prologue and beginning
After losing all of his precious people, Kakashi no longer lived a life with any purpose or worthy goals. He is now more of a weapon than a real person and is slowly sinking into a deep fog of apathy that he refuses to acknowledge exists. Or deal with.
But whatever, Kakashi expected nothing more than to die as a useful shinobi for his Village until one day the Ghost Obito stops being an imaginary specter and becomes a real person (alive!) and that changed everything.
Once again Kakashi had his world shaken and destroyed, only to be remade into something entirely new, different and unexpected in a very short space of time.
Obito returned from the dead and came to him with promises of a utopia of a new world full of eternal happiness - complete madness, but despite this Kakashi made his choice. And he does not regret it.
Mm, thinking about it, maybe there are some regrets, yes, some things that Kakashi admits they could have done differently, like achieving world peace without having to resort to another war and things like that. But. You know. They were shinobi. In their world there was never an easy path to peace that was free of blood for the shinobi to walk.
They tried, of course, to leave fewer bodies in their wake because the Moon Plan aimed to bring eternal happiness to the living and the more people alive to live in the genjutsu the better.
So that was it.
Kakashi regrets many things in his life, but never about choosing Obito. He would choose Obito every time
Kakashi made his choice a long time ago. He chose Obito. And wherever the road of life took them, they would walk that path together. The way it should be
years before: beginning of everything
His life was a burden that grew heavier and harder to bear every day and night.
It's been like this for as long as he can remember - and it's been a long time. It probably all started with that fateful event, or rather: a horrible sequence of events. Because his life is full of tragedies and pain. And death. A lot of deaths.
He had one loss after another. One failure after another. Pieces of himself were broken off along the way and dying along with those he loved, lost and buried.
Now there was nothing left. Nothing to cling to; nothing to cling to as a lifeline; nothing worth dying for in a noble act of self-sacrifice - (because everyone he would willingly sacrifice himself for is already dead and he hasn't had a chance to stop it).
Not even his sensei's son was spared, barely born and already having his life destroyed before it had even begun. So young and so small and already burdened with the greatest burdens there were. (Because being a Jinchuuriki is nothing more than being a human sacrifice to imprison an immortal beast. A Jinchuuriki is a weapon for his village to use; to be a Jinchuuriki was to suffer a stigma for the rest of his life; a Jinchuuriki would always be a monster in the eyes of the rest of the village's population)
No one would ever see the boy as a poor orphan who was also a victim of the Kyuubi.
Unfortunately, their world was unfair and cruel and had no mercy for anyone, least of all those who were good.
speaking of good people…
Kakashi must not be a good person, apparently. That would explain why he's still here when all those who were good and brilliant are gone and the last link he had left was a baby sacrificed for the sake of the greater good.
Kakashi understands. It's a punishment from heaven. He has failed at what matters most. He doesn't know how to be a good protector, a good son, a good friend or even a good man who keeps his promises.
Kakashi is only good at one thing: killing successfully.
His hands aren't good at anything. They only serve to destroy.
(Ironic that the more Kakashi tried to escape this pattern, the more often he failed and proved that he wasn't cut out to do good things.
He wasn't worthy of good titles.
He was just scum and nothing more)
If Kakashi were the religious type (he's not), he would believe that the gods had cursed him; punished him for some serious disrespect; or taken revenge on him for something.
Or maybe they just enjoyed watching him suffer. After all, the gods could be cruel like that - inflicting suffering on mortals out of sheer amusement and boredom.
But as it was, Kakashi no longer had the strength even to be angry with the world and the cruel gods. He just felt tired, empty and numb.
Kakashi no longer had any purpose or perspective in life and perhaps his apathy was too obvious to cause the Hokage himself to intervene, taking him into a corner and telling him that the Village needed him more than ever at this difficult time.
The Village - the one for which its precious people had killed themselves or sacrificed themselves to protect and honor - was now vulnerable after the death of its leader and hundreds of other good ninjas who had fallen to the Kyuubi's fury.
Kakashi understood the point Lord Hizuren wanted to make: Kakashi couldn't give up now because that would be turning his back on the sacrifice his precious people had made to protect this place and it was up to Kakashi to honor that. (At least a little. At least for now)
So Kakashi would do it. For his precious (dead) people. To honor their sacrifices, Kakashi would continue as far as he could go.
Perhaps at the end of the road he would find his precious people waiting for him.