Loosing Natasha
*YELENA POV*
- How are you feeling? - I asked, but got no answer.
Nadya was still sitting on the floor staring at nothing. I walked over to her and sat down next to her. I put my arm around her shoulders and pulled her to me, she laid her head on my shoulder and started talking
- I killed him - she said
- Who did you kill? - I asked her confused
- Wanda's brother, he saved my life and I just killed him - she answered - Afterwards, the soldiers took his lifeless body and took him away, as if he was just trash -
- Hey, it's not your fault, ok, I'm more than sure that you didn't want to do it, besides if you wanted to kill him, you wouldn't be here having a hard time because of it, did you hear me? It's NOT your fault - I told her
She just remained silent, rested her head on my shoulder and closed her eyes. We sat there for a few minutes, until we heard some shouting outside, Nadya stood up with a start.
- We don't know if we can trust her, she killed Wanda's brother - we heard Bruce shout, I saw how that comment hurt Nadya although she didn't want to show it.
- It's not the first time that one of us is controlled by Hydra, I know Nadya didn't want to kill my brother, I don't even know if she really killed him, when I got into her mind and erased all her false memories, I didn't see any memory that proved she killed him, I think it was just to see her loyalty to Hydra - Wanda defended her. Nadya raised her head and I saw a small sparkle of joy in her eyes.
- I didn't kill him? - asked Nadya whispering
- Apparently not - I whispered back.
- She wasn't herself, she just did what Hydra wanted her to do, she didn't even remember us - said Tony.
- She's a spy, she could be faking it - Bruce shouted again. I had enough of his comments, I got up and walked out of the cell towards Bruce.
- Why are you making such comments? - I shouted at him as I approached him
- Why do you hate her so much, Bruce? - Sam asked pulling me away from him
- I don't hate her, okay, I just think she's dangerous - he explained, but I knew he was lying.
- Natasha didn't seem dangerous to you when she arrived, instead you fell in love with her - I said.
- If she doesn't seem dangerous to you, then what's wrong with you? - asked Wanda
- You remind me of Natasha, of the person I lost - he said finally
- You think you are the only person who lost her, Clint lost his best friend, Wanda lost the love of her life, and Nadya and I lost our sister, but still we don't go around saying that anyone is dangerous - I answered.
- I just want her back - he sobbed.
- We all want her back, but we can't - said Steve.
- I know how to bring her back - said someone behind us.
- Nadya? How did you get out of the cell? Only I can open it - asked Tony
- As you said, I am a spy, I know how to get out of a simple cell - she explained.
- Back to the subject, how do you know how to bring her back? That red man said it was irreversible - asked Clint
- A soul for a soul, right? - she said and Clint nodded - I have the soul of the phoenix, soul for soul, Hydra taught me how to do it, I just have to die, I'll stay as long as it takes until Nat comes back and then I'll come back to life, hopefully -
- That's too risky, we don't even know if it will work - I said.
- It will - she said, but I think she said it more to convince herself - Now I just want to go to my room, can I? -
- If you wait, I'll go with you - I said approaching her.
- No, I prefer to go alone - she said and left.
- Later I will go to talk to her - I said and I also went to my room.
I spent an hour just looking at the ceiling, thinking about what Nadya had said, could we really bring Natasha back? But what would that entail?
When I got tired of thinking so much, I decided to go to Nadya's room to talk to her.
I knocked on the door, receiving no answer, I opened it. I found Nadya lying on the bed in the same position as I was before.
- Nadya - she looked at me and moved a little to give me some space - What are you thinking about? - I said lying down next to her
- About Lila, I haven't talked to her, do you think she has forgiven me for what I did? - she asked me
- She was very worried about you, I don't think she thinks it was your fault - I said - Maybe you should go and talk to her tomorrow, what do you think? -
- okay - she said and lay down next to me with her head on my chest and I stroked her back.
- спокойной ночи сестренка - I said to her (good night little sister)