Chapter 10
//cw: sexual content//
“moony!”
sirius threw himself over the back of the sofa, his head landing on remus’ shoulder. remus ignored him, keeping his eyes on the essay in front of him.
“moonyyyy!”
“what?” remus asked, slightly sharper than he’d intended.
“you’re being boring; do you want to go to hogsmeade?”
“i’m studying for our NEWTs” remus said, dipping his quill in his open ink pot.
“you’re being boring” sirius repeated.
remus sighed as he put his quill down. he looked over at his boyfriend who had positioned himself at the end of the sofa with a smug grin on his face.
“stop it.”
“stop what?” sirius asked innocently, sticking his tongue out.
“you’re a right little shit, you know that?”
“your little shit” sirius winked.
“unfortunately.”
sirius placed a hand over his heart dramatically, his mouth falling open in fake shock. remus rolled his eyes and took the cushion out from behind his back. he threw it at sirius who caught it easily.
“i’m taking the hint” sirius said. “i’m going to have a shower” sirius told him, his foot on the bottom step that led up to the dorm.
sirius quickly disappeared up into the tower, knowing he’d left remus a blushing mess. remus stayed still, staring blankly into the fireplace. he rubbed his eyes and stood up, swaying slightly as dark spots filled his vision. he made his way slowly towards the stone steps, cursing silently as he thought of his abandoned work.
he slipped into the dormitory and heard the sound of the shower as he approached the bathroom door. taking out his wand, he cast a quiet “alohomora” before wrapping his hand around the handle.
hearing the pieces of metal clicking against each other, sirius turned around as the door opened, looking down at remus from the shower with a grin.
water droplets were running the length of sirius’ body, his dark hair plastered to the sides of his pale face, encasing it. remus stood silently, watching an individual droplet make its way from sirius’ chin down the length of his neck and finally merge with another one near his collar bone. remus tilted his head as the now larger droplet picked up pace as the two combined, rushing down sirius’ stomach, jumping over the bumps that were the outlines of strong muscles towards his groin.
remus eventually looked up to see sirius looking down at him amusedly.
“you getting in, then?” sirius asked with a single eyebrow raised.
remus exhaled as he yanked his jumper over his head, his curls getting caught up and momentarily pulled out of position, only to fall back onto his forehead lightly. he stepped over the edge of the bath, joining sirius under the constant stream of hot water. sirius looked at him almost proudly, as though his greatest achievement was dragging remus away from his schoolwork and into the shower next to him.
“i hate you” remus mumbled, pressing his lips again sirius’ neck.
“is that so?” sirius asked, cupping remus’ cheek to connect their lips
his hand slipped lower, encasing remus’ waist, and holding his body against his own. he ran a hand up the length of the werewolf’s body, his fingers taking in the unevenness of the skin; the long, lumpy scars that sirius traced every night under the shared duvet.
“how are you not more angry all the time?” sirius asked, finally breaking the silence.
remus took a small step backwards to look at sirius properly.
“what do you mean?”
“like, at greyback? how are you not more angry about what he’s done to you?”
remus shrugged loosely.
“what’s the point being angry; there’s nothing i or anyone else can do about it.”
sirius’ hand hovered above remus’ left shoulder, his index finger outstretched. he lowered it slowly, barely brushing the darkest patch of skin where individual teeth marks were still visible. he retracted his hand as soon as remus flinched.
“hey.”
remus smiled down at him gently.
“hey.”
sirius rolled his eyes, a smile spreading across his face. he pressed his lips hard against the werewolf’s and remus’ hand moved to cup his cheek, his thumb running freely along the length of sirius’ jawline. sirius stood up taller on his tiptoes as remus lowered his hand move a couple of strands of hair that had become stuck to sirius’ face with the water.
sirius opened his eyes, blinking away the water droplets caught in his eyelashes. remus raised an eyebrow as sirius looked down pointedly. holding remus’ waist, sirius knelt down slowly, maintaining eye contact.
remus let his eyes close as sirius held him steady, his thumb running down the length of a scar on his torso in the same rhythm as his head moved. the water dripped down remus’ throat as he tilted his head back against the tiled wall, his fingers attempting to grip the grouting between the red tiles.
as his thighs began to shake, sirius moved his hand, wrapping a pale hand around remus’ leg to hold him steady. pulling himself away, sirius stood up as remus’ grip on his shoulders loosened. he smirked as remus regained his breath and stepped out of the bathtub.
“want to share a towel?” he asked, as he squeezed the excess water from his hair.
sirius opened his arms, spreading out the towel and exposing his bare body to remus who was still under the water. remus nodded and also stepped out onto ten bathmat on the floor. sirius immediately engulfed him, inserting his head under remus’ chin.
“you want to go get an early dinner and go into the forest?” remus asked as he began to dry both of them off.
“sure.”
grabbing the spare towel that was hanging on the back of the door, remus led the way back into the dorm. he stopped so suddenly that sirius didn’t have time to react and ended up walking straight into him.
“what?” sirius asked, peering round remus’ still body. “umm what the fuck is happening here?”
remus cleared his throat awkwardly as sirius stated between his brother and james who were sat opposite each other on the gryffindor chaser’s bed.
“i’m just going t-”
regulus left his unfinished sentence dangling as he headed for the door. it slammed shut behind him, making both remus and james jump.
“well?” sirius demanded.
“well what?”
“what do you mean ‘what’? why the fuck is my brother in your bed?”
“oh. that.”
“yeah, that.”
“so i like guys and girl-”
“like remus?” sirius interrupted.
“well umm kind of. it doesn’t matter to me the gender of the person; all that matters is i have a connection with them.”
“okay” sirius said slowly, his eyes narrowing. “but for godric’s sake james, why does that person have to be my brother?”
james let out a weak laugh.
“yeah i thought that too.”
“just so you know, you guys can’t ever break up because i can’t lose either of you.”
“i know” james said simply, scooching to the end of his bed. “i told remus the same thing when you two started dating.”
“is that true?” sirius asked, spinning on the spot to face his boyfriend who remained suspiciously silent throughout james and sirius’ conversation.
in the momentary silence that followed james quickly slipped out of the dorm only to hear a loud shout as he started down the steps. he grinned to himself as he entered the corridor, heading towards the nearest set of steps down to the entrance hall.
regulus was waiting for him in the quidditch stands and james quickly identified him as the only person there. he settled himself on the benches, his head resting comfortably in regulus’ lap.
he watched as regulus lit a joint, the end making his nose glow warmly. james looked up at him, watching amusedly as regulus closed his eyes as the smoke filled his lungs.
“never thought you’d be one to smoke” james commented.
“yeah well remus got me into it and it seemed to be a subtle way to go against my parents. are you disappointed?” regulus asked nervously.
“no” james replied with a shake of his head. “i know it can help - it helps remus, anyway.”
regulus nodded.
“what did sirius say?”
“he was pretty defensive and he said we can never break up” james summarised.
“i see.”
“not that i intend to break up” james quickly continued. “i love you.”
james watched as regulus exhaled slowly, the cloud of smoke one thin line. the dark head dipped and the grey eyes easily found the brown.
“i love you too.”