Orochimaru
Orochimaru
I’ve never been in love. I have felt love though. I loved my parents long ago before they died. I loved my team. Sarutobi died. I killed him. Jiraiya died. Nothing could have saved him, right? Well I suppose it doesn’t matter now. Can’t say that I care that much either way. I love Tsunade? Tsunade… why is she looking at me like that? Her face is distinguishably red she really should lay off the sake I doubt she even realises she looked at me with utter disgust a moment ago. Warranted. I wouldn’t say I love Tsunade. I will admit that I care about her deeply. Or is that simply a shell of blissful feeling we once had when we were children. Before we lost everything. Before we left everything behind. We don’t have time for this. Though I suppose it won’t take us off schedule.
He’s always been unpredictable hasn’t he? I wonder how it happened. Did he ask her or did he simply tell her and she complied. I’d like to believe he has a little more decency than to consider the latter, especially with her. Can’t say I didn’t see it coming. I’ve seen the way she cares for him though at the time it was under rather interesting circumstances. Where did these feelings come from? I wouldn’t know. Never cared to ask about his feelings on anything. He was always just another means to gain power. Wasn’t he? Never felt any form of attachment and yet standing here I feel… pride? Quite interesting. He doesn’t like me. I don’t like him. I don’t hate him either even after everything that has happened. She certainly hates me. Though I have to admit it’s not without basis. Ironic isn’t it? I’m the one that took him away. I’ll never forget the fear in her eyes back in the forest of death, though a part of me has come to realise that perhaps she was more afraid of losing him. She did eventually. I think back to the hatred she so clearly held on to when I saw her on the bridge. Look at her now. I doubt she even acknowledges my presence here. Mind completely overtaken by something stronger than hate.
Tsunade is fidgety. Perhaps the sake, she never did enjoy standing in place for too long. Or perhaps it’s my presence here. I never wanted to hurt her. Seeing her in pain made me realise that even the strongest of shinobi can fall victim to death, one way or another. Is it so wrong to want to find a way to live forever with those you love? I could have helped her. Perhaps I could have brought back that old fool. Perhaps we could have been happy again. No. Not me. Not after everything I have done. Do I regret it? I can’t say that I do. I’m alive today. That’s all that matters right? Sasuke’s getting married. I’ve always wondered where life would take him. A part of me always felt that I wouldn’t succeed in my initial plans to inhabit his body. He’s not like the others. He possessed an unswaying conviction. One that was unique. One that I knew he would not throw away. He has suffered and yet standing here I feel as though it was necessary. Pain makes us stronger. Is that not the belief of that damn age old organisation? Isn’t the reason I aligned with them in the first place because they thought we shared pain? That we could make each other stronger? What a joke. Though I suppose every man is attached to their own beliefs.
I’ve never had children. Never felt the desire to love and yet a part of me wonders what they would be like. Like Sasuke? What a silly thought. Though he possesses everything I would want them to have. A strong shinobi. Smart. My tutelage has done him much. In the end he chose the so called ‘correct’ path. Would they do the same? What kind of life would they lead? I’m a criminal after all though a part of me hopes that if I did have children, they would be nothing like me. They would be good. Say what you want but at least I’m self-aware. Oh? She’s crying. He wiped her tear away. It’s quite hysterical, he’s become quite soft hasn’t he? She’s pregnant. I wonder if Tsunade knows. Does Kakashi? Should I tell them? It might make for an interesting conversation I am becoming quite bored. Of course it was inevitable considering their choice of nightly activities. Yes I know about it. I doubt they considered the implication of leaving someone’s bedroom in the early hours of the morning and I doubt they considered the fact that a person such as myself is in fact an early riser. They were reckless. Then again isn’t that the beauty of life. Taking risks. Not knowing where life will lead you but venturing all the same because we all know that time is running out. Especially as a shinobi. Especially for Sasuke.
He’ll never be free. An outstanding shinobi. An Uchiha. One of 2 of the strongest ninja in the world. The rinnegan. He is shackled by his own power. By his brothers will. By the feeling that he is indebted to the one who saved him and hence indebted to a village that has done nothing but curse his bloodline. I pity him. I pity her. He will never be able to give her everything she wants, everything he knows she deserves. I think he knows that. Perhaps that’s the reason his eyes grow soft each time she looks away even for a second. He loves her. He wouldn’t be standing here if he didn’t. In a small village in the middle of the land of fire and the land of wind, joining in union with a woman he’s known for a very long time. A girl he had loved, though I suppose the love he feels now is far different from the love he had felt before. I wouldn’t know, I never cared to ask. Nothing else matters I suppose. As long as they love each other.
I wonder what it’s like. To love someone and be loved, enough to join together and bring new life into a world such as this. Such thoughts shouldn’t plague me. Though I have a new found idea for my next experiment. Correction, my next project. Perhaps the hokage would appreciate that wording better.
Yamato that idiot.
Pride. That’s it. This feeling. Seeing him grow from a young naïve weak boy pained by his past, pained by death, to a strong shinobi who has opened himself up to love, who isn’t afraid to be guided and try’s so hard to do what’s right. Is that not a master’s wish? He wants to live. If I had chosen the right path all those years ago, would I have been happy? Would she? Perhaps I should say something. Oh? They are lighting fires. Well I suppose I should focus. This is something many would have hoped to see.
After all, Uchiha Sasuke is getting married…