Second Year - Sibling Problems
Regulus Black
Regulus has been so alone.
He can’t remember the last time his brother had talked to him, he can’t find the words to say to him. Not that this isn’t worse than home, at least Sirius is safe, at least he can be himself, he doesn’t have to put on the mask he has on at home. But regulus can’t get it out of his mind that Sirius is drifting away, that he himself is drifting away. It’s not the same.
“Regulus did you know that Dorcas Meadowes actually came here from that wizarding school in France” Pandora says, pandora does this a lot, she brings up random things when she can see regulus is overthinking about things he shouldn’t.
The two are sitting on a bench watching the slytherin team practicing for quidditch.
“What?” Regulus questions, he had heard her but wasn’t necessarily listening .
“Dorcas she’s from France”
“mhm regulus hums.
“Have you talked to her?” She questions
“I’m not one to make conversation “
“I know but she seems nice and she’s on the quidditch team” pandora shrugs.
“Then you talk to her” regulus shrugs, picking at the dead skin on his finger.
“That’s a bad habit you know” pandora adds.
“What is?”
"Picking at your fingers,” she says adjusting her short blonde hair out of her face., grabbing Regulus hands. “Look they’re all scabbing “
Regulus pulls his hands away.
“You’re not my Mother” he mumbles. Pandora sighs , and brings her hand to his back, sending shivers down Regulus’s spine . Pandora rests her head on regulus shoulder, “I know” she says softly. Regulus doesn’t respond. “But I am your best friend, and I care for you”
“ I know” regulus says under his voice, he can barely hear the words come out of his mind.
“Now, what’s on your mind” she lifts her head up. “Nothing” Regulus answers blankly.
Pandora scoffs “liar”.
Regulus makes eye contact with her , he instantly looks away “Sirius “ regulus gives in.
“Ah, still hasn’t talked to you?” Panorcas questions. Regulus shakes his head, looking down to his hands .
“Its almost his birthday” He adds
“You should talk to him”
The boy takes a deep breath “I know”
***
Later that day.
Its supper, and Regulus hasnt even touched his food, his eyes have been on Sirius the whole time, anticipating to talk to him. He feels an elbow to his left. Pandora had elbowed him, catching Regulus completely off guard.
“Ow, merlin pandora" He rubs his side. “Go talk to him” she points.
Regulus groans, “fine”
“Go “ Shes rushes.
“Alright im going” Regulus gets up, making his way to the griffindor her feels completely out of his body, as if hes watching himself, floating over hs mind.
“Sirius” He coughs.
He doesn't seem to notice him.
Am I a ghost? Regulus questions himself
“Sirius” He says a bit clearer.
Sirius turns towards him “reggy!” Sirius cheers. Regulus feels instantly embarrassed by the nickname. Scrunching up his nose.
“Can I talk to you” Regulus mumbles. "Sure", Sirius moves over for regulus to sit, James potter originally sitting next to him.
“Im fine” Regulus whispers.
“Hey y'know what we haven't done in a while?” James says, talking to Peter
“Hm? “ He replies, he is sitting next to someone with a large scar across his face.
“Listen to that t- rex record Sirius got for his birthday last year”
Regulus looks at Sirius and Sirius looks at him. “Isn't that the one Mum broke?” regulus jokes, trying to make conversation
“What ?” The three boys say.
Sirius looks to his friends, back to his brother than to James. “Uh” he stumbles. Regulus can tell Sirius mind is going back to that Christmas night, and the events that has happened .
“Shit im not supposed to say that, sorry” Regulus widens his eyes, and covering his mouth to stop words from spilling out. Its just hitting regulus on the importance of not bringing up the things that happens in their house, Sirius puts on a entirely different role in this place then back there. Regulus saying that had revealed that role.
“Why didn't you say something?” Peter asks
“You should go regulus” Sirius says through gritted teeth . Regulus drops his hand
“Sirius-“ He cuts in
“Just go!” Sirius hisses back The words dont feel like they fully processed through Regulus’s mind.
“What?” he questions, he just knows Sirius can read the emotions that had just flickered over his face.
Sirius scoffs “Whatever” Sirius ignores his brother. Regulus silently walks away. He feels a string tightening around his heart the farther he moves from his brother.
What is wrong with me?
Bring up mother, yeah what great way to start a converstion, Idiot.
Regulus sits back down next to Pandora, and he feels like crying but knows he cant. He loosens his green tie and puts his head on the table.
“Howd it go” She asks. “How do you think” regulus grumbles.
Pandora puts her hand on is back again, rubbing it up and down.
“Its okay’ she adds.
“What is he crying about?” a familiar voice says.
“Nothing” Pandora answers. Regulus looks up and sees his cousin Narcissa.
“Well i did just see you talking to sirius, does it have to do with that?”
“Tried to talk to him, brought up mother”
“Ah, yeah not the best conversation starter” She shakes her head, laughing dryly/
“Im aware” regulus mutters.
“Its nearly his birthday right?” Narcissa asks.
Regulus nods, he sees a curl fall infont of his eyes.
“Right” Narcissa says “dot worry about it kid” she curls her lips into a small smle "sibling problems are like an everyday thing for me" She adds blankly.
“Right” he sits up.
“He’ll come around reg” Pandora smiles.