Stars over the Meadows

Dorcas Meadowes 

It’s the first day of May, it’s been over a month since Dorcas took Marlene's words to heart and got out of her life. 

She can admit her heart still longs for her, but it’s not something she can control. Her stomach still goes up in knots every time she sees her. Dorcas decides she’s going to put away all her foolish romantic feelings and just focus on her schoolwork. She’s about to be in sixth year and she can’t have any distractions .

Especially if that distraction is what she wants the most.

Dorcas is sitting next to Regulus in the astronomy tower, smoking his cigarettes. She hasn’t been in the owerly , She’s afraid she’ll make a rash decision there as she usually does.

“Y’know-“ Dorcas blows out smoke, “i think I’m just going to move back to France after I graduate “ she suggests . 

“Me too” regulus agrees. “Haven’t been there in forever , I just want to get away from the bloody school “ 

“But what about your boy toy?” Dorcas laughs.

“Oh shove off” Regulus puffs smoke in her face. Regulus pauses for a moment before letting words escape his lips again. “He wants me to go to his house for the summer” he adds weakly

“You gonna go?” Dorcas asks.

Regulus shrugs. “I want to”

“Then go” Dorcas adds. She looks at Regulus who keeps his eyes away from her. The two sit in silence for a moment sitting next to each other their cigarettes burning to the filter.

“I’ll go” he whispers. Dorcas smiles lightly. “What about you?”

“What about me?” Dorcas questions, taking another hit from her cigarette.

“What are you doing this summer?” Regulus looks to her finally

“Nothing” Dorcas responds, blowing out the smoke, looking straight ahead of her.

“Talked to McKinnon yet?” He asks.

“No,” Dorcas replies dryly. “She said to stay out of her life, so-.” She pauses for a second “that’s what I’m doing “

“That’s. well-“ Regulus starts.

“I don’t want to talk to her. I hate her” Dorcas interrupts . Regulus opens his mouth to talk. “ I don’t want to talk about her” Dorcas mumbles as she flicks the ash from her cigarette to the ground.

“Alright” regulus says blankly, turning his gaze away from her “I’m telling Sirius tomorrow , about James and I”

“Is that good?”

“Yeah- yes, I want him to know and so does James. I’m just scared he’s going to hate me” Regulus says with uncertainty.

“I’ll beat him up if he does,” Dorcas adds. Regulus laughs lightly. “Alright “ he smiles.

“Alright” Dorcas affirms, “I’m going to go, still have to study for potions” Dorcas puts out her cigarette.

“Right”

“Good luck,” Dorcas says, standing up swiftly.

“Thanks, “ Regulus mumbles.

Dorcas leaves the room with nothing but envy. She hates that she does, but she’s envious of her friends. Why does everyone around her get to be happy and she doesn’t?

She hates that she still longs for Marlene after all this time, she can’t even think about her without her stomach flipping.

She hates her so much.

“Dorcas!” Yells someone, Dorcas turns around and sees emmeline. She runs up to Dorcas. “Hi” emmeline smiles as she analyzes Dorcas’s face. 

“Hi” Dorcas smiles lightly. Emmeline brings her into a hug. “I feel like I haven't seen you in forever. I say that like every time I see you . I’ve just been so busy studying “

“Mhm” Dorcas leans into the hug, “sure you weren’t too busy with your girlfriend “ Dorcas coos.

Emmeline laughs, pulling away. “Maybe “ she grins. 

Dorcas smiles at Emmeline before directing her eyes behind her. There stands Marlene. Looking at Dorcas, causing Dorcas’s stomach to turn to knots.

Marlene immediately looks away the second their eyes meet

“Dorcas?” Emmeline questions, and Dorcas moves her gaze back to emmeline. “I’ve really got to study , potions is running me dry” Dorcas laughs lightly hoping the knots will loosen.

“Oh, okay. See you later?”

“Yeah” Dorcas smiles. Emmeline skips off and Dorcas leads her eyes back to Marlene who’s looking down at her shoes standing aimlessly in the corridor.

Why does she have to be standing right infront of the library? She’s standing in front of the door, as if she’s trying to talk to her.

Dorcas walks towards her, letting her legs lead the way towards the library “Dorcas-” she coughs out.

“Fuck off” Dorcas spits out. “You’re right in my way , move” she spits out bitterly.

“Dorcas just-“ Marlene grabs a hold of Dorcas’s wrist, Dorcas instantly pulls her wrist from her grasp.

“Leave me the hell alone” Dorcas says through gritted teeth . 

“Cas-'' she lets out softly . Dorcas interrupts “don’t ‘cas’ me, this is real fucking rich McKinnon. Just do us both the favor and go” Dorcas points.

Marlene frowns slightly, swallowing a dry breath. Dorcas can see her chest rising up and down. Making her heart instantly flutter. She wants to forgive her, she really does. But she can’t, Marlene hurt her. And she can never forgive her for that.

“Fine” Marlene spits out, stomping away

“Fine!” Dorcas responds immaturely. She doesn’t care , Marlene doesn’t deserve her maturity, not that she's been mature.

Dorcas enters the library , and opens her potions book. She can’t even focus anymore , fucking McKinnon.

***

Sirius Black

Sirius thinks he might be the happiest he’s ever been this past month, he’s been sneaking around with Remus all month.

They haven’t done anything more than secret kisses, Sirius doesn’t think he’s ready for anything more than that.

The two are laying together on Remus’s bed, where Sirius usually sneaks into when their friends are asleep.

Sirius is holding Remus’s hands as the two look up to the ceiling.

“I don’t want to go home,” Remus whispers , his voice cracking at the seams. His chest is heaving up and down.

“Remus-“ Sirius cuts in

“If she’s not there I don’t want to go” Remus croaks out , interrupting Sirius.

“What about your dad?” Sirius questions.

“Fuck him” Remus let’s go of Sirius hand sitting himself up on his bed. “I don’t care about him, I want her there”

“I know,” Sirius whispers affirmatively. Sitting himself up to be leveled with remus

“I couldn’t be there last summer” Remus chokes on his words. “It makes it all too real”

Sirius grabs a hold of Remus’s hand again, and turns his body towards him. “You can come to James’s, however long it takes you to be okay. Okay?”

“Okay” Remus whispers so softly Sirius hardly hears him. “Okay” he repeats, his eyes are glossed over with tears, and his chin is wobbling.

“Okay” Sirius gives him a weak smile. Planting a kiss on Remus’s cheek. Then his head then a short kiss on his lips. “Okay “ he repeats, forcing himself away from Remus’s lips as if they’re a magnet pulling him closer.

Remus brings his other hand to Sirius' jaw, “thank you” he whispers, pulling his lips back to his . “Thank you” he mumbles again into his lips.

Sirius keeps his lips connected to Remus’s as he moves himself to sit on Remus’s lap. Remus moves his hands to Siriuss waist. He eventually pulls away from Remus’s lips. “I haven’t -“

“It’s okay, me neither. This is just fine” Remus whispers, kissing Sirius again.

***

Peter Pettigrew 

Peter is in Evans' dorm lying next to him. He usually waits until he sees Sirius crawl into Remus’s bed, which he found strange a bit ago, but has decided to not mention it and go with it. 

Peter has been seeing Evan since the beginning of the year, and it’s not that big of a deal . He talks to Evan and Evan talks to him. They kiss, laugh and sleep together.  Peters is probably his happiest when he’s with Evan.

Peter hears stumbling around outside of the bed curtains, he turns to evan questioning if he had heard the noise. “Probably Regulus and his boy toy,” Evan laughs.

“Boy toy?” Peter questions, turning his head to Evan

“You haven’t heard? Oh wow-“ Evan grins, and letter squints at him 

“Heard what?” Peter asks , furrowing his brows at Evan.

“You think he’d tell you first” Evan shrugs

“Regulus?”

“No, ugh- take a look Pettigrew “ Evan sighs, leaning over Peter and opening the curtain just so slightly for Peter to see.

The first thing he sees is James, kissing Regulus, the two lean down to regulus bed His jaw instantly drops.

“James?!” Peter exclaims 

“Shh” Evan hushes , dropping the curtain smacking Peter's arm.

“Peter?”  He hears James ask.

Peter widens his eyes,

“Hiya James” he opens the curtain again, James looks just as shocked as Peter was a moment ago. He’s a few steps closer, and Regulus sits on his bed.

“You and Evan? “ he points , his brows creased together, and his glasses are crooked 

“You and regulus?” Peter points at the two of them.

“Good godric,” Evan groans, dragging his hands down his face.

“Hey “ regulus waves to Peter. 

“You knew about this?” James turns his head to regulus.

“Yes” regulus answers blankly.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” James questions, raising his shoulders.

“Not my place” regulus shrugs . “He’s right” Evan adds.

“Sorry James” Peter says.

“No- no, don’t be sorry.” James smiles lightly. “This is like a moment, we’re both shagging slytherins.” James laughs.

Peter widens his eyes slightly. “Jesus James” Peter covers his face.

“He does have a point, “ Evan laughs. “Hey reg we’re both shagging gryffindors!” He shouts from across the room

“Fuck off” regulus glares. “Don’t mind if I do” Evan laughs, as he starts shutting the certain. 

“Stop it” Peter swats his hand away . Regulus scrunches up his nose.

 “Merlin, Sirius is going to have a field trip tomorrow “ James chips n

“What’s happening tomorrow? “

“Regulus over here is making an honest man out of me” James coos, pointing his thumb back to regulus.

“I’m telling Sirius tomorrow, “ regulus confesses.

“Oh that’s great,” Peter smiles softly.

“Are you going to tell him?” James questions.

“‘Bout what?” Questions Peter.

“About you two” James points.

“I’m not his brother I don’t have to tell him anything “ Peter shrugs , pressing his lips into a flat line.

“True” . James nods,

“Alright , if you two don’t mind. “ Evan interrupts. As he finally shuts the curtain he hears a small laugh from James, and the patter of his feet make it back to regulus bed. Evan looks at Pete following his eyes as they analyze his face.

“Well? “ Evan questions. 

“You knew?” Peter questions. Evan nods. Peter grabs Evans face and smothers him in a kiss. The two kiss and Evan holds his face as well.

“I love you , y’know?” Peter pulls away from the kiss, a smile plastered across his face.

“I love you too,”  Evan whispers, moving his lips back to peters face. “ I really fucking love you “ evan mumbles inbetween kisses.