Chapter 1
I wonder when i started viewing the world in shades of grey.
My heart beats but its just barely surviving without you , i wonder if i am obsessed but even if i am..you are no longer with me.
Just the memories of you and me.
Another day goes by and I'm 21 now still trapped in the past. My only solace being when i dream of you and me. You are like a drug cuz baby you have me enraptured and obsessed with you , if only you were here with me too...
Sometimes I wish I had killed myself when i was with you so I could have died at my happiest. You were the only sane thing in my life and like a clown I let it go...let you go.
I wonder if you think of me like I do of you but who am I kidding , you have probably forgotten all about me. Just like the many other's before me.
You always were the popular one among us with many people you were close with but for me it was only you.
I'm stuck with you in my head , doomed to never forget you. Since the time of winter 3 years ago. I will never forget you and even though i wish i never loved you , I don't regret ever meeting you because you were the happiest thing in my life then and even now.
I remember the day you had broken up with me , it felt like a bad dream but it was real...so real
You passed with flying colours and made it to the best University people could only imagine to get into and unlike you my grades fell further and further into a downright spiral.
Till they were past the point of saving , I somehow got into a third rate college near your college because even though we weren't together anymore I wanted to see you again , just a glimpse of your hair even was enough.
I had came out shortly to my parents after u had left . Turns out being disowned wasn't that big of a deal and what i once thought would give me pain and sadness left me only feeling numb as every thought I had was only ever filled with you...