Facing the truth

It had been three weeks
Three weeks since Lala had helped Evangeline
Since they had stopped jacks from burning his heart and destroying himself
Since she had avoided Dane
Since she had put off talking about herself and her feelings
She was going to talk to Honora
She was going to talk to dane
Tell him that she was no longer the girl he knew
She didn't even know herself anymore
Not that she was going to let it stay that way
No
But being strong isn't easy
Being strong also involves admitting that you are temporarily broken sometimes
A brokenness that will take time to mend
Even when a broken heart was mended, cracks always remained
It's like having a crack in a glass jar
The jar still works and is fine
But the crack is still there
You have to have compassion for yourself in these times
Self-esteem doesn't work for Lala here
Because she is at a stage in her life where she has to question everything she did
She has to process things now that she should have processed centuries ago
And that is not easy
Because Lala will be very different from Lala in the storm after processing the events
Lala finally opened her eyes and turned down the noise of her brain so as not to confuse her further
At these times, the brain is like a beehive, of course when you hit it with a strong stick
Just as noisy and dangerous
Even doing everyday tasks was difficult at these times
In these times, it was also difficult to do everyday things
Because we act based on our beliefs and feelings
For a few minutes, Lala was tempted to stay in her castle of lies forever
But then she couldn't
Because once you've noticed something, it's impossible to ignore it
Unless you distract yourself with something temporary that only makes things worse
So she got up
Enough of dodging, that wasn't Lala's way
She wasn't one to back down
She had been through worse times in her life
She needed something sweet
Yes, fates don't need to eat, but Lala loved it
She wear her golden brown robdoshambr and put her bed slippers
She went into the great room and saw that the fire had gone out
She had been so lost in her own mental swamp that she hadn't noticed the coldness of the house
She lit it and threw a few pieces of wood into the fireplace
Yes, she could cast a spell that would keep the house warm all the time, but she loved the smell of wood Burned, and he loved fire itself very much
Then she remembered that one day that she wanted to set himself on fire......
No!
she didn't want to dwell on bad memories anymore. she was going to fix everything
she was in his hometown. she sometimes ranted at jacks , that who was the reason he was exiled here, but she knew very well that she wasn't really angry with him
she loved this place and the things you love hurt you the most
That was it
she had a lot of good and bad memories here and she was afraid to face them, that's why she was looking for a culprit and it wasn't like jacks would care so she called jacks the culprit
The same thing was true of Castor but she didn't know what it was
she didn't know what to call it and to be honest, she didn't want to deal with Castor right now
There were more important things to do right now
she had to talk to dane first, then to Honora and Wulfric, then to Merrywood Forest, where she had countless memories of his family and his brother.
Lyric
Lyric
Lyric
she still loved his brother, although she acted as if she had come to terms with his death, but she had not.
When she realized that Evangeline had told him that day what deal jacks had made with Aurora
her brother had a very pure heart and did not realize how dangerous and monstrous Aurora was. she cursed jacks, she was the cause of her brother's death and had made Lyric a plaything, as a result of her actions, Castor was severely injured, and then jacks begged Honora to bring his only friend back to life, and then a monster was born within him, and this monster started a massacre. Knowing this, she could not really blame Castor, but blaming others was very easy and freeing. It was easy but also absurd, because in the end you know the truth and I wish she could live with her lies.
she noticed the room getting warmer. she didn't know how long she had been staring at the fire and doing it.
she fateful body didn't show human weakness at these times. she didn't know if she loved her or not.
she straightened up and went to the kitchen. she picked up the cake and was about to cut it with the kitchen knife. Then she remembered that he had stabbed jacks with a knife like this, a small smile came to her lips.
she was happy for that bastard. For a boy who had been her brother's friend when he was human and was also good to her. It was a bit strange for their family that Lyric would be friends with a boy who had no lineage. But Lala could understand her brother's reason. jacks made anyone around him brave, at least jacks used to be like that. He was kind and kind, he could be a little rude (according to what her father believed) but honorable and reasonable. he had some fire in him and was good at fighting but he was behind the people he loved and this trait was even in the Prince of Hearts. They had become monsters but there were pieces of their true selves. she was still alive. For jacks, Evangeline brought back jacks. The jacks she knew. Of course they would never be the same people they were before. Their appearance was the same as before but inside there was a being full of experience. They say that emotional people become more terrible monsters because when their hearts are broken over and over again they become tired and helpless and take refuge in the monster of being cruel and evil. That was why jacks wanted to be a villain because he got nothing from being a hero except heartbreak and losing the things he loved.
Now she hoped that he would have a good life. Of course with Evangeline it was impossible to have a bad life.
Evangeline
She made a plan to buy fabric for herself and Evangeline
There were always parties and dances with the Valors
She should to make a dress for herself and evangeline
She wanted to be more friends with her
Lala loved her. It was like evangeline was reviving ariel, the girl she used to be. Maybe she could talk to Evangeline. It wasn't bad to get help with these things. Evangeline was a brave and good girl, but strong at the same time. She was able to go through a lot and also stay herself. Although she could have chosen to be bad.
She ate her cake and went to take a bath. Focusing on washing herself was better than focusing on her thoughts because it would at least make her do something instead of staring at something and wasting time.
She took a relatively short shower and felt better about herself as she cleaned up. It was time to choose a suitable outfit. Lala sewed clothes because she had urges to, but this passion came from the past. She loved it when she was human. She also loved singing. She had always been bold. She loved to hear stories and turn them into lyrics for a poem and then compose a melody for it and perform it. She didn't like to just write poetry and sing it quietly. She liked the lyrics she wrote to make people dance if they were happy, and to make them so epic and powerful if they were sad that they would stir people's emotions and even make them cry. Lyric always said: "Ariel, you are a golden girl. You are the sun of this family. Always wear what you like, no matter how much they say a lady shouldn't wear flashy clothes. Whatever you do, I will support you. No matter what society expects of us, be yourself, pieces of yourself "Don't hide it because everyone else said it."
she clearly remembered her brother's voice. Those memories locked in a metal box were well preserved. They were all in her mind without distortion or change.
Finally, he chose his clothes and put them on and went to the mirror. In the mirror, he was faced with a girl with smooth brown skin and dragon flame tattoos covering her arms like vibrant ink gloves. The girl had black eyes and straight black hair. The girl was wearing a long golden dress with a cape attached to her shoulder. This dress was sleeveless and had a delicate neckline. The upper part of the waist was slightly exposed and one shoulder and collarbone were clearly visible.
It was time to talk to dane and Hanora.
she put on his golden shoes, these shoes had a slight heel but were also suitable for walking or running.
She left her house and went to find a carriage to take her to the palace.
It didn't take long to find the carriage. She got into the carriage, and a few minutes later the carriage started moving. She looked at her land. The Magnificent North was as alive and vibrant as ever. It had a seductive and dangerous beauty. Lala would never want to leave the Magnificent North because of bad memories. Not anymore!
The ride to the palace didn't feel that long to Lala.
She pulled up her skirts a little and got out of the carriage. She paid the coachman and walked towards the palace. Valorfell looked as magnificent as ever.
The guards already knew her, but they had to inform the new royal family in advance.
They have no idea what secrets this royal family carries with them or who they are. she smiled bitterly at these sudden thoughts.
Finally, he was allowed to enter, and dane came. Lala had made up her mind, but mentally preparing was a very different thing from actually doing it. It was much harder. Especially now that she was no longer human and dane was a human. Humans can do strange things when they feel that something that belongs to them is slipping away. Even though Lala was not and would not be Dean's, dane might not have that opinion.
"You didn't get my letters? Why did you take so long to meet? I was afraid you might never show yourself again," dane said.
"Oh no. I'm not one to hide. You should know that. I show my boldness in everything I do, even the way I dress. That was the reason we met in the first place. Don't you remember?" Lala said.
"That's right. You've always been stunning and now... it's even more visible," dane said.
"Thanks. But I'm not here for these things. You must have heard about what I am by now. Or at least done a little research. I'm an immortal. I'm stopped at 17, but in terms of experience, I'm considered a very old person. You may be the same boy you were, but I'm not Ariel anymore. Not really. I'm very different." Lala said.
"All of that is true, but what exactly are you trying to tell me?" dane said.
"You know what I'm saying.Your letters were about giving our relationship another chance and getting married? This It's a little funny because I really can't do it. I'm unwed bride. I can't get married. My marriages always end badly. And even if I wanted to have another failed marriage, it wouldn't be with you. I didn't know it before, but I know it now. Our life was never going to be good. I was never your priority and please don't say anything. Let me finish. Please, thank you. You always prioritized the manly things. Your father. I wasn't in your top 10 priorities. You just wanted a woman because everyone else was doing it. You didn't really think deeply about it.Of course I was like that too. I was fooled by the glamorous start of our relationship. Our relationship is still the stuff of fairy tales, but not every relationship that starts out well ends well, and sometimes relationships that start out badly end well. It's not an absolute rule. I wish you the best and I hope you get through this too. I'm saying this since I've had centuries and you haven't been freed from Valory Arch for a long time. I really don't want us to be bad because our relationship is over," Lala said.
dane stared at the wall for a while and chuckled before starting to speak. "It's because you've seen too many men and you're confused and don't know what you really want."
"Actually, the opposite. You want me to know nothing so that I can consider you the center of my universe. But those days are over. The girl I used to be had no problem with that. But I'm not even a human girl anymore and we're done talking. I'm going to have a few words with Honora and Wolfric, and then I have a lot of work to do in the city," Lala said.
Then she started walking towards the guard to tell him to take her to where Honora and Wulfric were. As she walked, she remembered something else. "And don't send me any more letters. I don't know how you find my addres But I must say, It wasn't interesting.."
Lala didn't want to go so fast, but she had forgotten what dane could be like.
"Stupid men," she muttered to herself.
She almost felt annoyed by the fact that she was obsessed with men. She was annoyed by the fact that most of them considered women their property. She made a mental note to sew more clothes and reduce her obsession, at least for now.
She heard something break and ignored dane.
dane was always rough. The smoke of his lies had blocked his vision and she couldn't see these things.But now there was neither fire nor smoke.
The guard escorted him to the garden and Lala saw the Queen and the Old King of the North. But she was also powerful and had a lot to say.
"Ariel, I'm so glad to see you again. I've missed you. How are you?" Honora said.
"Hello, Miss Merrywood, I'm so glad to see you again," Wolfric said.
"Hello to you both. Nice to see you again. I have something to tell you. I hope you have time," Lala said.
"Actually, we were going to summon you, but jacks or Castor weren't available to ask them for your home address. We have something to tell you too," Honora said.
Lala tried not to mention that dane had found her home address and was constantly sending her letters, and she was unhappy about it, so instead she sat down on the chair and said, "Shall I tell you first or shall I?"
"You tell me first, Miss Merrywood," Wolfric said.
"I'll start. I no longer intend to continue my relationship with dane, and more importantly, I don't intend to marry him. I am a Fate, and I should mention that if you intend to contact Valenda's government, it's best not to mention me and jacks. They may also ask about Evangeline Fox, and I ask you not to say anything about her relationship with jacks. Valenda doesn't like Fates very much. Tell them as much as you want, we won't cause any trouble, they will still doubt jacks and me, but as for the other Fates, they are fortunately not here. Our power is weakening here, and they don't like the cold of the Magnificent North very much. I'm done, it's your turn."
Honora looked a little sad. Honora has always had a kind heart, and this is one of the main reasons why Lala loves her and doesn't want her connection with the Valor family to be cut off. And Wolfric had his eyebrows slightly raised, as if his power had been eroded. He might have been hanged. But Lala had the right to choose to marry.
"Oh, wow, you said some really important things, Ariel. I give you the right not to continue your relationship and I have learned a little about the fates and I will not tell them that you are here. We all know each other and we keep each other's secrets," Hanora said, her face was like Rainy and cloudy sky but still smiling.
"What we wanted to say was that we want to give you the old grounds of Merrywood Manor. Because you are the only one left of your family. The land is yours and you can turn it into a great manor again. Like a Phoenix rising from the ashes and being reborn," Wolfric said.
Lala needed a few moments to digest these words. She was not ready for this. How could she be ready?
But she realized that this wasn't a bad thing. she was going to get out the things she hadn't been processing and repressing. This could help him. And she was close to his new and dear friend, Evangeline. she was also curious about jacks, to see what he would do with this new season of his life. jacks had better be nice to Evangeline or she would hurt him again with the the butter knife.
"Thank you for this favor and I'm very happy for it. When can I start rebuilding it?" Lala said.
"Whenever you want," Honora said.
Lala thought for a moment. "I'd like to start next week."
"Then we'll be in touch and talk about the details," Wolfric said.
"Yes. I'll send you a letter with my plans and what I want to do. It's time for me to go. I have things to do in the city. Thanks again for listening to me."
"Always Ariel. You may no longer be our future bride, but you will remain dear to us." Honora said.
"Until next time, Mrs. Merrywood," Wolfric said with a smile that didn't reach his eyes.
"Goodbye to both of you. I hope you can reclaim your power as you wish. Until next time," Lala said.
Finally, she left the palace and breathed a sigh of relief. She felt like a burden had been lifted from her shoulders.
It was time to get down to his favorite activities. Enough heavy work for today.
she set off without looking for a stroller. she wanted to walk and burn off the negative energy inside her and look at everything from a different perspective.
Smiling, she started walking with purpose.