It's Been Over a Year Now
It's been over a year now. And it still hurts. When they think of it. Which is almost everyday. It was very hard. At first. It's still hard. To this day. It's still hard. Just thinking about her. Seeing things they reminded them. Of her. And it hurts. Not knowing where she was. Not knowing if she would ever. Come back. And they wanted her back. But she wasn't here.
She had been gone. For almost fourteen months. At first. They thought that they could bring her back. That they could find a way. But. As time went on. That bubble of hope. Got smaller. And kept getting smaller. For some. It was gone. That they couldn't get her back. But. For others. They still held on. Hoping. That one day. Aspen Lily Potter. Would be back.
And they tried. They really tried. When they found out she was hit with a Time Traveling Spell. And they knew. That there was something out there. A book. That could bring her back. They looked everywhere. Everywhere in the world. But. They never found it. Never. It was gone. Whatever spells. And Enchantments were on it. It was powerful. No one knew where it was. So. No book. No bringing Aspen back. And they wanted her back.
Draco Malfoy. He would tell himself. Everyday. That Aspen find her way back. He knew she was strong. That she would come back. But. As time went on. He lost his hope. He thought he would never see her again. At first. When anyone would bring her up. Saying that she might not come back. He would tell them they were wrong. She would be back. She would. And he kept by that. For eight months. After that. He started to lose hope. At ten months. He told himself that she was gone. She wan't coming back. Never. When he went home. He told himself that he would forget her. She was never coming back. So why remember. But she never left his mind. Never. Even when he tried. And just thought about his new life. His task. She was always there. In the back of his mind. She never left. At a year. Since she was gone. He pretended like she never existed. Even though she was still in his mind. He pretended. And focused on his task. His new life.
Ron Weasley. Everyday. He told the others. That they would find a way to bring her back. That she would be fine. She was strong. She would be back. Even now. He still does. Even if he has lost a little hope. He knew she would come back. She had to. If she did. Everything would be fine. She may be a Slytherin. But she was still his friend. And he cared for her. A lot. He wanted her back too. He really did. If she was back. Everything would go back to normal. Everything would be fine.
Hermione Granger. She said she would be back. She had to be. Her best friend. Aspen had to come back. She had to. At first. Hermione spent hours. In the Library. Looking for anything that might help. Bring Aspen back. But she found nothing. She read almost all the books. But she found nothing. The Library had let her down. It had never let her down. But now it did. She found nothing. She wanted her best friend back. So much. Sure. She loved the two boys. But she missed Aspen. So much. From the beginning. They had been best friends. And she wanted it back. Aspen needed to come back. And Hermione wouldn't stop. Until she did.
Harry Potter. He wanted his sister back. The only family he really had left. Sure. He had Sirius. But it wasn't the same. He wanted his sister back. She was always there. Even though she was in Slytherin. She was always there. No matter what. Whenever he needed her. She was there. The family he saw everyday. And now he was alone. He needed her back. And soon. Going over a year without her. Was hard. Not seeing her everyday. It hurt. It really did. It was very hard. Especially when Umbridge started asking questions. When she asked. No one answered. No one spoke of it. It was hard. Not to notice a student missing. Especially when one was a Potter. She would ask Harry all the time. Where his sister was. He would never answer. Telling her. It was none of her business. He got many detentions for that. But. No matter how much Umbridge asked. Harry never said anything. It hurt. To speak of her. And when he got those visions. The one's with Voldemort. He wished Aspen was there. He wanted her there. She would know what to do. She would have helped him. And when he went to the Department of Mysteries. He wished she was there. At his side. Helping him defeat the Death Eaters. Fighting by his side. But she wan't. She wasn't there. Wasn't there. And then. When Sirius was almost killed. He wanted her there. If Sirius had died. None of his family would be left. They would all be gone. He would have no more family. They would have all left him. But. Sirius didn't die. But he almost did. Harry still wished Aspen was there. By his side. Together. They would have dealt with Sirius's near death. But she wasn't there. And he wished she was. He still had a little bit of hope left. Just enough. But. Deep down. He knew she was gone. And she wasn't coming back.
Remus Lupin. He too. Wished she was back. He loved the girl. Like it was his own daughter. And in a way. She was. And he missed her. When he was told the news. That Aspen was gone. Trapped in some other time. It was like his whole world froze. He was worried. He was stressed. He wanted her back. He was the one. That spent the most time. Looking for that book. Always over doing it. People told him to stop. Take a break. But he didn't listen. He kept searching. For months. He wanted Aspen back. His Little Wolf. He was scared. And he wanted to be there. To protect her. She could protect herself. But he still wanted to be there. For her. He needed to. It took many months. Before they finally convinced him to take a break. To stop looking.To settle down for a bit. He still worried. He still thought about getting her back. He stressed about it. From time to time. He would bounce his leg up and down. Something he hadn't done since he was a kid. When it was a full moon. And now he was doing it again. He couldn't help it. He couldn't stop it. He was stressing to much about her. He still had a lot of hope left. But. Where was she? Was she ever going to come back? What if she got hurt? Was if she was...? He couldn't even think of the last question. It hurt to much to think about. They needed her back. They all did. She needed to come back.
Sirius Black. He wanted her back. She needed to come back. He loved her too much. She was a daughter to him. He loved her. He missed her. She needed to come back. When he first heard the news. He shattered. His just. Crumbled. He had wanted to protect her. Always. And now. She was gone. And they had no idea how to get her back. He was hurt about it. But then. He was mad. He yelled at everybody. To get her back. To bring her back. That is was their fault. He knew it wasn't. But he needed someone to blame. His anger. Was his pain. And the pain was too much. It was worse than Azkaban. Azkaban seemed like nothing. Than losing her. And he took out his pain. On everything. And everyone. Snapping at people. Yelling at them. Brooding. Smashing things around the rooms. Breaking things he could get his hands on. Nothing would calm him down. All he wanted was Aspen to be back. For everything to be back to normal. Or as normal as it could get. He wanted her back. Needed her back. She brought joy into his life. He might not have known her for long. But she brought him happiness. To this day. He was still angry. But not as angry as he was before. Angry that no one had found a way to bring her back. He thought that they would have found something by now. But they didn't. And he was angry. And that anger. Almost got him killed. When he found out. That Harry was at the Department of Mysteries. Because Voldemort placed a fake vision in Harry's mind. He raced there. He wasn't supposed to come. But he came anyway. And it almost got him killed. He was fighting with his cousin. Bellatrix. Near a veil. And he almost fell in. If he had. He would have been gone. He would have died. But. Thankfully. Remus pulled him out. But. After a few seconds. He was hit with a curse. That almost killed him. It certainly looked like he was dead. But he wasn't. But he was on the verge of it. It took weeks for him to recover. He still felt it. Every now and again. It still hurt. But what hurt more. Was the fact that Aspen was still gone. He had almost no hope left.
The only thing good thing. If you could call it that. Depends on what your opinion is. That came of this. Was that. It brought Remus and Sirius closer. The first few months. Were hard on two men. Neither of them spoke to the other. They were too worried about Aspen. After those months. And Sirius was breaking almost everything in sight. Remus finally stepped in. Stopped Sirius from breaking everything. Sirius yelled at him. That was all Sirius did these days. But Remus yelled right back. The two men yelled at each other for a long time. But. Then. That stopped. Both of them had said something. To the other. That made them stop. It came as a surprise to both of them. What the other said. They had been yelling about Aspen. They yelled at each other. Saying that they both wanted her back. Needed her back. The yelled at each other. About how they were both coping with Aspen being gone. They yelled at each other about each other. Then.
"Stop beating yourself up because she's gone! It hurts me too, you know! Knowing that she's gone! Not knowing how she's doing! It hurts me too! It hurts me seeing how you're coping! And you know why that is!? Because I fucking love you, you fucking idiot!" Remus yelled at the other man.
"Well it hurts me too, seeing you cope as well! Because I fucking love you as well!" Sirius yelled right back.
The two men stopped yelling. Staring at the other. Thinking about what they just said. And what the other man said.
"You know what Aspen would say right now?" Remus asked.
Sirius rolled his eyes. "Probably along the lines of 'I told you so.'"
"You think so?"
"I know so. You saw what she did at the beginning of last Year. You heard what she said."
And from that moment on. They cope together. On Aspen being gone. They tried to get through it. It was hard. Very hard. At times. It was harder than it was before. But they tried. They really did.
All in all. Everyone missed Aspen Potter. They wanted her back. They needed to know that she was back. But they had no way of knowing if she was ok. No way. Everybody coped in their own way. But it was hard. Very hard. When a year went past. And still nothing. They needed to now find a way to make sure she was alright. And they would try. Very hard. She had to be alright. They needed to find a way. Needed to. And they were going to try. Until they couldn't anymore.They would try. They need to know if she was alright. It would take some weight off their chest. Put something back to normal. Even if it was only a little bit. Even if they couldn't find a way to get her back now. They had to try. Really had to. There might even be a little bit of hope left. But they needed to find a way.