So close, yet so far.
The kiss lasted for awhile, both of them wanting to feel the thing they’ve longed for so long.
The others lips.
It was blissful, it was sweet, and it was everything Pavitr had ever wanted.
Deep down, Miles had always wanted it too.
He felt the chemistry, the love, the passion.
He felt Pavitrs desire to have his heart.
Though did his brain feel it?
Did his *fears* feel it?
No.
His heart pounded as the thoughts claimed him all over again. His thoughts of not being lovable, not being wanted. His fears of rejection, the thing he simply couldn’t handle.
He shuts his eyes tight as he tries to get the thoughts out his brain.
He was finally happy. He finally felt something.
Why? Why did his fear have to come back? Why does he have to be this way?
It all felt so right before, why did his fears make it wrong?
Miles pulls apart, pushing Pavitrs chest so he moves away from him.
“Miles?” Pavitr calls out, his voice laced with worry. Everything was perfect.. what happened? Did he do something wrong?
‘I can’t be that bad of a kisser..’ He thinks to himself. Slowly, he reaches for Miles shoulder to comfort him. Miles takes the males hand and keeps it from his shoulder. They look into eachothers eyes.
One screaming for help from his fears, the other offering the assistance with worry.
“I think you should go.”
Pavitr freezes for a second.
‘What went wrong?’ He thinks to himself. A part of him is saddened by this sudden change in attitude, though the other is trying to be understanding.
It’s hard to understand when you don’t know what the heck is going on, though.
He nods his head and activates his watch, opening a portal to his world. He doesn’t bother slipping in a ‘call you’ or ‘cya tomorrow!’. He can tell Miles needs space.
He just hopes the distance isn’t too far.
Regretably, he steps a foot into the portal. Then another.
and before you know it, he’s gone. Like he was never there.
It was almost like the kiss never happened.
Almost.
Miles sighs and glances at the couch, the one thing that was evident proof of Pavitr visiting.
The stuffed bear.