Remus Lupin Is An Idiot
The movie was, of course, fantastic. David Bowie was beautiful, and the music amazing. It was one of Remus’ favourite movies. Though, it would have been better if he had been able to pay attention to the film on the screen. He could have seen the lovely image of the sexy actor singing and dancing in leggings that hugged in all the right places, instead he was being distracted.
This distraction was both unwanted and extremely wanted, which was the most confusing part of the whole night. Remus was drawn to those hips swaying to the music and the laugh that rang out in the night. He l watched the light shine in Sirius’ eyes and the smile brighten his features. The man was beautiful and it infuriated Remus, that was all. A maddening distraction, which only made him angry.
Even while he lay in bed, a comforting place, with his favourite quilt and his soft pillows, his head was all full of Sirius Black. The infuriating man. He was everywhere. Walking past his cubicle with that arse, laughing with his friends, Remus’ old friends, like Sirius had no idea what he was doing to Remus. Of course, he probably didn’t, considering the man was gorgeous and had men and women throwing themselves at his feet. The man would never need to be alone, not with over half the office vying for his attention. And that really didn’t bother Remus. Not at all.
At least, it shouldn’t.
~*~
Saturday morning was rough, even on his fourth cuppa Remus was still rubbing his eyes and yawning. When Lily arrived for their afternoon tea she looked at him with worry, before sitting down and decidedly didn’t ask him what was wrong. She talked about the kids, and James. She talked about some silly gadget Sirius had brought over and the two men had fiddled with for hours. She pretended not to notice the twitch Remus had whenever Lily mentioned Sirius’ name. When Remus sighed for the twentieth time she put down her cup carefully and looked him dead in the eye.
“Out with it,” She said tersely.
“I’ve no idea what you mean,” Remus sulked.
“You look like you haven’t slept in a week, you keep fidgeting when I mention James and you visibly twitch when I say Padfoots name. There! You did it again!” She pointed at Remus’ left eye.
Remus looked away, poking at his eye a bit testing for proper function. Avoiding Lily’s gaze he attempted to change the subject, but she would have none of it.
“Fine! I may be suffering with a little bit of a Sirius dilemma.” He joked then dropped his head to the table. “He’s fucking everywhere Lily, I cant get away from him.”
“Maybe that’s the point,” she muttered, then shook her head. “You need to start acting like an adult. Just because you hate Sirius doesn’t mean you have a right to…to…act like a child!”
“That’s the problem,” He laughed without humour. “I very much do not hate Sirius Black.”
“But then…isn’t that why you stopped hanging out with Jamie? That broke his heart by the way!”
“He and Sirius were just so close, and I couldn’t be around Sirius all the time. I wasn’t ready to…admit some things…to myself,” Remus paused took a deep breath and sighed. “To anyone really. That was years ago, and I’ve come to terms with being Bi but I never found a way to reconnect with James.”
“Wait, wait, wait…” Lily glared at him. “You stopped being James best friend because you were struggling with being into Sirius?”
“I may be book smart, but I never claimed that I wasn’t an idiot.”