England
When the night comes things was awkward for them after what happened earlier, freen doesn’t know if becky was comfortable enough to sleep next to her or not so she break the uncomfortable silence.
‘‘Huh i will sleep on the couch here if that’s ok for you.’’ Becky hesitated for a moment cause she hate sleeping alone but ultimately nodded in affirmation. Freen proposed that just to give the younger girl space but in her heart she would like to sleep next to becky, to be close to her like that again, but the later doesn’t need that after what happened between them.
In the middle of the night freen was awake by some whimpering, she looked at becky the younger was apparently having a nightmare, so she slipped next to her in the bed and take her in her arms murmuring this it was a dream. Becky wake up disoriented her heart was pounding in her chest, but she felt someone tightened her hold and her whispering to her that everything was all right that it was just a bad dream.
Gripping freen shirt she looked at her in the eyes and for a moment everything stand still, it was just them it was like nothing mattered anymore, freen eyes conveyed so much care and tenderness in it that she can’t help but relax a little.
‘‘Go back to sleep baby I will be here when you wake up ok?’’ She said softly tightening her grip on becky and kissed her forehead to comfort the younger girl. Becky nods her head before tightening her grips on freen shirt burrowing her her in the crook of her her neck, freen kiss once again her forehead and caress her softly her arms. Few minutes later the two girls felt asleep like content in each other embrace.
The rest of the week end was good until Sunday night at 8 becky gets the news about her father, at first she was working on her computer but suddenly her phone ring she didn’t expected what happened next she was shocked and stay still like that for few minutes clearly shocked.
Charlotte heard something falling in the living room she left her room to checked almost immediately knowing her cousin was here, what she saw was becky here standing still tears falling silently on her face her phone on the ground.
‘‘Beck what happened?’’ She shakes her cousin but becky give her no response. ‘‘Beck?’’ She tries again but once again nothing. ‘‘Becky!’’ She said more loudly shaking her once again, this time it seems to bring her out of stupor.
‘‘He’s gone char.’’ Becky doesn’t know what to thinks her dad was gone but strangely enough she wasn’t relieved, she was just numb. Charlotte was confused by what becky just tell her who was gone why becky was in this state.
‘‘Who is gone ? What happened?’’ She asked once again.
‘‘ My dad, apparently his car blown up I don’t know all the detail, just that the car was burn so much we wouldn’t probably find his body. This is how bad it is.’’ She wiped furiously her tears she doesn’t understand why she was so hurt about this.
‘‘ Hey beck look at me please.’’ She wait patiently to her cousin to looked at her she knows that becky was having a hard time to deal with it one part she knows her cousin wanted to hate her dad but ultimately he was still a caring father towards her.
‘‘It’s ok to feel sad it was your dad after all it’s ok to cry I won’t judge you scream if you I’m here to support and help you, so please don’t let it bottle up inside you just let it out please.’’ Becky looked at her with her red eyes and just let it out crying sobbing uncontrollably, she felt Charlotte hugged her and she just crumbled down. They stay like that may be for thirty minutes, until becky recomposed herself she need to tell freen what happened she need to fly to London to see her mom and for the funeral of her dad.
‘‘I’m good char I need to speak to freen, I’m going to London tomorrow I Don’t want to let mom alone there.’’ She said with a hoarse voice.
‘‘Are you sure ? I’m going with you beck.’’ She immediately proposed, she doesn’t think it’s a good idea to let becky alone.
‘‘I swear I’m good don’t worry too much about that.’’ She assured her cousin.
She shoot a text rapidly to freen to asked her if she was home when the later she immediately take the key of Charlotte car and goes to freen house.
Freen was waiting anxiously it was weird for becky to message her at this hour and coming over. When becky finally she noticed immediately something was wrong with her.
‘‘Becky did something happened? She asked after few minutes of silence. The younger was fidgeting with her fingers not knowing how to start.
‘‘Yeah, it’s about my dad … my dad… he….’’ she trailed off not knowing how to say this.
‘‘Your dad what? becky did he do something to you?’’ Freen asked frantically worried about the younger and immediately started to think of the worst.
‘‘No it’s not that. He is dead freen.’’ Freen eyes widen, how what that possible? How she didn’t have any news on that. And lastly she thinks how becky was feeling about it, she must feel really sad because after it was her dad no matter how bad he was.
‘‘Oh and how are you feeling?’’ She asked worried about her.
‘‘I’m good but I’m going to england tomorrow so Sasha would be replace me if that ok with you.’’
‘‘ Your cousin are going with you right?’’ She asked concerned, she don’t think it was a good idea for becky to be alone in this state of mind.
‘‘No I’m going alone, so yeah it was all I have to say, so bye.’’ Freen immediately grabbed her hand when she saw becky was leaving.
'‘Wait’’ she said desperately. ‘‘Are you going to come back?’’ She was under the impression if she let becky go it was the last she gonna saw the younger girl.
‘‘I didn’t think this far I’m going for my mom and if she need to me to stay there with her I would.’’ She said with finality, her heart aches at the possibility that maybe she gonna never see freen ever again but it was life.
‘‘What? Wait! No I’m coming with you.’’ She knew it becky was going to left and never come back the only option for her was to go with her and changed her mind in England.
‘’What? Why would you do that?’’ She was confused, her father was not her favorite she doesn’t understood why would she do that.
‘‘Because becky I know what is to lost a member of your family, I know the feeling to be lost, helpless like it’s not the reality, in the beginning you will feel numb but when everything would come to you at once I don’t want you to be alone. I know I’m not the biggest fan of your father, but you matter to me.’’ She said taking becky hands in her own, she looked deeply in her eyes to conveyed her sincerity.
‘‘ I care for you becky I really care for you, you are one of the people that matters the most in my life and I want to be there for you it’s simple at that, that’s why I would do that.’’ Tears pooled in becky eyes she was oddly touched by what freen was saying how she supposed to refused freen she simply can’t.
‘‘I don’t want you to feel forced to do that freen your feeling matters too. How are you supposed to have a closure if he’s gone. How I’m supposed to go on? it’s like I don’t have purpose anymore.’’ Freen wipes the tears on becky cheeks, she know how becky felt even if her dad was not someone nice, he was still her dad and at one point he really cares for her.
‘‘Becky i don’t feel force, I’m just doing what I want because of what I feel.’’ She started.
‘‘I don’t want you to bottled up your emotion because what I might feel, just let it out if you are sad you have the right to because he was your dad, even if you deems if was not worth of your love you still love him and at one point it was a good father to you, you’re allowed to feel whatever your feeling don’t try to be strong, you can be weak too sometimes and if you feel like you’re crumbling down I will be there to catch you.’’ She finished her speech by hugging the younger girl.
Becky doesn’t understand why freen was so understandable and caring she was a murderer child for fuck sake and of the man who killed her parents, and here was freen caring and supporting her, even sad for her, why freen was like that toward her, the older owed her nothing she doesn't have to be so gentle with her, freen must be frustrated as she doesn’t have a closure on her parents death.
‘‘Thank you freen, ok you can go with me but don’t force yourself for me if at any point you feel discomfort I want you to tell me promise me please.’’ Freen looked at her in awe even if the younger was clearly in sad and not in the right state of mine she was still thinking of her well being, so she simply nodded.
After that the two girls didn’t speak much they were rather busy packing fortunately becky was still having clothes at freen’s, they would go tonight in freen private jet, for freen it was an excuse to spend some time with becky she hope she can be the rock the younger girl would need so the younger would see that she was here to stay no matter who her dad was.
Becky was very tired she was packing the last remaining clothes, in the corner of her eyes she swiftly looked at freen who finish packing few minutes ago, becky saw that freen can’t help but glanced at her from time to time, the older pretends like she was playing on her phone or all her attention was on Becky.
‘‘Why are looking at me like that? Did I have something on my face?’’ Becky asked raising one eyebrow.
‘‘Like what I’m doing nothing I’m texting nam to tell her that I left her in charge of the company that’s all.’’ She said a little too innocently with as shrug, when in reality she was worried for becky she expected the girl to crumbled down at any moment now and the fact the girl was still beautiful even if she was clearly down didn’t help.
‘‘Aside beauty I see nothing wrong in your face.’’ She mumbled to herself but becky heard her loud and clear she smirked a little before frowning, it wasn’t the moment to flirt so she said nothing and finish her packing.
‘‘I’m done we can go when you when you want.’’ With a nod freen call her driver to take them to jfk airport the flight will last seven hours so they will be there in the morning.
The ride was silent becky was deep in thought she can’t believe that her dad was really gone after five years and she gonna saw her mother, she didn't know how she supposed to say goodbye to him as his body was nowhere to be found. She asked herself what if instead of running away she had the courage to confront her dad maybe she would convinced him to surrender himself, maybe if he had he would still be here. But it’s too late now to think that way.
Freen observed the younger, she knows by experiences the younger felt guilty and asked herself if she had done things differently maybe her dad would be still around, but she don’t want to forced becky to open up she would do that when she was ready. So freen did the next best things in her mind she takes becky hand in her own drawing soft pattern on it to showed her that she was here and becky well she was grateful for that.
During the flight becky sleep till they arrived, freen was happy that she sleep a little bit cause she knows she gonna need it was gonna be hard once they land in England, she looked at the soft features of the younger girl she can’t help to thinks that the girl was beyond beautiful, her stomach was doing summersault, surprised by her own reaction to becky, she was aware that she like but did her feelings was beyond that? Did she love the younger girl?
She quickly shakes her head it was not the time for that becky needs support and not more complications in her life.
When they land a car was already waiting for them, freen checked becky time to time the younger was still in her thought, for her it was five years since she been there but nothing really changes the road was still the same as the building, the street were busy as always and it was cold as always she wondered how her mom would react to her return. Even if she keep contact with her from time to time it’s been 5years since she felt the warmth of her mom. She hopes she would have the strength to support her mom she really missed her.
When they arrived to becky house, she felt tears pooling in her eyes the last time she was here she was fifteen, and her whole word was crashing down. But now she was in better place, stronger more smart and not alone, freen suddenly take her hands in her own squeezing it slightly, it was all she need in that moment oddly enough it was freen who gave her the strength to be here. If she was here alone she thinks that she would turned around and left.
Saying a soft thanks she ring the doorbell, a Buttler open the door his eyes widened slightly.
‘‘Miss Rebecca it’s been a long time how are you?’’ Asked the old man gently.
‘‘I’m all right Alfred and you? It’s my mom here today?’’ She have more good memories here than bad she admits to herself but ultimately the bad one were more traumatic, never in her life she thinks that she would set one foot in that house again but here she was.
‘‘I’m all good even if the circumstances it’s not the best. Your mom in the garden, I think you know the way. Let me take you luggages.’’ He said gesturing them to enter.
‘‘Thanks Alfred. Freen let’s go.’’
She take freen to the garden where her mom was sitting back at them, her posture was slouched clearly they can saw sob racking through her whole body, sadness immersed becky immediately she pitied her mom.
Freen can’t help but feel sorry for the older woman it was easy to say that the woman was clearly affected by what happened to Robert. So she squeezed once again and give becky and gaze of reassurance and a little smile to gave her a little bit of strength even if she didn’t know if her presence would changed anything for becky.
‘‘Mom it’s me, becky. I’m back.’’ At the sound of her voice her mom turned to face her shock written all over her face, then she walked in direction of becky and give her a warm hug she was really happy despite the circumstances to see her daughter after such a long time.
'‘It’s really you beck? I miss you so much. Don’t ever go like that ever again without a word, I don’t know if I can bear to lose a child again and now even your father is gone.’’ Her mom said through her sob as she tightened her hold on her daughter.
‘‘I’m sorry I’m really sorry mom I didn’t mean to hurt it’s just I … I…’’ she can’t even finished her sentences.
‘‘I know why you run away like that, your father did tell me your reason few month after you left. He … he …’’ she started but she didn’t if it was wise to tell becky that her dad didn’t know what Christopher attempted to do her, she fears that her daughter might feel guilty.
‘‘He what mom? How did you know? How did he know I didn’t tell him anything.’’
‘‘He didn’t know what Christopher tried to do to you, and when he learned the truth he nearly lost it, he thought that you loved him that why he did what he did, but when you left he found your diary in your room, and beck I never saw him this mad it was like he gone completely mental.’’ She explained to her daughter.
‘‘And i, i blame him cause you left every single day, he wasn’t himself anymore hardly eating or going to the company he passed most his time in his study drinking, but one day I find him completely drunk he was blaming himself, saying that he ruined your life trying to the right thing. that’s when I learned the truth, that’s why I never forced you to return home with us.’’
Becky was stunned by the revelations of her mom never it occurred to her that her dad didn't know what chris tried to do that to her, that her was thinking that she loved chris
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Freen was surprised as well apparently this man was not the monster that he appeared to be, he did love becky to the point he nearly destroyed himself when he learned what happened to her. Did this was really the monster she think he was because by what becky mom’s was telling it didn't match well with the man with no heart.
‘‘You know your dad knew your whereabouts during this five years, but he didn’t have the guts to face you after what happened, he was glad to see you happy without a worry complete your study, find your first job, engaged to this young lady here.’’ She chuckled lightly reminiscing the past when the two little girl were attached by the hips.
'‘Who would have thought after all this years you two would ended up together, although if I remember correctly you always tell me that one day you will marry freen here.’’ The two girls looked at her stunned, they didn’t understand what she meant by that.
‘‘What do you mean?’’
'‘What I mean it’s freen Richie and you were always together when you were younger.’’
‘‘What ?!?’’ They asked in unison, the older women can’t help but laughed at their reaction.
Meanwhile Richie just landed to London he comes to say goodbye to his father and keep an eye on freen and becky. He got him emotional to think last time he was here his dad was still alive but life must go on, the old man knew what was coming he suspected that was why he send him to new york in the first place.
'‘Dad they are in London right know, I think it’s time for Christopher to make his first move don’t you think?’’ The young man asked grinning.
‘‘Yeah i think it’s time, but son something bothering who kill Richard that way it wasn’t our original plan?’’ Something was not clear in this story and the fact that they didn’t find the body make it more suspicious for him.
‘‘I know dad it’s a new recruit who did this he take some liberty on that one but it did work for us.’’ He said carelessly, why his dad asking all this question what mattered was the final result no how it was done.
‘‘Ok at the moment stay close to them don’t get them noticed not yet, gather the maximum info you can get about freen company so we can take over it in the right time.’’
Meanwhile somewhere three people reunited for the first time in 16 years, shocked written all of the face of the man.
‘‘How is that possible?’’