It Hurts

"Demon Speaking"

'Demon Thoughts'

"Normal Speaking"

'Thoughts'

(Naruto's POV)

As I walked out of my shity apartment I ignored the icy glares directed at me that would make and lesser mans hair stand on end and began to trudge to Team Sevens training grounds, not even bothering to place that disgustingly fake smile on my face. I was the first one there -As usual- and began to meditate, slipping into the sewers of my mind and began talking to Kurama.

"What do you want Gaki(1)" Kurama began seeing as I would not.

"... Just to Talk."

"About what?" He asked clearly frustrated and getting irritated at my lack of response.  

'This is amusing' I thought.

" You know your thoughts echo in here?"

"Oh I didn't know that. Do you always listen to my thoughts?"

"Usually"

"So you know what I've been thinking about recently?"

"Yeah, You shouldn't do it I know you miserable but that's just giving them what they want.  -And you know if you die so do I."

"Ah, but I've already thought of that.  I'm going to remove the seal so you can escape before I die if you wan't." 

"I'll stay if I didn't id just bee sealed again but it would be in someone worse than you"

"Hey!" I shout indignantly but begin to snicker at our little inside joke.

 (Meanwhile Outside)

(General POV)

Fifteen Minutes after Naruto began to meditate Sasuke arrived and was shocked at what he saw.  Naruto, my Dobe, The Dobe, the person that doesn't know how to shut up and sit still was doing just that, he was being quiet and sitting still.   

'Funny I don't know why I think as him as my dobe.'  Sasuke thought as he glanced over at Naruto.

He looked so peaceful like he was sleeping but there were lines on his face from stress.  Sasuke walked to Naruto's form and kicked his side trying to wake him up when his eyes snapped open and he glared at him from his new position sideways on the ground. 

"What the hell do you fuckin' want" He snapped at me angrily.

Taken back at Naruto odd behavior Sasuke completely missed the fist that came flying at his face with surprising power.  When he finally regained his composure he saw Naruto turn around and sit in a tree to begin meditating.  That's when they herd it the disgusting squeal of the Pink Banshee, Sakura, right before she latched onto Sasuke's arm and rambled on fawning over him, rubbing her nonexistent breasts agents his arm.  He tried giving her his 'ultimate Uchiha glare of Death' but it didn't faze her being so used to it he shuddered and shoved her off his arm and sat next to Naruto, ignoring everyone with scowl on his face waiting for Kakashi to come. 

"Sasuke-kun" Sakura whined, "Sit next to me not that idiot!"

'Id rather sit next to him than you creepy fan-girl.'  I thought.

I waited for Naruto to jump up and say how he would and get shot down as usual but he didn't. He just sat there silently ignoring us all. 

(Naruto POV)

After sitting in silence next to Sasuke for three hours waiting for Kakashi  we finally here a POOF and Kakashi appeared.

"Your late!" Screeched Sakura pointing a finger wildly at Kakashi.

All five eyes turned to me seeking an answer to why I didn't yell at sensei,

I only replied with, "There's no point anymore its never goanna' change he'll always be late with a lame excuse."

During the entire training I was thinking of what to do.  'Should I wait to do it or do it today?'  

I went through our warm-up mechanically going through the motions. When we finished warm ups we began to spar.  I was pared with Sakura first and defeated her easily with a kick to the face getting close with my superior speed and knocking her out cold.  She couldn't even put up a proper block in time.  Kakashi was favoring Sasuke teaching him a new katon jutsu and didn't even let me spar with him.  He said to work on my chakra control.

"Yeah! lets work on my already perfect chakra control."  I mumbled sarcastically "Why not teach me a fuuton jutsu." walking out of the training grounds leaving them behind.

After training I went home and thought of how to kill myself and when I should do it before I went to bed I made definite plan of what I would do so I would defiantly die on the first try. 

First I would visit Iruka and tell him how muck he means to me how he is like a dad to me.

I would then visit Sarotobi-jiji and thank him for everything the has done for me.

Then I would head home shouldering all the glares and hateful wipers holding my bag of rat poision.

I will lock my door and tear the seal off Kurama's giving him the option to be free again.

Down all the pills an begin cutting myself into oblivion. Cutting every major vein within reach. Slowly bleeding out, unwanted an alone, just as i have always been.

 For the first time in a while i went to bed with a smile on my face thinking of what was to come tomorrow.