact that he was a victim too. "Yes sir, that's what I'm here for, I work here" you show him your name tag and he reads your name "Y/n, that's a beautiful name you have"
He says to you and you blush, it wasn't often when you received compliment about anything especially at your workplace. "My beloved is going through her womanly time. So I kind of wanted to surprise her with gifts and just help her feel better. But honestly I have no idea what to get her. Can you help me out?" He asks you and ofcourse he is taken, I mean look at him. The lucky woman though. "Sure you know what let me prepare a gift basket for you, now I don't know anything about what she likes so can you help me out a bit?" You smile
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"Sure actually I have seen her relishing in those , little peanuts chocolate stuff. I'm sorry I can't remember the name" he smiles nervously "uhh I think I know what you mean sir" he was talking about resse's. "You can call me loki, sweet lady" he says to you and you blush again. He thinks you're sweet. No stop he's literally making you buy gift for the girlfriend he very much loves. And he's loki that's why he looked so familiar. You have seen him on news and stuff. "Ahh okay loki, just give me 5 minutes I'll arrange your basket" you picked up the assigned gift basket and started filling it with different types of dark chocolates and of course Reese's. He was following you around like a puppy, watching everything.
"I am adding some savoury snacks too we love that during our periods" you giggle and he smiles "sir, umm loki , would you like to buy ice creams? I'm afraid it would melt a little bit " you ask him "oh don't worry about it y/n, I kind of have an arrangement for that" he was so soft spoken, as if everything he said was laced with honey. "Cool, no pun intended"
Loki picks up an additional box of chocolates and walks towards the checkout counter with you. "Sheila can you check this out then I'll wrap it " you ask your coworker and her eyes almost widens as she looks at him. So you weren't the only one who found him extremely handsome. good to know "and this too" he hands over the box to her. The lucky lady he was with is in for a treat. After she's done, she prints out the bill and hand it over to you, and you both walk towards the counter where they kept gift wrappers etc.. Loki watches in awe as you work with dedication. You were really focused and you made the basket look very beautiful. Carla would love it. "There you go loki, all done"
You give him the basket and he admires it as if it was a piece of valuable art "oh I'm sorry did you want to include this too? I can wrap it separately if you like ?" You ask him as you look at the box he was holding in his other hand "no actually that's for you, you know as a thank you for being so kind and helpful" he lifts his hand up so you can take it "I appreciate it loki but I was just doing my job you know" you say politely and he smiles "I know, but you really helped me in need, just think of it as a token of appreciation" now how do you say no to that face and that voice, well you don't. When a god offers you a box of chocolates, you take it. "thank you loki, this is actually my favourite" you smile and he returns it.
"It was lovely meeting you sweet lady. Good night" he turns around to leave and you look at the box of chocolates he gave you. Stop staring at him like a creep, he's taken and he's a god , like totally from another planet. Loki kept the gift basket in the passenger seat as he drove towards Carla's house. It looked really beautiful, you did a really good job and you were so helpful to him. Even after he told you his name, your behaviour stayed the same, you didn't judge him and he smiled as he thought about that kind gesture. When he reached Carla's house, he parked the car in the driveway. And took the gift basket.
As he reached towards the door of her apartment ,he could hear her giggling. Maybe she was feeling better. He rung the doorbell and waited for her to answer. He was nervous, why was he nervous, she was going to love this. "Ooh pizza is here love" he heard her voice before she opened the door. Love? When she finally opened the door, she seemed shocked and pale as if she has seen a ghost "lokiii uhh what umm what are you doing here?" She stutters and he just knew.he just knew what was happening. He might have been too attached to her, he might have cared about her and he might even have loved her but he wasn't a damn fool. She was cheating on him.
He stepped inside her apartment, and there it was, another man, half naked on her couch. The couch they both made love on several times before. He was even wearing one of his shirts. "So periods huh?" He was furious, he was angry but more than that he was absolutely heartbroken. How could she do this to him, but then what did he expect? Did he really think a successful beautiful woman like her would see a future with him "loki look I can uhh explain..it's not" he turns to look at her and she stops talking "explain then , tell me that you're not betraying me, that you're not cheating on me with this oaf, tell me that you have not been unfaithful and I'll believe you, so tell me " his eyes tears up and his voice cracks as he yells out his frustration, maybe he misunderstood, maybe nothing is happening here. Just maybe for once he would have someone to love unconditionally.
"I just , look I didn't want to cheat on you but it happened. These things they just happen sometimes, I wouldn't expect you to understand that loki. But after you showed me your real self you know who you really are, I have just not been comfortable around you, I wanted to tell you that but I didn't want to hurt you" Loki's hearts breaks even further as he heard her confession. She was scared of his frost giant form. She was scared of his real self, he should have known better than this , he really thought he would be accepted when he looked like a monster.
"You are scared of me" his voice comes out broken as he admits it to her and himself. "I just don't feel safe around you and with your past and everything" she stops as she looks at his face "just go"
He looks down at the gift basket he held in his hand and shoved it in her hand "enjoy this with your new man" he walks out and slammed the door shut which makes her flinch. He comes back few seconds later and she turns around, afraid that he might attack her but he just takes the basket away from her "you know what, you don't deserve this , a sweet lady prepared this and worked very hard on it and you don't deserve any of this" he leaves and takes the basket away from her. He couldn't blame her for cheating on him, she was scared of him, scared of the monster he was, the monster he'll always be. Loki drove towards the store to return the basket, he couldn't even look at it anymore. Clint was right, he fell for the first woman who showed him a little bit of kindness. He should have listened, he should have known that he will never be loved. When he reached the store , he went inside and looked for you.
When your eyes fell upon him, you felt happy? To see him. There was no denying you were attracted to him but he looked different, he looked disheveled as if he had been crying . He approached you and you smiled at him but he didn't return it this time. "Can I return this?" He asks you , but he didn't look at you. He was looking everywhere else but you "umm what happened did she not like it? I'm sorry sir but we don't take back edibles, store policy" you tell him politely. "Well apparently I'm on my periods was the code for I'm cheating on you behind your back" he says and you heard how sad he was. Your heart felt for him , you have been cheated on before and it's the worst feeling ever. Besides why would someone even cheat on him, he was everything you could hope for in a man, atleast from a shallow perspective, and most people cheat for shallow reasons. You take a step towards him and take the basket away from him "I'm so sorry about that, you don't deserve that, nobody does, I'm sorry you're feeling what you're feeling right now but trust me this will get better, I promise it will" you say softly and he looks up at you for a second. He instantly wipes the tear that was going to fall from his eyes and give you a smile "just keep it, I don't need my money back or anything, thank you for everything y/n"
He looks at you one last time before he turns around to leave. You didn't know what you could have done for him, you just met the guy, there was nothing you could have done. A week after you first met him, you waited for him to come back around maybe, but why would he , he only came to buy gifts for his girlfriend. And this place probably reminds him about what happened. A bad memory, your eyes still looked for him sometimes but he was never there ..untill one day he was.