Toast and 'Yours truly'
Remus awoke the next morning still reeling from his intimate encounter with Sirius the night before. He was embarrassed to have let his guard down, what if Sirius never wanted to see him again?! Or things would be awkward between them!!!
His spiral was interrupted by a message from Sirius.
(moonage daydream and the diamond dog)
(11:34)
Padfoot: ughhhhhhhhhnhhhh
Moony: good night's sleep ?
Padfoot: hush
Moony: hungover per chance there Padfoot??
Padfoot: only a teeennnssyyy bit
Padfoot: did I cut my leg last night?!?!?
Remus breathed a sigh of relief, Sirius didn’t even remember their almost, sort of, maybe moment last night, thus was good, nothing would change.
Yet there was this nagging annoying thought in the back of Remus’ mind, that maybe he wanted things to change….. to be less like friends and more like ‘make out, then move into together, then get married, have kids and die old’ kind of people.
However overall Remus had convinced himself it was a good thing Sirius didn’t remember.
(moonage daydream and the diamond dog)
(11:46)
Padfoot: I vaguely remember dancing on a table
Moony: yes, then you fell off said table, broke a glass, and cut yourself
Moony: but you got bandaged up
Padfoot: aha!!! by you
Padfoot: it’s coming back to me now
‘Oh shit shit shit shit’, we’re the thoughts running through Remus’ mind at that moment.
(moonage daydream and the diamond dog)
(11:57)
Moony: then do you also remember that we only had peppa pig plasters to put on it ???
Padfoot: now you’re just testing me because I know for a fact that we only keep lightning mcqueen plasters in this house !!!!
Moony: look at that, you're alcohol induced amnesia has resided
Padfoot: what can I say, I’m extraordinarily talented at everything I do ;)
Moony: I believe I’m too hungover to read that
Padfoot: but moony you don’t get hungover :(
Moony: bbyyyyeeeee xxx
Sirius turned his phone off and sighed…… he remembered every single second of what had happened.
The way Remus’ breath hitched when Sirius leaned in, those green eyes that sparkled when Sirius made him laugh, the freckles scattered across his nose and cheeks, and the way Remus had taken care of him.
However it was obvious to them that Remus hadn’t experienced the romantic moment Sirius thought it was.
It was probably better this way.
Just friends.
(21 Nov, Tuesday)
(rollin with the lgbt)
(14:35)
dorcassimp: so what are we all wearing to the christmas ball?
himboking: a dark green tux
himboking: but lily said no to my lightning mcqueen pocket square :(
rosemary: hmmm I wonder why?
himboking: honestly beats me, but she’s wearing green too so I just think it wouldn’t fit with the aesthetic
galwaygirl: sure James…. that’s definitely why
rosemary: I’m wearing a dark orange dress and Em is wearing a black dress
zumbagod: omfggg mary you guys are gonna slay the shit out of that
rosemary: awww thanks cas xx
zumbagod: marls is wearing purple and I’m going with dark blue
rosemary: ok but you guys are gonna look fucking amazingggg
dorcassimp: damn (not so) straight we are
superiorblackbrother: Sirius bought me my suit the day I came out to him.
taylorisgod: and now you can finally wear it !!!!
taylorisgod: as for me I’m going with a cropped black suit jacket and these black pants that look like a skirt cause they’re super flowy ;)
(moonflower supremacy)
(15:01)
Moony: fuuuuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
Lilyflower: oof
Moony: I think I’m just not going to go, otherwise I will die being in the presence of his beauty
Lilyflower: poetic
Moony: what can I say, extreme anxiety brings out the poet in me
Lilyflower: in that case you should be Emily Dickinson already
Moony: the dream
Lilyflower: she killed herself
Moony: I'm not seeing the problem ?
Lilyflower: REMUS!!!
Moony: I’m sorry!!!!
Moony: twas just a joke x
Lilyflower: good thing anxiety doesn’t make u a comedian cause you would be shit at it
Moony: harsh
Lilyflower: tough love is the key to life xx
Moony: mhmmmm -_-
(rollin with the lgbt)
(15:10)
archiboldsupremacy: just your regular tux, kinda boring
himboking: BORING
himboking: PETER MF PETTIGREW
taylorisgod: YOU ARE THE HOTTEST MAN WE HAVE EVER LAID OUR EYES ON
himboking: YOU ARE THE PINNACLE OF BEAUTY AND I WILL NOR HEAR SLANDER AGAINST YOUR BEAUTIFUL NAME
archiboldsupremacy: thanks guys :)
sweaterweather(my): mine is also just a basic black suit
sweaterweather(mv): although I do have an embroidered waistcoat and pocket square my mam made me
galwaygirl: ohhhhh the one with the constellations on it !!!!
sweaterweather(mv): yessss
dorcassimp: smash
(da boyzzzz)
(15:23)
effiesfav: jamesssssss
effiesfav: i’m so gayyyyyyy
imalwaysright: you tend to be x
effiesfav: I think i’m going to die of unrequited love
imalwaysright: not yet!!!!
imalwaysright: we haven’t nailed down our single ladies routine
effiesfav: trueeee
effiesfav: want to practise later?
imalwaysright: can’t, I have a date :)
effiesfav: oh yeah!!!
effiesfav: rub it in some more -_-
imalwaysright: :)
(rollin with the lgbt)
(15:57)
archiboldsupremacy: do I have to bring a date?
archiboldsupremacy: because the effort of trying to find someone this late in the game is not it
taylorisgod: I’m not bringing anyone, we can go together Pete ;)
archiboldsupremacy: neither is remus, if we bring him too then it’s my ideal threesome
sweaterweather(mv): Pete you flatter me !!!
archiboldsupremacy: you are a fine specimen of a man Remus Lupin, not flattery, just facts ;)
taylorisgod: ehmmmm excuse me should I get you guys a room?!!!?!
archiboldsupremacy: a presidential suite with champagne and room service included please xx
taylorisgod: HA HA -_-
sweaterweather(mv): it’s fine I mean all the girls are getting ready at my place and then we will probably get the bus over :)
superiorblackbrother: Oh no, I don’t do the bus, I will rent us a limousine.
dorcassimp: Dorcas, take notes, this is how you treat someone!!
zumbagod: I’m sorry not all of us are heirs to a rather large fortune?!?!
superiorblackbrother: Ex-heir, but I made some good investments before my disownment so I’m doing fine.
taylorisgod: why are you more of a grown up than me?!?!?!?
superiorblackbrother: I lack cooking skills though, I burnt a pan of water the other day.
galwaygirl: how?!?!
superiorblackbrother: I quite honestly do not know.
taylorisgod: you’re failures always manage to bring me comfort Reggie <3
superiorblackbrother: Sorry but who are you bringing to the ball, because I’m bringing my boyfriend, of which you do not have.
roseMary: ooohhhhhhh shittttttttt
dorcassimp: you tell him Reggie !!!
taylorisgod: remus will fall for my charms eventually!!
sweaterweather(mv): hey don’t bring me into your sibling rivalry!!?!
taylorisgod: you are NOT helping Remus -_-
sweaterweather(mv): what can I say, I’m a very unhelpful person :)
roseMary: you guys are insane xx
rosemary: I LOVE it 🫶🫶
taylorisgod: maryyy stawppppp
roseMary: never x
superiorblackbrother: Limousine has been ordered, it will leave from Remus’ flat at eight.
dorcassimp: thanks sugar Reggie xxxx
archiboldsupremacy: treating us right 😩
superiorblackbrother: My plessure.
(23 Nov, Thursday)
(moonage daydream and the diamond dog)
(12:34)
Padfoot: moony
Moony: yes ??
Padfoot: can I please come over to your house and cook and put Soxs on my head like a cat ratatouille moment :)
Padfoot: a catatouille !!!
Moony: ……..
Moony: I was going to say yes until that awful pun
Padfoot: noooooo Mooonshineeee pleaseeee
Moony: you will not use my cats for bad puns !!!
Padfoot: even if I make you dinner??
Moony: Sirius yesterday you sent me a picture of you eating the cereal out of the bag, you just poured the milk into the bag ?!?!?
Padfoot: that was purely to make less dishes!!
Moony: what about the time you burnt the toaster potato waffles
Padfoot: easy mistake, I just set the toaster to too high of a heat :)
Moony: James had to call the fire department!!!!
Padfoot: so then that would be a no on the cooking :(
Moony: don’t make a sad face
Padfoot: :( :( :(
Moony: nope, i’m ignoring you
Padfoot: :(
Padfoot: :’(
Moony: ughhhhhhhhhh
Moony: fine
Moony: you’re only allowed to make toast !!!!
Padfoot: ahhhh thank youuuu you’re the bestttt
Moony: mmhmm sure -_-
Padfoot: you won’t regret this!!!
Moony: i’m almost 100% sure I will
Padfoot: nope it’s going to be so fun ;)
Padfoot: I’ll be there at 8 tmw
Moony: do I get any say in the matter!!??
Padfoot: nahh don’t be silly :)
Moony: well then, see u at 8 :)
Padfoot: this is going to be the best toast of your life
Moony: I’ll believe it when I see it x
Padfoot: you are so hard to please moonshine
Moony: what can I say, I have high standards
Padfoot: good thing I'm super tall and can reach them ;)
Moony: that was awful
Padfoot: yeah sorry, even I cringed a bit at it x
Moony: unlike some people, I have work now, I’ll talk to you later xx
Padfoot: I will be counting down the seconds ;)
Moony: so dramatic
Padfoot: stoppp with the compliments Moony, you have to get to work!!!
Moony: insufferable x
(24 Nov, Friday)
Sirius knocked on Remus’ door, ingredients in hand.
The door swing open to reveal a dishevelled looking Remus in a sweater and pyjama pants.
He gestured to himself as Sirius walked in, “Sorry about the mess, I had a pretty shitty day, chronic fatigue wise.”
Sirius gave him reassuring look, “I can leave if you need me to, you know I don’t mind at all.”
Remus shook his head, “No please don’t, my migraine is just at the dull stage where I can be easily distracted, it might even go away in a bit.”
Sirius grinned and scooped Soxs up into their arms, “Well prepared to be distracted.”
They waltzed over to Remus’ toaster, and carefully placed Soxs on his shoulders as he began to work…..
‘The work’ being placing bread in the toaster.
They grinned as Soxs clambered about, batting at Sirius’ soft curls. It was that Sirius Black grin that made Remus go a little bit weak in the knees everytime it happened.
Sirius turned around and leaned their hips against the counter, he continued to play with Soxs who had migrated down to Sirius’ arms again.
They looked up to find Remus’ soft gaze on them from across the kitchen, where he was sitting at the island. Remus quickly shook himself and looked away. “Soxs seems to really like you.”
“What can I say,” he responded, “I tend to be beloved by all.”
Remus rolled his eyes at this, “Well don’t let it inflate your ego too much, he can probably just smell the jam in your bag.”
Sirius gasped, “Excuse me, are you implying that our son only loves me for my food.”
Remus shrugged with a mischievous glint in his eye, “I guess that is exactly what I’m saying.”
Sirius clutched a hand to his chest affronted, “And to think I brought you a present and everything.”
Remus’ eyes lit up, “A present?!”
Sirius shrugged, “But if you really think our son doesn’t love me maybe you don’t want the present either.”
Remus stood up now and grabbed Sirius’ bag, “No Sirius our son loves you very much, what’s my present?!”
Sirius chuckled, “If I knew you liked presents so much I definitely would have gotten you one sooner.”
Remus finally fished out a huge bar of dairy milk chocolate, and a book.
The smile that grew across Remus’ lips lit up the entire room, “Sirius you really didn't have to, you know that.”
Sirius just shrugged, “Just because I didn’t have to doesn’t mean I didn’t want to.”
Remus turned the book over to reveal the title. “Oh I have a copy just like this, but who doesn’t need two right.”
Sirius laughed at this, “No you idiot, I know you already have a copy, that IS your copy.”
Slowly Remus began to understand, “So essentially you stole my copy of the Illiad?”
“‘Stole’ implies I didn’t intend to return it, but I did.”
Remus couldn’t really flaw their logic on this one.
He slowly began to flick through the pages when he noticed small notes in the margins.
There had always been Remus’ notes, but they were now joined by a much tidier set of writing.
“You annotated my copy of The Iliad.” Remus said quietly, almost as if he said it any louder it wouldn’t be true.
Sirius shrugged, “You have been badgering me since I met you to read it, I presumed you would want to know my thoughts so I skipped the middle man and wrote my thoughts in it, so you get to always remember them.”
This was quite possibly the most romantic thing that had ever happened to Remus, he was unsure what to say.
Before he could think of anything to say the toaster popped loudly.
“Hear that Soxs,” Sirius sung, “Dinner’s readyyy.”
As Sirius began to put jam on his toast Remus gasped. “You only put one topping on your toast?!”
Sirius glanced up perplexed, his tongue poking out slightly like it does whenever they concentrate….. not that Remus had noticed this or anything.
“Why? Do you put more than one topping?”
Remus proceeded to show Sirius the correct way to eat toast, he cut his slice into quarters, and on each slice had a different topping. Jam, peanut butter, lemon curd, and golden syrup.
This last one was too much for Sirius, “Golden syrup, ON TOAST!!!??”
“Hey don’t knock it ‘til you’ve tried it,” Remus responded with a mischievous grin on his face, and proceeded to take a large bite of his golden syrup quarter.
After much pestering Sirius finally gave in and made themselves, what they had coined, ‘Moony Toast’. (Patent pending)
Sirius had to admit, this was a stroke of genius, who knew golden syrup could taste so good on toast?!
The two settled into a comfortable silence after their dinner. Remus thumbed through the book, laughing quietly to himself at whatever Sirius had written on that page while Minnie slept on his knee. And Sirius sat on the floor, playing quietly with Soxs, whom, despite being a cat, was quite talented at fetch.
It was this form of comfortable bliss that made the two question the ramifications of confessing their feelings.
Friendship like this was hard to find, to be so at peace in each other's presence was something they both had previously struggled with, and knew not to take it for granted, or possibly ruin it in any way.
And yet the butterflies that overtook Remus’ stomach as they glanced secretly at Sirius were making friendship really hard. Especially when Sirius managed to look like a god damn fucking greek statue. With chiselled features and the evening light falling on their face just so the shadow of their jawline was accentuated.
Remus groaned internally….. only it wasn’t so internal.
Sirius glanced up with a curious look, “Are you ok Moonshine?”
“Yeah, yeah, fine.” Remus responded in a fluster, “It’s an old building, it tends to creak a lot.”
Sirius tilted their head in a quizzical manner before shrugging and turning back to Sox, however not before he gave Remus a very suggestive wink.
Remus rolled his eyes and returned to reading, but soon Remus began to doze off, soon his soft even breaths filled the silence.
Sirius chuckled inwardly to himself and thought it best they go home now. They quietly began gathering their belongings, making sure not to leave a mess in their wake.
Without wanting to leave without explanation Sirius grabbed a pen and scrap of paper from Remus’ desk in his bedroom. They placed the note on Remus’ chest for him to find in the morning.
Sirius was about to close the door gently behind them as they left, but they just couldn’t tear their eyes away from the sight before them.
Remus slept with his lips slightly parted, his breathing even, save for every fourth or fifth breath, where it would hitch momentarily before returning to normal.
His hair was messed in a golden cloud around their head, somewhat resembling a halo, but that may just have been due to Sirius’ sheer adoration for the boy in front of them.
As he closed the door his heart almost hurt, God he wished he could stay with Remus, curled up beside him, existing just the two of them in pure unadulterated bliss.
Remus woke up at about midnight, a crick in his neck from sleeping on the sofa. As he stirred he felt something on his chest, he grabbed at it and squinted, trying to determine what it was.
He turned the lamp on beside him to better make out what had been left on him.
It was a piece of paper that read…
‘Moony, I thought I should leave you to sleep in peace. Thank you for participating in my shenanigans with me :) Don’t worry I cleaned up after myself, Effie taught me well.
Sleep well Moonshine and I will talk to you in the morning xx
Yours truly,
Padfoot <3’
Remus was re-reading the note for a fifth time when he groaned so loud Minnie stirred, giving him a disgruntled look.
Remus knew it was a common way to sign off letters, but Sirius’ choice of wording was pulling on Remus’ heart strings.
This boy truly knew how to drive him crazy.
As he flopped into bed the last sentence was all he could think about.
The message played over and over in his mind as he drifted into a deep sleep.
‘Yours truly’
‘Yours truly’
‘Yours’
‘Truly’