Moonage daydreaming of you

Remus Lupin 

Remus is on the train almost home.

He can't help but worry, that she’s gotten worse since she last wrote. He doesnt want to be a burdan to her

He has a full moon at the end of break, and donesnt want her to deal with him ripping himself apart, when she's sick.

“You just have to believe she will, Alright?, she'll get better” The words Sirius had said last night have been flooding in mind since they have been said.

He really hopes they are true.

The train stops and Remus fees his heart skip a beat.

Breath Remus, Just Breath.

She's fine, she's going to be okay.

just like sirius said

Remus grabs his trunk and rushs off the train. When he gets to his house, he knocks on the door and his aunt Marilla answers

“Remus Dear, my goodness you've grown” She smiles bringing remus into a hug. Remus drops his trunck and hugs her back.

“It's good to see you, how's Mum?” Remus asks ask

“How about you go see for yourself, she's in the living room. Here i got it” She pats his shoulders. she grabs his trunk.

 Remus pokes his head into the living room, and he see his mom sitting on the couch crisscrossed reading a book.

“Mum?” He says to get her attention.

She looks up “Remus!” . She shuts her book, “Oh my look at you, come sit” she pats next to her on the couch.

Remus sits down next to her and she brings him into a tight hug.

“So tell me all about school” She leans forward intrigued .

“Okay, uhm I’ve made friends, Sirius, James, and Peter, and we all share a dorm, and they're all in Gryffindor “  he tells her, smiling to himself.

“Oooo very interesting , I'm glad that you made some friends sweetie ,now you have to tell me about school, learn any cool magic tricks?” She asks curiously .

“Well yeah I've learned some so far, I taught myself how to turn objects into a different color, which Is for a little more advanced wizards” he tells her more excitedly than he hought the words would come out .

“Oh my, look at you, learning advanced spells already,that's my bright son” She messes up his hair, with a warm smile on her face.

“Mum , please “ he laughs lightly, flattening down her hair.

“Oh. My. God ” his mother jumps off the coach and runs to the window.

“It's snowing” She presses her face to the glass, and her breath fogs it up.

Remus looks out the window and sees snow falling to the ground.

“We should go on a walk, c’mon” She smiles from ear to ear.

“A walk?” he question furrowing his brows.

“Yes a walk” She grabs her scarf off the coat hanger.

“I don’t know, are you sure you're alright enough to walk out in this weather?” he asks, rubbing the back of his neck.

“Awe sweetie , I'll be fine, don't worry, okay? “ She gives him a warm smile.

“Okay” he mirrors her smile.

“And  we can stop by the cafe and get hot chocolate “ She claps her hands together.

“Hot chocolate you say? Well what are you waiting for then?” remus jumps off the coach .

“That's the spirit!” she grins , she grabs her gloves, and hops into her boots.

Remus grabs his coat.

“Marilla! Well be back soon, you've got the house to yourself!Love ya” his mother tells off to her sister.

“Okay! Have fun !” His aunt yells back from her room “Love ya more!”

“I love you most! Here Remy gloves and a hat” His mum passes him gloves. And puts the hat on his head.

“Thank you” he puts them on and his hands. His mum grabs her purse. Remus open the door for her.

“Oh, what a gentleman “ She places her hand to her chest and quivers her lip.

remus let a soft laugh out and rolls his eyes.

His Mum interlocks her arm into his as they walk.

“So, what have you been up to?” he asks watching the snow hit the ground.

“Same old same old, Oh, but I have been getting into knitting, hence the hat and gloves” She looks at him then at his hat.

“Oh! They’re very cozy Mum great Job” he smiles.

“Awe shucks. Really?” She softens her eyes, with pure sweetness.

“Really , really” Remus affirms.

“Thank you, Ooo hot chocolate” She stops in her tracks right in front of the cafe.

We go into the cafe and Christmas music fills the room and it's nice and toasty in here.

“Cozy” His Mother unlocks her arm from Remus's and rubs her hands together “Let's sit over here” She points to the booth by the window.

“Okay” remus puts his hands into his pockets. they sit down, and a waiter comes up to them.

“What will we be having today?” She asks

remus takes my hat off and place it on the table.

“Uhm ,two hot chocolates, extra whipped cream , and Ooo! And can you add crushed up peppermint on top, and a chocolate scone on the side, anything else Remy? “

Remus shakes his head 

“Alrighty two hot chocolates with extra whipped cream and peppermint on top and a chocolate scone, coming right up” The waiter smiles and walks away.

His Mum coughs and he feels his chest tighten a bit.

Remus places his hand on top of hers, and rubs his thumb gently onto her hand.

She smiles at my “You're such a sweet boy Remy, I don't know what I'd do without you” That sentence alone just melts my heart.

It hurts so much for remus to be away from her for so long, it breaks his heart to not be here when she needs him

“I don't know what i’d do without you either” he whispers back .

“Here's your hot chocolates , and your scone.” Says the waitress

“Thankyou dear” His mother says to the waitress and the waitress gives a smile.

Mum places his hot chocolate in front of him and one in front of her along with her scone.

He takes a big sip of it, leaving a whipped cream mustache on his top lip.

“So, tell me more about school, any girls?” his mom asks, wiggling her eyebrows.

“God, no” he wipes the cream off his lip, his voice blunt .

“I'm just asking,” She shrugs.

“No , no girls, ” he takes another big gulp of his hot chocolate.

“Tell me more about your friends”

“Alright, so theres James, James is really proud and loud, but also caring and sweet” he goes on, “And then there is Sirius, he's just like James when it comes to being loud and he's constantly joking around, James and Sirius are like bestfriends, but sirius is just- somthing else” he says, swallowing a dry breath.

“They sound very nice” She smiles.

“Yeah, and then there is Peter, Peter's more collected than the other two. He's really sweet, sarcastic sometimes, but he seems to really care about his friends.”  he smiles.

“I’m really glad you've made some friends Remus , They seem really sweet” She places her hand on mine rubbing it with her thumb.

“Yeah, I honestly didn't think I’d make any friends” he chuckles.

“Why not?” asks My mum.

“I'm not a very striking person to be friends with , I mean look at me” he sways his hands up and down .

“What do you mean, anyone would be lucky to be friends with you” hii Mom smiles.

“You’re just saying that because you're my Mum” He peirces his lips together.

“Nope” she pops the p at the end of nope.

Once they finish their hot chocolates, Mum leaves some money on the table and they head out.

“That was nice, I like it there”  Mum comments.

“Yeah, me too,” he replies/

They get home and spend the rest of the night just talking.

“Okay, I'm going to bed, tomorrow's the day before christmas eve, so maybe we can go christmas shopping, or something like that” She says standing up from the couch.

“Okay, Goodnight I love you” He saya

“I love you , Goodnight sweetie “ She bends down and plants a kiss on his head.

Once she walks away remus takes a deep breath.

He walks to his room and take a look around, nothing has changed except his room is cleaner than he left it, Mums doing of course.

He sita down on his bed feeling his comforter. “Home” he whispers to himself. It's weird to remus not being in the dorm right now, hearing the james snore. It's silent, he feels kind of uncomfortable, Like something isn't right.

Like something wrong has happened, It's so quiet.

It's fine. youre fine

He wonders what they're up to right now, maybe sleeping, he doesnt know about Sirius, he likes to stay up late.

He wonders if he's asleep. Probably not, he's probably causing some commotion, or pulling some prank, or cracking some joke.

Probably.

Hes heard that his Mum is pretty strict, so maybe not.

He has those scars. And he's not a werewolf so that means he's getting all those scars from something else.

Or someone else.

He has no idea , and having no idea unsettles him.

Just go to sleep.

he lays down in his bed and stares up at the ceiling, his bed seems so much more uncomfortable now.

Just close your eyes Remus.

Go to sleep.

he takes another deep breath, and slowly drifts into a slumber.

he wakes up to the smell of cinnamon flooding the house.

He rubs the sleep from his eyes and stretches out his arms

Remus goes into the kitchen and see his Mum with her apron on .

He sits down on a stool in the kitchen.

“Hiya, Goodmorning, sleepy head” She says smiling from ear to ear.

“helô,  Goodmorning” he smile back  “Whatcha making?” he asks sniffing the air, mouth watering.

“Cinnamon buns” She answers.

Remus looks at the frosting in front of him and sticks his finger into it licking the frosting the frosting off his finger. "mmm" Remus hums

“Hey! Stop eating that frosting! “ She points a finger at remus sternly.

“Okay, okay! I'm sorry,"  he puts his hands up surrendering.

“ I haven't even frosted the cinnamon buns yet” She squints

“Okay I'm sorry, I love you” remus smiles smile .

“Are you trying to butter me up for more frosting ? Remus John Lupin” She glares sternly.

“Maybe” he shrugs, holding in a laugh.

“Nice try” She swipes the frosting off the counter and moves it to the other counter next to the oven.

the timer on the counter goes off.

“They're done!!” She grabs her oven mitts and grabs the cinnamon buns out the oven.

“Okay I'm going to let them cool down, sweetie you go get dressed and we’ll have cinnamon buns then go shopping” She walks over to me and ruffles my hair.

“You really have to stop doing that” he flattens out his hair.

Remus gets up and go to his room and changes into jeans and a sweater. He looks out the window and the ground is covered in snow.

Hes definitely going to need his boots. he puts on his boots and leave his room to goes back to the kitchen but stops in the middle of the hallway where the mirror is.

He stares at his self in the mirror , he cracks a small frown.  He never really takes time looking in the mirror to notice all of his scars, he doesn't really like to look in mirrors.

Taking the time to acknowledge himself is never something he wants to do, It's pointless. hes never going to get rid of these scars, so what's the point in moping about it?

He runs a hand through his hair adjusting it a bit, and take a deep breath.

He looks away from the mirror, and perks up a smile.

“Okay I'm ready” he says entering the room

“Perfect, here eat” She gives me a plate with a cinnamon bun and a glass of milk.

“Thank you” he smiles genuinely .

“My pleasuse” his mom smiles warmly

After breakfast Mum gets ready then they start to leave.

“Wait, where's aunt marilla?” he asks

“Oh she's out christmas shopping , left before you got up” his mum adjusts her coat.

“Oh” he nods his head understandingly.

They get in the car and go to the store.

“Okay so this is going to be a little bit of a small christmas this year hun, I've just been off of work and-” She goes on, but remus quickly stops her,

“Mum, it's alright, it's a perfect christmas if im here with you” he stops her from rambling on.

She quivers her lips “Awe sweetie, how'd I get such a perfect son?” She grabs his hand shaking it warmly.

“Okay, okay Mum” Remus smiles

“Such a sweet boy,” She smiles .

They go inside one of the stores and just spend some time walking around.

He brought some money to buy something for his mum and aunt.

“Okay you go look around the store and I'll look over here” She says.

“Alright”  He wanders off to the side of the store and he see the back of two boys looking at the toys.

He can't see what they look like but they look familiar.

One with brown curly hair, and one with blonde straight hair. The boy with brown hair is slightly taller.

They seem like James and Peter but it can't be.

he walks over to the toys and look around a bit.

He pretends to look around a bit.

“Pete, muggle toys are so interesting” he hear the boy whisper.

Pete?

Muggle?

“Yeah” The other boy says, sounding just like Peter

“James?” he asks

“Oh my merlin!” James turns around “Remus Lupin as I live and breathe” James says clapping his hands together with a shocked expression.

“Remus? Oh my , Remus!” Peter turns around and instantly smiles.

“What are you doing here?” James asks .

remus shrugs ”Christmas shopping ,mum told me to look around, what about you?”

“Same, Peter and I’s Mums brought us. I didn't know muggles had so many different types of toys” whispering the last part James looks back at the toys.

“Yeah, How's your christmas break been so far?” Peter asks.

“Pretty good My Mum and I went out for hot chocolate yesterday,” he says smiling.

“Ooo yum, I love hot coco” Peter smiles back

“Have either of you heard from Sirius?” he asks.

“No”

Both of them answer in unison.

“Oh, do you think he's alright? He seemed sort of on edge before we left” he furrows his brows.

“Yeah I don't know, he was probably on edge cause his Mums a bit much” James shrugs. “Should I be worried?” he asks to adjust the collar of his shirt.

“I don't know, but I wouldn't worry too much about it James, there isn't really anything we can do about it” he shrugs again.

“Yeah, right” he mumbles the last bit. Looking down to his shoes

“He’ll be okay James” Peter says.

“Yeah, plus he was there eleven years before, I'm sure he’ll be fine” he smiles, Knowing deep down hes worrying too.

James has such a big heart, he feels like it would be physically impossible for him to not worry about the people he cares about. Especially Sirius, they have some sort of special bond, he doesnt think they spent more than an hour away from each other since school started. They are always hip to hip, and to see them apart is just not something hes seen for the past couple months.

He knows something is up with his home life, and James has to know at least a couple things about it, and that explains why he's worried. He has to know things about Sirius that him and Peter dont, James and Sirius are constantly talking to each other. 

“Yeah” James doesn't seem very convinced.

Hes seen the scars on Sirius’s  chest

“Remus!” he hears his Mum's voice, he turns around and she's looking around.

“I'm over here Mum!” he waves.

“Oh, Hello” She walks over. Shopping bags in hand

“Oh Mum, these are my friends” he says turning to them “Mum meet James and Peter, James and Peter meet my Mum” he smile.

“Oh! James and Peter, I've heard so much about you” She struggles holding her shopping bags, holding out her hand she shakes both of their hands.

“You have?” Peter questions how much he's heard about him.

“Oh yes! Remus was going on and on about his friends” She smiles.

James and Peter both look at remus their jaws dropped.

“Awe how sweet” James puts his hand to his chest in awe.

“See James , I knew he liked us” Peter says, elbowing James teasingly

Oh god, remus puts his hands to his face with embarrassment.

“Mum Please” he begs.

“Well it's very nice to meet you Mrs Lupin '' James says smiling.

“It's very nice to meet you too” His Mum smiles back.

“James! Peter!” he hears it coming from behind him

Remus turn around and see a tall tan woman , with get black hair , who looks like James. And a short woman with curly dirty blonde hair looking around.

“Mum!” James waves the lady over.

“Oh!” She comes over. And the other lady follows behind.

“Mum, this is Remus, and his mother,” James says, adjusting his glasses.

“Oh this is Remus, It's very nice to meet you, I've heard so much about you” She held out her hand for me to shake, he shakes her hand, and it's very warm.

“You have?” he asks, forming a smile, holding back a laugh.

“Yes! James has been constantly talking about his friends he's made” She deepens her smile.

He widens his eyes and nods his head looking over to James who has his hand on the back of his neck nervously.

“And you're his mother” She looks up from me over to his Mum.

“Yes, I'm Hope Lupin” His mum holds out her hand to her.

“It's nice to meet you. Hope I'm Euphemia Potter '' She shakes his mothers hand. “And this is Peter's Mother , Enid '' James mum turns around and looks at the other lady.

“Oh, yes Hello, it's very nice to meet you, Im Enid Pettigrew “ She smiles while shaking hands with his mother.

“It's very nice to meet you all” his mother looks at everyone.

“Yes, very nice,” Mrs . Potter says, with a warm smile.

“It was nice seeing you Remus” Peter says smiling.

“Yeah it was nice seeing you too” he smiles back.

“You two should come over to my house tomorrow we are having this huge christmas eve dinner, they'll be enough” Mrs Potter Suggests

he sees James widen with excitement, and he almost laughs at how happy he gets from that.

“Oh yes, could you Remus?” James jumps up and down.

“Sweetie, slow down” James mum says to him, placing a hand on his shoulder.

“Right, yes” James stops jumping from excitement but can't contain his smile.

“That would be very nice of you Euphimia , I'm fine with whatever Remus is up to” She looks at remus

He nods.

“Yay!” Peter cheers.

“Ahh! I'm so excited” James claps his hands together jumping up and down again.

Remus snorts, at his excitement.

James stops cheering and flaps his hands to his side.

“I wish Sirius could be there,” James says.

“Yeah” he agrees

“Me too,” Peter adds.

James mum gives his Mum their address.

“Okay we have to go, say bye now James” James Mum pats his shoulder.

“Bye Remus, I'll see tomorrow mate” James smiles widely .

“Bye James, see ya tomorrow” he smiles back

“See you tomorrow Remus, toodle loo” Peter says laughing at himself for what he just said.

“Toodle loo Peter” he tease,snorting a laugh.

Remus looks up to James and Peter mums.

“It was nice meeting you, Mrs. Potter, and Mrs. Pettigrew” he smiles .

“It was very nice meeting you too Remus” Mrs potter smiles.

“Yes, very nice meeting you Remus” Mrs Pettigrew smiles at remus

James and Peter wave goodbye leaving.

Him and his Mum shop around a little more. Remus bought his Mum a necklace, it's in the shape of a heart. He got his Aunt Marilla the hamlet book written by shakespeare.

The two get home and spend the rest of the day talking and we did a puzzle.

***

Remus wakes up in the morning to the sound of Christmas music.

“bore da” remus says, which makes which Mum turn around to face him
.
“Good Morning darling” his Mum smiles wildly. “How'd you sleep?” she asks.

“Good, you?” he asks back

“Splendid” She walks over hugging remus tightly ,  kisses the top of his head.

“Merry Christmas Eve she whispers into his hair.

“Merry Christmas Eve Mum” he whispers back.

“Merry Christmas Eve " he hear his Aunt cheers from behind them

They separate from their hug to look at her.

“Merry christmas Eve Marilla” His mum says to her sister.

"Yeah, Merry Christmas eve aunt marilla" he smiles warmly.

"Thank you dear" she smiles right back at me "okay so today is going to be a long day "

"Yes! Remus dear I want you to wrap things you got , here wrapping paper " she hands me wrapping paper.

"Right" he nods looking down at the wrapping paper, it's plaid green and red pattern . He walks back to his room and shuts the door. He grabs scissors off his desk and tape.

"It's rubbish I can’t use magic out of school, this would be so easy in Hogwarts " He sigh to himself.

He rubs his temple and sets up the book first. After he wraps the book he moves on and wraps the necklace, which came in a box already and it wasn't much of a hassle. He puts both under the tree.

A few hours later his Mother makes an apple pie to bring over to the Potter's house tonight. He changes into a white button down and dress pants and shoes. His mom dresses up in a red dress with tights with black flats.

“Okie dokie, all ready sweetie?” She looks over to remus putting a jacket on.

“Yep , all ready” He puts on his hands into his pockets.

He feels a tug of nervousness in his chest. Hes been on edge all day. Hes never been invited for dinner at someone's house. So hes nervous, he doesnt know why he's getting nervous . He does see James and Peter every single day at school,so that removes a bit of nervousness from remuss mind

They leave the house and drive to the address Mrs. Potter gave us.

We pulls into the driveway or a pretty big house and every window has light. He sees a Christmas tree in one of the windows, and they're whole front yard is decorated with Christmas lights and snowmen.

“Oh their house is so cute” His mom says in an awning voice.

“Yeah” Remus mumbles.

as remus and his mother walk up to the house talking and laughing flooding his ears. Christmas music playing in the background.

His mother knocks on the door . “I got it!” he hears James shout. He opens the door and his eyes widen, smiling from ear to ear James says “Remus! You made it!” He looks over to his mum “Hello Mrs Lupin, it's very nice to have you” he smiles politely.

“Thank you, It's very nice to be here” she smiles back. the house smells of spice and the Turkey cooking in the oven.

He looks around and they're house is very homely. He widens his eyes at the size of their christmas tree that is touching the ceiling.

"I know our house is very muggely or whatever but we like it like that" James shrugs smiling.

"Muggely " Remuss Mum raises an eyebrow.

"Non magic like" he translates.

"Oh" his mom nods.

"Hope, Remus! Oh I'm so glad you came" Mrs Potter comes into the room in an apron, smiling widely.

"Of course, I'm glad you'd have us" Remuss mum smiles "I baked a pie" His Mom lifts her hands up a little motioning at the pie in her hands.

"Oh thank you" James Mum smiles warmly.

"Oh we already have a pie, Pete's Mum-" James butts in.

He looks over to him and interrupt "I told her, she made apple pie"

"Oh! Oooo, yum" James makes an o with his lips.

"Alright James, how about you go see if your father needs any help in the kitchen, and you can show Remus around" James mum says.

"Okay! C'mon Remus" he motions his hand at me for remus to follow.

He follows James into the kitchen and there's a dark haired man with round glasses like James. And a beard, his skin tan. He's wearing an apron just like Mrs Potter, and he's slightly shorter than her.

"James my boy , can you pass me the salt on the counter? " The man says not looking away from the stove. "cant add any real spices" His father mumbles

James turns to the counter and passes him the salt .

"Thank you, oh who is this?" The man looks away from the stove to Remus.

"Dad this is Remus Lupin, Remus this is my Dad, Remus is my friend from school" James looks to Remus more than to his Dad then back to him again.

"Very nice to meet you, your fathers Lyall Lupin, right?" He asks, raising his eyebrows and brushing off his hands on his apron.

Rems feels a lump in his throat from the mention of his Father's . "yeah- yes , yes he is" he struggle forming the words.

"Oh we went to school together, did he come with you? I haven't heard from him in so long" He asks.

Does he not know about his father not being around for the past seven years, or even the fact that nobody knows if he's even alive.

"Uhm no , he's not here" he answers finally.

"Aw well that's a shame, but on a different note it's very nice to have you Remus, I'm Fleamont Potter " he holds out his hand for me to shake. Remus shakes it back

After James shows him around the house.

They hears a knock at the door, and James instantly goes to answer it.

it's Peter smiling ear to ear with his Mum.

“Peter! Mrs. Pettigrew very nice to see you, come in , come in” James waves for them to come in .

"Remus!!" Peter looks at me and smiles widely.

"Hi Pete" He waves sheepishly.

"Merry Christmas eve" he smiles

"Merry Christmas eve " Remus smiles back.

After a while dinner is served at the potter's long dining table.

"We usually don't eat at this dinning table but we brought it out for this special occasion " Mrs. Potter smiles.

We all.sit down and I sit in between my mum and Peter.

And James sits next to his mother which is across from us.

We eat dinner and everyone makes small talk which I don't really take apart in but Mum seems to be enjoying the socializing.

A short time later when everyones done eating Peter James and remus put their coats on and go outside.

"I love this time of year," James says, looking up to the sky and letting the snow hit his curly hair. He hears a long breath come out of his mouth after speaking, almost like a sigh.

"Yeah, Winter time is the best," Peter says, holding out his hands to catch snow. " I love the snow, did you know that every snowflake is different, not a single one has a twin" Peter looks closer to the snow that has fallen onto his hands. After Peter says this Remus lets snow fall onto his  hands and look closely at it. The snow melts almost instantly in his hands.

After a moment of silence passes James says "I wish Sirius was here, right now" he says looking down at the snow on the ground and kicking it,sending snow flying a foot away from him.

"I'm sure he wishes he was here too," Peter adds.

'`Yeah" James says softly, almost in a whisper. Letting out a shaky breath "I just worry about him , from what he's told me his parents aren't the nicest, and I just dont hand him getting hurt" remus analyzes at the expression on James's face and it looks as though he has seen a ghost.

"James, c'mon would Sirius want you to be sad about him right now? No, you know Sirius he's headstrong he'll be okay ,mate , " Peter pats James' shoulder and James lets out a soft chuckle.

"Yeah, yeah he'll be okay, and if not I'll help him when we're back at Hogwarts, he's going to be fine" James reassures himself.

"That's the spirit, now come on and lighten up, it's Christmas eve" Peter lets a warm smile come across his face and it's instantly contagious, James starts smiling back and so do I.

After a while they go back inside and say their goodbyes.

Peter and his mum had already left.

"It was very nice meeting you all, have a merry christmas" His mom waves the potters goodbye.

"It was nice meeting you as well, have a merry Christmas!" James Mum says back. We walk to the car when he hear the crunching of snow from behind Him.

"Wait Remus!" he hears James yell.

Remus turns his head around then look back to his mom. "No, no talk to your friend, I'll just wait for the car" she smiles.

"Yes James?" he asks

"Do you really think Sirius will be alright?" he instantly looks to the ground with nervousness. Remus has never seen James like this, usually he's the brave one , hed always pridful not nervous. But here he is, James Potter, standing in front of him looking to the ground and fidgeting with his hands, why? Is he really that worried?

"I know Pete said I shouldn't worry, but I can't help myself, Sirius and I we talk about everything, and I've heard stories about his family you wouldn't even want to hear, I don't think he is the Sirius we know there, he's a different Sirius there, one who doesn't joke around, and laugh all the time" James rambles on not looking up to Remus once. Not until he finishes talking.

"James, he's going to be okay, '' Remus says to him. Hes not good at comforting people , hes never been , so now that hes in this situation hes going to be of no use, but to stand here and say that it'll be okay, knowing it probably isn't .

"But you don't know if he will, look Sirius is my best friend and I just don't want anything bad to happen to him, you haven't seen his scars" James says harshly, he never talks like this.

Remus feels slightl hurt by this . He has seen them , hes seen Sirius's scars. He almost tells James, but he doesnt, He just stands there looking at James not letting anything come out of his mouth, not even a breath.

After a moment of silence he finally says something "look james ,I know you're worried, we all are , but there's nothing we can do, we'll see him soon,".he knows this a very helpful thing to say , he doesnt know what to say , hes not even that close with Sirius, yeah we're friends, he guesses, but he doesn't open up to Remus like he does to James.

Its not like remus gives him a reason to.

James knows about his family life, James knows almost everything about Sirius.  So yes of course James is going to worry, he knows everything about Sirius. Even the things he wishes he didnt/

Like where he got those scars.

Like why he doesn't know about things, like Halloween.

Like why he flinches the flick of a wand.

Remus doesnt , he envys their relationship.

He doesnt tell anybody anything.

He gets pulled out of his thoughts when he hears James let out a breaking noise from his throat.

"I just hate not knowing you know?" His voice cracks. He lets out a shaky breath and looks back down to the ground .

"James. Just please don't worry , if something bad happens you'll be the first to know okay, Sirius trust you" he places a hand on James's shoulder.

"Right yeah, he trusts me" a very small smile appears onto James's lips.

Trust, such a small word can mean so much.

"Thank you Remus" james says, looking up to me 

"Yeah of course, what are friends for?"  letting a light chuckle come from his mouth.

"Friends?" He asks, a gleaming up smile widening by the second.

"Yeah, friends, " he smiles

James smiles and runs a hand through his hair.

"Do you want a hug?" Remus asks pretty quietly. Almost in a whisper, but James is still able to make out what he had said.

"Really?" James asks, in disbelief of what he had just asked him.

Remus nods

After a second of silence "Yeah, I could really use a hug." James finally answers, sheepishly .

He holds out his arms and James rushes into a hug.

He never thought he would see James potter so torn apart for something like this. Of anything really.

He's always so confident , not weakened by anything.

Remus hugs James back and they only hug for the matter of seconds before Remus pulls away

"Thank you , for the hug, " James says, rubbing the back of his neck.

"course"

 "well merry christmas ,I'll see you next year" james laughs at the end.

"yeah see you next year" he remus mumbles "merry chirstmas"

***

Remus wakes up early in the morning. No one is awake yet. He sits on the couch and snuggle himself up in a blanket and his mum comes out of her room shortly after.

"Morning sweetie" His mum comes up to him,  kissing the top of his head. "Merry christmas" she whispers into his hair.

"Merry christmas" He answers back.

His aunt sits on the couch

"Go on, open some presents " His mum says.

"Okay" he smiles.

He grabs a present that has his name on it. Remus sits on the rug on the floor. And open up the present and it's the new david bowie album, Hunky Dory.

This just came out a week ago.

"Oh my merlin, mum thankyou"

"Oh my Merlin? " My mum laughs at what he had just said.

"It's just a saying at Hogwarts" he buries the laugh in his throat.

"Figured" , Mother chuckles .

"Here open these" he givses his mum her presents and his aunt hers.

His mom opens her present first "oh how pretty, thank you darling" his mum smiles and softens her eyes.

She puts it on, admiring it on her neck, and he can't help but plaster a wide smile onto his face.

"Okay now me?" His aunt Marilla asks.

Remus nods his head.

She opens up and her smile widens.

"Aw thank you remus's , look its Shakespeare" she lifts up the book to show his mom.

"Oh how sweet, thank you my love, I love it" his mom goes back to the necklace.

"Yes thank you Remus," his aunt Marilla adds.

He shrugs smiling sheepishly.

They spend the rest of the day just spending time together , he got socks, new sweaters and jeans, and his vinyl.

After it gets dark he goes to bed.

he stares at his ceiling.

Remus wonders what Sirius is doing right now.