Oh, James Potter
Regulus has been avoiding everyone since yesterday when Felix came back. Not on purpose (Sort of) he just has a bunch of shit to do and people tend to get in his way. For example when Marlene found out about Dorcas going on a mission to intercept the death eaters' delivery. Regulus knows that Evan Barty or even himself could do the mission but they have more important things to do and Dorcas is good at intercepting things. One time Regulus had asked her to try and get more information on why Sirius had left and she came back with a detailed and reasonable explanation and she hadn’t even talked to Sirius. Regulus has yet to find out if the information she provided him was true or not.
Regulus has been thinking non-stop about how he’s going to make sure Dorcas is safe in that mission since he went downstairs yesterday. He’s thinking of ways to get information. He’s thinking how Dorcas is going to pull this off. He knows that Dorcas is a powerful witch, she’s the most powerful witch Regulus knows and she has been since he met her in first year while she was in second year. But even as strong as she is he still worries, he would never admit it to someone's face, well actually he did yesterday. In a way.
Regulus sighs and then his door opens, and now James is standing in his room. “What do you need, Potter? I have shit to figure out” Regulus said once he calmed himself down in his mind. Why was James in here? Is he trying to mess with Regulus? Why does he look so bitable?
“I need to talk to you so the shit you need to figure out will have to wait” He said and closed the door.
Okay, that was weird. James has never talked to anyone so demanding before, at least not in front of Regulus. “About what, Potter? I really don’t have the time for this” Regulus crossed his arms.
“I don’t care, I’ve been holding it back for months, or actually years” James said and grabbed Regulus’ elbow and dragged him over to sit on the bed.
Holy, Morgana, Merlins tits, fuck. James Potter is strong. “Oh, fun, do I get to boss you around now? Get the fuck out”
“Nope, you’re going to listen” James said and sat down by Regulus, finally letting go of his elbow.
“Why should I? Feeling dominant now, Potter?” Regulus has no idea why he said that, fuck why did he say that?
“I- What?” James said, blinking hard a few times.
Okay, fine. If Regulus actually wants James, he’ll work for it. “You heard me” Wait no, no attachments in war, no relationships, don’t get close to people, you’ll just end up getting hurt in the end. Regulus reminded himself.
“This is…Different” James said and leaned closer.
“Don’t get used to it” Regulus has no idea why he is playing along with James. No attachments.
“I could never get used to something when it has to do with you. Everything changes so fast” Is this still James? Is this like Barty with a polyjuice potion or something?
“You’re learning” Learning from what? What the fuck is Regulus saying right now?
“I guess I am” James looked him up and down and Regulus continued looking him in the eyes until James looked back into Regulus’ eyes and then Regulus looked him up and down in return.
Regulus looked back into James’ eyes. “You had something to tell me?” He said as if the past few seconds didn’t just happen.
“I think I’ve already said it, in a way, but I am a romantic so I’ll say it properly” Regulus started to panic but didn’t let it show. “Regulus, I’ve fallen in love with you. And not in a ‘normal’ way I mean an almost obsessed way. Not an ‘I’d live for you’ way but in a ‘I’d kill for you’ way”
Regulus is so sure he forgot what breathing is. “Pardon?” He said, not knowing what to say because he felt the same. He wanted to murder Lily everytime she got anywhere near James.
“I’m in love with you Regulus, I’m so helplessly in love with you” James said, almost…Begging?
“James we can’t”
“Does that mean you feel the same?” James was letting hope get to him.
And Regulus is a sucker for his eyes. “Yes” He blurted before he could stop himself but then again he felt his walls crumbling away, his self control, his resistance, so was there really anything holding him back?
“Then why can’t we do it?” James said and sat closer to Regulus.
And Regulus made no move to shove him away or move himself. “Because there’s a war. If I get attached it would only make things worse. It would-” Regulus began losing his self control as he stared into James’ eyes more. “-make the pain harder to deal with if I lost you”
“First of all, who said you would lose me? Second of all, since when did you care so much?”
Regulus really couldn’t lie anymore, he didn’t have the self control for it. “I’ve always cared” Regulus looked down at James’ lips, unable to hold himself back anymore.
“Like what you see?” James said, obviously catching onto the fact that Regulus is staring at his lips.
“I see something I want” Regulus had such a strong urge to bite.
“Then why don’t you come get it?” James said smugly.
Regulus knows he shouldn’t but he wants to so badly, and plus, he doesn’t have enough self control to hold back anymore so he does what he’s been wanting to do for years. He surges forward. He puts a hand on James’ chest, pushing him down onto the bed. Regulus sits himself on James’ lap and bites his bottom lip. Yes, he did have to do all of that just to bite James because he’s dramatic sometimes.
James gasped so Regulus bit harder. James put his hands on Regulus’ hips and Regulus let him. He knew he shouldn’t but he did.
Regulus let go of James’ lip and stopped for about two milliseconds before diving back to kiss James full on. He could feel the teeth marks on James’ lip while they kissed and it drove Regulus crazy.
James’ hand just barely went under Regulus’ shirt and Regulus immediately rolled off of James. Fuck. What did he just do? That didn’t happen. That couldn’t have happened. Regulus gets off the bed and starts pacing, he only paces in front of Pandora. He hates showing his nervous tendencies. James almost felt beneath his shirt. James almost felt the scars from Regulus’ top surgery. Regulus doesn’t know if James knows about the fact Regulus is trans, he probably does considering his best friend is Sirius.
“Regulus-” James got up out of the bed and tried to grab Regulus’ hand.
Regulus slapt his hand away. “Out. Get the fuck out. Now” Regulus said, pointing to the door.
James seemed to understand because he walked over to the door, he grabbed the door knob but turned to face Regulus before he left. “I’m sorry Regulus” His voice was sincere and kind. He definitely knew that Regulus was trans and he didn’t care.
Regulus watched as James opened the door and left.
Regulus was so close to finally having what he wanted for once. But he was also the one to push it away.