Chapter 10
|| You manipulate the game to win, that love that you lost is your consequence ||
Y/N P.O.V
I caught up with Fred after breakfast, the weather was exceptionally rainy the droplets pounding on the windows, arches showing the gray, gloomy skies above.
“Looks like you won something,” I commented on his bag of money. “What was the bet this time?”
His face was pale as I asked this, he glanced back over at me, his eyes were glassy as he forced his lips into a smile.
“Do you want to go to the Astronomy tower?” He asked me, I raised an eyebrow at him, why would he want to go there?
Its going to be cold and wet up there, the view wouldn’t be the best at this time of day, besides we need to get to class.
“C’mon? Please, I need to talk to you,” he pleaded with me, his voice was so desperate so I nodded.
We walked up the stairs of the Astronomy tower, he didn’t grab my hand like he usually does so now my hand was clammy and cold as we walked.
“You’re making me nervous,” I said laughing quietly.
He didn’t answer me.
We entered the tower finally after what felt like forever in that stairwell, he sat down and I sat down beside him on the bench we’ve sat on over and over again, on many nights and many early mornings.
But this time felt different, more serious.
“So…what did you want to talk about,” I asked him.
“Tell me something Y/N…how much of this was real to you?” He asked me.
I was taken aback by the question that he asked. “What do you mean? All of this was real to me Fred, every second…”
When he didn’t answer I asked him: “What about you Fred…How much of this was real to you?”
He paused before answering. “None of it.”
Wait. What?
“These last four months have been nothing to me,” He said not making eye contact with me.
“That’s not true, tell me this is a joke,” I pleaded with him leaving my seat to kneel in front of him my head was clouding like the weather outside, my heart was shattering as I see that he wasn’t joking.
“This was all a game Y/N, I used you, I used you for money, for a bet, see this?” He shook the bag of money. “Thirty galleons, thats all you’re worth to me.”
“Thirty galleons…?...a game…” I repeated, I wanted to stand up and scream at him but all I could do was listen to his blurred words as he repeated that it was a game, that I didn’t mean anything to him.
My heart was leaving one shard at a time as he stood up begging me to react but I knelt there silent, ignoring his pleas and calls to me.
He even had the audacity to place both of his hands on my shoulders and shake me gently asking me to react, but I stared right through him.
Finally he left, I waited until I couldn’t hear his faint footsteps and then I laid down on that cold wet ground and curled into a ball, the thunder crashing in the background as I screamed my heart out.
Or what was left of my heart.
I felt numb, my heart was racing and my mind was cloudy, four months wasted on him, hundreds of hours wasted thinking about him every moment that I could.
How could he be so cruel?
I knew that he loved to prank people but this wasn’t a prank, this was cruelty, this was not a joke. It was all a game to him, I was only worth thirty galleons to him, that hurt more than I thought it would.
I could feel the rain splattering up from the stone and onto my back, it was cold and welcomed, it was a fresh awakening so I laid there in that rain.
I rolled over and laid on my back and listened to the thunderstorm outside and just pushed out any thought of anything.
Closing my eyes I escaped reality and fell asleep in the Astronomy tower.
What felt like hours I slept there, I feel a shaking motion, opening my eyes I see Adrian shaking me awake, he looked extremely concerned as he stood above me hands on my shoulders.
“Y/N!” He murmured, or maybe he yelled, I didn’t know because it was all blurry, everything, the noise and the view was blurry and staticy.
I feel his hands go beneath my body, he picked me up and my hands went immediately around his neck so warm and comforting as I curled up in a ball in his arms as he ran out of the Astronomy tower carrying me down the stairs.
I felt him tighten his grip on me as we turned a corner and then another corner and finally he was walking up stairs and up to somewhere.
He was whispering my name over and over again, just those sweet whispers that I hated, it reminded me of him.
Reminds me of Fred Weasley