Stars over the Meadows

Marlene McKinnon

It’s the last Griffindor against Slytherin match of the year and Marlene feels like her heart is about to explode in her chest. Every time she’s up there with Dorcas she can’t help but feel that grim feeling in her stomach again.

She takes it all back, she wants Dorcas again. She wants to kiss her. She wants to hold her. She wants to tell her. She loves her.

‘You’re the one that fucked it all up Marlene’ the sentence repeats over and over in Marlene’s head. She knows, she knows she’s the one that fucked it up. She couldn’t stand being the reason Mary was hurt so she took it out on Dorcas.

She regrets it , she regrets it all. Now Dorcas is with Emmeline and Marlene regrets it even more. They kissed at the party, and now they hug in the hallways. Marlene can’t stand watching them. She keeps trying to talk to Dorcas but she keeps blowing her off.

Marlene’s on her broom, her eye’s basically glued to Dorcas. She watches her every move as she moves majestically in the air.

Marlene gets caught off guard when Dorcas hits a bludger in her direction.

What the fuck. Markene hits the bludger back at her, her hearts pumping wiht adrenaline.

Slytherin wins , points were just ten off. But slytherin won. Marlene could care less

Marlene flies back down and tries to catch up to Dorcas who’s rushing back into the castle. “Dorcas ! Dorcas” she breathes out.

“What ?” Dorcas whips around, and Marlene feels her stomach instantly flip.

She’s looking at me.

“I- i uhm” suddenly marlene can’t form her words.

“I don’t have time for this,” Dorcas sighs, turning herself back . Marlene grabs a hold of her wrists and pulls Dorcas in. Marlene brings her lips with hers.

She forgets about the whole world for a moment, She only thinks about Dorcas . She thinks about how much time she’s waster trying to hate her. Wehn all this time she’s loved her.

Dorcas pulls away and Marlene feels her heart pull away with it. “Fuck off”

Marlene blinks at her, she stands still her hand still on Dorcas’s wrist. Her chests is heaving up and the loose hair from her pony tail is blowing in her face.

Dorcas stands still , and Marlene has no idea of where this is going. She feels her face heat up and she can hear her heart pounding in her ears.

Dorcas moves her other hand to Marlene’s collar, bringing her back into a kiss. She pushes Marlene against the wall. Marlene lets go of her wrists and Dorcas takes her hand and opens the door to the supply closet behind her.

Dorcas pushes Marlene into the closet and closes the door, the two are at least a foot away from each other now . “Dorcas-'' Marlene cuts in

“I really fucking hate you , you know?” She breathes heavily

“I know“ Marlene swallows a dry breath. Dorcas kisses her again. “I hate you” she mumbles into the kiss. Her hand glides up under Marlene’s shirt. “I know” marlene mumbles again.

Dorcas pulls away again, her chest moving up and down. “I want to, Dorcas . I want to “ marlene tugs on Dorcas’s shirt.

“Okay” Dorcas replies, Dorcas lifts up Marlene’s quidditch uniform, another word not coming from her mouth.

“Do you want to ?” Marlene questions weakly.

“Yes” Dorcas answers blankly, Marlene pulls Dorcas into another kiss , Dorcas trails kisses down Marlene’s neck, her first stop being the scar on Marlene’s chin. Marlene continues tugging on Dorcas’s jumper.

“Dorcas” marlene whispers softly. Dorcas mills away once more and lifts up her top. “Slytherin won.” Dorcas clicks her tongue. “Gryfindor can’t get the quidditch cup this year.

“I don’t care,” Marlene breathes out. “I don’t care about any of that,” she adds. The two stand there very still for a moment, their quidditch tops on the floor.

Marlene lifts her hands up to Dorca's face. “you’re so pretty it hurts.” She whispers. Marlene can see Dorcas’s throat tighten. She brings her hands to Marlene’s waist.

“I hate you for ruining this McKinnon “ Dorcas mumbles in a raspy tone.

“I know” Marlene repeats.

Dorcas kisses Marlene again, this time she doesn’t pull away. Marlene didn’t think she was ready for this when the two were together , but it feels all so natural to her. Dorcas’s hands trail drown Marlene’s body and Marlene traces her fingers across Dorcas’s shoulders, her fingers going over her scar over and over again.

 
***

It has to be at least ten minutes later, they had sex. Marlene can’t believe it. She had sex with Dorcas Meadowes.

Dorcas is putting her bra back on, she keeps her gaze away from Marlene , while Marlene keeps her gaze on her, never pulling her eyes away from her. Dorcas pulls her pants back up and Marlene notices her sense of urgency to leave .

Why does she seem in such a hurry to leave?

Marlene puts her jumper back on before opening her mouth. “Does this mean we’re back together?” Marlene asks blankly, she bites on the inside of her cheek as she waits for dorcas to answer.

“No” Dorcas responds bluntly, her eyes still off of Marlene .

“But. We just had sex-“ marlene cuts in

“So? It didn’t mean anything “ dorcas snaps, her gaze on the ground.

“Didn't mean anything ? “ marlene questions, “Dorcas-“

“You think we have sex and boom we’re back together?” Dorcas interrupts her. She pulls her jumper back over her head and pulls her braids out from under it.

“No-“ Marlene mumbles, she picks at her hands in nervousnessly. She swallows her breath.

“This was obviously a bad idea” Dorcas waves her off.

“Dorcas-“ Marlene feels tears in the back of her eyes, her chest is heaving up and down. 

“No- this was a bad idea. And this is never happening again, “ Dorcas says harshly. Marlene feels her heart twinge at the words. Dorcas turns to leave but Marlene grabs a hold of her arms.

“Come on, Dorcas. I love you “ Marlene tears blur her vision as she the three crucial words escape her mouth.

Dorcas expression softens for a moment, her hand twitches, moving towards Marlene’s for a split second, before she tenses up her jaw.

“Have a nice holiday, McKinnon.” Dorcas mutters softly, Marlene releases Dorcas’s arms from her grasp. She leaves without Marlene getting another word in.

Marlene stands still, her breath quivering and her hands pick at themselves by her sides. She feels tears making their way from her eyes as she looks at the door. Hoping Dorcas will come back.

But she never did. She never did come back for her. Marlene told her she loved her and she left.

That was the last time Marlene McKinnon saw Dorcas in her fifth year.

***

Regulus Black

Regulus is tapping his foot repeatedly on the ground as he waits for James to show up with Sirius. He paces back and forth in the astronomy tower.

He hears a slight laugh and he instantly whips his head around. “Regulus?” Sirius questions. “Is this the surprise, my brother?” He turns his head to James.

“Uh” James adjusts his glasses. “We have something to tell you. Regulus has something to tell you?”

“Are you getting married? “

“What?” Regulus coughs “no definitely not” Regulus looks to James for help. James just has his eyes widened.

“Because that’s what Walburga tried to me during third year. “ Sirius laughs. “Narsicca was even less enthusiastic about it then me”

“Oh” regulus swallows a breath “no I’m not getting married “

“Good.” Sirius smiles, “then what”

“You can’t get mad” regulus cuts in.

“What did you do?” Sirius furrows . Regulus looks to James, and Sirius follows his eyes “Regulus.” Sirius looks back to him. 

“Me and James are together “ he blurts out. Sirius widens his eyes. “What “ Sirius asks in a monotone voice, sending shivers down Regulus’s back.

“Padfoot.” James whispers.

Sirius takes a moment to respond he backs away from the two. “This is incest!” Sirius yells .

“No it’s not!” James yells back. “It’s not , right?”

“No it’s not” Regulus answers.

“My brother James?” He looks at James. His face turned a light shade of red. “He’s a year younger. He’s. Just a baby” he points to his brother.

“I am not a baby” regulus mumbles.

“Tell him the other news “ James chips in. Sirius presses his lips into a straight line as he looks at regulus. 

“I’m going to James’s for the summer” regulus says lightly . Sirius widens his eyes, a smile spreads across his face.

“Really?” He jumps up towards regulus. “Yes' ' regulus answers blankly. “Oh my godric! “ he squeals. “Can I?” Sirius spreads his arms, waiting to hug regulus. Regulus gives him a short nod and Sirius smothers regulus in a hug.

“James really?” He whispers into the hug. “He snores y’know “ Sirius adds. “I know” regulus mumbles .

Sirius pulls away from the hug and brings his hands to Regulus’s shoulders, he squints his eyes “you know?” Regulus doesn’t answer. And just stares blankly at his shocked brother

“James does this mean we’re like brother in laws now?” He turns to James. “I guesso” James shrugs.

“What? No- no that’s only in marriage, and we can’t get married “ regulus says bluntly. Sirius looks back to regulus “are you okay. With me being - y’know “ regulus whispers.

“Am I okay? Reg of course I’m okay with it, I love you. And Y’know me and moony- wait I haven’t told anyone- fuck “ Sirius rambles on before stopping himself.

“Told anyone what?” James questions.

“Me and Remus are together “ Sirius answers, swallowing his words. James adjusts his glasses. “Really?” James voice squeaks out, his jaw dropped slightly

“Yup” Sirius drops his hands from Regulus’s shoulders. He shuffles his shoes around nervously.

“That’s wow- that’s great pads” James smiles.

“Yeah? We’re still figuring it out.” He presses his lips together firmly.

“Finally” regulus mumbles. “You have been obsessed with Remus for years “ he teases.

“I have?” Sirius smiles lightly , his cheeks Turing red.

“Merlin yes” James adds, laughing lightly, slinging an arm around his best friend.