Mine, Yours, Ours

A bittersweet goodbye.

new beginings and old endings

questions for wandering souls

looking for a home to settle

Milk couldn’t be any happier with the success of the series, moreover when she gets to share this happiness with Love. Years, of fighting and hard work have finally reaped, where they are finally the main focus. Today, both Love and her are sitting in the meeting room, they are told that they are going to have fan meets across various countries, Milk almost wanted to cry out of joy, she was so excited and thankful for having a chance to see their fans. She can’t deny a small part of her was saddened as she realized that every time they would be on stage everything that Milk would do and say, would come from the deepest part of her, filled with something so heavy and scared, but Love would never know.

Milk wasn’t someone delusional, making up scenarios or trying to interpret Love words or actions in any other way, than what Love means to say. She was always grounded in reality, maybe that’s why it was an easy acceptance of her one-sided love. She stopped having any expectations or hope, but that didn’t stop her feelings, the only thing that changed throughout Loving Love was that she became more mature, she knew how to control them and hide them, but most importantly she learned how to be selfless, she accepted that her feeling is just like breathing an involuntary action, so she stopped fighting it. She loved and loved cause that’s all she wanted and maybe that’s all she is capable of doing now.

Milk tried avoiding meeting Love's boyfriend for a long time, making up excuses and ditching every chance where she would come face to face with Gun. Today, it was different, when after the meeting, they were heading down, and Love asked Milk shyly if she had a few minutes so she could finally introduce Gun to her. Milk would have used up an excuse and denied it, but she decided against it, she thought that maybe finally meeting Gun would allow her to let go of Love, a final nail to the coffin. So, Milk agreed.

Milk saw Gun waiting with his car in the parking lot, he smiled watching Milka and Love walking towards him. As they finally got where Gun was standing, love immediately introduced them, “P’Milk this is Gun and Gun this is P’Milk.”. Gun did a wai and greeted Milk. He then spoke enthusiastically, “Khun Milk, it is so nice meeting you, I am your big fan, and I have watched all your works”. Milk smiled at Gun and replied ‘It’s nice meeting you too and thank you for being my fan this means a lot.” 

Milk was in pain, she thought she could get through it but now all she wanted to do was run as fast as she could. Milk tried not to let her feel overwhelmed and tried to say as steadily as she could, “Thank you for taking care of N’Love, and I hope you keep taking care of her. I am sorry I have to leave soon I already have plans, but it was nice to finally get to meet you, I am sorry it took us long.” Gun, smiled warmly and he thought how this might be their first and last time seeing each other.

Hearing Milk having plans, Love got curious, “Where are you going P’Milk?” Milk put her hands on Love’s shoulder and replied, “I and Namtan decided to hangout at Ciize’s place tonight, so I am just heading there.” she then turned to look and Gun and added “I am sorry that I have to cut our meeting short. I am sure you both have plans too, head out soon before you hit the traffic, it’s going to be busy soon.”
Milk then left hurriedly saying her byes, leaving Love no chance to say anything more.

Gun was more than a boyfriend to Love, they have been together for so long, he was a friend to her too, and today he was determined to be Love’s friend and help her out. Their relationship has been running cold for months now, and Gun cannot blame Love and her busy schedules for everything, he too felt a sense of detachment. Things have changed and he knows that Love is aware of it too, they were just both trying to delay the inevitable, but today Gun was determined to finally end what needs to be ended and also help Love realize certain things.

After finishing their dinner Gun drove Love back home, it was quiet inside the car, and the silence was uncomfortable. Gun stopped the car at an empty parking lot he found on the way. Love was confused, as to why they stopped. Gun blurted ‘I think we should talk.” Love was aware of what Gun wanted to talk about, this conversation was long overdue, she knew what would be the outcome of this, and she thought to herself that maybe it was time that she should finally face this.

“We both know that this has not been working for us for quite some time, and I think it’s finally time to end this. I don’t think neither of us has that many feelings left for each other to fight this, and I don’t see any reason for fighting anymore.” Gun stated. He paused to see Love’s expression. Love was not facing him, but looking out front in deep thought. Gun sighed and continued, “I don’t think it’s either one of us to blame, we both had a part in this. Somewhere along the way our love was lost. Let’s let go of each other so we both can finally move on.”

Love sighed heavily and turned to look at him, she replied “ You are right, I am sorry that I kept avoiding it. We lost it along the way and I don’t see any reason to try anymore.” There was nothing bitter in her tone, she was just exhausted after finally confronting the truth.
Milk couldn’t be any happier with the success of the series, especially since she gets to share this joy with Love. After years of fighting and hard work, they finally have become the main focus. Today, both Love and Milk are sitting in the meeting room when they are informed that they will have fan meets in various countries. Milk can hardly contain her excitement and is almost in tears of joy at the opportunity to meet their fans. However, a small part of her feels saddened; she realizes that every time they are on stage, everything she does and says comes from the deepest part of her, filled with something heavy and fearful that Love will never know.

Milk isn’t delusional; she doesn’t create scenarios or try to interpret Love’s words or actions in any way other than how Love means them. She is always grounded in reality, and perhaps that’s why she has easily accepted her one-sided love. She has stopped holding on to any expectations or hopes, but that hasn’t changed her feelings. The only thing that has changed over the years of loving Love is that she has become more mature. She knows how to control and hide her feelings, and most importantly, she has learned to be selfless. She accepts that her feelings are as involuntary as breathing, so she stops fighting them. She loves because that is all she wants, and perhaps it’s all she is capable of doing now.

Milk has tried to avoid meeting Love's boyfriend for a long time, making excuses and dodging every opportunity to come face-to-face with Gun. Today, however, things are different. After the meeting, Love shyly asks Milk if she has a few minutes to finally introduce Gun to her. Normally, Milk would have found an excuse to decline, but this time she decides against it. She thinks that finally meeting Gun might allow her to let go of Love—a final nail in the coffin. So, Milk agrees.

Milk spots Gun waiting in the parking lot with his car, smiling as he watches Milk and Love approach. When they reach him, Love immediately introduces them: “P’Milk, this is Gun, and Gun, this is P’Milk.” Gun greets Milk with a warm smile and a wai, saying, “Khun Milk, it is so nice to meet you. I am a big fan of yours and have watched all your work.” Milk smiles back at Gun and replies, “It’s nice to meet you too, and thank you for being my fan; that means a lot.”

Inside, Milk is in turmoil. She thought she could handle it, but all she wanted to do was run as fast as she could. Trying to steady her voice, she says, “Thank you for taking care of N’Love, and I hope you continue to take care of her. I’m sorry, but I have to leave soon as I already have plans. It was nice to finally meet you; I'm sorry it took us so long.” Gun smiles warmly, thinking that this might be their first and last encounter.

Curious about Milk's plans, Love asks, “Where are you going, P’Milk?” Milk places her hands on Love’s shoulders and replies, “Namtan and I decided to hang out at Ciize’s place tonight, so I’m just heading there.” She turns to Gun and adds, “I’m sorry I have to cut our meeting short. I’m sure you both have plans too; you should head out soon before the traffic gets bad.” Milk hurriedly says her goodbyes, leaving Love with no chance to say anything more.

Gun is more than just a boyfriend to Love; they have been together for a long time. He is also a friend, and today he is determined to support Love and help her through this situation. Their relationship has been growing cold for months, and while Gun can’t solely blame Love's busy schedule, he feels a sense of detachment too. Things have changed, and he knows Love is aware of it as well. They are both just delaying the inevitable, but today, Gun has resolved to finally address what needs to be addressed and help Love come to certain realizations.

After finishing dinner, Gun drives Love back home. The car is quiet, and the silence is uncomfortable. He eventually stops the car in an empty parking lot he finds along the way. Love is confused about the abrupt stop. Gun blurts out, "I think we should talk." 

Love is already aware of what Gun wants to discuss. This conversation has been overdue, and she knows the likely outcome. She thinks to herself that maybe it’s finally time to face this truth.

“We both know that this hasn’t been working for quite some time, and I think it’s finally time to end it. Neither of us has any feelings left to fight for this, and I don’t see any reason to continue trying," Gun states. He pauses to gauge Love’s reaction, but she isn’t facing him; she’s looking straight ahead, deep in thought. Gun sighs and continues, "It’s not either of us to blame; we both had a part in this. Somewhere along the way, our love was lost. Let’s let go of each other so we can finally move on."

Love sighed heavily and turned to look at him. She replied, "You are right. I’m sorry I kept avoiding it. We lost our way along the journey, and I don’t see any reason to try anymore." There was nothing bitter in her tone; she was simply exhausted after finally confronting the truth.

Gun decided to take on the other important role: to be Love’s friend. "We have been together for so long; you are a dear friend to me, and that’s something I don’t want to change. Since I’ve been with you for a while, I think I’ve gotten to know you well. Thank you, Love, for being there for me, and I hope we continue to support each other as friends," Gun said. Love smiled at this and added, "Thank you, too. You have been my constant supporter, and I truly value our friendship."

"Love, allow me to say this as your friend: sometimes we are not aware of what’s going on inside us. We can have such big things happening, yet we can be completely oblivious. These feelings often reveal themselves unconsciously. Maybe it’s time for you to look within and discover what’s there, even if you're unaware of it. Also, take a look around you; you might be surprised to find love right at your fingertips, always so close," Gun explained. Love was left confused, feeling as though Gun had given her a riddle to solve. "What are you trying to say? I don’t understand," she replied. Gun smiled warmly in return and said, "It’s okay to be confused. Take your time; I’m sure you will understand later."

Gun had sensed long ago that Love felt something deeper for her coworker and friend, Milk. Whenever they met, Love’s conversations were filled with thoughts of Milk, and everything she did seemed to lead her back to thinking about her, often unconsciously. Gun picked up on this easily and decided to help Love in whatever way he could. He couldn't directly tell her about these feelings; that was something for Love to realize on her own. Knowing he could help trigger the process of self-discovery, Gun felt satisfied.

Love attempted to sleep, but Gun's words lingered in her mind. After hours of tossing and turning, she gave up. She considered calling Milk for help but felt something within her cautioning against it.

Tu was on the verge of throwing her phone against the nearest wall. She was exhausted from running around her university and returning to workshops for her new drama. All she wanted was to sleep before facing another grueling day. But her phone rang at this ungodly hour. Reluctantly, she answered, seeing Love's name on the screen, which immediately alarmed her. Love only called at this hour for emergencies. She picked up the call swiftly. "Hello, Love! Are you alright? What happened?"

"Hello, Tu. I’m sorry for calling so late, but I’m disturbed and don’t know what to do."

"What happened, Love? You mentioned your meeting about fan meets went well, right?"

"Yas, everything went smoothly. Oh, and P’Milk finally met Gun today," Love added casually.

Tu was stunned by this information. She realized she now had one more thing to worry about and decided to check on P’Milk as soon as her call with Love ended. She could only imagine what Milk must have felt during and after the encounter.

"Tu, are you there? Can you hear me?" Love questioned worriedly from the other end, bringing Tu back from her thoughts.

"Oh, sorry. How was it between P’Milk and Gun?"

"It was okay, but P’Milk left almost immediately after the introduction. She said she had plans with P’Ciize and P’Namtan."

"Okay, so what’s bothering you so much?"

"Gun and I broke up today."

Tu wasn’t prepared for this news. Although she was aware of the recent dynamics between Love and Gun and knew the breakup was coming, she was still surprised.

"Are you sad about it?"

"Not sad. We both saw it coming for a while. What’s bothering me are the things he said."

Tu felt ready to pull out all of Gun’s teeth if he had said anything hurtful to Love; she might as well use her dental knowledge to take revenge for her friend.

"Did he say something bad?"

"No, no, not at all. He was very nice and polite about it."

"Then what’s the issue?"

Love then explained everything that Gun had said to her. Tu understood where Gun was coming from, having observed the situation herself. She never brought it up to Love, fearing it might make her self-conscious and inadvertently distance her from Milk, which was the last thing she wanted. However, she realized this could be an opportunity to explore that possibility further.

“Love, don’t overthink it so much. Why don’t you try to observe the things around you? Sometimes, things aren’t visible at once, but they are there. Maybe try to be more observant, and you might surprise yourself. And why not take some time to care for yourself? I think you’ve been too busy to pay attention to your thoughts.”

“Tu, you too!! Why can’t you just say it clearly?”

“Love, it’s not my place to find the answers for you; those are things you need to look for on your own. There’s no rush—take your time. Now, take some rest. We all need sleep, and you will be busy soon, too. So make sure you get some rest.”

“Okay, thanks. I’m sorry once again for calling you at this hour. I will go to sleep too; I feel too tired from thinking. I will follow your advice.”

“Great, now goodbye. Sleep and don’t think too much.”

“Bye, Tu. Good night.”

Tu wasn’t sure if she should call P’Milk at this hour, as she might be resting, so she decided to send her a text in case she was awake. Milk replied a few minutes later, telling her that she was okay and thanking her for checking up on her. After texting for a little while longer, both decided to retire to their beds since they needed sleep and their schedules were now completely busy.

Milk was always aware of what was happening between Love and Gun. She knew that their breakup was something bound to happen, but when Love introduced Gun, she thought they might be trying to make things better, so she was surprised by the news. As usual, Milk was concerned for Love, giving her extra attention and care to ensure that she didn’t feel lonely after the breakup.