Chapter 9
You made your way out of the orphanage slowly, they told you he was waiting for you outside and you felt nervous, scared even. What was he like now? You have not seen him in eight years now, he told you that he’d come see you but they didn’t allow him, they said it wasn’t good for any of you, during the years you had feared he must have forgotten all about you, must have found someone maybe, you hated the thought of him belonging to someone else. As a child you didn’t understand these feelings of possessiveness and the sense of belonging, but now you did. You just hoped he didn’t hate you like everyone else hated you for ruining their lives.
As you reached closer you found a man leaning against the hood of his car, he was typing or texting someone on his phone, he had changed you could tell. He was more muscular now, his hair had gotten longer, he was adorning a black jacket with a pair of jeans, at the center he was mostly seen in a pair of plain white shirt and the matching set of pants, that was the dress code for the employees. As he looked at you his green eyes bored into your soul, he was so fucking hot now that you wanted to get burned by that heat almost instantly.
“Oh god” you muttered under your breath as you stepped closer.
“Hiiii” you smiled at him and suddenly felt too dorky, you felt so small as compared to him.
“Y/n” that was the one thing that had remained the same about him, his voice.
“Loki.. how are you?” You stuttered nervously so he tilted his head and looked you up and down. Then he grabbed your hand and pulled you closer until you were squashed into his rock solid chest. You were surprised but his touch brought back the memories of the times he had hugged you before, he often did it when you felt scared by daddy or the kids at the center bullied you, or everytime Odin creeped you out he immediately found you and hugged you, his scent and his embrace was the only thing that could made you feel safe.
“Thank you darling, thank you, I’ll take care of you I promise” he whispered softly. Why did he thank you? You had no idea but as he cupped your cheeks and kissed your forehead, you knew right then that your obsession with him wasn’t going to end here, it was only going to intensify even more so now.
As your alarm rang you groaned internally, you hadn’t slept that too well last night, how could you? He had his ex wife staying in his room. Even though he said he won’t leave, you didn’t actually believe him fully, you knew the power a woman’s cunt held especially if it belonged to a woman he fell in love with once, even a psychopath like Odin was pussy whipped once, you remembered how thirsty he was for Sister Natasha.
After showering you put on an old t- shirt of his that you had stolen with a pair of shorts, you didn’t have to work today but Loki had to do a photoshoot for a underwear clothing brand, quick money he said. As you stepped out you found him making breakfast, shirtless like the whore he was, his muscles seemed pumped as if he had worked out, you noticed a pillow and a duvet on the couch so that brought you some relief. Atleast they didn’t fuck each other yet. You looked at Jolene and grimaced, she was sitting on the counter. That was your spot, how dare she?
“Good morning” you mumbled so they both looked at you in unison, you kept your eyes on him as you entered the kitchen space and walked towards the refrigerator to take out a bottle of water. But then you felt him grabbing your hand and walking you away, what did you do now?
He took you to the living room, not that she couldn’t see or hear you both from there but you really wanted to see how you pissed him off this time.
“Are you okay?” He asked you softly as he cupped your cheeks, his eyes seemed..soft. You weren’t expecting that first thing in the morning.
“I am .. okay..just wanted to say good morning” your eyes teared up, you didn’t understand why or maybe you did, it was the way he was being so gentle with you. He cupped your cheeks and kissed your forehead, what was he doing now? Was he trying to manipulate you? Why? His softness had never lasted this long before.
“Making breakfast, want to make tea for us?” He asked you so you nodded.
“She’s in my spot”
“I know, I’ll look for a place for her, I promise"
You both made your way back to the kitchen and as you looked at her you smiled, she returned it but it didn’t seem genuine, at least not to you.
"Sooooo.. Jolene Jolene Jolene, I guess we should know each other a little as well, Loki’s ex wife is not much of an identity is it?” You smiled at her as you put the kettle on the stove, Loki glared at you, he was already so done with you you could tell.
“It is not.. you are absolutely right about that, I would also like to know you more than ‘just that girl from the orphanage’ ” She smiled as she sipped on her orange juice like a slimy bitch, it was your turn to scowl, couldn’t even blame her, you started it.
“Okay let’s not make this weird alright? Can we all be civil?"
Loki turned around to look at her as he spoke and it hurt Jolene, you started it, why would he just direct his attention towards her? You nodded as he said that. "I have to be at the shoot in like one hour, you guys eat, I’ll fix myself up” he said so you nodded again
“You’re not going to eat Loki? Come on..dont do that” Jolene stepped down from the counter and walked closer to him but before he could answer for himself you chimed in,
“He can’t eat Jolene, he has to be shirtless for the photoshoot, it will show, just basic pre shoot precaution you know” you smiled at her and she shook her head.
“Whatever she said, I’ll be back” he got himself out of the awkward situation, leaving you two to deal with each other.
“No need to pretend I know you don’t like me” you crossed your arms as you spoke to her so Jolene snickered, did she learn that from the master of snickering himself?
“Awhhh He was sooooo right about you, you are so childish at times, that’s adorable. Tell me why won’t I like you? ” you glared at her as she said that.
“Because you think I stole your man?” She leaned against the counter as she hummed.
“You can’t steal him y/n, you’re just a responsibility, don’t forget that he married me, he’s not even yours if he’s fucking other women now is he?” Wow they really talked huh.
“He doesn’t have to fuck me to be mine” you smiled at her and she scoffed.
“You’re so delusional you know and it’s one of the reasons why you’ll end up rightly where you belong" She gritted her teeth as she spoke, leaving you all confused by her words.
"What does that even mean?"
"You know what I mean, you need help don’t you think? You’re draining him with your needs, he needs to be set free, he wants to be free but he can’t leave you because you’re nothing but a helpless child that he has to take care of"
Your eyes teared up as she said that, you opened your mouth to retort but nothing came out so you turned around and left for your room.
Jolene- 1, You - 0
"Awesome y/n..you’re such a loser” you mumbled to yourself as you thought about what she had said just now, she was just salty, you weren’t a burden on him, he came for you, he promised to take care of you.
As Loki stepped out Jolene was pouring the tea in a cup for him,
“Where’s y/n?” He asked her so she sighed,
“In her room, she left the tea unattended, I just wanted to serve the breakfast and she got upset for some reason” he scrunched his brows as she said that “Is she okay loki? She seems stressed” She asked him so he sighed.
“Of Course she’s stressed with everything that has been going on, she has to work long hours too, it’s not easy..just ignore her if she says something okay?” He asked her so she smiled at him.
“Ofcourse, can I come with you guys ?” She asked him so he smiled
“You’d be bored but sure if you want to"
"I always told you that you could be such a model” he chuckled as she said that
“I remember that..but I’m not a model darling, just doing it for money” he air quoted the term and it made her smile.
“I have missed that” he looked at her confused as she said that “You know..the sweet names"
He didn’t know what to say, he didn’t want to confuse her, he didn’t want to lead her on either, but he was afraid that if she continued to be this way they’d get carried away and he’d end up hurting you, he did fall for her once and there was a time he wanted nothing more than to spend his whole life with her but that was before he met you again. He didn’t have anything left to give her now, he once did and had regretted it every moment of his life since then.
"We should go"
"Yeah I’ll just get my purse and be right back” as she left he quickly went to your room and knocked on your door so you yelled for him to come in, you had a summer dress in your hands that you were about to put on
“Just two minutes” you winked at him as he leaned against the door. His eyes raked up and down as you stood there just in your lingerie.
“Come here” he gestured with his fingers and like a puppy you couldn’t help but hop towards him. As you reached closer he placed his fingers on your chin and made you look at him before he grabbed the dress and squatted down, then he parted the dress open so you could put your legs in one by one.
“Can you promise to behave? I don’t want you to argue or fight with Jo"
"Why would I fight with her?” He stood up and pulled the straps of your dress over your arms, then he pulled you closer, his arms wrapped around you as he raised the zipper up with one hand while another one caressed your cheek,
“You know why sweetheart, just behave and we can cuddle tonight okay?” You bit on your lips as he said that, that was a tempting offer indeed.
“You promise?"
"I promise” he kissed your forehead and you couldn’t help but moan slightly.
“That’s my good girl"
An hour later he took you both to the studio, there was another model in a pair of flimsy lingerie sitting between his legs as they posed together, she was pretty of course, not your kind of pretty but definitely Jolene kind of pretty, you could see him flirting with her and you noticed how it bothered Jolene as well. Well you both had something in common atleast.
"He’s gonna fuck her you know” you leaned onto the side of your chair so you could whisper and she heard you really well.
“Well..He’s a free man..he can do whatever he wants” you smiled as she said that.
“Why did you break his heart?"
"It was mutual I would say, he wasn’t ready to get into therapy"
"He doesn’t need therapy” she chuckled as you said that
“Ohh you’re an enabler aren’t you? Let me get back to your question, if it wasn’t for you, we would have been together, you kept coming between us"
"I wasn’t even there, why are you blaming me for failing him?” You chuckled again and it made her upset “Ain’t that the truth? If you really loved him you would have tried harder to keep him"
"You don’t know shit so keep your mouth shut y/n, you’re nothing but a curse of his life, live with that"
Your eyes teared up as she said that. You weren’t a curse, he would never think of you like that.
Jolene -2, You- Still Fucking 0
For one of the pictures he had to lie down in the bathtub, as if half naked loki in his briefs wasn’t killing you already, now he was drenched as well, he looked at Jolene so she smiled at him and he returned it but he looked away immediately. But when he looked at you, he maintained the eye contact for a little longer as if he was thinking what you were thinking, sometimes you felt as if indeed wanted to fuck you desperately.
After the shoot, Loki tried to call Steve but he didn’t pick up, he was kind of pissed about the whole Jolene situation.
"Hey let’s go to that restaurant we went to on our honeymoon..they had the best steak” Jolene said to him so he looked at her, he had almost forgotten about that, New York to LA was all he could afford at the time. You rolled your eyes in the backseat, she was doing this on purpose you could tell.
Your eyes met with Loki from the mirror view but you looked away, he told you to behave so for once you wanted to behave, you didn’t want to prove her right by upsetting or insulting him in front of her.
“Drop me home, I’m not in the mood for a steak"
"You’ll come with us alright?” Loki responded immediately
“Well if she doesn’t want to come then–"
"She will. I’m not leaving her alone. Nobody knows where he is and I can’t take more risks” Loki cut her off and that made you smile.
As you all reached the restaurant she sat next to him again like she did in the car, she acted as if she owned him still and you hated it. You excused yourself to use the loo, you just had to get away for a moment because you were so close to ripping her hair out of her skull. You were so lost in your thoughts that on the way you bumped into a man,
“Arghhh I’m sorry” you turned to look at him and he did the same, he had a mask on along with a cap, but you could see his eyes and his blonde hair, you recognised those eyes, they seemed familiar and then it hit you suddenly. He quickly ran out of the restaurant, Loki had his back towards you two so he couldn’t see what had just happened, you didn’t want to panic unnecessarily, it could be anybody, it can’t be him. He can’t be here right? You haven’t heard about him since forever, he had disappeared and Loki never mentioned him either.
“This is nice” Jolene said to him so he smiled, he didn’t know what to do in this situation. As you returned you seemed a little bit unnerved so he looked at you intently trying to figure out what was going on in your head. He made a mental note to ask you about it later.
When he took you both home you went straight to your room leaving them alone again, he told you that he won’t leave you and you really wanted to believe him too but you still felt scared. Loki really wanted to find a safe place for Jolene and he was trying his best, he still didn’t understand why she was there. If she regretted leaving him she was too late, he can’t go back to that life again. He saw Jolene going to his room so he followed her and he found her sitting on the bed, she was crying so he sat down next to her
“Are you okay?” He asked her softly and she looked at him before she hugged him tightly.
“I’m sorry Loki, I’m sorry, I know I have hurt you and I have ruined us but ..oh god I miss you more than you can imagine"
He stayed still as she spoke, he was taken aback a little and her tight embrace did bring back those memories he had tried so hard to forget about. As he didn’t respond to her hug she pulled away and cupped his cheeks, then she kissed him passionately.
"I never …stopped.. loving you.. baby” she whispered between the kisses and he couldn’t help but return the kiss, he was doing what he feared he’d do. She took his jacket off slowly and her hands roamed inside his shirt then she climbed on top of him
“Stop jo..this isn’t right” he mumbled but he made no effort to stop her, this is what got him into the mess the first time, her loving words and touches were what hooked him in, he never had that before she came along.
“I know you have missed me.. please Loki baby..we can fix this I promise"
He shook his head as she said that. She palmed the bulge in his pants and squeezed him slowly to rile him up further,
"Fuckk ..stop it please..I can’t” he grabbed her hand but she didn’t stop, she sucked on his neck slowly
“Why not huh? Because of her? She is the reason why you’re still stuck in the past ..you need to let go..we can be so happy together like we used to be..I’ll help you heal baby”
He glared at her as she said that. He picked her up and got her off him before he took several steps away from her
“Don’t ever blame her again for my issues Jo" his words were harsh and that made her upset
"You never wanted to hear this but that’s the truth” his eyes teared up as she said that.
“It’s not. I was happy with you, you weren’t happy with me..you left me, you broke me. I got too hard to love, isn’t that what you said?"
She started to cry as he reminded her. He wasn’t wrong but she had regretted that day, he was hard to love sometimes but when he wasn’t both of them were so happy together that it was unreal.
"I’m sorry.. what do you want me to do, I’m ready to do whatever it will take..I just need one more chance” she got off the bed to get close to him so he stepped back again .
“I begged for a chance Jolene..I was on my knees asking you to not leave me.. and you still left, you never looked back.. I’m still the same, nothing has changed, remember how free you felt that day when you left? Keep that in mind alright? You do not miss me, you miss the man you think you could turn me into, But I’m not that man..I never was..and I could never be. I’ll hurt you again, I’ll make your life difficult like I did..you don’t deserve that"
He grabbed his jacket and stormed out, he didn’t want this, he wasn’t good at this anymore, he didn’t like feeling this type of pain, it made him feel so weak.
After an hour or so, Jolene came out and apologized to him again and then she told him that she was going to get out of his life, but he couldn’t have that, not because he would miss her but because he knew she wouldn’t be safe out there so he asked her to stay until he could find a safe place for her.
At night when you stepped out of the room you found them both chatting in the kitchen as they made dinner, that hurt you again, you felt as if you were intruding into their privacy even though it was the other way around.
"Come help us princess..what were you doing in your room all day?” Loki said to you so you rolled your eyes,
“Well I don’t think you and your missus need any help whatsoever” he glared at you as you said that. You sat down on the couch and turned the tv on as you tried to ignore their presence, after dinner Jolene reluctantly went to sleep in his room and he sat down next to you on the couch so you looked at him
“Did you guys fuck or what?"
"Watch your mouth sweetheart"
"You know she has been such a bitch to me all day?"
"Is that why you seemed upset at the steak house?"
"No that’s not–” you thought to tell him about the man but then decided against it “Well yess that’s exactly why I was upset” he chuckled as you said that.
“What did she do, hmm?” He asked you as he got up and picked you up in his arms, you lost your train of thoughts immediately after that
“Ummm.. nothing important "
He took you to your room and laid you down on the bed, you watched him take his t-shirt off slowly, then his jeans came off, you couldn’t keep your breathing calm as his toned muscular legs and abs flexed with every moment. He got under the duvet right next to you, you had a tshirt on so he pulled it over your neck but didn’t take it off, he wrapped the shirt around your face and you gasped as you felt the fabric sticking to your skin,
"Did she hurt you?” He asked you softly, his thumb brushed over the curve of your bosom and it made you moan in response, all your sense were blocked, you couldn’t see, you couldn’t breathe properly either and that’s what rushed the blood down to your nether region
“Am I a burden on you?” Your voice choked so he leaned down and kissed over your lips which made you moan again, he never would have done that if it wasn’t for the layer of fabric seperating your skins
“Have I ever made you feel so?” He asked you, you could feel his hardening bulge between your legs and it made you want to hump him to Sunday.
“Nooo …never..”
“Then you don’t have to worry about that, you know you’re my priority right?”
You hummed as he questioned you, your breathing went erratic so he pulled the shirt over your head finally, then he also lowered your shorts down the legs, you had the panties on thankfully.
Your arms wrapped around his waist as he dragged you closer to him, your bare skin touched with his and you couldn’t stop yourself from moaning.
“Couldn’t keep your eyes off me today huh? I was watching you ” he whispered in your ear so you only scooted closer to him, your leg encased over his waist , there wasn’t an inch of space left between your bodies
“Daddddy” the word came out barely as a whisper
“Shhhh it’s okay.. get your sleep darling"
"Don’t leave please "
"I won’t I promise "
Your fingernails caressed the skin on his back and he hummed in response "By the way..to answer your question…I didn’t fuck her..not going to either so stop thinking about that"
You smiled so wide as he whispered softly.
Jolene - 2 You - Fucking Infinite
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As Jolene came out to talk to him again she didn’t find him on the couch, her eyes welled up with tears of anger and frustration as she realised that he was sleeping with you. She immediately took out her phone and dialed a number, as soon as the person on the other side picked up she went off
"I’m here ..what am I supposed to do now, you said you’d help get rid of her, she’s destroying him and I can’t watch him fall deeper into this hole..do something for god’s sake” the man on the other side chuckled as she said that.
“Patience dear, patience. I gave you my word, you must know that both of us brothers take pride in that, we keep our promises so just be patient and wait for my instructions. I’ll call you, don’t call me again” Thor smiled as he hung up. He couldn’t wait to meet his brother again.
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