His Obsession

Y/N’s POV - 2 Weeks later

All I could hear is my father’s voice.

Useless.
Worthless.
Unlovable.
Whore.

~ Recalling a painful memory at age 12

He was rubbing me hard at inappropriate areas and I said “Stop! Please stop”

It was dark in the room. He kept my room dark because he doesn’t have to see what he was doing to me, which is wrong.

I shook my head back and forth when I couldn’t control my body from cumming on his fingers. He never did more but just rubbing.

I cried when he forces me on my knees so that he forces me to suck him off and he’ll cum in my mouth.

He whispers “You’re being so good. Your dad knows I’m here. He told me that I can’t take your virginity until our marriage.”

~ End of the memory

I woke up in a sweat and I screamed “No, No!”

The lightning was striking outside the windows and the rain was pouring.

I felt my tears and I remind myself “He’s dead… He’s dead!” The man never came back to my life when I was 18. It was six years of sexual assault and forced orals.

I thought I was over it but the nightmares still creep in.

My bedroom door was wide open and I see a silhouette. I screamed “No!” as I got off the bed and ran to the bathroom trying to hide from the man that scarred my youth years.

I was shaking in fear that he was alive and he was here in my room.

Steve pounded on the door and says “Y/N! It’s me!”

I was crying and sliding down against the door. I didn’t want him to see me like this so I tell him “Steve, go away!”

Steve tells me “I’ll wait for you in the living room. I’ll make your favorite granny tea with milk.”

It made me feel better that he calls Breakfast English Tea granny tea. He always knew to order it for me while I’m out at restaurants.

I sighed as I get up and open the door slowly but Steve was still standing there. His arms opened up and I walked into his chest so he can hold me.

We have kept everything platonic and he hasn’t tried to kiss me again. Well, right now he kissed my forehead but that doesn't count. The lightning kept striking the skies and I held him tighter hating how I was feeling.

Steve whispers “You’re safe. Tell me what you see.”

I whispered back “Muscles, you got a lot.” he’s half-naked and I can touch his arms. I felt the bullet wound right before his tattoo.

Steve sighs “You don’t remember me, doll?”

That name again. It can’t be, right? The kid had a bullet into his shoulder and Kathy helped patched him up.

I pulled apart “Jason?”

Steve looked down at me and nodded as he raised his hand, my hair tie. He kept it all these years. It’s loose but still intact.

I said, “Wow, I couldn’t recognize you.”

He kissed my cheeks and told me “Let’s get you some tea. You’re going to tell me, what he did to you? That's the only way to get over it.”

I froze and he knows.

Steve looks at me “I killed him before you turned 18.”

My tears came as I looked up to Steve trying to understand what he meant.

Steve says “Darren Cross was a business partner of your father’s. He was best friends with John Garrett. They both were into human trafficking. I investigated every man who walked into your mansion and I knew he entered your room. Turned off the lights. You always kept your lights on even at night, there’s a night light in your room.”

I was shaking as I cry in front of him.

Right now, in my room, there’s a night light at the corner. I never sleep in full darkness because Darren Cross has scarred me since I was 12.

The man would be in my room when my father held his poker parties which were once a month. Darren would sneak into my room at night.

He told me that my father knew about it.

I tried to talk to my father but my father refuses to listen to anything I have to say. The worst is that over the years, my father asked me ‘Are you still afraid of the dark?’ to taunt me.

I didn't have the guts to confront my father to ask ‘Did you know what Darren was doing to me?’

Steve tells me “I shot him in the head and threw him the sea for the sharks. No one knows but me.”

I looked up to him and asked “Why?” my heart blossomed for him over the years but I didn't know why. I thought it was just infatuation or that I wanted to hurt Howard.

Steve looked at me intensely “I’ve loved you since the moment you saved me, Y/N.”

I hugged him tighter as I cry. He held me and patted my back “Come on, let me get you tea and we can watch zombie movies. I hear there’s a new one on Netflix.”

I followed Steve to the kitchen and he was making tea for us. I looked at the clock, it was only 1 AM.

Steve says “I heard you screamed and I ran to your room.” he’s only in his boxers.

I said “You left the next day, I thought you would never come back. Why didn’t you let me know who you were? All these years.”

Steve looked at me “I planned for you to marry me but I was away for four weeks to save my brother who was stuck in Russia. The deal was struck between Howard and your father. A deal that couldn’t be amended.”

I looked at him and I realized that the one good thing that happened in my life was, Howard Stark who gave me freedom, mold me into a mob wife and this whole time, Jason, well Steve Rogers is truly my Dark Angel. He’s loved me since I was 17. He got rid of Darren Cross for me and dispose of all the other men who I hate for taking advantage of women.

Steve was supposed to marry me not Howard?

Steve explains “Your father was told about the alliance and he accepted it. However, only available to marry were the three of us. You were supposed to be mine but it didn’t work out that way. Howard took you since he knew if Tony took you. I’d kill Tony.”

This powerful man before me whose known to be cold and ruthless in the underworld would kill anyone for me except his god-father, Howard.

I asked, “Is that why Howard kept me at arms-length?”

Steve looked guilty and he answers “He knows how important you are to me and that I was acting out during the years of your marriage. As soon as I know you’re having sex with Howard, I go killing the enemies drenched in blood, or I go fucking. I don’t hurt women. I’ve fucked his mistresses just to fuck with him.”

I covered my mouth and it explains why Howard doesn’t want to touch me for months. It was a cycle.

A cycle that I didn’t know Steve was involved in.

Steve has seen Darren enter my room and he just did the math when he sees me crying as I rushed to the bathroom to rinse my mouth after what Darren made me do.

Steve looked at me and he says “No one is ever going to hurt you.”

My tears came down and he was wiping my tears. I leaned into his touch because I know I can trust him not to hurt me as others have. He's the only one who truly made me feel safe.

I asked, “Did you kill Howard and Darcy?”

He froze but I can tell the question angered him and he’s focused on me before saying “No. Howard helped me after I got out of jail. There’s no way, I’d repay him like that.”

I touched his tattoo when I ask “What did you go to jail for?”

Steve knew that he can’t dodge me.

It was silence between us because both of us had a lot to unload.

I tell him “Darren touched me all over, he never had sex with me because my father wanted me to stay pure but I learned oral sex by age 12.”

Steve’s eyes were wild and he wanted to kill someone as he roars “I should have fucken tortured him.”

I held Steve’s hand “I’d help you. Do you see me as weak and broken? Is that why you saved me?”

Steve shook his head “You surprise me at every turn. To me, you’re the most beautiful creature in this world that I couldn’t ever have.”

I cried as I touch his face when I pull him in for a soft kiss. Steve wrapped his arms around me as he pulls me closer and lifts me as I wrap my legs around his waist.

That way, kissing became deeper.

This is the first kiss that I acknowledge him as Jason, my savior, and my dark angel.

It was gentle and he let me lead. He held me to let me know I’m safe with him.

I pulled back and I said “I see you now. I didn’t know.”

Our foreheads touched and Steve breathes out “I wanted you to choose me for me, not because of our past.”

I teased him “How can I love you if you wouldn’t even tell me who you are? Your background and open to me? It’s a two-way street, Steve! You want all of me then you know I want all of you.”

He asks me “Do you want all of me?” I can tell he wants me to.

I kiss him gently again and I nodded. I did want him. He’s a man that’ll kill for me. I felt safest with him. I knew he was my Dark Angel but I just didn’t know that he has made sure I was kept safe all these years. I wanted him a while back but I thought he didn't want me.

Now, this changes everything.

His lips moves to my neck and I was moaning against him.

Steve places me down and he was breathed out “We need to stop. I can’t control myself if we continue. Give me a second. Go sit down at the sofa and I’ll make us tea.”

I can see the tent in his boxers and for some reason, it didn’t scare me.

I licked my lips and Steve shook his head “Doll, turn around and go sit down. Trust me, if you look at me like that, we’d be up all night. I wouldn’t stop until you’re my wife and full with my kids. I’ve waited 7 years so it’s difficult for me right now, not to make you mine.”

I ask “Why don’t you make me yours?”

Steve’s eyes were dark full of lust but he was determined as he says “Fuck… Hairy nipples… Hairy Nipples…” he was trying to calm himself because he can’t talk to me like this if he’s so hard.

He moves to the counter and pours two cups of tea. He adds the milk and sugar the way I like it.

I realized Steve has studied everything about me and I knew nothing of him besides he liking black coffees and my omelets.

Steve took a few minutes to recollect himself before he tells me “You’ll be mine but I want you to love me.” he gave me the cup as we moved towards the sofa.

Steve sat down with me and my legs came up onto his thighs. He touched my feet as he massages sensually while I’m drinking my tea.

This is a bad idea. The moment we are touching, my body is ignited again.

Steve tells me “My mother was into drugs and she was a prostitute.” I drank my tea as I listened. I can tell it’s hard for him so I wait for him to speak up again “My brother and I struggled a lot as children. We learned to feed ourselves and clothes ourselves. Our mother had men parading in the apartment like it was nothing. Until one day, one of the men thought I was pretty enough to… fuck.” he swallowed hard.

I placed the cup on the coffee table before I moved closer to him. This time I hugged his head into my chest.

His tears came “I was 10 when he…” I shook my head because I wished I could do something for him to take away his pain. “raped me.”

I was shaking as I held him and I cried for him.

Steve continues “Two years… the man took advantage of me. My mother said nothing to stop him. She just collected the money and told me that I had to earn my keep. I was worth $10 each time.”

I almost bit my tongue because it was too hard. We both were two damaged kids.

Steve tells me “I killed him because two years later, he wanted to go after my younger brother.”

Steve pulled back to look at me and see my reaction.

I smiled proudly at him as I cry.

Steve asks me “Am I a monster? I kill people and I am not innocent like you. My hands are drenched in the blood…”

He couldn’t finish because I threw myself at him. I was kissing him with everything I have.

I moved until I straddled his lap and I kissed him over and over again until we needed to come up for air.

We were breathing hard as my forehead touches the “I’m proud of you. You killed those who deserved it. You were protecting your family. It’s admirable.”

Steve says “I’m broken and I’m not sure if I’m capable of loving you the way you deserve to be loved.”

I held his face “I think you do and I think you have.” I kiss him deeper because I want him so badly that my body couldn’t hold it in anymore. I moved my hips grinding on his hard penis.

Steve struggles “Doll… once you’re mine, it’s forever. Choose wisely.”

I smirked because I always use those words ‘Choose wisely’ with him.

I licked my lips as I pushed him back to kiss him. I can feel him push down his boxers and he rips my underwear.

Steve groans “I need to get condoms.”

I know the chances of me being pregnant is low so I grabbed a hold of him stroking him as I tell him “I’m clean. I got checked after Jack.”

Steve’s fingers reach my core as he prepares me because he’s really big in my hands. Much bigger than the normal size. I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be able to walk after this.

Steve whispers “I’m clean too.”

He was fingering me and then I stopped him hoping that I’ll be a tight feeling around him. I wished he was the one who broke my virginity, not Howard.

I leaned forward on his chest as I lifted myself. Steve helps me as he breathes hard to guide himself into me. I felt his tip and I can tell that I’ll feel everything once he’s inside. I don’t even know if he’ll fit all of it inside me.

I moved slowly as I take him in by sliding up and down on him taking one inch at a time.

Steve groans “Fuck… you’re so tight!”

I groaned “It’s not even halfway… Steve!”

Steve was coaxing me “Doll, keep going. You’re almost there.” his hands were on my thighs and I can tell he wanted to push me down but it’ll split me in half.

His hands start to move to my breasts and he was sucking my nipple trying to get me wetter and I was rocking back and forth.

I felt so full and I tried but I can’t fit all of him. There’s no way… I can feel my threshold has been met. He still has a quarter way left.

I looked at Steve “I don’t think I can fit.”

Steve groans “Doll, you can… All of it.” he’s losing control and he’s going to push me all the way down if he has to. I can see it.

I held onto his shoulders as I rock my hips again and this time, I counted “1…2…3…”

I pushed down breaking through the last barrier and I can feel him touching my cervix. My body shook. He made me feel like a virgin again. I was completely too full and my tears came down. I felt like he broke something inside of me for the first time.

I wrapped myself around Steve like a monkey. I couldn’t move.

Steve grunted “Fuck, baby…you’re so tight. I don’t think I can last.” that made me laugh because I wanted to show him how much I do love him.

I love him?

I looked at him, we kissed and it just felt perfect to sit on his lap filled with him and his touches drove me wild. It felt like a perfect moment right now.

I whispered, “Will I be the only woman in your life?”

Steve smiles “You’re the only one I want and you will be the last. There’s no one else. I wouldn't ever cheat on you. You're it for me. Tell me, you're mine.”

I grinned "You're going to have to work for that."

I lifted my hip and slid back down causing him to cry out. It wasn’t as painful as I thought it would. I wanted control of him and watching him go undone did it for me.

Steve shook his head “You’re going to get me to finish too soon if you…”

I rocked my hips and I started to move wildly. He was trying to keep me locked into place to stop me but I smiled wickedly at him “Oh Steve, you’re mine now.”

His eyes were dark and he loved it when I am bossy.

I remember those eyes when I pist him off, purposely poke the bear, and those days when he rolled his eyes at me. Every reaction made him glare at me but he loved it.

I pushed off his shoulders and lifted myself but he takes my hips and slams me back down.

My body gave out because now I’m at his mercy. It was so deep inside of me that I shook my head “Steve… you’re too much.”

He laughs “Not so tough anymore ha, doll?”

I hated that he thinks he’s winning. I pulled him towards me and kissed him. He didn’t thrust in too hard. This was different. My heart was beating fast because I want him and he wants me.

This was intimate and I kept moving my hips to drive him nuts and he was holding me in place.

Steve whispers “What if you get pregnant?”

I moaned “Let it… happen.”

His face changed and this time I can see his determination. He moved and got up from the sofa with me in his arms. He lifts me and slides me down. It was so deep in this position while in the air. I hung onto his shoulders as he does that over and over.

My head rolled back and I screamed “Steve” because the both of us rode the wave together. Both of us crashed and it felt like fireworks.

I can feel Steve empty all of himself inside of me. We both were shaking in the after-effects and I whispered “I’m on the pill.”

He smacked my ass cheek and said “Good, I’d like to fuck you for a while before getting you pregnant.”

He kissed me before taking me back to his bed.