Scottish mum
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she was 18 days late and she was being sick. It can’t be. No maybe it will come tomorrow, maybe it’s just all the stress in her life, maybe she’s been overtraining. She tried to put it to the back of her mind but she just couldn’t even when cleaning her leafs up. One thing was Caitlin and the other was that her period had been missing and she was being sick every. Single. Morning.
it was around 7 when she had gone in. Opening up the fridge she realised she had no food, deciding not be healthy she but her trainers and coat she headed went down to the shop. Wondering down the shop isle like you do she wondered down to the toiletries, picking up some toothpaste she glanced down at the pregnancy test placed on the bottom shelf. Part of her body told her reach down and grab one but part of her body screamed no why the fuck would you be pregnant. You can’t get pregnant.
she did not pick up the test nor did she sleep well at all. She was awake at ungodly hours, her hand kept rubbing up and down her stomach unintentionally. There’s no way she thought that there possibly could be a baby inside or if there was, how she was going to tell Caitlin. She kept talking to herself what she would say trying to imagine the Australian reaction. At one point she was crying out of tiredness at another point she was crying at the fact she could be pregnant.
It was around 3 in the morning when she finally got the sleep. Thankfully she set her alarm for 9 so she can get some well deserved rest. When her alarm did go off, she groaned wishing that she could just sleep forever. Rolling over the bed felt cold, she wished Caitlin was there. She wished Caitlin had her arms wrapped around her telling her that it’s all going to be okay whatever happens. Lia sighed to herself she really had no tears left the cry. Picking herself up from her lonely bed she placed her feet on the cold wooden floor and made her way to the bathroom. Opening the creaky bathroom door she went over the sink and stared at her reflection. She really looks a mess, eyes where blood shot red and her eye bags were dark. Trying to clean herself up she splashed her face with some cold water and brushed her teeth. With nothing else better to do today she thought she would go down to the training ground to see the injured girls and the girls that haven’t had an international call up. chucking on a hoodie and some shorts and sticking her hair back she drove down the training ground. Looking up at herself in the car mirror she noticed something was off, looking at herself again she realised. Shit . She was wearing Caitlins hoodie. Not just any hoodie her Matilda’s hoodie. Only her fucking luck. Pulling into the training ground she took last one look at herself before turning of the engine and stepping out of the car. she said hello to a couple of a staff in the hallway. She made her way into the lounge room, not realising anyone was here until she heard the all to familiar Scottish accent.
“ Lia nice to see you mate how are you” the voice spoke
“ Kim “ lia sighed, Kim had lias whole heart she respected Kim more than anything she always referred to the skipper as her Scottish mum.
“ Lia you want to sit with me for a bit” Kim said giving her a soft smile
Sitting her self next to him, the Scot pulled her into the side hug their lia buried her head into her. Finally feeling some sort of love she wanted to cherish it.
“ what’s on your mind I saw that you left camp “ Kim said putting a loose piece of hair behind her ear
“ well it’s - i’ve “ lia voice wobbled
“ it’s okay take you time” Kim’s voice sounding as sweet as ever
“ well I’ve- I’ve been trying to get preg- pregnant” lia said looking down onto her lap
“ that’s great you’d make such good mums” Kim said happily
“ it’s not that it’s it’s not been working and it’s caused loads of fights with Cait being angry and my hormones just been mangled up so we’ve- broken up? Gone on a brake in so confused” lia said starting to pick her cuticles
Kim placed a soft hand over lias to stop what she was doing
“ but then yesterday I noticed that I haven’t had my period in 18 days… well now 19 and I keep being sick every single morning” lia said looking straight into Kim’s eyes
“ oh bless you lia, are you sure your definitely just not late or it’s sort of out of blue for you to come on late” Kim said pulling lia into a even bigger hug
“ n-no im always on time” lia said starting to cry
“ lia don’t cry we’ll get through this, have you spoken to Cait yet?” Kim softly said rubbing the Swiss back up and down
Lia shook her head, she had no idea how she was going to face the Australian if she was pregnant
“ well I suggest you take a test just to be sure, im only a phone call away lia” Kim said as lia pulled away from her grasp
“ are you ever going to have kids Kim” lia said leaning against the coach
“ I would love kids one day “ Kim answered simply
Lia didn’t know what to reply, instead she pulled herself up and slapped her knees and suggested that they go see viv and Beth in the gym.
She spent a good 3 hours with the girls, many of the girls asking if she’s okay and she had to come up with some shitty lie when really she wanted to say,
No i might be pregnant and my girlfriend left me. She left around 5 and went to Sainsbury’s, walking down the very same isle as yesterday she walked over the to the test hesitant to pick one up or not she stared down at them. With out warning her mind just snatched the box of self and she made her way towards the counter to pay.